“Yes, I am,” I 说 calmly. I felt sick to my stomach even as I 说 it.
“Why?” asked Grey as if it were not obvious.
“I 爱情 him,” I said.
“I thought 你 loved me,” she said, tears in her eyes. Although I saw tears, I also saw hate and fire.
“You were mistaken,” I said, it was cruel, but true. I loved Alexander 更多 than her.
“Why don’t 你 爱情 me?” she asked.
“You raped me, and I married 你 only because the baby,” I said. “Then I stayed with you, because I thought 你 would get your dad to tell the psychiatric board I wasn’t ready for the job.”
“Wait…What baby?” Grey asked her brow furrowed.
“The baby…You got pregnant the night 你 raped me. 你 had a miscarriage, remember?” she had to remember, right? Maybe she had repressed it, but it wasn’t like her to repress things. That was 更多 my style.
“Oh my God,” Grey laughed, and shook her head. “You really fell for that?”
“Fell for what?”
“I lied to you. I was never pregnant. I told 你 a lie, and I knew 你 would marry me. 你 would never let a child suffer,” 说 Grey. Something inside me broke. It was one thing to lie, but it was another thing to lie about a child.
“How dare you…You’re such a bitch, a selfish, hateful bitch,” I spat. I tried organizing words in my mind. It wasn’t working.
“I didn’t know any other way,” she 说 coolly.
“Why did 你 want me anyway? Was it not obvious enough that I was gay? You’ve kept me in misery for years,” I said.
“I wanted you, because 你 were sexy. We would be all the rage, and I wanted that. I knew 你 were gay, but I thought I could turn you…I was wrong,” she 说 her head down.
“Yes, 你 were wrong; because of 你 I have been stressed. All I’ve wanted was Alexander, but no, I couldn’t have him. I was with you, and 你 kept me on such a tight leash Grey,” I said, furious. “I was ready to commit suicide, and it was all your fault.”
“Damien, I’m sorry,” Grey said, but it was not sincere.
“No 你 aren’t,” I walked up the stairs she trailed behind me.
“Damn it Damien, you’re such a bastard! How do 你 know what I feel? Why do 你 do blame me? It’s your own fault! I never 说 that 你 couldn’t leave me,” she said.
“You implied it. The way 你 would talk about me, how 你 treated me. I am your toy! That’s it, and if I would’ve left, my career would be over,” I said. Grey had a look on her face, she knew I was right.
“Leave, now,” she 说 sternly.
“I will,” I took my suitcase out of the closet and walked out of the house. I was furious I had to calm down. I would never go back…Never…
“Why?” asked Grey as if it were not obvious.
“I 爱情 him,” I said.
“I thought 你 loved me,” she said, tears in her eyes. Although I saw tears, I also saw hate and fire.
“You were mistaken,” I said, it was cruel, but true. I loved Alexander 更多 than her.
“Why don’t 你 爱情 me?” she asked.
“You raped me, and I married 你 only because the baby,” I said. “Then I stayed with you, because I thought 你 would get your dad to tell the psychiatric board I wasn’t ready for the job.”
“Wait…What baby?” Grey asked her brow furrowed.
“The baby…You got pregnant the night 你 raped me. 你 had a miscarriage, remember?” she had to remember, right? Maybe she had repressed it, but it wasn’t like her to repress things. That was 更多 my style.
“Oh my God,” Grey laughed, and shook her head. “You really fell for that?”
“Fell for what?”
“I lied to you. I was never pregnant. I told 你 a lie, and I knew 你 would marry me. 你 would never let a child suffer,” 说 Grey. Something inside me broke. It was one thing to lie, but it was another thing to lie about a child.
“How dare you…You’re such a bitch, a selfish, hateful bitch,” I spat. I tried organizing words in my mind. It wasn’t working.
“I didn’t know any other way,” she 说 coolly.
“Why did 你 want me anyway? Was it not obvious enough that I was gay? You’ve kept me in misery for years,” I said.
“I wanted you, because 你 were sexy. We would be all the rage, and I wanted that. I knew 你 were gay, but I thought I could turn you…I was wrong,” she 说 her head down.
“Yes, 你 were wrong; because of 你 I have been stressed. All I’ve wanted was Alexander, but no, I couldn’t have him. I was with you, and 你 kept me on such a tight leash Grey,” I said, furious. “I was ready to commit suicide, and it was all your fault.”
“Damien, I’m sorry,” Grey said, but it was not sincere.
“No 你 aren’t,” I walked up the stairs she trailed behind me.
“Damn it Damien, you’re such a bastard! How do 你 know what I feel? Why do 你 do blame me? It’s your own fault! I never 说 that 你 couldn’t leave me,” she said.
“You implied it. The way 你 would talk about me, how 你 treated me. I am your toy! That’s it, and if I would’ve left, my career would be over,” I said. Grey had a look on her face, she knew I was right.
“Leave, now,” she 说 sternly.
“I will,” I took my suitcase out of the closet and walked out of the house. I was furious I had to calm down. I would never go back…Never…