Shaun
I hated seeing her cry. Knowing it was my fault immediately made me hate myself, not that I didn't already. I needed to hear her voice, know she was really here.
Some part of me registered the fact that I'd sat down, and that I had touched her, if briefly. I had said, "Tell me."
She met my gaze, looking terrified. She closed her eyes firmly, as if she was living a nightmare. Maybe she was.
"I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry," she whispered, looking anywhere but at me. "I thought it would be better that way, 你 had your whole life ahead of 你 and I couldn't take that away because of my stupid mistake - " she stops.
"Never say that. It is not your fault. Accept it, because it's mine. 你 only took my life when 你 left." I am not lying.
I realise that I have pinned her to the wall, but worse, she isn't struggling. I immediately release my hold. What right would I ever have to hold her captive?
She didn't seem to care. She leaned 前锋, 期待 and kissed me with surprising force. I was paralysed for what felt like am eternity before I kissed her back.
I hated seeing her cry. Knowing it was my fault immediately made me hate myself, not that I didn't already. I needed to hear her voice, know she was really here.
Some part of me registered the fact that I'd sat down, and that I had touched her, if briefly. I had said, "Tell me."
She met my gaze, looking terrified. She closed her eyes firmly, as if she was living a nightmare. Maybe she was.
"I know I hurt you, and I'm sorry," she whispered, looking anywhere but at me. "I thought it would be better that way, 你 had your whole life ahead of 你 and I couldn't take that away because of my stupid mistake - " she stops.
"Never say that. It is not your fault. Accept it, because it's mine. 你 only took my life when 你 left." I am not lying.
I realise that I have pinned her to the wall, but worse, she isn't struggling. I immediately release my hold. What right would I ever have to hold her captive?
She didn't seem to care. She leaned 前锋, 期待 and kissed me with surprising force. I was paralysed for what felt like am eternity before I kissed her back.
Sometimes its Easier to inore the truth
to forget about everything
to sit in a closet and hide forever
Sometimes its Easier, to blame yourself
To think its your falt
To 显示 no emotion
Sometimes It's easier to keep everything inside
to not let anyone know
to hide everything.
To me, Its easier to say something
To talk
to cry
Its easier to Feel Emotions
Anger, rage, Sadness,
but not fear
Fear is my enemey
He wants to take over my mind
Keep me locked up inside.
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being locked in my own world
I'm tired of being a prisoner.
I will not be afraid,
I will not Let him Win
to forget about everything
to sit in a closet and hide forever
Sometimes its Easier, to blame yourself
To think its your falt
To 显示 no emotion
Sometimes It's easier to keep everything inside
to not let anyone know
to hide everything.
To me, Its easier to say something
To talk
to cry
Its easier to Feel Emotions
Anger, rage, Sadness,
but not fear
Fear is my enemey
He wants to take over my mind
Keep me locked up inside.
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being locked in my own world
I'm tired of being a prisoner.
I will not be afraid,
I will not Let him Win
Prologue
Randall regarded her with pride.His finest.Her skin was ebony-black,her eyes a sinister grey,hair pale,wintry white.She stared at him blankly,her tall,slender frame tense.Randall stroked her cheek and tucked a lock of her hair behind her ears.Lethal,she was.Designed to perfection for the task she was set.Despite the obvious arrogance in her gaze,he deemed her the best."Tell me,who are you?"he tested."Layla"she answered."And I?".
"Master."she said."Tell me,"he asked her,taking her large,clawed hands."how do 你 use these..assets?"."To serve Master."Randall smiled."Good'he said."Very Good indeed.""How do 你 do that,my lovely?"he purred.Her eys stared straight ahead."Kill"she whispered."Kill for Master"
Randall regarded her with pride.His finest.Her skin was ebony-black,her eyes a sinister grey,hair pale,wintry white.She stared at him blankly,her tall,slender frame tense.Randall stroked her cheek and tucked a lock of her hair behind her ears.Lethal,she was.Designed to perfection for the task she was set.Despite the obvious arrogance in her gaze,he deemed her the best."Tell me,who are you?"he tested."Layla"she answered."And I?".
"Master."she said."Tell me,"he asked her,taking her large,clawed hands."how do 你 use these..assets?"."To serve Master."Randall smiled."Good'he said."Very Good indeed.""How do 你 do that,my lovely?"he purred.Her eys stared straight ahead."Kill"she whispered."Kill for Master"
Memories and grief of my heart
Are still buried somewhere
I can’t cry neither I can freely laugh
What if they don’t know my past
I have not forget it yet
I still remember the same Zean with the same Zeal
But not in flashes neither in cars
In backstage of life with trembling hunger
Hunger in eyes and lips dry
No money in pocket but Zeal on shoulder
With memories of ‘Love’ and burning heart
Now my clothes are branded
And my shoes are best, pocket heavy with dollars
But with this all my 心 is all heavy
With secrets of past
Pleasures can bury them but cannot vanish
I still look 前锋, 期待 to death
When all my secrets will disappear, my pain will end
Also with my life..end will come to my BAD MEMORIES.
Are still buried somewhere
I can’t cry neither I can freely laugh
What if they don’t know my past
I have not forget it yet
I still remember the same Zean with the same Zeal
But not in flashes neither in cars
In backstage of life with trembling hunger
Hunger in eyes and lips dry
No money in pocket but Zeal on shoulder
With memories of ‘Love’ and burning heart
Now my clothes are branded
And my shoes are best, pocket heavy with dollars
But with this all my 心 is all heavy
With secrets of past
Pleasures can bury them but cannot vanish
I still look 前锋, 期待 to death
When all my secrets will disappear, my pain will end
Also with my life..end will come to my BAD MEMORIES.
