Nothing is harder then losing the one 你 love. The One person who understands 你 the most, The one who give anything to keep 你 安全 and happy even if that means losing their own life to save yours. I learned this the hard way, When a 年 以前 today, I 迷失 my parents, my brother and my sister, in a house fire.
May 19 2010 Monday 12:01 am
It's been a 年 since I 迷失 my family, and it hasn't been any easier. I have nightmares about what happen, ever nightmare is the same. It starts off with me being with my family, Everyone is laughing and having a good time, then out of no where, there faces start to melt off It gets really hot and then I wake up. Of course I wasn't there, I was at my 老友记 house, but I still fill responsible.
I sat up, then looked at the clock it was 12:12 I laid my head back down on my 枕头 and closed my eyes in no time I was back asleep, having that same dream over and over aging. I awoke with a headache My aunt knocked on the door. "Naomi, Honey, are 你 awake?" I got out of the 床, 床上 and opened the door. Aunt Maggie stepped in side "are 你 okay sweetie?" I didn't answer I just stood there with my head down. Aunt Maggie stood there for awhile, then turned and left the room.
May 19 2010 Monday 7:00
There was a Knock on the front door, I went down stairs, it was Jane. She looked at me then shook her head. "Are 你 ever going to stop were that Damn hoodie?" I looked at her, then grabbed my bag and headed out the door. She followed behind me, I opened the car door took out my I-pod and turned it up. Jane stared the car, Then pulled over, I looked at her. "What are 你 doing?!" I asked.
"Naomi I 爱情 你 and all but 你 got to stop fill sorry for yourself, there's nothing 你 can do, it wasn't your fault it's not like 你 caused the stupid fire." I looked at her, her words cut like Knifes, she looked back at me. I looked away, "Could 你 just drive." Jane unlocked the doors, "Get out." I looked at her "J-" she shook her head, "Get out"
I got out the car, and Jane drove away, I started to walk to school, but then had to stop because the tears wouldn't stop coming. Some one drove past me, then backed up, they rolled down the window. "Get in" he said, it was Alec the only 情绪硬核 kid at my school. I opened the door and go in. I still had my I-pod in and my tears had turned my eyes red. I could fill his eyes on me, so I kept my head down.
May 19 2010 8:01 am Monday
I went to my 首页 room class and, put my head down, Jane sat beside me. I see 你 made it to school, I turned away I couldn't let her see how much she hurt me. Jane just tsked at me, then turned to talk to other people. I could fill some ones eyes one me, so I looked up to see who it was, it was Alec, our eyes meet, and I felt something. I couldn't stop looking in to his blue eyes, and he didn't stop looking at me. The teacher came in and Alec turned to the front. I sighed and took my ear phones out.
The rest of the school 日 went 由 quicker then I'm use too. The whole time in study hall and at lunch i could fill his eyes on me. I meet Jane 由 my locker, before the last period of the day, She looked at me. "Naomi, I'm sorry I was just Mad, 你 aren't the only one who 迷失 some one 你 爱情 lets not forget 你 aunt, and what about me, I was in 爱情 with your brother, do 你 know what his last words were too me?" I didn't answer her, "He told me he loved me."
The 钟, 贝尔 rung, and I walked away, Jane walked beside me. "Look na na I 说 I'm sorry." I looked at her, I nodded, "thanks Jane for what 你 said, but I'm just not ready to let go." Jane walked away, then turned around "well when 你 do let me know." She went in to her class, I started to walk to my class, Then out of no where the 火, 消防 alarm rung. Everyone was run out of classes I stopped, I didn't know what to do.
There was shadows all around me, ever thing stared spinning. I sat down, The 火, 消防 alarm kept getting louder and louder. Some one stood in front of me, They grabbed my shoulder and lifted me up. They crawled me like a baby, then we were out side, I looked up, and Alec was above me. His eyes locked on mine. I couldn't pull away, I got 迷失 in his eyes aging filling that same filling I felt aging. that same strange filling, Alec helped me sit up.
