just a short thing I typed up
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I had decided that I would never truly be happy. It was an impossibility not only because I was a vampire, after all Peter and 夏洛特 seemed happy. In her own way, even Maria was happy. My situation was something else. My past? My abilities? Peter and I had slimier pasts but it had been worse for me. I’d been sucked in further. I had believed Maria’s lies. And I had felt the pain of my victims. Peter could ignore that. I couldn’t.
I was preparing to feed when I realized my victim was no longer alone. He was joined 由 a girl his age and they smiled at each other. I could feel their 爱情 and it was stronger than average. The girl walked away (she had to buy some last 分钟 ingredients for 晚餐 tonight) and the man sighed quietly. I could have attacked but I didn’t. Attacking this man, feeding, wouldn’t make me any happier whereas this man, if he lived, had a decent chance at real happiness. Part of me felt bitter: if I can’t be happy why should he? But I still decided not to. Me being uncomfortable was a sacrifice for the greater good. The one for the many. I was thirsty though. My eyes were black. Yet I decided to try not to destroy anyone’s world in an effort to make mine 更多 bearable. My world would never be worth living in and maybe I could achieve some degree of pleasure, 或者 rather escape from my pain, just 由 watching others happiness. Not a lot of escape just a small distraction. But it didn't last long. Two days. I had to feed. It was my very nature. So I tried to feed only on the depressed. Those who would rather not be alive anyway. I fed only when I had to, but I found my willpower was not as strong as I'd thought. Not as strong as it should be. That only added to my misery.
I had gone awhile now: almost three months of trying to deny myself only to fail. My eyes were black again. My plan to borrow happiness had failed. I would gravitate toward a happy human, but human emotions change all to soon. People were staring at me now. I’d been so 迷失 in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that it was now pouring rain. I walked hesitantly into a diner, wondering if I would cave.
As soon as I stepped inside I had bigger problems. Another vampire. She walked right to me. An attack? I could win. She was tiny. I didn't want to fight the little thing though. Then I caught her emotions. It felt like walking out of a storm and into a sunny place. This was 更多 than the highs humans sometimes felt. Her lower lip pouted out slightly "You've kept me waiting a long time" she scolded. Well, it had been more. Now I'd ruined it and though I didn't know how I felt deeply ashamed. I must have done something terribly wrong. My head fell and I felt sick "I'm sorry ma'am" I managed. Wait! Her emotions hadn't changed. She wasn't truly angry, she was even amused 由 my response. She wasn't angry, she wasn't angry, she wasn't angry! I hadn't destroyed this lovely girl even for a moment. She held out her hand to me and I took it. I wondered too late if that was overly bold on my part. Yet I knew she would not scold me again and for that I was grateful. Her happiness climbed slightly when I touched her. Was it possible that I could in any way make her happy? Make this beauty happy? Life had meaning. I had hope.
enjoy!
I had decided that I would never truly be happy. It was an impossibility not only because I was a vampire, after all Peter and 夏洛特 seemed happy. In her own way, even Maria was happy. My situation was something else. My past? My abilities? Peter and I had slimier pasts but it had been worse for me. I’d been sucked in further. I had believed Maria’s lies. And I had felt the pain of my victims. Peter could ignore that. I couldn’t.
I was preparing to feed when I realized my victim was no longer alone. He was joined 由 a girl his age and they smiled at each other. I could feel their 爱情 and it was stronger than average. The girl walked away (she had to buy some last 分钟 ingredients for 晚餐 tonight) and the man sighed quietly. I could have attacked but I didn’t. Attacking this man, feeding, wouldn’t make me any happier whereas this man, if he lived, had a decent chance at real happiness. Part of me felt bitter: if I can’t be happy why should he? But I still decided not to. Me being uncomfortable was a sacrifice for the greater good. The one for the many. I was thirsty though. My eyes were black. Yet I decided to try not to destroy anyone’s world in an effort to make mine 更多 bearable. My world would never be worth living in and maybe I could achieve some degree of pleasure, 或者 rather escape from my pain, just 由 watching others happiness. Not a lot of escape just a small distraction. But it didn't last long. Two days. I had to feed. It was my very nature. So I tried to feed only on the depressed. Those who would rather not be alive anyway. I fed only when I had to, but I found my willpower was not as strong as I'd thought. Not as strong as it should be. That only added to my misery.
