Hold up this hit me right in the feels give me a moment
Ok i'm good
Boi. My trust issues are so extreme like.. i'm not even exaggerating 或者 anything it's rly true. Idk if i come off as confident on here 或者 smth but i really struggle w/ these type of things. A lot. Like,, i don't necessarily have trouble with talking to ppl 或者 any of that but i just feel like.. i can't trust anyone anymore. I don't mean trust as in tell someone a favor & have faith in them but 更多 like,,, fully opening up.. telling them the truth 100% b/c i feel like they'd just use everything i tell them being my back 或者 something. Idk it's kinda hard to explain it in detail. Simply put i just can't feel like i can ever tell someone the things abt me other than the 'superficial' basic facts abt me since i just feel like they'd attack me with it when i least expect it,, like it happened in some past circumstances a few years prior. And it just feels like... i have to be aware 24/7 just in case. This is probably turning 更多 into paranoia than trust issues but it's the best way i can put it into words. I don't wanna go *too* much into details abt this since i wouldn't consider i'm completely healed from all this so i"ll just stop here.
或者 maybe I havent bothered to even consider trusting another person to see it be a big issue? Cos Im satisfied with the people I have rn and care little about finding another person to trust with myself XD
I would say so. When it comes to this, I had some pretty bad experiences in the past so trusting someone isn't really easy. Actually, even if I seem to be trusting you, I cannot help but feel the opposite inside, even if I know that I can !!!!
Trust isn't a big issue for me. I have had problems with it in past relationships and what not, but I don't try and press hold my past experiences against anyone. So I am pretty trusting of everyone who I haven't had troubles with before.
