I can't see anything. I feel like I'm falling in purgatory and about to throw up. Finally, I stop falling and I open my eyes. I'm laying down on the ground outside. It looks like I'm at the same spot where Haruhi and Itsuki changed clothes before sneaking into North High with Kyon. I realize I'm starting to sweat. It's like in the middle of summer. This feels familiar. But this can't be a dream. Everything here feels so realistic. I guess I'm really in the Haruhi universe. Now I'm sure before it wasn't a dream either. I still have a chance. Anyway, I need to know "when" I am. So I run to the convenience store and pick up a newspaper to check the date. It's Tanabata, 1996. I better hurry to Yuki's apartment.
On the way, I check over at the park where Kyon should be sitting and talking with adult Mikuru. Sure enough, I see them there. I can't hear what they're saying. Doesn't matter. Yuki is waiting for me...or is she?
I stand in front of Yuki's apartment front gates. I was just about to pick up the phone standing right 下一个 to me - but suddenly, Yuki opens the gate for me. She's standing right in front of me, with that expression that makes me feel safe.
"Hey, Yuki.", I say with a smile on my face.
"Hi."
"Should we go up to your apartment?"
"Yes. Follow me.", she says as she turns around and starts walking to the elevator.
I follow her. We're standing in the elevator in complete silence. I turn over to look at her. She's so cute. She's wearing glasses. I still hope I can get back to human Yuki.
Eventually, the elevator stops and we walk to her apartment. She opens the door and we take off our shoes. Yuki goes to the 厨房 and makes tea. I enter the living room and I see how different it is from before I was there. It's way 更多 empty.
Yuki comes back from the 厨房 with two cups of green tea. We both start drinking. I think it's delicious. I put the cup down and look at Yuki.
"Yuki, I need some answers."
She looks at me in silence.
"Tell me - What's going on here? How did I get here? What's my role in all of this?"
She puts down her cup and looks at me.
"Please, at least tell me this: Why me?"
"What do 你 mean?"
"What I mean is, why am I, the one out of billions of people, living and breathing on my planet, to be transported to this world? What's so special about me?"
"Let's cover all of this, Kevin. The events that have been happening in my world were created 由 me in your world as a 流行的 日本动漫 franchise to be a proxy that would help 你 gain vital information of the incoming events."
I jump out in surprise.
"Wait, what?! So 你 mean, me being here – this being an animated movie in my world – all of it is actually happening and you're perfectly aware of it?!"
"That's correct.", she 答案 calm and calculated as always.
"Once you've done your research, and when the time was right, I would send 你 to our world so that 你 could prevent Kyon from turning the human me that changes the world in 1999 back to the regular alien me."
"Okay, now hold on, let me get this straight. If I heard 你 correctly, you're saying that 你 need someone to prevent Kyon from turning the human 你 that changes the world in 1999, right?"
"Yes."
"It's kind of weird, because… 你 are the one, who left the clue that would lead Kyon to the emergency escape route to begin with."
She stares at me without answering.
"I mean, sure, I remember the reason for it: 你 were…. how should I say it… sympathetic towards him? And as a result of this, rightfully so, 你 decided to leave him an emergency exit for him. Because 你 trusted him, but then it makes no sense as to why 你 would have someone like me not only try to prevent him from turning 你 back to your normal alien self, but also letting Kyon use the escape route to begin with, if 你 wanted to stay a human. Please explain."
"You're correct. I left Kyon the emergency exit as a back-up route in case he doesn't like the alternate-esc normal world, and would like to come back to the regular world. However, once I left the clue to it in one time period – there's no going back. I can relive past and looped events, but I don't have a whole lot of direct 或者 indirect influence on their actions. So I needed someone from the outside to help me change the outcome of the picture."
"But wait, why wouldn't 你 want Kyon to discover the bookmark if 你 already did it once, are 你 saying that 你 regret leaving that bookmark for Kyon? I mean, what happened?"
"You."
"I don't get it – what did I do?"
"It's complicated."
"Don't worry – all ears."
She pauses for a bit, before continuing.
"The Data Integration Thought Entity was doing research on various social, physical and mental skills of humans of your world."
"Alright, proceed."
"I was tasked with observing the social, physical and mental skills of Swedish students. To be 更多 precise: Skiljebo School - your compound."
"I...see. And then 你 found me somehow, but... still, it's a bit odd that 你 would choose me for this. I mean, for what purpose?"
