Jake and I haven't been really speaking today. He thinks I messed up big time yesterday 由 telling the truth. I think he messed up big time 由 being rude. Sometimes girls just get moody, and he should know that 由 now.

The problem with being upset is that it brings all the negative things in your life to attention. Jake and I are not doing so well money wise. His repair 商店 is okay but not making enough money to support us. I haven't been to work since the wedding. I thought that once I was married, I wouldn't have to worry about working. Wrong idea.

I kinda feel like I am just useless, and not helping at all. I almost want to go back to work, seeing that we are broke and all. And I am not interested in money from my family. I don't want a hand out.

I walk over to my laptop and go to Hulu. There is nothing for me to do but watch old Saturday Night Live clips. Too bad for me.

I glance down at my phone and think about working again. Yeah I should be on maternity leave, but I could still work anyways.

After thinking about it for a few 秒 I realize that, that is a stupid idea in of it's self.

"Jake."I feel like we need to talk about everything, not just sit around.

He walks into the living room with a 三明治 in his hand. His face looks surprised to even hear my voice.

"What?" He asks as he takes a huge bite.

I feel my self squint at how much he eats, not that he isn't a big guy 或者 what ever but it is still gross.

"How much business is the 商店 getting?" I try to start our conversation off with questions. Just to make sure that he doesn't get mad at my speculation.

"Not too many, why?"

"Can 你 put down the 三明治 for like five minutes? Because I can't take 你 seriously when your eating like that." I request.

"Sorry." He mutters as he places the 三明治 on the table

"Jake let me just get to the point. We are loosing money and if we keep it up we won't be able to provide for little Micah." He sits down as I speak and places his arms around me.

"I know we are, but I am trying to bring business back up." He tries to reassure me, but I don't feel reassured.

"If we have to we can get a loan." He continues, but I hate the idea.

"But we are not taking anything from my family." I feel the need to clarify with him.

He doesn't say anything for a long time, and just holds me.

I don't know what's coming, 或者 what to expect, but i do know that we will always be together.