Then I pulled away from under his hand, I didn't mean to come off ungrateful I just don't like when people touch me. Alec scooted away, to give me some air, when he thought i was okay, he came over to me to help me stand. Once the school was cleared, everyone went back in. Jane came rushing over to me, when she saw me. she gave me a hug, "Your okay, i didn't see 你 come out, so I thought." I pushed away from her, she stopped talking.
Then said, "You know,what Naomi. This is to much, I tried to stay being your friend, but I just can't handle your Behavior, your just to much." She walked away, I could fill his eyes on me I turned around Then looked away quickly.
May 19 2010 3:30 am Monday
Jane left with out me so I stared to walk, It would be 4:30 when I get home. It was about to rain so I put my hoddie on. Then it started to thunder so I took my phone out and was about to Call my aunt, but then Alec pulled up beside me. He opened the door I looked at him, being careful not to met his eyes. Then after a while I got in.
When I got home, I went up stairs and took a 淋浴 my aunt wasn't 首页 yet my phone rung, it was a text from Jane. Hope 你 made it 首页 okay, If 你 didn't I'm sorry, I need 你 to forget my number, don't call me don't text me don't send me and email, because like I 说 before. I'm done with you. I put my phone down and knocked over my raiser blade I picked it up and pressed it to my risk.
May 19 2010 Monday 8:08
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
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May 19 2010 Monday 12:01 am
It's been a 年 since I 迷失 my family, and it hasn't been any easier. I have nightmares about what happen, ever nightmare is the same. It starts off with me being with my family, Everyone is laughing and having a good time, then out of no where, there faces start to melt off It gets really hot and then I wake up. Of course I wasn't there, I was at my 老友记 house, but I still fill responsible.
I sat up, then looked at the clock it was 12:12 I laid my head back down on my 枕头 and closed my eyes in no time I was back asleep, having that same dream over and over aging. I awoke with a headache My aunt knocked on the door. "Naomi, Honey, are 你 awake?" I got out of the 床, 床上 and opened the door. Aunt Maggie stepped in side "are 你 okay sweetie?" I didn't answer I just stood there with my head down. Aunt Maggie stood there for awhile, then turned and left the room.
May 19 2010 Monday 7:00
There was a Knock on the front door, I went down stairs, it was Jane. She looked at me then shook her head. "Are 你 ever going to stop were that Damn hoodie?" I looked at her, then grabbed my bag and headed out the door. She followed behind me, I opened the car door took out my I-pod and turned it up. Jane stared the car, Then pulled over, I looked at her. "What are 你 doing?!" I asked.
"Naomi I 爱情 你 and all but 你 got to stop fill sorry for yourself, there's nothing 你 can do, it wasn't your fault it's not like 你 caused the stupid fire." I looked at her, her words cut like Knifes, she looked back at me. I looked away, "Could 你 just drive." Jane unlocked the doors, "Get out." I looked at her "J-" she shook her head, "Get out"
I got out the car, and Jane drove away, I started to walk to school, but then had to stop because the tears wouldn't stop coming. Some one drove past me, then backed up, they rolled down the window. "Get in" he said, it was Alec the only 情绪硬核 kid at my school. I opened the door and go in. I still had my I-pod in and my tears had turned my eyes red. I could fill his eyes on me, so I kept my head down.
May 19 2010 8:01 am Monday
I went to my 首页 room class and, put my head down, Jane sat beside me. I see 你 made it to school, I turned away I couldn't let her see how much she hurt me. Jane just tsked at me, then turned to talk to other people. I could fill some ones eyes one me, so I looked up to see who it was, it was Alec, our eyes meet, and I felt something. I couldn't stop looking in to his blue eyes, and he didn't stop looking at me. The teacher came in and Alec turned to the front. I sighed and took my ear phones out.
