The Train Ride
As Emily gazed out the window of the train she saw her dad-waving goodbye, his face had a bright smile, but when Emily looked into his eye she saw sadness. She was off to live with her mother in Roscoe; this was a four-hour train ride from Chicago to Roscoe. It would be a little over two hours but there are 更多 stops on this train ought. Dad was only sending her because he felt she would have a better life. Emily disagrees, she hated her mother, and she was cruel, heartless and hated the sight of Emily. She new better he dad lied to her, he knew she was find living with him but he found another wife. Emily never met her but she new her name, Rita Mildew. The train smell of horrible human waist and dried up food, why was she stuck on here alone. Now that she thinks back most of her 老友记 did not car she was leaving, Amber her best friend for 4 years gave her a card but she did not even sigh it. Emily was a very shy girl, were they just pity friend! Was all there wonderful memories a lie, are they all sitting at Ambers house laughing at her saying there glad she is gone? Tears formed in her eyes at the thought, her dad laid to her, her so-called friends, suddenly silent tears poured down her face.
“I’m sorry to bother 你 miss but may I sit here?” 说 a soft males voice from behind her. He turned to she his face; there beside her stood a young man around her age, 15 或者 16. He had 浓情巧克力 brown hair the shine in the train’s florescent lights; he had matching eyes to go with his hair. He was tall about 5’11” wearing a leather jacked and baggy black jeans.
Struggling to find her voice Emily whispered “ sure”
He thanks her he warmly and sat down across from her, she continued to stare out the window but 偷了 glances at the boy for he was something different. About ten minuets later she was tired of staring at the passing trees she turned to face him keeping her head down. He studied her for a moment, she had a rare red color of hair, he noticed she also had light blue eyes that were clouded with nervousness’, she wore blue jeans and a dark blue tank 最佳, 返回页首 that made her eyes pop. He watched as her read hair gently swung from side to side, he was deciding wreathes 或者 not he should talk to her. Wondering if she was a catty Cathy 或者 a silent bird.
Clearing his throat he said, “ What’s your name?” Shocked he has 说 anything at all she gazed in to his eyes and spoke in a whisper.
“Emily Smith, yours?
“I’m Trevor Lead, where are 你 headed?” he laughed at him self inside at his failure at small talk, Emily since this too but continued
“I’m going to live with my mom in Roscoe, dad 说 he thought I would be better off at her house but I know he is engaged to a women I have never met. He wants to be alone with her. He never much cared for me.” She half smiled then what back to looking at her plane white snickers. That reminded him of his mother, he was running away from her. She got pregnant at 16 years old, when the dad found out he ran for it. About a 月 以前 he found out that she was going to have adoration with him, the only reason she did not go through with it was because he came out 2 月 early. She never wanted him; she was always saying he screwed up her life. She now sat at 首页 all 日 smoking and drinking 啤酒 with no life, Jim her boyfriend now works and pays her bills. Jim deserved better then his lazy…Mother!
“Why did 你 live with him so long if he dose not care for you?” he wondered if something of the same thing happened to her, that the mom dumped her new baby on the dad.
“I like him better then mom, dad would at least act like he loved… my like a dad, but mom treats me like I’m dog crap. She never agreed properly to let… me come stay with her. She got pregnant at 20, they lived to gather for 2 years 或者 so and the she just out of the blue left! I’m sorry I bet 你 really don’t care… about this”
“The truth be tolled I do. I have the same thing going on in away. I’m running away from my mom, he loathes me. She was going to have an abortion 7 months pregnant with me but then I came out early. I found out a 月 ago. She is always reminding me that I screwed up her life, now she smokes and drinks al 日 long.” Emily could see the ping of hurt deep inside his eye before he looked away.
“Are 你 going to um… live with your… dad?” she managed out
“ Oh no, he ran out on my mother when he found out she was having me. But what I have heard from my mom’s …friends he was a real pervert. He smiled a little Emily liked him; he was easier to talk to and understood what she was going through. She hoped he wound not bother him to keep the conversation going.
