I never know if something might come up and the ranch might just go bankrupt, 或者 my truck might just quit working, 或者 something terrible might happen to people I love. I never know any 给 日 if when I walk out of my door that I will be able to make it back 首页 alive. That keeps me up at night
I guess this sounds cliche but from the rush of things. The need to be at a certain place at an exact time. I'd like to just live out in a house in the woods. I'd like to be free from having to work.
For the past 年 I've been craving a cosy country shack retreat during the winter, where I can just sit in front of the fireplace with 图书 或者 cross-stitching and tune out everything 哈哈
1) My emidiate family. My aunt and older sister both suck. None of them understand me, nor do they seem to try to. 2) Constantly second-guessing if my dad really loves me 或者 not. The last time I was at his house was a 月 and a half ago. 3) Never feeling like I belong anywhere (outside the net). 4) The constant societal pressure to conform to the ways of society, just go fit the fuck in. 5) Being constantly criticized 或者 corrected for doing (not doing) certain shit.
My self-doubt in 总体, 整体 as well as my uncertainty 或者 even paranoia towards some matters. There is the need to finally discard them and live my Life without holding back !!!!