Home Sweet Home...
The following is set a week later.
Blair has been depressed since Chuck left. Serena and Dan are on their honeymoon but have been in regular contact with Blair.
Zane has also been in touch with Blair over the phone, he told her about his encounter with Chuck but Blair hasn't 给 him any details on what happened between her and Chuck.
Ever since the break up Blair has 给 up on trying to be happy, she is miserable, she has tried to ignore the fact that she was pregnant, there was a voice in the back of her mind telling her that everything was the baby's fault and that made her hate the baby at times.
She would spend night and 日 thinking about the past and about how much things had changed....it had made her miss her youth...being in New York...being at home...she had missed out on enjoying her youth because she was too busy trying to be the poster girl...trying to be 皇后乐队 B...one morning after waking up and having breakfast she decided that maybe she could go back for a 日 and just forget about everything going on in her life and just breathe in the Manhattan air...so it was decided. Blair was going back to Manhattan for the day. Today would be all about Blair Waldorf. It was Blair time.
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She leaps off the train....the station actually reminded her of the 日 she left this city...for a new life....it was supposed to be a good life...who knew it would lead her back here. The only difference was, this time she was alone at the station....there was no Chuck, no Serena 或者 Dan...no Nate 或者 Vanessa...just Blair.
She begins to make her way to Central Park...it seemed the perfect place to start the day.
Once at Central Park, she finds her way through the old paths her and Serena would walk on weekends after shopping sprees, 或者 breakfast...it was still the same. Nothing had changed. The air felt the same, the 草 still 冶炼, 闻到 like 2008...even the people seemed constant. She had to remember that she wasn't 18 any more...she was 21, going on 22 in a few months time.
She sat at a bench for a moment. She looked on as she spotted a teen couple making out in the distance. It reminded her of when she was 16...in the park with Nate Archibald...
They had just finished school. Nate wanted to hang out with her for a while longer, they decided to walk home, she couldn't resist. Every time they were alone, all they would do is make out...they were young and it was a big thing for them...not many of the girls at Constance had a boyfriend...not one as good looking as Nate. She was 皇后乐队 B, having a boyfriend made her even 更多 envied 由 the other girls.
They found their way to Central Park...he was leaning on a 树 which hid them from view of the people passing on the street...what would they think, "silly kids, they dont know what they're getting themselves into!". But these two didnt care.
N: So are 你 going to 吻乐队（Kiss） me?
B: Is that why we're here?
N: Maybe...(he leans 前锋, 期待 and kisses her once, they smile and he wraps his arms around her waist, she jitters)
B: Dont...it tickles!
N: What...im just holding you...dont be so squeamish!
B: Im not...(he kisses her again)
N: Maybe we should scratch our names into this tree...then in 10 years time we can come back and look if it's still her.
B: Really? Ok then...
Nate took out one of his keys and dug into the bark of the 树 as hard as he could...scratching the words..."Blair <3 Nate 4eva."
N: Now 你 know that ill always 爱情 you.
B: I 爱情 你 too. (they continue to make out)
The tree...which one was it...she stood up and looked around studying the park carefully. Then she began walking around trying to locate the tree....a while later she found it....it was definitely that one. It had to be. She ran over to it and tried to find their inscription....it was gone. It saddened her for a moment...that moment in her life...the only proof it happened...was gone. But why should it bother her...it didnt mean anything to her anyway...
It was time to leave the park...maybe she could go past school...that was where most of her life was played out...it was her stage...where everything happened.
Half an 小时 later she arrived. Constance Billard and St. Jude's. Again...everything looked so similar to 3 and a half years ago. She walked over to the gate....she could almost picture Chuck standing there smoking...waiting for her to arrive at school, just so that he could dispose of the cigarette in front of her face...like he wanted to 显示 that he wouldn't smoke for her. It made her smile. That was the spot, 由 the entrance, where they had first got together...as a couple...standing right there, it was the first time he had properly admitted that he wanted to be with her. He was so cute...hiding his feelings but then opening up to her finally...at the time she used to think it was the hardest time of her life...it seemed so small and minor compared to how things were now. Back then it was just about getting him...now it was about forgetting him.