“ I have a … question, um did 你 ever have … pity friends?” he glanced at her in confusion, “ 你 know 老友记 that were only your 老友记 because the feel sorry for you?” he thought back, yea he has. 鸭, 德雷克 Simon, the little… he nodded yes.
“ Me too, all of them, the did not car at all that I was leaving. Um... “ She stopped she did now know what to 日 to him. But she did not have to for he spoke not have paid any attention to her mumbling
“Have 你 ever wanted to disappear and go were no one 你 hate could ever find you? Its not like running away, when 你 run away there is always a change they will find you. What I’m saying is, create 你 own world and not be afraid of what others think?” Emily was never asked this before. She knew the answer right away
“Yea, I would 爱情 to get way from mom and dad I would 爱情 to for get my stresses and forget my troubles. But sadly there is not place like that,” she stared out the widow once 更多 now realizing it was raining. She watched at to rain drops raced each other to get to the bottom. They were silence between them Trevor listened to the sound of the other passengers. Some complaining about how dirty the train was, others talking about there hard 日 of work, and some wining about the rain. He gazed at Emily as she looked out the window, wishing his mother had a kind nature like Emily. He never met anyone like her on the streets of Chicago and he bet he would never find another like her anywhere else.
“Emily?” he asked quietly, “How old are you? I’m 16” he was hoping she was his age, she looked young for her age but that might be because she had the natural look, no make up. In his opinion girls looked better that way.
“I’m also 16, turn 17 in two months” wow she was older then him. Again there was silence, he rain his hand thought his hair thinking out what to say next.
“What is your mom like?” this startled Emily.
“She is a cruel women who thinks she can have what ever she wants when she wants it. She thinks 你 should drop whatever your doing just to meet her needs. Its pathetic!” She opened her mouth again but closed it, after a few 秒 she got up sand whispered, “ be right back” then headed to the bathrooms.
Emily did not care for the bathrooms for the smelled worse the seating aria on the train. Diapers with poop in them were thrown at the wall, pee stains were al over the toilet and on the floor, and it made her want to puke. As she entered the bathroom a full smell of throw up hit her in the face, she could hold it. She glanced at the clock resting above the toilet; she had about 3 hors to go. She rushed out of the bathroom and back to her seen 下一个 to the window.
“That was fast” Trevor 说 with a smile as he watched her sit back down.
“I-am-not- going-in –there!” she 说 trying to breathe for she had help her breath running back. Trevor laughed at her, “what”
“ Nothing its just 你 different, your not like other people I have met.” This time Emily laughed
“ How many times have 你 heard that story in a book 或者 movie!” He smiled a weak smile then turned. “ Oh! I’m Sorry its just… I thought it was cute… but-”
“Cheesy I know.” He turned away more
“Oh, I always screw this up! Please don’t be made at me! You’re the only person I have ever met that understands,” he chuckled a little “ yea I know that has been over done before too,” he finally faced her meeting her eyes.
“I know we just met but I like 你 Emily and I want to get to know 你 more!” he 说 flashing a brilliant smile
“Well we do have about 3 hours left, tell me-”
“ You’re getting off at roscoe right?” she nodded “ 你 get off in 1 小时 they announced that when 你 were in the bath room.” She groaned; her dumb dad read the ticket wrong. And dummy her forgot to read it over.
She thought of a 问题 quick, “ what kinds of 音乐 do 你 like?” he pondered the thought,
“ Well I 爱情 rock, metal, and very little country, why did 你 ask me that?”
