It's Complicated Chapter Fifty Eight
I got the stage and played a dub step violinist. I could really just let go and dance however I wanted to this song. It was classical but it also had a heavy beat to it. It was the last song I heard before I went deaf. I tried my best to remember how it went.
I hit play and tried to follow the beat. I tried and tried to dance to it. But I could barley hear anything out of the headphones. I had the volume all the way up.
Some guy walked in and was talking. He was not signing at all. I gave him a funny look.
"Sorry, I thought 你 were hearing," he signed.
"I use to be," I signed as I took off the headphones.
"Oh okay. What were 你 listening too," he asked.
"A dub step violinist. It was the last song I listened to before I went deaf," I signed.
"Oh, she can really play," he signed.
"If 你 are hearing, why are 你 at this school," I asked confused.
"I am slowly losing my hearing. So, my parents thought it would be good to get an early start. But most kids here know I'm hearings," he signed.
"Ahh okay," I signed, "I am so sorry 你 are going to lose your hearing!"
"I will adjust. How did 你 go deaf," he asked.
"I don't want to say," I signed.
"Did 你 dance before 你 went deaf," he asked.
"Yes and no. I took lesson when I was toddler but nothing since then," I signed.
"That's cool! 你 are going to laugh, but I was a pretty good dancer until I started losing hearing," he signed.
"No I won't! Awe, I am so sorry," I stated, "did 你 have to stop because of it?"
"No, I figured I needed to be here learning this incredible language then be off dancing for fun," he signed.
"Oh wow, I bet your parents are proud of you," I signed.
"I guess so," he signed as he shrugged his shoulders.
"Well, they should be," I signed as he smiled.
"How did 你 learn to do the dance moves 你 were just doing," he asked signing, "I know that they did not teach 你 that when 你 were a toddler!"
"I watched my step-sister and step-brother-in-law dance at a recital. I liked it a lot so I tried to memorize the step," I signed.
"Ahh okay," he signed, "this may sound weird but do 你 want to try and dance together?"
"I think that'd be fun. Now, I can't hear so 你 are going to have to lead me," I stated.
"Alright, I will don't worry," he 说 as he hopped on stage.
It was so awkward dancing with a complete stranger. But soon it was just something we both enjoyed. I started having a lot of fun. We did the waltz and the swing. Eventually we tried just dancing something together but it did not work out at all. We ended up standing there laughing. We were on totally two different beats.
"This is why I told my step-sister that deaf cannot dance," I signed.
"Deaf people can dance too," he signed.
"Yeah but not me," I signed.
"With enough practice 你 can," he signed.
"Sure," I signed smirking.
"Why has dancing become so important to 你 lately," he asked.
"I, have to go bed," I signed and tried to walk away.
"Come on, it's too early for that," he said.
"I have to go," I signed.
I jumped off the stage and ran for then door. I bumped into Jasper on my way out.
"Woah, is everything okay," he asked signing.
"Yeah, I just don't like making new friends," I signed.
I looked behind me and the door to the stage room opened.
"Jasper, I want go somewhere else," I signed.
"Okay let's go." He signed, "that's one of my friends. He is nice guy. 你 should not be afraid of him."
"Thanks," I signed as we walked away.
"What's wrong? Did he do something to you," Jasper asked worried.
"He started asking 问题 and I freaked out. I tried to walk away and he grabbed my wrist. He didn't hurt me but I starting to have flashbacks," I signed.
"It's okay Lila," he signed and wrapped me in a hug., "I won't let anything happen to you. I promise!"
I didn't know what to say Jasper so I just smiled and hugged him again.
"I am going to head to bed," jasper signed, "see 你 in the morning!"
"Okay, goodnight," I signed.
The 下一个 morning I woke up to Jasper waking me up.
"You are going to be late for breakfast," he signed.
"Ugh, I didn't hear my alarm," I sign as I sat up.
"Lila, 你 are deaf that might be why," he signed a bit sarcastically.
"Wow, I totally forgot about that," I 说 sarcastically, "the flash never woke me up!"
"That explains it. When did your roommate 移动 out," Jasper asked as he pointed across the room.
"I don't know? I did not realize she was gone," I stated.
"Wow, no wondered she moved out," Jasper signed laughing.
"I have to get ready," I signed.
"Okay, I'll meet ya down stairs," he signed and left.
I hurried myself up this morning. I hated being rushed to get ready. I liked to be lazy and just walk around and take my time. But I finished and went down stairs to breakfast.
"Hey, I am up and not ready for school," I signed.
"Same here, I wanted the weekend to last longer," Jasper signed.
"Yeah," I 说 as I got in line for food.
