Before anyone reads this, just know that I wrote this yesterday when I was really upset with myself because of some mistake I made that keeps coming back up in my daily life that is best left unexplained. I don't feel like this right now and I really hope that I'm really over it, but I have to get my feelings out anyway. Don't hate me for it.

And this poem is written in two different points of views, 由 the way... The first 8 are 由 the person feeling this way- me, in other words- and the last 8 were written in the point of view of depression/suicide.

Anway, now that that's out of the way, enjoy this pointless, depressing, dumb poem...


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Bury me alive and confiscate my soul
For darkness is the brightest thing that I will ever know
Caged inside these horrors that I will always make
Between my hands is my life, the thing that I must take
The strings I’ve forged to keep me 安全 are being torn apart
A terror caused 由 nothing but the beating of my heart
My life is done and not because of anybody else
The only one I have to blame is my disgusting self

Behind that ugly mask 你 wear to cover your dumb lie
Hides the truth and a pain that will never die
With no excuse to feel this way your mind’s begun to fray
你 don’t amount to anything and don’t deserve to stay
I am right, I always am, for I can never loose
I will take my prize as 你 tie yourself a lovely noose
And when 你 cannot breath and 你 are finally done
I'll crack a smile and laugh a while, knowing that I've won.

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*Before anyone 评论 或者 says anything about how my life probably doesn't suck in comparison to a lot of people and I shouldn't get all 情绪硬核 and depressed when my life doesn't suck and I shouldn't waste my time complaining, I just have to say, save it. I already know. But right now, I have to get this out before it causes a serious problem and ends up killing me. So if anyone is going to say that 或者 even think it, and I know someone is bound to think it, don't comment. Okay? Okay.*