"I want 你 to do the following: as you're probably aware, both Kyon and Mikuru Asahina are soon about to appear in this area in order for me to send them 前锋, 期待 back into 1999, in order for them to change the human me back into the regular me, after I change the world. 你 know how it goes: I tell them I changed the world, I give them the nanomachines, the gun, and Kyon goes travelling in time with Ms. Asahina, but this time, 你 go travelling with them. After that, you—"
"Hold up, this just doesn't add up. I understand why 你 would need to send Kyon back to 1999, because that's where he belongs at this point, but if 你 don't want them to turn 你 back into an alien – then why give them these instructions?"
"Simple - like I 说 before, I can't influence the events that have already happened before – Kyon has already used the emergency escape route, consequentially, it'd be a waste of his time coming here, therefore I'm obligated in giving him these instructions."
"Then how can we prevent this?"
"This is where 你 come in. After you, Kyon and Ms. Asahina teleport to the 年 1999, with the help of Ms. Asahina, you'll need to go back in time right to the very beginning of your journey."
"You mean… when I found myself inexplicably in Kyon's house?"
"Correct."
"So what was the point of all this?"
"Same point as me, creating the franchise in your world – gaining information."
"About what, the…the bookmark? What do 你 want me to do with it? Hide it from Kyon 或者 something?"
"Exactly just that"
"But why"?
"If Kyon doesn't discover the clue for the escape route, then he won't start searching for the former members of the SOS brigade. And it's all over. He'll live his normal life like he always wanted, and I'll remain human. Everyone wins."
I sarcastically smile and nod.
"Everyone?"
"Why do 你 ask?"
"What about me? Once everything's over, what do I do? I got back to my world the first time using the same escape route 你 left for Kyon, but once everything's done, then what happens next? I'm stuck here – that's what."
"Incorrect. I left a completely separate emergency exit route specifically made for 你 in advance, the first time 你 started your journey."
"Really? And what is it?"
She's silent for a moment.
"Just as with Kyon, I'll give 你 a hint: it's something that at one point in your life, 你 found to be unusual."
"Alright, fair enough, just… why?"
"What do 你 mean?"
"What made 你 change your mind since the first time all of this had happened? It must've been something huge, I'm sure. And 更多 importantly… why me? I honestly hope that I wasn't just a 随意 choice 或者 I don't know… something weird like 你 creating a franchise to see… who would obsess over 你 more."
There's a moment of silence.
"You don't understand.", Yuki states.
"I chose 你 for this long before I created the proxy."
I turn to her.
"Then why? What's so special about me?"
There's a pause before she starts.
"You and I… we aren't so different, after all."
"What do 你 mean?"
"I'm not 给 the opportunity of expressing emotions in this vessel, and after discovering you, I realized, that therefore, changing the world was my only option, but every time I would become normal, I would be changed back to my original form, due to the events already sent in motion, therefore, I--"
"Wait, hold on a second, what did 你 just say? Did I hear 你 correctly? Did 你 just say that you're doing this after discovering me?"
She's silent. I start to pace about in the room.
"No no no no no, no way, there's just no way.", I think to myself. It's too good to be true. I'm literally crying inside from joy right now due to the realization I've come to.
"You… 你 mean 你 actually…", I try to talk, but I either stutter 或者 chuckle.
I sit in front of her and spit it out.
"God, 你 have no idea how much this means to me. I've been thinking of you, dreaming of meeting 你 – a fictional 2D animated character for Christ's sakes, for such a long time, but to actually know that 你 exist, to meet you, to…to hear this from 你 - is just...just...amazing, really. I mean, freaking hell, it's insane! If only you'd know what it feels like! It's wonderful!"
"I don't, but if 你 can help me, soon I may able to."
"Right… Right.", I try to catch my breath.
"Man, alright… but, there's a problem. Once 你 finally become human – you'll lose all memories of your original self, meaning that… 你 won't remember me, 或者 any of this. And not only that, but I've also got nowhere to go – it's 更多 than likely that my family doesn't exist in this universe, so I've got no contacts, no finances, no ways to Sweden, 或者 education. I mean, I know you've prepared an escape route for me and all back to my original world, but damn it, I want to stay with you, I—"
"Another reason I needed 你 to close the loop, is because every time I would change the world, another version of me would be created in your world."
"… What?"
"However, your world's version of me wouldn't last long, and would get annulated every time I would get restored to my original self, but this time we have the opportunity to prolong its existence."
I'm stunned 由 this. Somewhere in my world…. There was a real Yuki after all?
"Your worlds' version of me, however...just like my human counterpart, will have no memory of this past life. I've arranged her creation so that she would eventually meet 你 upon your return, the downside of the situation being, however, is that it's not likely that 你 will realize her being that version of me, for obvious reasons: different appearance, personality traits, etc."
"Doesn't matter, I'm sure I'll figure it out."
She looks down.
"I hope so."
