Peaceandlove67 Article: It's Hard Being Asexual

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posted by Peaceandlove67

I didn't intend on 写作 this originally, but I just felt like venting, so here I go. Being asexual isn't easy, but it's part of who I am. I can't exactly change that. What's hard is some people can't accept it.

I thought that I wouldn't be bullied once I was in college. I still get bullied for being asexual. It's indirectly, unlike when I was in high school. At least, I'm not getting beat up for it.

I overheard one person saying that the reason I'm asexual is that I can't get a date. I could if I wanted to. I have been asked out 由 a few people, but I turned them down. They just weren't my type. One of them didn't even like rock and roll. That's a deal breaker for me.

For the longest time, I've actually been afraid to date. When I was in high school, there was one guy who told me that I would like sex if I tried it. He then told me to meet him after school. I did not meet with him. I went straight home. I'm sure if I had met with him, he would have raped me. After opening up to some of my 老友记 here about it, Layla pointed out to me that I shouldn't let just one incident make me afraid of dating. I'm not currently looking. I'm waiting for romance to find me.

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BingoPB I'm sorry you're having a hard time, Antonia. I hope those people who make fun of you don't have any friends. They don't deserve them, especially not a wonderful friend like you. Only a few people know about me being asexual, and I think I'll keep it that way.

80smusiclover1 I agree with Kayla. Those bastards are just losers. Remember that you are very special no matter what they say about you. *Hugs*

Rubyrings They don't get it, that's all there is to it. And they don't deserve to have you around. I can't believe they assumed that just because you haven't had any dates means you "can't" get any.

Peaceandlove67 *returns hugs* Thanks, everyone.

Roldan13 Antonia, don't pay them any mind. They just don't know anything about anything. You're a great person. Remember that.

Peaceandlove67 Thank you, Jill.

ktichenor I'm so sorry that happened. Those people are just jerks! Tbh I went through some of the same things with so called friends while I was struggling to figure out what I was so I understand. Just remember you're a strong and great person and we're here for you, always. *hugs!*

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音乐 Gave Me New Faith Part One

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Final Part

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Five

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Four

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Three

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When I had entered the fifth grade, I was dreading it. I had heard rumors that the teacher was really mean. When I met her before school started, she seemed really nice. On the first 日 of school, I was wearing one of my Beatles t-shirts. She noticed it, and she said, "Darling, I 爱情你 already!" I said, "Okay, then." She would take up for me all the time. The other kids often called me glasses. She heard them and said, "She has a name, guys. Her name is not glasses. It's Winter." There was one 日 when another girl kept picking on me. I finally had enough and said, "I might look sweet and innocent, but that shit is for suckers, and I'm no lollipop." I looked at the teacher. She winked and said, "I heard nothing." I would have had her for the sixth grade, too, but unfortunately, I moved to Tennessee as soon as the school 年 was over. We both cried. We promised to keep in touch with each other, and we've kept in touch to this day.

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Two

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part One

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Grace's Diary Final Chapter

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May 18, 2012
Today was the last full 日 of school. We had our annual awards ceremony today. Some of my 老友记 got awards for highest average in certain subjects. I didn't expect to get one. I wouldn't have minded if I didn't. But I did! I got the Model Citizen Award. Apparently, many of my fellow students 说 some good things about me. After school, I told John about it. He wanted to come, but he was out of town preparing for a 音乐会 with his band. He said, "I'm happy for you, Grace! 你 deserve it." I said, "Really?" He said, "Yes, really. When I picked 你 up from school, I met some of...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XX

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April 6, 2012
Today was Good Friday. We got a 日 off from school. I was walking down the 街, 街道 with John, and I saw Kimberly, the girl who betrayed me. I kept my head down, hoping she wouldn't notice me, but she did. She said, "Hey, Grace!" I said, "Hey, Judas!" John said, "Oh, so, that's the girl who stabbed 你 in the back." I nodded. She said, "You're not still sore at me, are you, Grace?" I said, "I forgive, but I never forget." Suddenly, John stuck it to her. He said, "How dare 你 do this thing to Grace! She had been nothing but nice to her, and 你 took her 心 and ripped it into...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XIX

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March 12, 2012
I'm all better now. I can speak clearly. I am caught up with my school work. I talked with John today. He said, "I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm actually sick myself." I said, "Oh, no! What's wrong?" He said, "It's just a cold. I'm sure I'll be fine in a few days." I said, "I hope 你 feel better." He said, "Thank you. The worst part is not being able to go to the recording studio with my mates. I hate that I can't do that. They told me that they won't go if I don't. I said, 'No, it's fine. I'll introduce my songs when I come back.' Allen said, 'Take care of yourself, John....

