It was with a heavy 心 that I left Forks. It pained me to think that I would never see her lovely face again, never hear her tinkling voice -for I am determined to fight all the demons inside me. – I am determined to stay away. I won’t ruin her, even her family, even her Jacob. I realized I 爱情 her too much to cause her pain. I agonized over the fact that I was merely created to bring her pain.
I realized I could never go back to my coven. I knew I would be dead the instant I stepped into the 城堡 and once I'm gone, they would come up with another devious and intricate plan against the Cullens. I would merely be just an experiment who failed. No, I couldn’t have that. I’ll let them think I was still laying the bait. I don’t know how long they would be satisfied with my excuse. Somehow I have to meet Edward and give him my warning. But that would have to wait. I have to forget about his daughter first.
With no particular plan, I wandered around. Often, a war would wage inside me.
Just a short visit to Forks wouldn’t hurt her.
Just a glimpse of her face that’s not too much to ask.
NO! Isn’t loving her torture enough?
So, I continued to jump to one place to another until I found New Hampshire and Dartmouth. Its charming serenity somehow reminded me of Forks. I decided to stay. I enrolled myself. I forged a lot of documents and 圣女魔咒 my way through the interviews until I found myself accepted. Why am doing this? I once thought. I realized I needed normalcy. This would be something I would do if I were normal, if I were human enough.
I was taking an evening stroll, on my way to my 最喜爱的 spot, a quaint little garden at the back of an old building, when I heard a familiar tinkling laugh.
I stood 《冰雪奇缘》 on the spot in front of a dormitory.
Could it be?
NO…
“I think we could be really good friends, Jenny.”
Her voice… How many nights have I dreamed of hearing it once again?
NO! NO! NO!
“Let’s eat out.”
It was like demons trying to strangle my throat. Will I never escape? Is she taunting me? Haven’t I stayed far away? Why did she have to be here? We can not be in one place at the same time.
Anger boiled inside me. She has no idea of the torment she has caused me, no idea at all.
She has no idea of the anguish I felt.
But then again, even though angered, I found myself following her once again. I couldn’t deny the fact that I wanted to see her face.
I could not keep my eyes away from her. I wanted to drown myself with her loveliness. I couldn’t look away when our eyes met. I could almost taste the electricity in the air with the tip of my tongue.
She seemed to recognize me…How could she? She doesn’t know I exist until now.
I felt her fear.
Good. She should be.
I felt her curiosity.
She can’t know me, not the real me.
I felt her…wait…she can’t be…is she really drawn to me? Almost like she was attracted...
Half of me rejoiced. There’s still hope.
Half of me waged war towards the tiny spark of hope I felt.
You wanted her 安全 right? Stay away…
I clenched my fists. Do I have to go to the other side of the globe just to keep her safe? I winced as I realized that I could do just that. I would do everything to keep her safe.
* * *
I followed her to her dormitory then went to my 最喜爱的 garden. I lifted the violin and nestled it on my shoulder then rested my chin on it. I closed my eyes, the bow poised in midair above the strings. I saw her beautiful face flashed before me. I was 迷失 in the intensity I never knew before. I poured my 心 out to the melody unraveling itself to me. It sang of the joy of realizing love, the sorrow of crushed hope, the torment of trying to forget.
The melody of the violin filled the air. I hope it would reach her so she would know that I would trade everything so that I could be with her…So that I could 爱情 her freely… So that I would be free of my obligation…
I bowed my head and continued to play my violin. It cried a lament of unrequited love.
A sonata for Renesmee.
* * *
The Sonata is vivid on my head. I wish I had my violin with me. I was caught up with my reveries, I wasn’t able to sense him until he stood in front of my tree.
“Where is she? Tell me!” Jacob growled. He was flanked 由 two gigantic werewolves. The sandy one whimpered while the grey one bared its pointed teeth to me.
“Where is she?” Jacob shouted. I could see he’s about to lose control.
I jumped from the branch to the ground, landing softly in front of him.
“What are 你 talking about?”
“Nessie’s gone!”
The sonata inside my head abruptly turned into a sound of Renesmee’s bloodcurdling screams. Cold water was poured to my entire body. I couldn’t breathe. Could it be possible that they have found out already?
“NOOOO!!!!”
I realized I could never go back to my coven. I knew I would be dead the instant I stepped into the 城堡 and once I'm gone, they would come up with another devious and intricate plan against the Cullens. I would merely be just an experiment who failed. No, I couldn’t have that. I’ll let them think I was still laying the bait. I don’t know how long they would be satisfied with my excuse. Somehow I have to meet Edward and give him my warning. But that would have to wait. I have to forget about his daughter first.
With no particular plan, I wandered around. Often, a war would wage inside me.
Just a short visit to Forks wouldn’t hurt her.
Just a glimpse of her face that’s not too much to ask.
NO! Isn’t loving her torture enough?
So, I continued to jump to one place to another until I found New Hampshire and Dartmouth. Its charming serenity somehow reminded me of Forks. I decided to stay. I enrolled myself. I forged a lot of documents and 圣女魔咒 my way through the interviews until I found myself accepted. Why am doing this? I once thought. I realized I needed normalcy. This would be something I would do if I were normal, if I were human enough.
I was taking an evening stroll, on my way to my 最喜爱的 spot, a quaint little garden at the back of an old building, when I heard a familiar tinkling laugh.
I stood 《冰雪奇缘》 on the spot in front of a dormitory.
Could it be?
NO…
“I think we could be really good friends, Jenny.”
Her voice… How many nights have I dreamed of hearing it once again?
NO! NO! NO!
“Let’s eat out.”