“I just wanted to know I mean he I can’t like a guy that’s all into rap!” she joked, laughing she asked “what about bands?” he searched into his pocket and pulled out his ipod的, ipod then handed it to Emily after rewrapping the white headphones around it. She skimmed through his artists and songs, there were bands like Three days Gracing, Fall Out Boy, ECT. She gave it back with a smile. Time passed as the chatted about 随意 things, school, parents, things of that sort. When it was about 5 minuets till she had to get off Emily asked
“ Want to get off with me?” she 说 with hope
“ If I did where would I go live, with 你 and your mom? I don’t think she would like that very much. I would 爱情 to but I must proceed and get off in Janesville, I’m sorry.” All his hope was gone. But clearly he new nothing of geography, Emily popped up and yelled
“My mom lives 30 或者 so 分钟 away from where you’re going! Here,” she griped his hand and scribbled don her phone number. Then the intercom kicked on and announced, we are not at stop Roscoe!” As she got up she kissed his cheek “Bye” she whispered as she headed out the door.
Trevor garbed his phone and dialed her number she picked up “ Hello?”
“Hey it me!”
“ I thought 你 would never call” she 说 he could here the smile in her voice.
As Emily gazed out the window of the train she saw her dad-waving goodbye, his face had a bright smile, but when Emily looked into his eye she saw sadness. She was off to live with her mother in Roscoe; this was a four-hour train ride from Chicago to Roscoe. It would be a little over two hours but there are 更多 stops on this train ought. Dad was only sending her because he felt she would have a better life. Emily disagrees, she hated her mother, and she was cruel, heartless and hated the sight of Emily. She new better he dad lied to her, he knew she was find living with him but he found another wife. Emily never met her but she new her name, Rita Mildew. The train smell of horrible human waist and dried up food, why was she stuck on here alone. Now that she thinks back most of her 老友记 did not car she was leaving, Amber her best friend for 4 years gave her a card but she did not even sigh it. Emily was a very shy girl, were they just pity friend! Was all there wonderful memories a lie, are they all sitting at Ambers house laughing at her saying there glad she is gone? Tears formed in her eyes at the thought, her dad laid to her, her so-called friends, suddenly silent tears poured down her face.
“I’m sorry to bother 你 miss but may I sit here?” 说 a soft males voice from behind her. He turned to she his face; there beside her stood a young man around her age, 15 或者 16. He had 浓情巧克力 brown hair the shine in the train’s florescent lights; he had matching eyes to go with his hair. He was tall about 5’11” wearing a leather jacked and baggy black jeans.
Struggling to find her voice Emily whispered “ sure”
He thanks her he warmly and sat down across from her, she continued to stare out the window but 偷了 glances at the boy for he was something different. About ten minuets later she was tired of staring at the passing trees she turned to face him keeping her head down. He studied her for a moment, she had a rare red color of hair, he noticed she also had light blue eyes that were clouded with nervousness’, she wore blue jeans and a dark blue tank 最佳, 返回页首 that made her eyes pop. He watched as her read hair gently swung from side to side, he was deciding wreathes 或者 not he should talk to her. Wondering if she was a catty Cathy 或者 a silent bird.
Clearing his throat he said, “ What’s your name?” Shocked he has 说 anything at all she gazed in to his eyes and spoke in a whisper.
“Emily Smith, yours?
“I’m Trevor Lead, where are 你 headed?” he laughed at him self inside at his failure at small talk, Emily since this too but continued
“I’m going to live with my mom in Roscoe, dad 说 he thought I would be better off at her house but I know he is engaged to a women I have never met. He wants to be alone with her. He never much cared for me.” She half smiled then what back to looking at her plane white snickers. That reminded him of his mother, he was running away from her. She got pregnant at 16 years old, when the dad found out he ran for it. About a 月 以前 he found out that she was going to have adoration with him, the only reason she did not go through with it was because he came out 2 月 early. She never wanted him; she was always saying he screwed up her life. She now sat at 首页 all 日 smoking and drinking 啤酒 with no life, Jim her boyfriend now works and pays her bills. Jim deserved better then his lazy…Mother!
“Why did 你 live with him so long if he dose not care for you?” he wondered if something of the same thing happened to her, that the mom dumped her new baby on the dad.
