I dont think of this as a poem its 更多 like sadness and confusion today one of my neighbours died my brother called me over to see i saw them 移动 the body coverd in a red blanket and the men in black 《金装律师》 and i thought to myself in that moment i never 说 hello never waved 或者 smiled at her when i come to think of it i never saw her have one visitor i 说 to myself i wish i could cry right now but i couldnt i just couldnt i told myself i hope whatever i have done in my life would not make me die alone thats all i ask for and all i wish for