Her thoughts were interrupted 由 a group of loud girls walking by. She watched them closely as they sat down at the school steps. Only one girl was standing. She seemed a bit younger than the others. Probably a freshman...they were being mean to her...telling her to run errands for them...to prove herself worthy of being their friend. Blair was shocked...it was just like her....she could tell immediately which one was in charge...the one giving out the rules...then there were four other girls just nodding and imitating her, they were all dressed similarly...it was like watching herself with Penelope, Issy and Nelli, picking on little Jenny Humphrey...it made Blair giggle, but nod her head...she actually had pity for them...how they were wasting their lives trying to be popular, when there was so much 更多 to life. But they would have to learn, the hard way just like she had done.
Blair walked away. There was one other place she had to visit.
It wasn't long before she reached her destination. Much to her dismay this was one place that had changed. She already knew it had...she knew that it had closed down after her and Chuck left Manhattan...but it was different to actually see it transformed in to something else...a cafe...something so innocent, compared to what it used to be.
She had to go in. She wanted to see the inside...whether she could find the place where she had 迷失 her virginity to her true love.
She sat at a 表 and made an order. Then she looked around....she spotted the place where the stage would have been..then the bar....she managed to locate the wing where the private rooms would have been...it had all been ripped apart...all it was now was a large dining area. if her estimations were correct she thought she had found where her and Chuck's private room would have been. A couple were sitting at a 表 eating pizza, right where her and Chuck had sex for the first time...she smiled...she couldn't help herself....this place...Victrola....it must have had so many secrets.
She had been there for at least half an hour, just thinking about him. About how much he had changed. How much of a real man he had become. She was so proud of him. She looked around once 更多 and spotted someone familiar sitting alone at one of the tables....she looked closely once 更多 and realised it was the girl from Constance she had seen earlier...the girl that reminded her of herself when she used to be 皇后乐队 B. Something made her get up and approach the girl.
B: Is this 座位 taken?
Girl: Umm ( looks at Blair weirdly) I guess not.
B: (sits down) Im Blair.
Girl: So?
B: So...what's your name?
Girl: Chloe...why?
B: No reason...ummm i saw 你 earlier...when 你 were with your 老友记 at school.
C: So 你 followed me?
B: No...of course not...i just...recognised 你 here so i thought id say hi.
C: Well...hi. I should probably go now.
B: No...wait....look...i know what it's like to be you...i used to be just like you.
C: 你 dont even know me!
B: 皇后乐队 B, most 流行的 girl in school, all the girls follow you, copy you, want to be like you, all the boys want to 日期 you, but 你 only have eyes for one, 你 start all the fashion trends, people are only 老友记 with 你 if they pass your strict initiations, 你 rule the school, dream of going to Yale, 最佳, 返回页首 of the social ladder, but deep down your lost, .....rich family but not really a family...is your maid your only real friend? I know how it goes Chloe...i've been there, done it...
C: Well im sure i wont end up like you....your pregnant...im not that stupid...if 你 must know im a virgin and still plan on being one until i find the right guy!
B: Believe me...it may look like i was stupid....and maybe i was...but this baby...i conceived with the man i love...i was in a relationship with him.
C: Oh...so he's your boyfriend? What's his name?
B: Ummm...were not together any more....his name was....(she smiles) Chuck Bass.
C: Chuck Bass!? I know that name! I've read all about him on Gossip Girl....wait a minute...Blair! I knew i recognised your name! You're Blair Waldorf!?...you guys are all over the Gossip Girl Archives!
B: Omg...Gossip Girl still exists?
C: Yeah...you were the ones who started it...that must mean 你 know who Gossip Girl was back then.... apparently the original Gossip Girl revealed her 或者 his identity to one person who would continue Gossip Girl after she/he left Constance to go to college but no one knows who the new Gossip Girl is...you must know who the original was right?
B: No...trust me, we had no idea who it was...i guess we never will....so...you probably know a lot 更多 about my life than i thought.