It was like demons trying to strangle my throat. Will I never escape? Is she taunting me? Haven’t I stayed far away? Why did she have to be here? We can not be in one place at the same time.
Anger boiled inside me. She has no idea of the torment she has caused me, no idea at all.
She has no idea of the anguish I felt.
But then again, even though angered, I found myself following her once again. I couldn’t deny the fact that I wanted to see her face.
I could not keep my eyes away from her. I wanted to drown myself with her loveliness. I couldn’t look away when our eyes met. I could almost taste the electricity in the air with the tip of my tongue.
She seemed to recognize me…How could she? She doesn’t know I exist until now.
I felt her fear.
Good. She should be.
I felt her curiosity.
She can’t know me, not the real me.
I felt her…wait…she can’t be…is she really drawn to me? Almost like she was attracted...
Half of me rejoiced. There’s still hope.
Half of me waged war towards the tiny spark of hope I felt.
You wanted her 安全 right? Stay away…
I clenched my fists. Do I have to go to the other side of the globe just to keep her safe? I winced as I realized that I could do just that. I would do everything to keep her safe.
* * *
I followed her to her dormitory then went to my 最喜爱的 garden. I lifted the violin and nestled it on my shoulder then rested my chin on it. I closed my eyes, the bow poised in midair above the strings. I saw her beautiful face flashed before me. I was 迷失 in the intensity I never knew before. I poured my 心 out to the melody unraveling itself to me. It sang of the joy of realizing love, the sorrow of crushed hope, the torment of trying to forget.
The melody of the violin filled the air. I hope it would reach her so she would know that I would trade everything so that I could be with her…So that I could 爱情 her freely… So that I would be free of my obligation…
I bowed my head and continued to play my violin. It cried a lament of unrequited love.
A sonata for Renesmee.
* * *
The Sonata is vivid on my head. I wish I had my violin with me. I was caught up with my reveries, I wasn’t able to sense him until he stood in front of my tree.
“Where is she? Tell me!” Jacob growled. He was flanked 由 two gigantic werewolves. The sandy one whimpered while the grey one bared its pointed teeth to me.
“Where is she?” Jacob shouted. I could see he’s about to lose control.
I jumped from the branch to the ground, landing softly in front of him.
“What are 你 talking about?”
“Nessie’s gone!”
The sonata inside my head abruptly turned into a sound of Renesmee’s bloodcurdling screams. Cold water was poured to my entire body. I couldn’t breathe. Could it be possible that they have found out already?
“NOOOO!!!!”
ok so i am going to come out with this as i think it i 爱情 twilight it is brill but i hate edward i think he is to controling over bella and he doesn't want her to go and see jacob because jacob is way better looking than he is and he is afrad that he will get better and another thing is why do people think that he is good looking i think he is really ugly i can't see why people really fancy him i luv taylor launter and i am 100% a team jacob because at the end of the 日 jacob is just way better than edward and that is the end of it!
how i finished the beginning of this sentance:
jacob black:
sucks
has rabies
is mental
is on steroids
tried to steal bella
failed at stealing bella
hates edward
is stupid
is retarded
couldn't be a human
is a dog
is sooooooooooooooooo-ooooooooooo-oooooooo-ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
retarded i can't even say how stupid he is and he should never 日期 renesmee and is a big fat lozer who wont ever 日期 a cool girl and to prove it he forced bella to 吻乐队(Kiss) him. wat a lozer...:)
i hate jacob
team edward... <3
jacob black:
sucks
has rabies
is mental
is on steroids
tried to steal bella
failed at stealing bella
hates edward
is stupid
is retarded
couldn't be a human
is a dog
is sooooooooooooooooo-ooooooooooo-oooooooo-ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
retarded i can't even say how stupid he is and he should never 日期 renesmee and is a big fat lozer who wont ever 日期 a cool girl and to prove it he forced bella to 吻乐队(Kiss) him. wat a lozer...:)
i hate jacob
team edward... <3
10 Ways to Annoy Carlisle Cullen
10. Tell him only to address 你 in a cute English accent.
9. Call him Carlisle, but be sure to pronounce the “s”. When he corrects you, give him a weird look and tell him the “q” is silent.
8. Ask if blondes really do have 更多 fun.
7. Inquire as to what he actually does on his night shift on the hospital, with all the pretty nurses in the ER.
6. Instead of telling him to “get lost” in an argument, tell him to swim to France.
5. When he annoys you, respond with “times have changed, old man”.
4. Ask what type of superhuman power compassion is – what does he do in a fight? 爱情 thy enemy to death?
3. Leap out from behind the 台, 办公桌 in his study when he isn’t expecting it and spray him with Holy Water.
2. Call him McSteamy 或者 McDreamy.
And the Number One way to annoy Carlisle Cullen?
1. Run around the Emergency Room screaming “I’ve been bitten! I’ve been bitten!”
10. Tell him only to address 你 in a cute English accent.
9. Call him Carlisle, but be sure to pronounce the “s”. When he corrects you, give him a weird look and tell him the “q” is silent.
8. Ask if blondes really do have 更多 fun.
7. Inquire as to what he actually does on his night shift on the hospital, with all the pretty nurses in the ER.
6. Instead of telling him to “get lost” in an argument, tell him to swim to France.
5. When he annoys you, respond with “times have changed, old man”.
4. Ask what type of superhuman power compassion is – what does he do in a fight? 爱情 thy enemy to death?
3. Leap out from behind the 台, 办公桌 in his study when he isn’t expecting it and spray him with Holy Water.
2. Call him McSteamy 或者 McDreamy.
And the Number One way to annoy Carlisle Cullen?
1. Run around the Emergency Room screaming “I’ve been bitten! I’ve been bitten!”