“Yes, I am,” I 说 calmly. I felt sick to my stomach even as I 说 it.
“Why?” asked Grey as if it were not obvious.
“I 爱情 him,” I said.
“I thought 你 loved me,” she said, tears in her eyes. Although I saw tears, I also saw hate and fire.
“You were mistaken,” I said, it was cruel, but true. I loved Alexander 更多 than her.
“Why don’t 你 爱情 me?” she asked.
“You raped me, and I married 你 only because the baby,” I said. “Then I stayed with you, because I thought 你 would get your dad to tell the psychiatric board I wasn’t ready for the job.”
“Wait…What baby?” Grey asked her brow furrowed.
“The baby…You got pregnant the night 你 raped me. 你 had a miscarriage, remember?” she had to remember, right? Maybe she had repressed it, but it wasn’t like her to repress things. That was 更多 my style.
“Oh my God,” Grey laughed, and shook her head. “You really fell for that?”
“Fell for what?”
“I lied to you. I was never pregnant. I told 你 a lie, and I knew 你 would marry me. 你 would never let a child suffer,” 说 Grey. Something inside me broke. It was one thing to lie, but it was another thing to lie about a child.
“How dare you…You’re such a bitch, a selfish, hateful bitch,” I spat. I tried organizing words in my mind. It wasn’t working.
“I didn’t know any other way,” she 说 coolly.
“Why did 你 want me anyway? Was it not obvious enough that I was gay? You’ve kept me in misery for years,” I said.
“I wanted you, because 你 were sexy. We would be all the rage, and I wanted that. I knew 你 were gay, but I thought I could turn you…I was wrong,” she 说 her head down.
“Yes, 你 were wrong; because of 你 I have been stressed. All I’ve wanted was Alexander, but no, I couldn’t have him. I was with you, and 你 kept me on such a tight leash Grey,” I said, furious. “I was ready to commit suicide, and it was all your fault.”
“Damien, I’m sorry,” Grey said, but it was not sincere.
“No 你 aren’t,” I walked up the stairs she trailed behind me.
“Damn it Damien, you’re such a bastard! How do 你 know what I feel? Why do 你 do blame me? It’s your own fault! I never 说 that 你 couldn’t leave me,” she said.
“You implied it. The way 你 would talk about me, how 你 treated me. I am your toy! That’s it, and if I would’ve left, my career would be over,” I said. Grey had a look on her face, she knew I was right.
“Leave, now,” she 说 sternly.
“I will,” I took my suitcase out of the closet and walked out of the house. I was furious I had to calm down. I would never go back…Never…
“Why?” asked Grey as if it were not obvious.
“I 爱情 him,” I said.
“I thought 你 loved me,” she said, tears in her eyes. Although I saw tears, I also saw hate and fire.
“You were mistaken,” I said, it was cruel, but true. I loved Alexander 更多 than her.
“Why don’t 你 爱情 me?” she asked.
“You raped me, and I married 你 only because the baby,” I said. “Then I stayed with you, because I thought 你 would get your dad to tell the psychiatric board I wasn’t ready for the job.”
“Wait…What baby?” Grey asked her brow furrowed.
“The baby…You got pregnant the night 你 raped me. 你 had a miscarriage, remember?” she had to remember, right? Maybe she had repressed it, but it wasn’t like her to repress things. That was 更多 my style.
“Oh my God,” Grey laughed, and shook her head. “You really fell for that?”
“Fell for what?”
“I lied to you. I was never pregnant. I told 你 a lie, and I knew 你 would marry me. 你 would never let a child suffer,” 说 Grey. Something inside me broke. It was one thing to lie, but it was another thing to lie about a child.
“How dare you…You’re such a bitch, a selfish, hateful bitch,” I spat. I tried organizing words in my mind. It wasn’t working.
“I didn’t know any other way,” she 说 coolly.
“Why did 你 want me anyway? Was it not obvious enough that I was gay? You’ve kept me in misery for years,” I said.