“I like him better then mom, dad would at least act like he loved… my like a dad, but mom treats me like I’m dog crap. She never agreed properly to let… me come stay with her. She got pregnant at 20, they lived to gather for 2 years 或者 so and the she just out of the blue left! I’m sorry I bet 你 really don’t care… about this”
“The truth be tolled I do. I have the same thing going on in away. I’m running away from my mom, he loathes me. She was going to have an abortion 7 months pregnant with me but then I came out early. I found out a 月 ago. She is always reminding me that I screwed up her life, now she smokes and drinks al 日 long.” Emily could see the ping of hurt deep inside his eye before he looked away.
“Are 你 going to um… live with your… dad?” she managed out
“ Oh no, he ran out on my mother when he found out she was having me. But what I have heard from my mom’s …friends he was a real pervert. He smiled a little Emily liked him; he was easier to talk to and understood what she was going through. She hoped he wound not bother him to keep the conversation going.
“ I have a … question, um did 你 ever have … pity friends?” he glanced at her in confusion, “ 你 know 老友记 that were only your 老友记 because the feel sorry for you?” he thought back, yea he has. 鸭, 德雷克 Simon, the little… he nodded yes.
“ Me too, all of them, the did not car at all that I was leaving. Um... “ She stopped she did now know what to 日 to him. But she did not have to for he spoke not have paid any attention to her mumbling
“Have 你 ever wanted to disappear and go were no one 你 hate could ever find you? Its not like running away, when 你 run away there is always a change they will find you. What I’m saying is, create 你 own world and not be afraid of what others think?” Emily was never asked this before. She knew the answer right away
“Yea, I would 爱情 to get way from mom and dad I would 爱情 to for get my stresses and forget my troubles. But sadly there is not place like that,” she stared out the widow once 更多 now realizing it was raining. She watched at to rain drops raced each other to get to the bottom. They were silence between them Trevor listened to the sound of the other passengers. Some complaining about how dirty the train was, others talking about there hard 日 of work, and some wining about the rain. He gazed at Emily as she looked out the window, wishing his mother had a kind nature like Emily. He never met anyone like her on the streets of Chicago and he bet he would never find another like her anywhere else.
“Emily?” he asked quietly, “How old are you? I’m 16” he was hoping she was his age, she looked young for her age but that might be because she had the natural look, no make up. In his opinion girls looked better that way.
“I’m also 16, turn 17 in two months” wow she was older then him. Again there was silence, he rain his hand thought his hair thinking out what to say next.
“What is your mom like?” this startled Emily.
“She is a cruel women who thinks she can have what ever she wants when she wants it. She thinks 你 should drop whatever your doing just to meet her needs. Its pathetic!” She opened her mouth again but closed it, after a few 秒 she got up sand whispered, “ be right back” then headed to the bathrooms.
Emily did not care for the bathrooms for the smelled worse the seating aria on the train. Diapers with poop in them were thrown at the wall, pee stains were al over the toilet and on the floor, and it made her want to puke. As she entered the bathroom a full smell of throw up hit her in the face, she could hold it. She glanced at the clock resting above the toilet; she had about 3 hors to go. She rushed out of the bathroom and back to her seen 下一个 to the window.
“That was fast” Trevor 说 with a smile as he watched her sit back down.
“I-am-not- going-in –there!” she 说 trying to breathe for she had help her breath running back. Trevor laughed at her, “what”
“ Nothing its just 你 different, your not like other people I have met.” This time Emily laughed
“ How many times have 你 heard that story in a book 或者 movie!” He smiled a weak smile then turned. “ Oh! I’m Sorry its just… I thought it was cute… but-”
“Cheesy I know.” He turned away more
“Oh, I always screw this up! Please don’t be made at me! You’re the only person I have ever met that understands,” he chuckled a little “ yea I know that has been over done before too,” he finally faced her meeting her eyes.
