When I was elementary, I'm always friendly and cheerful. But now, when I grew up, I'm getting shy and shyer. My past 老友记 were 迷失 and I started to fail on my studies. I started to get quiet, alone, and nervous around people, especially in school and public with strangers. Everyone thinks that I was nothing that they don't understand why I'm quiet and prefer to isolate. But on the inside, my 心 always pumps rapidly and I have difficulty breathing and cold sweat. It's because, I feel 更多 安全 to isolate than being around people. But, when I have no choice, I prefer to blend in the background, "DAYDREAMING". And I think that there is something wrong with me in which can't be explained and unreasonable. But, it may be also in my past elementary days. I don't remember what grade am I, but I'm studying in this school grades 3-6 were there is always a boy who often bullies me. I don't let want to say who is he. He loses my things, saying rude words to me, and other bully things that he does to me. And I don't let want to tell my parents if there's someone who is bullying me because I fear that they will get angry on me. Instead, I'm saying NONE. But there are other students who bully me too. Especially, boys. And because of bullying, I started to get nervous around people 或者 any people. When I'm in High School, now, I was completely nothing. Instead, the quiet and a loner person. So, I think there's really something wrong with me and I get some help with Google. I search, *why i'm so quiet and shy in school*? And I see the answer on some websites, it maybe S.A.D. (Fear of social situations). But, some people said, you're the only one who can help yourself. Yes, I agree but, it still should be taken seriously. Because it's a kind of chronic and it ruins my life and my daily basis. So, my parents planned to bring me on some specialist to give me an advice. But, not right now. Maybe on semestral break. Because, my Mother said, it's still important to get an expert's 建议 to improve my social skills than to be on my own help. So, my conclusion is, Psychiatrist first, before overcome. My Mother got my point too.