“I wanted you, because 你 were sexy. We would be all the rage, and I wanted that. I knew 你 were gay, but I thought I could turn you…I was wrong,” she 说 her head down.
“Yes, 你 were wrong; because of 你 I have been stressed. All I’ve wanted was Alexander, but no, I couldn’t have him. I was with you, and 你 kept me on such a tight leash Grey,” I said, furious. “I was ready to commit suicide, and it was all your fault.”
“Damien, I’m sorry,” Grey said, but it was not sincere.
“No 你 aren’t,” I walked up the stairs she trailed behind me.
“Damn it Damien, you’re such a bastard! How do 你 know what I feel? Why do 你 do blame me? It’s your own fault! I never 说 that 你 couldn’t leave me,” she said.
“You implied it. The way 你 would talk about me, how 你 treated me. I am your toy! That’s it, and if I would’ve left, my career would be over,” I said. Grey had a look on her face, she knew I was right.
“Leave, now,” she 说 sternly.
“I will,” I took my suitcase out of the closet and walked out of the house. I was furious I had to calm down. I would never go back…Never…
People down every turn
Pain inside their hearts
A girl with scars on her wrists
A boy with a 刀 in his chest
She hides in the dark
Wondering when the pain with end
He stands up to fight in defense
Only to get knocked back down again
She fights with her parents
They don't wanna support the child
She's left to fend for herself in the cold
Alone with the child
Do we see what we are doing when we say the things we say?
Do we see who we are hurting with the actions that we're taking?
What we need
Are broken families reconciled
We need hearts to mend, scars to heal and battles to end
We. Need. Love
To stand up for the broken
We. Need. Hope
To give a hand to the hopeless
We need the world to care.
What are we doing with the words we are saying?
Who are we changing
And what effects are they having?
Lets be the change.
Pain inside their hearts
A girl with scars on her wrists
A boy with a 刀 in his chest
She hides in the dark
Wondering when the pain with end
He stands up to fight in defense
Only to get knocked back down again
She fights with her parents
They don't wanna support the child
She's left to fend for herself in the cold
Alone with the child
Do we see what we are doing when we say the things we say?
Do we see who we are hurting with the actions that we're taking?
What we need
Are broken families reconciled
We need hearts to mend, scars to heal and battles to end
We. Need. Love
To stand up for the broken
We. Need. Hope
To give a hand to the hopeless
We need the world to care.
What are we doing with the words we are saying?
Who are we changing
And what effects are they having?
Lets be the change.
When will this end?
Mass shootings
Terrorist attacks
Police brutality
They say it's just a gun control problem
They say it cannot be fixed
I say the problem is deeper
I say there is hope
When will this end?
Income inequality
Veterans living on the streets, penniless,
Dying 由 their own hands everyday.
They say this world can change for the better
But nothing has changed...
And I truly do fear
Nothing ever will
When will 爱情 start?
The 日 we offer a hand to the fallen
Instead of cringing back in shock
And running away
When will our world change?
The 日 we 爱情 too much to kill
The 日 others' pain is our pain
The 日 we act instead of just talking about it
"It's impossible"
"We're too broken to be mended"
"It's a hopeless battle"
I say, let us try.
Mass shootings
Terrorist attacks
Police brutality
They say it's just a gun control problem
They say it cannot be fixed
I say the problem is deeper
I say there is hope
When will this end?
Income inequality
Veterans living on the streets, penniless,
Dying 由 their own hands everyday.
They say this world can change for the better
But nothing has changed...
And I truly do fear
Nothing ever will
When will 爱情 start?
The 日 we offer a hand to the fallen
Instead of cringing back in shock
And running away
When will our world change?
The 日 we 爱情 too much to kill
The 日 others' pain is our pain
The 日 we act instead of just talking about it
"It's impossible"
"We're too broken to be mended"
"It's a hopeless battle"
I say, let us try.