The Golden Tear part four
thx for 阅读 injoy!
"And no-one will get hurt" I 说 "oh oh okay?" the vioce 说 "now
Eva I see Liz has came to town and 你 wouldent want anything to
happen to little Liz would you?" "well no" and he 说 "good start
repeting me now yes I'll be there right away" "yes I'll be there right
away" and he 说 "good now come to the cofe 商店 on the corner
of Wallens 街, 街道 my employey will be wating for you" I 说 "alright"
and then I huge up the phone, then I called the nanny Mrs.Plan and
说 kids me and Liz have some arrens to run so Mrs. Plan will be here
okay?" the kids 说 "okay" then David 说 "Mama Eva can we go
yo the park when 你 and Liz get back?" And I 说 "yes we can" and
then Mrs. Plan was in the driveway with her 面包车, 范 takeing up all the
太空 then we herd Liz's phone ring and she 说 "Hello this is Liz"
and I could not overhear the conversation So she hung up the phone
and 说 "Eva I can't go withyou I have to do something" I 说 "okay"
and walked out the door and 说 "Liz 你 will have to take the bus"
She 说 "I know" and got her bus pass" I got in the car and carefully
tryed not to hit the 面包车, 范 and i made it out without a dent in ether car!
So I got up to the cofe place and I looked in the mirror and put some
of my 粉, 粉色 rose lipstick on and I walked out to the 商店 and to my
serprize Liz was in there wating for me so I walked in and I set down
and I 说 "Liz what are 你 doing here" and liz said.........
thx for 阅读 injoy!
"And no-one will get hurt" I 说 "oh oh okay?" the vioce 说 "now
Eva I see Liz has came to town and 你 wouldent want anything to
happen to little Liz would you?" "well no" and he 说 "good start
repeting me now yes I'll be there right away" "yes I'll be there right
away" and he 说 "good now come to the cofe 商店 on the corner
of Wallens 街, 街道 my employey will be wating for you" I 说 "alright"
and then I huge up the phone, then I called the nanny Mrs.Plan and
说 kids me and Liz have some arrens to run so Mrs. Plan will be here
okay?" the kids 说 "okay" then David 说 "Mama Eva can we go
yo the park when 你 and Liz get back?" And I 说 "yes we can" and
then Mrs. Plan was in the driveway with her 面包车, 范 takeing up all the
太空 then we herd Liz's phone ring and she 说 "Hello this is Liz"
and I could not overhear the conversation So she hung up the phone
and 说 "Eva I can't go withyou I have to do something" I 说 "okay"
and walked out the door and 说 "Liz 你 will have to take the bus"
She 说 "I know" and got her bus pass" I got in the car and carefully
tryed not to hit the 面包车, 范 and i made it out without a dent in ether car!
So I got up to the cofe place and I looked in the mirror and put some
of my 粉, 粉色 rose lipstick on and I walked out to the 商店 and to my
serprize Liz was in there wating for me so I walked in and I set down
and I 说 "Liz what are 你 doing here" and liz said.........
The pain in my 心 is to strong,
As it is for 你 that i long,
你 came to me suddenly,
I fell inlove with 你 almost instantly
你 偷了 my heart, but ran away,
Leaving me in sorrow, and in wonder of why 你 came,
Was it in the intention of this heartbreak;
或者 was it to achieve all the sorrow 你 could create?
In your eyes, i was easy to lure,
你 说 你 were sick, and that i was the cure,
I feel like such a fool,
I cant believe i fell for you,
My 爱情 for 你 has become like rain,
As my 心 bleeds in pain,
The memories now being to play,
I only wish 你 stayed.
My mind keeps displaying,
图片 of us talking and laughing,
I couldent see the bad,
你 seemed like a decent man,
But i guess i was wrong,
This is just another fairytale gone wrong
xx
As it is for 你 that i long,
你 came to me suddenly,
I fell inlove with 你 almost instantly
你 偷了 my heart, but ran away,
Leaving me in sorrow, and in wonder of why 你 came,
Was it in the intention of this heartbreak;
或者 was it to achieve all the sorrow 你 could create?
