Have 你 ever gone through something in life that makes 你 feel like your 老友记 have actually abandoned 你 ?

I feel like I am going through something right now. And 更多 than anything I feel like everyone who claimed that they would always be there for me … just aren’t. I don’t expect them to live through every moment of this with me because 你 can’t ask that of your friends. The funny thing is though … is that when they’re going through something they expect me to be there and I haven’t let them down, the only time I couldn’t physically be there was when I had to go away for school. But otherwise, I’m always available to them. Never asking, never arguing… just unconditionally being there because I get what it is to be a FRIEND. I just feel like my 老友记 aren’t my 老友记 anymore. What am I supposed to do ?