[i] "im not able to do this,"i thought in my head. he was staring right at me. "well,say something!"i thought. then,i spoke,spoke those dreaded words ive been dreading since TDI. "duncan,do 你 want to go out?"an awkward silence,whats he gonna say?will i ever know?

So restless,i couldnt sleep,no,no i couldnt. if i sleep now,i could never sleep again.itll be too late if i dont go now.it will be.i just knew.someone could go at any moment.Courtney might want him back.Gwen might have the guts. 或者 the worst, [i] HEATHER WOULD ASK HIM!

i knew i had to now.i got up,put on my clothes,and made my way for the TDI set.

"i hope no bears will come out and eat me,"i said.i had the note in my hand,ready to give it to him.Or at least,leave it at his door. i knocked, left it,and left. the note said,[i] Meet me at the chris ceremony stage.
from,
a secret admirer.

when i thought of the letter,as i sat in the stadium,i thought,"stupid. why did i say from a secret admirer?"

Then,i saw him. "oh,no"i tohught,i was gonna turn around and hide. but,i knew if i did,id kick myself in the back.i stayed,thinking of what to say,nothing.I knew that,this was gonna be strange.