In your eyes, i was easy to lure,
你 说 你 were sick, and that i was the cure,
I feel like such a fool,
I cant believe i fell for you,
My 爱情 for 你 has become like rain,
As my 心 bleeds in pain,
The memories now being to play,
I only wish 你 stayed.
My mind keeps displaying,
图片 of us talking and laughing,
I couldent see the bad,
你 seemed like a decent man,
But i guess i was wrong,
This is just another fairytale gone wrong
xx
Golden tear
tell me if 你 want me to finish this story! thx 4 reading!
"Monica" I heard my mom say "we are going to be late." So I looked up at the white clock my mom had hanging in the hallway and yelled "i'm coming." Nick my yonger brother was yelling "come on sis I don't wanna be late again Mrs.Wilson already 说 if i am late again I get to go see Mrs.Hall the principle." So I sreamed back "maybe a trip to the principles office will do 你 some good." And I ran down the steps into the white and yellow 厨房 and told my mom "come on lets go"
"Monica" I heard my mom say "we are going to be late." So I looked up at the white clock my mom had hanging in the hallway and yelled "i'm coming." Nick my yonger brother was yelling "come on sis I don't wanna be late again Mrs.Wilson already 说 if i am late again I get to go see Mrs.Hall the principle." So I sreamed back "maybe a trip to the principles office will do 你 some good." And I ran down the steps into the white and yellow 厨房 and told my mom "come on lets go"
when 你 feel like giving up like no one cares like no one feels the way 你 do theres a reson for that every ones difrent no ones the same poeple feel difrent about things so never give up never let you'rself die never cry just because 你 can't go on go on anyway never be afride of whats around the coner because when 你 give up 你 let yourself die and you'll never see whats around the coner if 你 give up you'll never win if 你 giveup why not die and save yourself from all the weakness of giving up when 你 feel like giving up DON'T!!!
I ask myself if what i'm feeling is real I ask if there is a word for this pain and anger and hate I ask myself is there a word for all the 爱情 and hope and faith I ask and I wonder I guess and I long for the anser I ask my self would it be easyer to stay away from the pain 或者 would it be easyer to feel the holes with all the 爱情 and I hope that my anser one 日 will come I look and 搜索 untell I can not anymore and that is when I give up and I found my anser not to try that when that anser is ready to come it will and that no one may force it to so I ask myself to be willing to wait.
My chest feels so tight, i think i'm going to burst. I don't think I've ever been this angry in mt life. UHHHHHH! I just hate how I start to cry when I'm mad.
How come I can't just let it out?
I don't need an answer, I already know! I'm so afraid of people not liking me, even when I don't like tham, that I just can't be me!
I HATE myself!!
NO, I know I shouldn't hate myself; I should hate my mother, I just can't be what she wants. And I can't tell her she doesn't hear me, even when I try. But I really cant stand her. She has no idea who I am an she never will.
But after everything I've been through, I know that I don't 爱情 my mother it's the farthist from it!
It's hate!
I Know hate is such a strong word but It's true and I can't ever forgiv her for what shes done to me!
I just want her gone!!!!
How come I can't just let it out?
I don't need an answer, I already know! I'm so afraid of people not liking me, even when I don't like tham, that I just can't be me!
I HATE myself!!
NO, I know I shouldn't hate myself; I should hate my mother, I just can't be what she wants. And I can't tell her she doesn't hear me, even when I try. But I really cant stand her. She has no idea who I am an she never will.
But after everything I've been through, I know that I don't 爱情 my mother it's the farthist from it!
It's hate!
I Know hate is such a strong word but It's true and I can't ever forgiv her for what shes done to me!
I just want her gone!!!!
Distant Hearts <3
I knew this 爱情 wouldn't last,
Even with our bright past,
We still had that distance between us,
For our mistakes; Are broken hearts,
Our hands were joined but our hearts fell apart,
As we were cursed with distant hearts,
And now, We part,
As the clock re-winds,
I picture our hands entwined,
As i go back in time,
I remember how your 爱情 was so kind,
and made me feel so alive,
Tears roll down my painted eyes,
As i wish for my demise,
Without you, Life is a suicide,
Your face reflects in the mirror,
Your expression becomes dim,
And in your eyes,
Sparkles of sadness shimmer,
Between us is there still love?