The rest of the school 日 went 由 quicker then I'm use too. The whole time in study hall and at lunch i could fill his eyes on me. I meet Jane 由 my locker, before the last period of the day, She looked at me. "Naomi, I'm sorry I was just Mad, 你 aren't the only one who 迷失 some one 你 爱情 lets not forget 你 aunt, and what about me, I was in 爱情 with your brother, do 你 know what his last words were too me?" I didn't answer her, "He told me he loved me."
The 钟, 贝尔 rung, and I walked away, Jane walked beside me. "Look na na I 说 I'm sorry." I looked at her, I nodded, "thanks Jane for what 你 said, but I'm just not ready to let go." Jane walked away, then turned around "well when 你 do let me know." She went in to her class, I started to walk to my class, Then out of no where the 火, 消防 alarm rung. Everyone was run out of classes I stopped, I didn't know what to do.
There was shadows all around me, ever thing stared spinning. I sat down, The 火, 消防 alarm kept getting louder and louder. Some one stood in front of me, They grabbed my shoulder and lifted me up. They crawled me like a baby, then we were out side, I looked up, and Alec was above me. His eyes locked on mine. I couldn't pull away, I got 迷失 in his eyes aging filling that same filling I felt aging. that same strange filling, Alec helped me sit up.
Then I pulled away from under his hand, I didn't mean to come off ungrateful I just don't like when people touch me. Alec scooted away, to give me some air, when he thought i was okay, he came over to me to help me stand. Once the school was cleared, everyone went back in. Jane came rushing over to me, when she saw me. she gave me a hug, "Your okay, i didn't see 你 come out, so I thought." I pushed away from her, she stopped talking.
Then said, "You know,what Naomi. This is to much, I tried to stay being your friend, but I just can't handle your Behavior, your just to much." She walked away, I could fill his eyes on me I turned around Then looked away quickly.
May 19 2010 3:30 am Monday
Jane left with out me so I stared to walk, It would be 4:30 when I get home. It was about to rain so I put my hoddie on. Then it started to thunder so I took my phone out and was about to Call my aunt, but then Alec pulled up beside me. He opened the door I looked at him, being careful not to met his eyes. Then after a while I got in.
When I got home, I went up stairs and took a 淋浴 my aunt wasn't 首页 yet my phone rung, it was a text from Jane. Hope 你 made it 首页 okay, If 你 didn't I'm sorry, I need 你 to forget my number, don't call me don't text me don't send me and email, because like I 说 before. I'm done with you. I put my phone down and knocked over my raiser blade I picked it up and pressed it to my risk.
May 19 2010 Monday 8:08
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
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People down every turn
Pain inside their hearts
A girl with scars on her wrists
A boy with a 刀 in his chest
She hides in the dark
Wondering when the pain with end
He stands up to fight in defense
Only to get knocked back down again
She fights with her parents
They don't wanna support the child
She's left to fend for herself in the cold
Alone with the child
Do we see what we are doing when we say the things we say?
Do we see who we are hurting with the actions that we're taking?
What we need
Are broken families reconciled
We need hearts to mend, scars to heal and battles to end
We. Need. Love
To stand up for the broken
We. Need. Hope
To give a hand to the hopeless
We need the world to care.
What are we doing with the words we are saying?
Who are we changing
And what effects are they having?
Lets be the change.
Pain inside their hearts
A girl with scars on her wrists
A boy with a 刀 in his chest
She hides in the dark
Wondering when the pain with end
He stands up to fight in defense
Only to get knocked back down again
She fights with her parents
They don't wanna support the child
She's left to fend for herself in the cold
Alone with the child
Do we see what we are doing when we say the things we say?
Do we see who we are hurting with the actions that we're taking?
What we need
Are broken families reconciled
We need hearts to mend, scars to heal and battles to end
We. Need. Love
To stand up for the broken
We. Need. Hope
To give a hand to the hopeless
We need the world to care.
What are we doing with the words we are saying?
Who are we changing
And what effects are they having?
Lets be the change.