I had gone awhile now: almost three months of trying to deny myself only to fail. My eyes were black again. My plan to borrow happiness had failed. I would gravitate toward a happy human, but human emotions change all to soon. People were staring at me now. I’d been so 迷失 in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that it was now pouring rain. I walked hesitantly into a diner, wondering if I would cave.
As soon as I stepped inside I had bigger problems. Another vampire. She walked right to me. An attack? I could win. She was tiny. I didn't want to fight the little thing though. Then I caught her emotions. It felt like walking out of a storm and into a sunny place. This was 更多 than the highs humans sometimes felt. Her lower lip pouted out slightly "You've kept me waiting a long time" she scolded. Well, it had been more. Now I'd ruined it and though I didn't know how I felt deeply ashamed. I must have done something terribly wrong. My head fell and I felt sick "I'm sorry ma'am" I managed. Wait! Her emotions hadn't changed. She wasn't truly angry, she was even amused 由 my response. She wasn't angry, she wasn't angry, she wasn't angry! I hadn't destroyed this lovely girl even for a moment. She held out her hand to me and I took it. I wondered too late if that was overly bold on my part. Yet I knew she would not scold me again and for that I was grateful. Her happiness climbed slightly when I touched her. Was it possible that I could in any way make her happy? Make this beauty happy? Life had meaning. I had hope.
Jane's POV
Me and the others quickly approched Forks hospital, I looked around. Then i spun around a nodded. The others took off going around back. I walked to the front, I held a single gun. But i knew I didnt need it! *giggle*
Renesme lay in pain on the rock hard hospital. She moaned in pain. "It's ok" Jacob 说 softly. *Screaming in distince* "What...was that?" Bella inqiured.Edward shook his head. For he didnt know. *gunshots* Bella and Edward stood up, frightened. "Edward go check whats happining,I'll call Alice and the others ok?" Edward agreed and ran out the room. Bella quickly dialed her other family member's. On the other line, Alice and the whole family listened. "Well be there in 5 miniutes!" Shouted Alice into the phone. 5 分钟 later, the rest of the cullens arrived, rushing to a certain room, with a certain girl crying out in pain.
Me and the others quickly approched Forks hospital, I looked around. Then i spun around a nodded. The others took off going around back. I walked to the front, I held a single gun. But i knew I didnt need it! *giggle*
Renesme lay in pain on the rock hard hospital. She moaned in pain. "It's ok" Jacob 说 softly. *Screaming in distince* "What...was that?" Bella inqiured.Edward shook his head. For he didnt know. *gunshots* Bella and Edward stood up, frightened. "Edward go check whats happining,I'll call Alice and the others ok?" Edward agreed and ran out the room. Bella quickly dialed her other family member's. On the other line, Alice and the whole family listened. "Well be there in 5 miniutes!" Shouted Alice into the phone. 5 分钟 later, the rest of the cullens arrived, rushing to a certain room, with a certain girl crying out in pain.
Nessie's POV
I looked around curiously, I starred at the strange objects moving around my head. What were they? I looked around 更多 and 更多 and became scared of my surroundings, I let out a small cry and started to kick and wiggle about. A moment later and tall dark haired man appered-My father Edward Cullen. He scooped me up and gently started rocking me back and forth. "Shhh Ness, its ok" He rocked and kissed me for a few 更多 分钟 then set me down into my 床, 床上 agian. Soon I fell asleep.
I looked around curiously, I starred at the strange objects moving around my head. What were they? I looked around 更多 and 更多 and became scared of my surroundings, I let out a small cry and started to kick and wiggle about. A moment later and tall dark haired man appered-My father Edward Cullen. He scooped me up and gently started rocking me back and forth. "Shhh Ness, its ok" He rocked and kissed me for a few 更多 分钟 then set me down into my 床, 床上 agian. Soon I fell asleep.
According to MTV:
“Taylor Lautner and Kristen Stewart are among the first to 确认 that they’ll be attending, making the pair a recurring feature on the red carpet (remember their adorable joint presentation of a “scary movie”-themed feature at last year’s Academy Awards?), and they’ll be in good company with a host of other celebs including Zac Efron, Taylor Swift, Emma Roberts, Leighton Meester, and Mila Kunis. ”
Other 名人 tend to walk the red carpet, so be on the lookout for 更多 names to be at the 显示 on January 5th. Twilight was up for a ton of awards, expect Taylor and Kristen to pick up a few as well as possibly be presenters.
你 can also catch live Red Carpet coverage on @Ustream at 4:30pm PT / 7:30pm ET on Jan 5! link