Is there 更多 that we are yet to discover?
Will 你 still be my lover?
Will we get to be together?
True 爱情 is what we were,
But the distance was our curse,
As i sing this verse,
I wonder if you'll be back...
and.. If.. You'll Reverse..This..Curse!
x
I knew this 爱情 wouldn't last,
Even with our bright past,
We still had that distance between us,
For our mistakes; Are broken hearts,
Our hands were joined but our hearts fell apart,
As we were cursed with distant hearts,
And now, We part,
As the clock re-winds,
I picture our hands entwined,
As i go back in time,
I remember how your 爱情 was so kind,
and made me feel so alive,
Tears roll down my painted eyes,
As i wish for my demise,
Without you, Life is a suicide,
Your face reflects in the mirror,
Your expression becomes dim,
And in your eyes,
Sparkles of sadness shimmer,
Between us is there still love?
Is there 更多 that we are yet to discover?
Will 你 still be my lover?
Will we get to be together?
True 爱情 is what we were,
But the distance was our curse,
As i sing this verse,
I wonder if you'll be back...
and.. If.. You'll Reverse..This..Curse!
x
Battered, bruised and broken,
Inside i am empty,
Hearts are too fragile,
And only last a short while,
Inside nothing is alive,
Only the remains of my torn heart,
Inside me there is only sorrow,
As i weep in hope for a better tomorrow,
My last drops of happiness bleed away,
And now nothing is the same,
My 心 bleeds for you,
As i know, your 爱情 for me was true,
As my soul is possesed 由 darkness,
My reasons to live dissapear,
Without 你 everything has come to an end,
Your 爱情 has become to strong for me to forget,
The sound of your voice,
Makes me miss 你 rather than rejoice,
Your memory has become the death of me,
Can we still revive what we used to be?
My whole world comes crashing down around me,
The dawn of darkness is here,
Without 你 nothing is clear,
Without 你 i am counfused and can only weep,
Save me as i scream,
Take away my fear,
Wash away the darkness,
And free me from its grip,
Restore who i used to be
Inside i am empty,
Hearts are too fragile,
And only last a short while,
Inside nothing is alive,
Only the remains of my torn heart,
Inside me there is only sorrow,
As i weep in hope for a better tomorrow,
My last drops of happiness bleed away,
And now nothing is the same,
My 心 bleeds for you,
As i know, your 爱情 for me was true,
As my soul is possesed 由 darkness,
My reasons to live dissapear,
Without 你 everything has come to an end,
Your 爱情 has become to strong for me to forget,
The sound of your voice,
Makes me miss 你 rather than rejoice,
Your memory has become the death of me,
Can we still revive what we used to be?
My whole world comes crashing down around me,
The dawn of darkness is here,
Without 你 nothing is clear,
Without 你 i am counfused and can only weep,
Save me as i scream,
Take away my fear,
Wash away the darkness,
And free me from its grip,
Restore who i used to be
my poem ' Voices' was bout a bit.. disturbing for some ;D so. i wrote this a couple of days 以前 :D its less 'mental' focused :D
A Tragic Loss; A Silent Cry
In your delicate eyes,
I see the sorrow that pains you,
Behind your gentle smile,
I see the sorrow that 你 hide,
On your face the tears stay silent,
But when your alone, they scream out in pain,
Your body seems tame,
But alone 你 are shaken,
Your happiness drained,
i can feel the sadness dwelling inside of you,
i only wish i could free you,
i only wish i could save 你 from your demise,
But you've seen too many lies,
Many, 你 have come to despise,
I reach out to you,
but 你 only push me away,
your cries keep me awake,
The sound of your screaming;
The sound of your strained voices crying out into the distant night,
Maybe your screams weren't loud enough,
Because nobody heard you.