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVIII

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March 11, 2012
I am sick again. This time, I have laryngitis. I cannot talk at all. I can only communicate through text messages. John came 由 the house. My aunt told him that I was sick. He came into my bedroom. I was excited to see him, and I tried to talk with him, but I couldn't get any words out. He said, "You don't have to talk, Grace. Just listen." I sat up. He said, "I brought 你 a little present." He reached in his bag and handed me a teddy bear. He said, "My grandmother made if for me when I was five years old." I texted, "John, I can't take this. It's something your grandmother made...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVII

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March 7, 2012
I am so happy that our house has been rebuilt. We settled in just a few weeks ago. Things have been crazy, which explains why I haven't written anything in a while. They've calmed down, thankfully. I am thirteen now. Today was my thirteenth birthday. It was so much better than my twelfth birthday. There was really only one bad part about my birthday. I was browsing the Internet, and I read that Peter from The Devil Wants Peace was in a car crash. I called John to see if it was true 或者 if it was just a nasty rumor. I said, "John, I read that Peter was in a car crash. Is it true?"...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVI

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January 10, 2012
We are now in a new year. School started again today. My schoolmates have been flocking to me, asking me 问题 about losing my 首页 in a fire. It became a game of a thousand questions. The one 问题 that most of them didn't ask: Are 你 okay? I became fed up with it. Michael later found me sitting in the lunchroom alone. He said, "Hey. Are 你 okay?" I said, "You know, you're the only the third person to ask me that." He said, "Really?" I said, "Yeah. I had to get away from all the questions. It was a terrifying experience." He said, "I can imagine. 你 got burnt pretty...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XV

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December 25, 2011
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Grace's Diary Chapter XIV

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November 24, 2011
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Grace's Diary Chapter XIII

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November 5, 2011
I've been having quite a weekend so far. Yesterday, after school, my aunt and uncle noticed that I was still feeling a little down. They decided to take me to a hiking trail, since I enjoy nature. Everything was going well, but suddenly, I got separated from them 由 mistake. I tried to go back the way I came, but there were so many twists and turns, and I became increasingly confused. Pretty soon, I came across a log cabin. I 说 to myself, "I wonder if anyone lives there. Maybe I can get some help." I knocked on the door, but the only answer was a barking dog. I decided to...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XII

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November 1, 2011
Today at school, I had my worst 日 yet. I was on my way to my last class, and I overheard Kimberly talking to one of her friends. Her friend said, "I don't understand why you're 老友记 with Grace. She's just, I don't know, so dorky." I didn't like that, but I kept quiet to see where it was going. Kimberly said, "I'm not 老友记 with Grace, Isabella!" My eyes widened. She wasn't 老友记 with me? Was she denying our friendship out of fear? Isabella said, "I've seen 你 with her, doing the friendly banter. 你 two do your homework together." Kimberly said, "Okay, here's the thing....

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Grace's Diary Chapter XI

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October 13, 2011
Ever since I saved Freddy's life, my schoolmates have looked at me differently. They actually respect me now. I like that I've gained respect, but I never wanted to be popular. I enjoy being around people, but I hate being the center of attention. It's awful. The 流行的 girls even look my way now. We don't have a lot in common, but one of them seems nice enough. Her name is Kimberly. However, there might be a problem with her and my other friends, particularly Bridget. Bridget 说 to me today, "Grace, it's good that you're nice and friendly to everyone, but I'd watch my back...

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Grace's Diary Chapter X

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September 20, 2011
Today at school, I had an experience I will never forget. I had just finished my lunch, and I went to throw something away. Suddenly, I heard someone shouting, "Somebody, help! My friend is choking!" I rushed to the scene. One of the kids looked up at me desperately and said, "I don't know what to do." I said, "But I do!" As I 说 that, I gave his friend a sharp blow between the shoulders. The boy was able to cough it up forcefully. Once he could talk again, he said, "Thank you." I said, "You're welcome. Are 你 okay?" He said, "Yeah." Later, I was getting ready to head home....

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Grace's Diary Chapter IX

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September 8, 2011
I am feeling much better today. I don't feel great, but I feel much better than I did a few days ago. I was able to go to school today. Michael, Sabrina, and Bridget helped me get caught up in my classes. I'm lucky to have such good friends. Of course, I did feel a bit tired after finishing my homework. I took a nap for a while. When I woke up, it was almost 6:00 pm. I didn't realize I had slept that long. When 晚餐 time came, I ate really well. I didn't feel like eating much for the past couple of days. My appetite has returned. I think I will go to 床, 床上 early tonight. I'm feeling pretty tired right now. I'm not completely better, but I'm close to it.