I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Look, 你 have no idea how well I know you, I'm sure that if I meet my world's version of you, then rest assured, I'll realize that—"
Suddenly there's a knock on the door. It's Kyon and Mikuru. I remove my hand from her shoulder and stand up.
"Well, time to set things up in motion, eh?"
She nods, gets up and heads for the door as I watch in anticipation of what's to come.
On the way, I check over at the park where Kyon should be sitting and talking with adult Mikuru. Sure enough, I see them there. I can't hear what they're saying. Doesn't matter. Yuki is waiting for me...or is she?
I stand in front of Yuki's apartment front gates. I was just about to pick up the phone standing right 下一个 to me - but suddenly, Yuki opens the gate for me. She's standing right in front of me, with that expression that makes me feel safe.
"Hey, Yuki.", I say with a smile on my face.
"Hi."
"Should we go up to your apartment?"
"Yes. Follow me.", she says as she turns around and starts walking to the elevator.
I follow her. We're standing in the elevator in complete silence. I turn over to look at her. She's so cute. She's wearing glasses. I still hope I can get back to human Yuki.
Eventually, the elevator stops and we walk to her apartment. She opens the door and we take off our shoes. Yuki goes to the 厨房 and makes tea. I enter the living room and I see how different it is from before I was there. It's way 更多 empty.
Yuki comes back from the 厨房 with two cups of green tea. We both start drinking. I think it's delicious. I put the cup down and look at Yuki.
"Yuki, I need some answers."
She looks at me in silence.
"Tell me - What's going on here? How did I get here? What's my role in all of this?"
She puts down her cup and looks at me.
"Please, at least tell me this: Why me?"
"What do 你 mean?"
"What I mean is, why am I, the one out of billions of people, living and breathing on my planet, to be transported to this world? What's so special about me?"
"Let's cover all of this, Kevin. The events that have been happening in my world were created 由 me in your world as a 流行的 日本动漫 franchise to be a proxy that would help 你 gain vital information of the incoming events."
I jump out in surprise.
"Wait, what?! So 你 mean, me being here – this being an animated movie in my world – all of it is actually happening and you're perfectly aware of it?!"
"That's correct.", she 答案 calm and calculated as always.
"Once you've done your research, and when the time was right, I would send 你 to our world so that 你 could prevent Kyon from turning the human me that changes the world in 1999 back to the regular alien me."
"Okay, now hold on, let me get this straight. If I heard 你 correctly, you're saying that 你 need someone to prevent Kyon from turning the human 你 that changes the world in 1999, right?"
"Yes."
"It's kind of weird, because… 你 are the one, who left the clue that would lead Kyon to the emergency escape route to begin with."
She stares at me without answering.
"I mean, sure, I remember the reason for it: 你 were…. how should I say it… sympathetic towards him? And as a result of this, rightfully so, 你 decided to leave him an emergency exit for him. Because 你 trusted him, but then it makes no sense as to why 你 would have someone like me not only try to prevent him from turning 你 back to your normal alien self, but also letting Kyon use the escape route to begin with, if 你 wanted to stay a human. Please explain."
"You're correct. I left Kyon the emergency exit as a back-up route in case he doesn't like the alternate-esc normal world, and would like to come back to the regular world. However, once I left the clue to it in one time period – there's no going back. I can relive past and looped events, but I don't have a whole lot of direct 或者 indirect influence on their actions. So I needed someone from the outside to help me change the outcome of the picture."
"But wait, why wouldn't 你 want Kyon to discover the bookmark if 你 already did it once, are 你 saying that 你 regret leaving that bookmark for Kyon? I mean, what happened?"
"You."
"I don't get it – what did I do?"
"It's complicated."
"Don't worry – all ears."
She pauses for a bit, before continuing.
"The Data Integration Thought Entity was doing research on various social, physical and mental skills of humans of your world."
"Alright, proceed."
"I was tasked with observing the social, physical and mental skills of Swedish students. To be 更多 precise: Skiljebo School - your compound."
"I...see. And then 你 found me somehow, but... still, it's a bit odd that 你 would choose me for this. I mean, for what purpose?"
"I want 你 to do the following: as you're probably aware, both Kyon and Mikuru Asahina are soon about to appear in this area in order for me to send them 前锋, 期待 back into 1999, in order for them to change the human me back into the regular me, after I change the world. 你 know how it goes: I tell them I changed the world, I give them the nanomachines, the gun, and Kyon goes travelling in time with Ms. Asahina, but this time, 你 go travelling with them. After that, you—"
"Hold up, this just doesn't add up. I understand why 你 would need to send Kyon back to 1999, because that's where he belongs at this point, but if 你 don't want them to turn 你 back into an alien – then why give them these instructions?"