=D
hope 你 like it
xxxxx
A Tragic Loss; A Silent Cry
In your delicate eyes,
I see the sorrow that pains you,
Behind your gentle smile,
I see the sorrow that 你 hide,
On your face the tears stay silent,
But when your alone, they scream out in pain,
Your body seems tame,
But alone 你 are shaken,
Your happiness drained,
i can feel the sadness dwelling inside of you,
i only wish i could free you,
i only wish i could save 你 from your demise,
But you've seen too many lies,
Many, 你 have come to despise,
I reach out to you,
but 你 only push me away,
your cries keep me awake,
The sound of your screaming;
The sound of your strained voices crying out into the distant night,
Maybe your screams weren't loud enough,
Because nobody heard you.
=D
hope 你 like it
xxxxx
Voices
The voices,
they speak to me,
The voices,
they control me,
The voices,
they've taken over me,
The voices,
they tell me to hurt,
The voices,
they tell me to burn,
The voices,
they tell me its their turn,
The voices,
They want me to kill,
The voices,
they want me to do this against my will,
The voices,
they're deeds they want me to fulfill,
The voices,
they are unstoppable,
The voices,
they are to powerful,
The voices,
they are trying to ruin what is beautiful,
The voices,
they drive me insane,
The voices,
they are 更多 evil than they claim,
The voices,
they plan to shed blood as they reign,
The voices,
they plan a massacre,
The voices,
they are ready for sure,
The voices,
they will kill who they lure,
The voices,
they tell me it is time,
The voices,
they told me to die,
The voices,
they're telling me to suicide
No im not crazy ;D
i just wrote this out of boredom.
[:
HOPE 你 LIKE IT (-:
x
The voices,
they speak to me,
The voices,
they control me,
The voices,
they've taken over me,
The voices,
they tell me to hurt,
The voices,
they tell me to burn,
The voices,
they tell me its their turn,
The voices,
They want me to kill,
The voices,
they want me to do this against my will,
The voices,
they're deeds they want me to fulfill,
The voices,
they are unstoppable,
The voices,
they are to powerful,
The voices,
they are trying to ruin what is beautiful,
The voices,
they drive me insane,
The voices,
they are 更多 evil than they claim,
The voices,
they plan to shed blood as they reign,
The voices,
they plan a massacre,
The voices,
they are ready for sure,
The voices,
they will kill who they lure,
The voices,
they tell me it is time,
The voices,
they told me to die,
The voices,
they're telling me to suicide
No im not crazy ;D
i just wrote this out of boredom.
[:
HOPE 你 LIKE IT (-:
x
Tears
falling down
my face
pain tearing
apart
my stomch
emotions
pouring out
shadows
covering my
射线, 雷 of
light
death
drawing me
in
a smile
covering my frown
as I think
as I let
my mind wander
as I
discover
possibilitys
a 射线, 雷 of light
made the 刀 gleam
made it closer
my quivering hand
touched the sharp
blade
my smile
grew wider
my hands stopped
shaking
my body stopped trembling
the blade
pierced my skin
I touched my neck
feeling the blood
satin
was sucking out
my sole
he persuaded
me
he tempted
me
he lied to
me
he cheated
me
my breathing stopped
my 心 stopped
beating
my fear was gone
my soul was gone
my life was gone
satin lossened
his grip
and sent me
to burn in hell for
eternity
alone
yet my real suffering
was over
falling down
my face
pain tearing
apart
my stomch
emotions
pouring out
shadows
covering my
射线, 雷 of
light
death
drawing me
in
a smile
covering my frown
as I think
as I let
my mind wander
as I
discover
possibilitys
a 射线, 雷 of light
made the 刀 gleam
made it closer
my quivering hand
touched the sharp
blade
my smile
grew wider
my hands stopped
shaking
my body stopped trembling
the blade
pierced my skin
I touched my neck
feeling the blood
satin
was sucking out
my sole
he persuaded
me
he tempted
me
he lied to
me
he cheated
me
my breathing stopped
my 心 stopped
beating
my fear was gone
my soul was gone
my life was gone
satin lossened
his grip
and sent me
to burn in hell for
eternity
alone
yet my real suffering
was over
