Shaun
I hated seeing her cry. Knowing it was my fault immediately made me hate myself, not that I didn't already. I needed to hear her voice, know she was really here.
Some part of me registered the fact that I'd sat down, and that I had touched her, if briefly. I had said, "Tell me."
She met my gaze, looking terrified. She closed her eyes firmly, as if she was living a nightmare. Maybe she was.
"I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry," she whispered, looking anywhere but at me. "I thought it would be better that way, 你 had your whole life ahead of 你 and I couldn't take that away because of my stupid mistake - " she stops.
"Never say that. It is not your fault. Accept it, because it's mine. 你 only took my life when 你 left." I am not lying.
I realise that I have pinned her to the wall, but worse, she isn't struggling. I immediately release my hold. What right would I ever have to hold her captive?
She didn't seem to care. She leaned 前锋, 期待 and kissed me with surprising force. I was paralysed for what felt like am eternity before I kissed her back.
I hated seeing her cry. Knowing it was my fault immediately made me hate myself, not that I didn't already. I needed to hear her voice, know she was really here.
Some part of me registered the fact that I'd sat down, and that I had touched her, if briefly. I had said, "Tell me."
She met my gaze, looking terrified. She closed her eyes firmly, as if she was living a nightmare. Maybe she was.
"I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry," she whispered, looking anywhere but at me. "I thought it would be better that way, 你 had your whole life ahead of 你 and I couldn't take that away because of my stupid mistake - " she stops.
"Never say that. It is not your fault. Accept it, because it's mine. 你 only took my life when 你 left." I am not lying.
I realise that I have pinned her to the wall, but worse, she isn't struggling. I immediately release my hold. What right would I ever have to hold her captive?
She didn't seem to care. She leaned 前锋, 期待 and kissed me with surprising force. I was paralysed for what felt like am eternity before I kissed her back.
The pain 你 caused isn't what scarred me
The burning tears 你 left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my 心 beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain 你 left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend 你 were when 你 were here
But the legacy in my 心 that 你 left!
The burning tears 你 left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my 心 beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain 你 left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend 你 were when 你 were here
But the legacy in my 心 that 你 left!
There I was. *sigh* Just sitting there, waiting for him. Who? 你 ask? My crush, Patrick Wellsiben, he was the one for me. Let alone, him being THE most 流行的 boy in school, I was known as a loser. I was the omega of the 狼 pack. What am I talking about? Nevermind. My conscience says "Ask him out!", but my guts say "Don't do it you! He's gonna say no!" I don't know what to do! He comes near me and says "Hey." I stand there like a scarecrow smiling. "I feel stupid." "So stupid." Why shouldn't I get the attention from populars? I have short, thick black hair, I wear tank tops all the time, regular jeans and converse. So much for fitting in.
It's Funny, I Use To Be Popular. At First Some People Loved Me And Others Hated Me. Now Everyone Hates Me. Even My Old Best Friends. 你 See, I Always Found A Flaw In Everyone And Used It To Hurt Them. Not Physicly Hurt. I Made Them Feel Horrible About Them Selves. I Was The Reason 你 Cried On The Way Home. The Reason 你 Fake Sicked. Of Course Karma Came And Hit Me Like A Ton Of Bricks. I Try Hard To Be Nice, But No One At School Pays Attention To Me. Except Teachers. I Even Tried Sitting With My Old Friends.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are 你 Doing Here?" 说 Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I 说 Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," 说 Victoria Khan Placing Her 图书 On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are 你 Doing Here?" 说 Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I 说 Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," 说 Victoria Khan Placing Her 图书 On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.
Those words pierced me like thorns on a rose.
