Okay it's time to..Vent...
I grab a 刀 and some pills to try to ease the pain, but each it feels harder and harder to keep up and stay smiling. I wrote a poem with some beauty and some vision to it bottom line it my expend your mind if 你 read it closely. To much shine can dull the soul if your feel how I feel then I'll write some more...
How can the world be so mean to me when I did nothing to be in this darkness I now call life? I get a little honest and I ask myself, if the time came would 你 save me if I asked for help? I normally send my mind out to the outer most to get away from this reality and hope to find something better then living, And one thing I really want to know is how did so many people I know fall down the same path that I'm going, I don't want us to stop when we still have such a long way to go.
I see beauty in the eyes of complete strangers, hopeing to help them and maybe in return help me. But inside I get used when they need me and not come to me out of pure helplessness and out of greed 或者 lies.
I put my problems inside a tight box under lock and key buried off deep in my mind and when it gets to full and I can;t close the lid I crack and freak out on my family and close friends. Trade my stories for a piece of mind I'm so close to Heaven Hell I just need sometime.Who cares about where 你 come from 或者 what your wearing. I do this for the 爱情 others and this is purely art. Don;t be scared though times are hard I hope in the end 你 find something to live for and keep going on strong. In this world now 你 must keep strong because they want to see 你 down but it's us against them and it;s 你 and me. They try to break us down but we wont give up and I hope that my stories never steer 你 wrong. Most people just walk away but if it touches my soul then I'll help them out...
I know you've been down so long so I'll be strong for you...
I know you've been down so long cause I've been down to...
Yes I understand we your going through..
Yes I understand because I'm going through it to...
To vent....
Fierce & Love
Malmcd
Poem Girl
I grab a 刀 and some pills to try to ease the pain, but each it feels harder and harder to keep up and stay smiling. I wrote a poem with some beauty and some vision to it bottom line it my expend your mind if 你 read it closely. To much shine can dull the soul if your feel how I feel then I'll write some more...
How can the world be so mean to me when I did nothing to be in this darkness I now call life? I get a little honest and I ask myself, if the time came would 你 save me if I asked for help? I normally send my mind out to the outer most to get away from this reality and hope to find something better then living, And one thing I really want to know is how did so many people I know fall down the same path that I'm going, I don't want us to stop when we still have such a long way to go.
I see beauty in the eyes of complete strangers, hopeing to help them and maybe in return help me. But inside I get used when they need me and not come to me out of pure helplessness and out of greed 或者 lies.
I put my problems inside a tight box under lock and key buried off deep in my mind and when it gets to full and I can;t close the lid I crack and freak out on my family and close friends. Trade my stories for a piece of mind I'm so close to Heaven Hell I just need sometime.Who cares about where 你 come from 或者 what your wearing. I do this for the 爱情 others and this is purely art. Don;t be scared though times are hard I hope in the end 你 find something to live for and keep going on strong. In this world now 你 must keep strong because they want to see 你 down but it's us against them and it;s 你 and me. They try to break us down but we wont give up and I hope that my stories never steer 你 wrong. Most people just walk away but if it touches my soul then I'll help them out...
I know you've been down so long so I'll be strong for you...
I know you've been down so long cause I've been down to...
Yes I understand we your going through..
Yes I understand because I'm going through it to...
To vent....
Fierce & Love
Malmcd
Poem Girl
I stare up at my little red ballon....
Floating above me,
Without a care in the world.
I wish to be like my little red ballon..
I want to fly..
So I can fly away from all the.
Hurt and Pain
And Scars and sadness..
I want to fly away from this colorless world..
And be free..
And just not care
Not care about what everyone thinks
So says 或者 does..
Just float.
So I 说 to myself..
Self,
Why don't 你 go learn how to fly?
Why don't 你 try to learn?
So 你 my be free..
And then I got this crazy I idea that...
What if I jumped from a really high place..
And maybe just maybe I'd just know what to do..
As I walk shaky up to the edge I see a never ending life of sadness in front of me..
But if I look up I see a life of happiness and I now I want to go there...
Just one 更多 step..
And I'll fly..
Just like my little red ballon..
And be free..
~P.S THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME~
Floating above me,
Without a care in the world.
I wish to be like my little red ballon..
I want to fly..
So I can fly away from all the.
Hurt and Pain
And Scars and sadness..
I want to fly away from this colorless world..
And be free..
And just not care
Not care about what everyone thinks
So says 或者 does..
Just float.
So I 说 to myself..
Self,
Why don't 你 go learn how to fly?
Why don't 你 try to learn?
So 你 my be free..
And then I got this crazy I idea that...
What if I jumped from a really high place..
And maybe just maybe I'd just know what to do..
As I walk shaky up to the edge I see a never ending life of sadness in front of me..
But if I look up I see a life of happiness and I now I want to go there...
Just one 更多 step..
And I'll fly..
Just like my little red ballon..
And be free..
~P.S THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME~
Okay here;s what's going on...
I found help and I made it to a phone in time I was brought to the doctors and ER and whatever.
The reason why I keep on passing out is because I triggered something in my spine that leads to my nerves and I messed it all up. I was also put on some new meds that help with sleep they messed up everything also but also I've been really sad lately..And the reason behind that is some meds I have to take everyday..
I take two pills in the morning because I need help focusing because when I was younger my mind couldn't tell what was fiction and what was reality I would get 迷失 in my mind and sometimes couldn;t find a way out..But as I'm getting older those meds are working against me and in there theres some type of thing that triggers depression so I am no only taking those..
I'm really sick the doctor said..
And another thing,,
I came out..
I told my mother what I'd been doing..
About the pills..
So were working that out to..
I found help and I made it to a phone in time I was brought to the doctors and ER and whatever.
The reason why I keep on passing out is because I triggered something in my spine that leads to my nerves and I messed it all up. I was also put on some new meds that help with sleep they messed up everything also but also I've been really sad lately..And the reason behind that is some meds I have to take everyday..
I take two pills in the morning because I need help focusing because when I was younger my mind couldn't tell what was fiction and what was reality I would get 迷失 in my mind and sometimes couldn;t find a way out..But as I'm getting older those meds are working against me and in there theres some type of thing that triggers depression so I am no only taking those..
I'm really sick the doctor said..
And another thing,,
I came out..
I told my mother what I'd been doing..
About the pills..
So were working that out to..