C: Well i haven't read all the archives...but i definitely will now...i cant believe i've met you....Chuck 低音 is so 流行的 with everyone here...all the guys want to be like him....he used to own this place right? It was a club?
B: Yeah...it was....that's why i came here...but its changed so much now......(she smiles) shall i tell 你 a secret?
C: Yeah...i wont tell no one!
B: 你 see that 表 there...(she points to a table) well when this was a club, that area used to have private rooms...and that table, i think, is where the private room in which me...and Chuck first...you know...did the act. (she giggles)
C: (whispers) Wait...you and Chuck had sex here? over there.
B: Yes....it was our first time...my first time.
C: omfg! That is awesome! (they both laugh)
B: Sshhh...that is something personal ok...
C: What was it like...?
B: It...was the best thing ever...but things only got complicated after that....we had some unforgettable times though...we were a team...even during college we still had a habit of getting up to no good! (she drifts off into a trance for a moment)
Chuck had returned 首页 last night from his business trip to New York...he had gone straight to 床, 床上 as he was tired....the 下一个 morning when he woke...he found his precious Blair already awake lying 下一个 to him.
B: Morning...(she kisses him on the lips)
C: (he yawns) morning....(he wraps his arms around her)
B: I've been thinking....we haven't been out together in a long time...we should do something today
C: Like what?
B: I want to do something silly.
C: (he smiles) Like what baby?
B: Something naughty...something bitchy...(she laughs) I know...there's this girl at Yale, Meeka, that i really dont like...we even had a run in yesterday and i've been refraining myself from getting revenge...but i think it's time for payback....in fact it's times like these that i wish we still had Gossip Girl...i know one of her secrets that would so totally ruin her!
C: 你 really want to go back to being that bitch?
B: It's just for today...
C: What do 你 have in mind?
B: She has a boyfriend, Callum Aston, that she's always boasting about because he's a model....as if anyone cares, but anyway, everyone knows she's having this fling with someone in the drama group Kyle...another stuck up snobby guy who thinks he can have anyone....i want to destroy both of them! Just like old times...what do 你 say?
C: Sure...let's do it.
It didn't take long for them to conjure up a plan...it was simple really...arrange for the model boyfriend to walk in on Meeka and Kyle doing the dirty...not only that but make a live broadcast of it all on the internet for everyone at Yale to see!
The plan was another success...not only had they ruined the girls 爱情 life, but Blair had got to relive her old personality, the one that she had left behind...and she got to see the old Chuck again! They both sat at their laptop watching the drama unfold. They had rigged the room with a camera and watched Kyle and Meeka having sex just as the conveniently invited Boyfriend had walked in on them...it was hilarious seeing a naked Kyle being beaten up 由 Callum before running away, still naked...and then a classic break up...all on the internet being watched 由 many students...it was just like high school!
B: (laughing) that was better than i expected (sits on Chucks lap and puts her arms around his neck)
C: 你 are the devil aren't you.
B: No...your the devil...and im your 皇后乐队 B!
C: (laughs and then kisses her) I guess we'll always be bad.
B: I wouldn't have it any other way...(they kiss) I turns me on when 你 let the bad boy out...it's what attracted me to 你 in the first place...
C: Really...well we should cause havoc 更多 often then...It's pretty hot seeing 你 getting off on doing something naughty...it's what attracted me to 你 in the first place....
B: I 爱情 you.
C: I 爱情 你 too.
B & C together: Always have, always will...(they both smile)
They continue to kiss...
C: Blair! ...Blair...(nudges Blair, who suddenly comes back to reality) What happened? 你 just went in to a trance!
B: Im sorry...i was just remembering something...what were 你 saying?
C: Umm...i dont remember now....oh yeah...i was just asking.....about Chuck, did 你 爱情 him.
B: (silent for a moment...then she smiles) 更多 than anything. Always have always will.
C: So why did he leave?
B: Because.......i cheated on him...he didnt believe it was his baby...things got beyond repair so he just left me...it wasn't that long 以前 really...maybe a week 或者 so.
C: Thats really sad.
B: I know...but 你 learn things from life.
C: What have 你 learned?
