I'd always had some hope inside me, hope that shined like the brightest star, because that was just me. Yuri Satomi. I knew there was hope; that little light at the end of the long tunnel that kept someone walking, that hand always pulling 你 up when 你 don't know what to do anymore?

Well. That hope, if there ever was some inside me, was gone. Forever gone.

I guess I should start from the very beginning, my story, when I had first met Duncan.

I pounded on the carpeted floor. I was eleven, and really, really annoyed. I sobbed, long and deep, my blonde streak falling into my tear-stained eyes. "Stop it..." I managed, trying to push the twelve-year-old boy in front of me away. "Go away, Duncan."
"I won't go away," he insisted. "I just wanted to say hi!"
"Go AWAY!" I shouted, hitting him in the face, flinching as he drew back.
"Sorry, Yuri!" He gasped. "I 说 I was sorry."
I growled. "You are not sorry. 你 were never sorry. Leave me alone."
I stared into his eyes, feeling some of me sadness vanish, and it was abruptly replaced 由 wonder and a weird longing.

"Dammit, Duncan," I whispered. "Go away."
"Forget it, Yuri!" He snapped, and he ran away, and I had no idea what he was up to.
My knees crumpled, and I fell to the ground, sobbing. My cheek brushed a dandelion, and I groaned. A single, clear teardrop spattered on my blue sweater, and I gave in to myself, lying there. I didn't think I could do anything else. He had done that to me, Duncan had hurt me, maybe for life. He... he 说 that he didn't care about me anymore. We were best friends, and then he just 说 it, out of nowhere, leaving me hanging.

I lay there until my 最喜爱的 teacher, Ms. Lyrine, found me there, and brushed my tears off my face. "Kiyuri?"
I tried to speak, but I coughed instead to keep from crying.
"Kiyuri."
I sobbed.
"What did Duncan do?"
"It's all his fault," I murmured. "He said..."
I paused. "Go on," Ms. Lyrine urged.
"He 说 that I wasn't his best friend anymore. He 说 that he didn't care about me. He 说 that he would 由 happy if I died!"

"I didn't," Duncan murmured, and I realized that he was there, behind my teacher.
"You did!" I screamed. "You 说 you..."
"I know what I said, Yuri. I didn't mean it!"
"Stop it. Go away."
"Duncan, why did 你 say that to Kiyuri?"
"I 说 I didn't mean it!" Duncan argued.
"Do not EVER say that again, if 你 didn't mean it, Duncan."

I blinked, and the tears threatened to overflow.
"Alright, ma'am," Duncan gave in.
I smirked.
"Thank you, Duncan." Ms. Lyrine's voice was soft. "There, now. Are 你 okay, Yuri?"
No,, I almost said. No way. How do 你 expect me to be OKAY?!
But all I did was nod. What else could I do?
Ms. Lyrine patted my hair. And she left, leaving me and Duncan.

"Yuri, why won't 你 believe me?"
"Because I don't." I shivered.
Duncan sniffed. "Why don't you?"
"Because that's all 你 are." My voice was dangerous. "That's all 你 want, power. 你 don't care about anyone, Duncan. Not me, not anyone."
"That's not true!" He protested. "Yuri!"
I avoided staring into his eyes, so that wouldn't distract me.
"It's true," I snarled. I'd never been easy to forgive someone. "And 你 know what, Duncan? I don't care, either. I don't care if 你 go away, if 你 disappear from this world forever."

It wasn't true, obviously, but at that moment, I just wanted to hurt him. I would do anything.

He patted my head, and I stared at him. "What?"
"Yuri..."
"I said, what?" I demanded.
"I care, Yuri," he 说 seriously.
"I don't," I snapped.
Duncan sighed. "I'll leave you, Yuri. If 你 want."
"Go away forever. Do that, and I'll be happy."
He smiled. "Not likely, Yuri."
"Go away!" I repeated, with 更多 emphasis.

And he did, leaving me there, along, my face buried in the long grass, wishing I was dead.