ok... some of the content in this fanfiction, might rattle some very senstive nerves for some, and i sencerily apologise for that.. please. im sorry.
She moved. She played. She is mine. She isnt here yet, but will be soon and will be all mine. I feel her smile, and dreams and laugh. My daughter. How long how i wanted her.
time after time she escaped me, leaving broken. But she forms again. As though she still wants me. Perhaps she isn't escaping but kidnapped instead.
This time, im ready, and shes staying protected and staying with me.
Two days to the date, in which i will see the face of her.
Im all ready and fit to go, her room is perfect, keeps everything she will ever need. And i will 爱情 her, on my own.
I will be the only one of a time being to 爱情 her. I'm alone, but she will take away the lonelness.
she moves again. she plays everyday, not one 日 goes 由 that she doesnt remind me of her, but how could i forget anyway. I fear she will be a engertic figeter, she just moves everyday, every hour, she makes me laugh.
I dont know what to name her yet. How can 你 name face that 你 haven't yet seen. She must suit it. But i still have my favourites of course.
i dont know how i manged to fall asleep with her 足球 games all night, but i did.
however she had caused me to feel really sick when i woke. A rare occaision for me. Morning sickness wasn't too harsh to me ever before..
I felt heat rising from my chest, creating my breath uneven to pants.
I've never felt like this before, panic was shaking in my body. Relax . relax. everythings ok.
I felt her kick hurt me. Then 更多 sickness come from the tip of my throat and out. Gross.
i waited for her to reply. I waited. she diddnt answer.
i need help. i try to stable my weak legs, only to feel a massive pull within my adomin. The pants grew 更多 and 更多 voilent.
i saw it rush out of me. no. no. please.
i tried to walk to the phone, i need help.
"911 emergancy, whats your emergancy?"
"Please... i ..i need help... its.. its.. my baby. baby." was i all i was able to break throught the pants.
"We will be there soon. just sit down and breathe"
its wasnt long till they came to rescue me.
由 then the blood was all over me. i rocking back and forth, holding onto to her.
They carried me to the hospital.
She moved. She played. She is mine. She isnt here yet, but will be soon and will be all mine. I feel her smile, and dreams and laugh. My daughter. How long how i wanted her.
time after time she escaped me, leaving broken. But she forms again. As though she still wants me. Perhaps she isn't escaping but kidnapped instead.
This time, im ready, and shes staying protected and staying with me.
Two days to the date, in which i will see the face of her.
Im all ready and fit to go, her room is perfect, keeps everything she will ever need. And i will 爱情 her, on my own.
I will be the only one of a time being to 爱情 her. I'm alone, but she will take away the lonelness.
she moves again. she plays everyday, not one 日 goes 由 that she doesnt remind me of her, but how could i forget anyway. I fear she will be a engertic figeter, she just moves everyday, every hour, she makes me laugh.
I dont know what to name her yet. How can 你 name face that 你 haven't yet seen. She must suit it. But i still have my favourites of course.
i dont know how i manged to fall asleep with her 足球 games all night, but i did.
however she had caused me to feel really sick when i woke. A rare occaision for me. Morning sickness wasn't too harsh to me ever before..
I felt heat rising from my chest, creating my breath uneven to pants.
I've never felt like this before, panic was shaking in my body. Relax . relax. everythings ok.
I felt her kick hurt me. Then 更多 sickness come from the tip of my throat and out. Gross.
i waited for her to reply. I waited. she diddnt answer.
i need help. i try to stable my weak legs, only to feel a massive pull within my adomin. The pants grew 更多 and 更多 voilent.
i saw it rush out of me. no. no. please.
i tried to walk to the phone, i need help.
"911 emergancy, whats your emergancy?"
"Please... i ..i need help... its.. its.. my baby. baby." was i all i was able to break throught the pants.
"We will be there soon. just sit down and breathe"
its wasnt long till they came to rescue me.
由 then the blood was all over me. i rocking back and forth, holding onto to her.
They carried me to the hospital.
as if 你 gave me a choice
everything about 你 i loved
all other feelings aside i shoved
on your every word i hung
and even among
a crowd, only 你 i see
nowhere else i would rather be
these feelings for you, that are kept inside
i can no longer hide
everything about 你 i admire
你 are all i desire
so kind, so sweet, so passionate
everytime our eyes met
my 心 would race
while looking at your smiling face
full of buety, life, and joy
with my emotions 你 play like a toy
like a wild beast, my emotions cannot be tame
and i don't even know your name
Life's like a rollercoaster,
Don't waste the ride.
Live it up all the way,
because today's your last day
What would 你 do?
Would 你 cry a little, scream a little, think it's all pretend.
或者 go into silence until the very end...
Would 你 爱情 the ones 你 hate the most 或者 be the person 你 hide?
Would 你 pretend that you're ok but really scream inside?
Would 你 try and keep the sun from setting as your last 日 ends?
Knowing you'll never see it rise...
Tomorrow I'll be somewhere else 你 say as 你 close your eyes.
what can I do?
I'm self-centered, self-induldged, self-absorbed, hateful, short-tepered, implusive, in a complete state of denial, confused and lonely, yet I don't try to think.
a creature of the night
a princess of darkness
I long for light
colors
but all is midnight
and my only companions are the moon and the darkness
thought it comforts me when no one can
I wish to be out of darkness for once
to be clear, understood, unquestioned, and loved.
but who am I to ask for this?
who am I to want this?
is that what makes me human?
why?
all I want to know is why?