B A lot...well first...you need to snap out of this 皇后乐队 B role that your playing...people hate 你 for who 你 are deep down...you think they want to be like you? Believe me they dont...they make a choice....they could either be your enemy and have yoghurt thrown on them 或者 rumours spread about them on Gossip Girl 或者 they can be your friend and have an easier time at school, anyone would choose the latter, but it doesnt mean they like you...when they get the chance they'll turn on 你 and then you'll be a no one...end up at the Ostroff centre and have to leave the city.
C: What? Isn't that a bit extreme?
B: No! It can happen! Believe me i should know! And it's not worth it. 你 need to get off your high horse...live a decent life...for your self. 你 should look out for yourself....be good to your friends...you'll need 老友记 in the future...you're girlfriends are important, right now my girlfriend is all i have...dont treat your 老友记 badly because they will always be there for you, unconditionally. Dont always try to get what 你 want at other people's expense. look out for each other. But 更多 importantly, dont let the world get 你 down...always pick yourself back up again....dont run away from your life just because things get hard...there's always something to live for...even if it isn't what 你 planned...like a baby...like me.......just because i've 迷失 the one person i planned to be with for the rest of my life...it doesn't mean i should give up....or run away...or forget what's important in my life....i should be looking out for myself...i have a baby on the way....i shouldn't be here wondering about in New York....regretting whats gone on...this is just escapism...it's pathetic...i should be looking out for my baby...i should be strong for it...be happy....my dream was to go to Yale, i've done that....my dream was also not to end up like my parents, they hadn't 给 me the real 爱情 that i needed, that's why i became the 婊子, 子 that i was at high school, so desperate for someone to 爱情 me, i've had to work hard for myself and i've never really been satisfied, i was so desperate to impress, to be the best, i never looked out for myself properly, i looked in all the wrong places for 爱情 at times when i didnt need love....I just needed to look after No1, me, Blair..and now my baby, whom im going to give the perfect life to and be the perfect mother to. Ok so i 迷失 Chuck...but i have a baby....i need to get on with my life, 移动 on....look at Serena and Dan...they're so happy, they're married...and they're getting on with their lives....i should be doing the same...(she looks up at Chloe with a refreshed smile on her face, Chloe looks confused) You've made me realise that i shouldn't be wasting my time on the past....Chloe...Thank 你 so much...(she smiles and hugs her)
C: Ok...i dont know what i did...
B: I saw me in you...and i remember being just like you...and i think to myself, i've wasted so much of my life being unhappy, unsatisfied....i cant live like that any more...i've been 皇后乐队 B, I've lived my dream of Yale, i've had Chuck Bass....but now that's all gone...i need to let go...my baby needs me. Only me. I can do this alone!
C: So what does that mean?
B: It means im going home...to Connecticut....actually this is my home...New York is my home...so i dont know what it means...maybe i could come back here...with Dan and Serena...they were moving here anyway....(she stands up) I need to go...i have so much to do...so many things to do and not much time to do it...They'll be back from their honeymoon soon...i have to get back to New Haven....Chloe....it was so nice talking to you...
C: Yeah...it was nice...thanks for all your advice...
B: Make sure 你 dont forget everything we talked about....have fun but look after yourself too...(Chloe stands up and Blair hugs her) Goodbye....Queen C!
C: (laughs) Bye...(Blair walks away)
B: Be a good girl now...dont let me down....dont let yourself down!
Blair leaves, finally a true smile on her face. Ok so she had 迷失 the 爱情 of her life, but time doesn't wait for no man, so it was time for Blair to finally 移动 on...leave all her demons behind and 移动 forward. She would always 爱情 Chuck Bass, that was for sure, she could never forget him...but he had left, he wasn't coming back so it was time to start over. She would go 首页 refreshed, sort her life out, leave behind old baggage. That meant the first thing she had to do was break up with Zane. She didn't need him to be a constant reminder of the biggest mistake she had made in her life. She would always know where to find him, but she didn't want to be 老友记 with him any more, she was leaving all that behind.
She only needed her true friends, Serena and Dan, and her baby of course.
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