"Simple - like I 说 before, I can't influence the events that have already happened before – Kyon has already used the emergency escape route, consequentially, it'd be a waste of his time coming here, therefore I'm obligated in giving him these instructions."
"Then how can we prevent this?"
"This is where 你 come in. After you, Kyon and Ms. Asahina teleport to the 年 1999, with the help of Ms. Asahina, you'll need to go back in time right to the very beginning of your journey."
"You mean… when I found myself inexplicably in Kyon's house?"
"Correct."
"So what was the point of all this?"
"Same point as me, creating the franchise in your world – gaining information."
"About what, the…the bookmark? What do 你 want me to do with it? Hide it from Kyon 或者 something?"
"Exactly just that"
"But why"?
"If Kyon doesn't discover the clue for the escape route, then he won't start searching for the former members of the SOS brigade. And it's all over. He'll live his normal life like he always wanted, and I'll remain human. Everyone wins."
I sarcastically smile and nod.
"Everyone?"
"Why do 你 ask?"
"What about me? Once everything's over, what do I do? I got back to my world the first time using the same escape route 你 left for Kyon, but once everything's done, then what happens next? I'm stuck here – that's what."
"Incorrect. I left a completely separate emergency exit route specifically made for 你 in advance, the first time 你 started your journey."
"Really? And what is it?"
She's silent for a moment.
"Just as with Kyon, I'll give 你 a hint: it's something that at one point in your life, 你 found to be unusual."
"Alright, fair enough, just… why?"
"What do 你 mean?"
"What made 你 change your mind since the first time all of this had happened? It must've been something huge, I'm sure. And 更多 importantly… why me? I honestly hope that I wasn't just a 随意 choice 或者 I don't know… something weird like 你 creating a franchise to see… who would obsess over 你 more."
There's a moment of silence.
"You don't understand.", Yuki states.
"I chose 你 for this long before I created the proxy."
I turn to her.
"Then why? What's so special about me?"
There's a pause before she starts.
"You and I… we aren't so different, after all."
"What do 你 mean?"
"I'm not 给 the opportunity of expressing emotions in this vessel, and after discovering you, I realized, that therefore, changing the world was my only option, but every time I would become normal, I would be changed back to my original form, due to the events already sent in motion, therefore, I--"
"Wait, hold on a second, what did 你 just say? Did I hear 你 correctly? Did 你 just say that you're doing this after discovering me?"
She's silent. I start to pace about in the room.
"No no no no no, no way, there's just no way.", I think to myself. It's too good to be true. I'm literally crying inside from joy right now due to the realization I've come to.
"You… 你 mean 你 actually…", I try to talk, but I either stutter 或者 chuckle.
I sit in front of her and spit it out.
"God, 你 have no idea how much this means to me. I've been thinking of you, dreaming of meeting 你 – a fictional 2D animated character for Christ's sakes, for such a long time, but to actually know that 你 exist, to meet you, to…to hear this from 你 - is just...just...amazing, really. I mean, freaking hell, it's insane! If only you'd know what it feels like! It's wonderful!"
"I don't, but if 你 can help me, soon I may able to."
"Right… Right.", I try to catch my breath.
"Man, alright… but, there's a problem. Once 你 finally become human – you'll lose all memories of your original self, meaning that… 你 won't remember me, 或者 any of this. And not only that, but I've also got nowhere to go – it's 更多 than likely that my family doesn't exist in this universe, so I've got no contacts, no finances, no ways to Sweden, 或者 education. I mean, I know you've prepared an escape route for me and all back to my original world, but damn it, I want to stay with you, I—"
"Another reason I needed 你 to close the loop, is because every time I would change the world, another version of me would be created in your world."
"… What?"
"However, your world's version of me wouldn't last long, and would get annulated every time I would get restored to my original self, but this time we have the opportunity to prolong its existence."
I'm stunned 由 this. Somewhere in my world…. There was a real Yuki after all?
"Your worlds' version of me, however...just like my human counterpart, will have no memory of this past life. I've arranged her creation so that she would eventually meet 你 upon your return, the downside of the situation being, however, is that it's not likely that 你 will realize her being that version of me, for obvious reasons: different appearance, personality traits, etc."
"Doesn't matter, I'm sure I'll figure it out."
She looks down.
"I hope so."
I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Look, 你 have no idea how well I know you, I'm sure that if I meet my world's version of you, then rest assured, I'll realize that—"
Suddenly there's a knock on the door. It's Kyon and Mikuru. I remove my hand from her shoulder and stand up.
"Well, time to set things up in motion, eh?"
She nods, gets up and heads for the door as I watch in anticipation of what's to come.