“I know we just met but I like 你 Emily and I want to get to know 你 more!” he 说 flashing a brilliant smile
“Well we do have about 3 hours left, tell me-”
“ You’re getting off at roscoe right?” she nodded “ 你 get off in 1 小时 they announced that when 你 were in the bath room.” She groaned; her dumb dad read the ticket wrong. And dummy her forgot to read it over.
She thought of a 问题 quick, “ what kinds of 音乐 do 你 like?” he pondered the thought,
“ Well I 爱情 rock, metal, and very little country, why did 你 ask me that?”
“I just wanted to know I mean he I can’t like a guy that’s all into rap!” she joked, laughing she asked “what about bands?” he searched into his pocket and pulled out his ipod的, ipod then handed it to Emily after rewrapping the white headphones around it. She skimmed through his artists and songs, there were bands like Three days Gracing, Fall Out Boy, ECT. She gave it back with a smile. Time passed as the chatted about 随意 things, school, parents, things of that sort. When it was about 5 minuets till she had to get off Emily asked
“ Want to get off with me?” she 说 with hope
“ If I did where would I go live, with 你 and your mom? I don’t think she would like that very much. I would 爱情 to but I must proceed and get off in Janesville, I’m sorry.” All his hope was gone. But clearly he new nothing of geography, Emily popped up and yelled
“My mom lives 30 或者 so 分钟 away from where you’re going! Here,” she griped his hand and scribbled don her phone number. Then the intercom kicked on and announced, we are not at stop Roscoe!” As she got up she kissed his cheek “Bye” she whispered as she headed out the door.
Trevor garbed his phone and dialed her number she picked up “ Hello?”
“Hey it me!”
“ I thought 你 would never call” she 说 he could here the smile in her voice.
I'm setting here looking at a paused 电视 screen and i soon think to myself is that the way that our life is life when we are put on hold.
If tht's the case then why are we not able to do the work that we have been meant to do forever,
how can the people in our lives trust us for the decisions that we make in our daily lives that we live.
are we really meant to be th people that we are meant to be 或者 are we just passing through this earth with no-where to go but down, that is what i think about when i see a paused tv.
so what do 你 think about this journal entry that i just wrote 你 need to think about what i 说 and give me your best anwsers that 你 can give.
thnx erie 摩根 maples
If tht's the case then why are we not able to do the work that we have been meant to do forever,
how can the people in our lives trust us for the decisions that we make in our daily lives that we live.
are we really meant to be th people that we are meant to be 或者 are we just passing through this earth with no-where to go but down, that is what i think about when i see a paused tv.
so what do 你 think about this journal entry that i just wrote 你 need to think about what i 说 and give me your best anwsers that 你 can give.
thnx erie 摩根 maples
Why, do things have to be so hard
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
由 an old friend
由 an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed 由 my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
由 an old friend
由 an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed 由 my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
Hate.Disappointment.Regret.They all make up some of the worst thing in our lives...then why can't we just give it up?Give it up and just throw all our problems away?The answer is simple because this,this is reality not a fairytale 或者 some fiction story,where the writer can just have their way over their characters like puppets.No.Not at all in reality does one have their way to control their life 或者 the lies that people tell them.There's no stopping your troubles in life 或者 changing the regret you've made in the past ...it's life.
such a waste, my life whole life is a fake!...but im sure ive been a thorn inside of you...that's torn at 你 for years. but, sometimes i can taste how 苦 i've become...& its 更多 then i can bare. sometimes i pray for someone to blow me away. just make it quick, but let it burn...so i can feel the pain thats torn at me for years. i can't be held responsable, 'cause this is all so new to me. can i...leave my pain behind?
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what 你 DO with the gift of life, that determends who 你 are. the pain 你 feel...its normal. let it go.
你 think?
yes. 你 need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
你 can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what 你 DO with the gift of life, that determends who 你 are. the pain 你 feel...its normal. let it go.
你 think?
yes. 你 need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
你 can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