"So 你 were talking to Scotty last night," Jasper 说 signing.
"Oh, I didn't know that was his name," I signed.
"Yeah, so what did y'all talk about," he asked curiously.
"He was asking me how I went deaf and stuff. I just can't tell anyone. The words won't come out of my mouth," I signed, "well, technically I can't sign the word."
"Would 你 rather me explain it to him? If 你 even want him to know," jasper asked.
"I don't know. I should really tell people myself," I stated, "I will eventually get comfortable with tell people!"
"That's right," he signed, "it takes time."
Jasper and I sat at the same 表 and talked that morning.
"Where are your 老友记 at," I asked.
"Playing basketball, they got up early to eat and then go play,' he signed.
"And 你 didn't want to go," I asked.
"I did but I wanted to make sure 你 were okay. And that 你 would wake up on time," Jasper joked.
"Right; if 你 want 你 can go 加入 them and I will come in there in a little bit," I signed.
Okay thanks," he 说 signing.
He got up and practically sprinted to the 篮球 courts.
I finished eating and made my way there. I noticed the door opened and in walked Jacob Black. I stopped where I was at. I stood there still hoping he would not notice me.
"Hey Lila, are 你 okay," Scotty asked me.
"Umm, sorta," I 说 as I walked away, "how did 你 find me?!"
"Dad told me where 你 were," Jake said.
"You cannot be hear! What about that restraining order," I asked almost yelling.
"Lila, 你 do not have to yell! People will hear you," he said.
"Jacob everyone here is deaf," I stated, "do 你 understand what that means?!"
"Don't get smart with me," he demanded, "what are 你 looking at?!"
I turned around to see Scotty still standing there.
"Help me and I will explain later," I signed.
"Lila, I am talking to you," Jacob 说 Scotty came and stood 下一个 me.
"What do 你 want," I asked nicely as possible.
"Ella is getting married soon and she wants us to be on good turns for the wedding," he 说 as he continued talking and I got lost.
"Scotty can 你 interpret the last part," I asked aloud.
"He 说 that 你 two will be walking down the isle together," he signed.
"No, no, no way," I said, "I am not touching 你 at all. I don't even want to be near you?!"
"Whether 你 like it 或者 not, we are going to be in this wedding together. I want Ella to be happy and if that means I am dragging 你 down the isle so be it," Jake 说 as Scotty interpreted.
"Jacob 你 better leave here before I call security," Jasper's voice rang through room.
"Remember what I said, whatever makes her happy," Jake 说 through his teeth.
Jake stood there and glared at me as Jasper came to my side.
"I will personally talk to Ella. Just leave me alone," I said.
"Jake this is your final warning," Jasper threatened.
"Can it deaf boy! The restraining order is up," Jake 说 as I almost fell to the ground.
Jake turned around and walked out the door. I never ran so fast to my bedroom before. I got there and locked the door behind me. I went to the window and watched Jake leave.
I started crying. The fear of standing in front of him washed over me and I broke down. I slid to the floor and wrapped my arms around my legs. I was sobbing.
I felt someone touch me and I screamed in defense.
"Shh, it's just Jasper," he said.
I felt his arm 包, 换行 all the way around me and I just sat there crying.
I got the stage and played a dub step violinist. I could really just let go and dance however I wanted to this song. It was classical but it also had a heavy beat to it. It was the last song I heard before I went deaf. I tried my best to remember how it went.
I hit play and tried to follow the beat. I tried and tried to dance to it. But I could barley hear anything out of the headphones. I had the volume all the way up.
Some guy walked in and was talking. He was not signing at all. I gave him a funny look.
"Sorry, I thought 你 were hearing," he signed.
"I use to be," I signed as I took off the headphones.
"Oh okay. What were 你 listening too," he asked.
"A dub step violinist. It was the last song I listened to before I went deaf," I signed.
"Oh, she can really play," he signed.
"If 你 are hearing, why are 你 at this school," I asked confused.
"I am slowly losing my hearing. So, my parents thought it would be good to get an early start. But most kids here know I'm hearings," he signed.
"Ahh okay," I signed, "I am so sorry 你 are going to lose your hearing!"
"I will adjust. How did 你 go deaf," he asked.
"I don't want to say," I signed.
"Did 你 dance before 你 went deaf," he asked.
"Yes and no. I took lesson when I was toddler but nothing since then," I signed.
"That's cool! 你 are going to laugh, but I was a pretty good dancer until I started losing hearing," he signed.
"No I won't! Awe, I am so sorry," I stated, "did 你 have to stop because of it?"
"No, I figured I needed to be here learning this incredible language then be off dancing for fun," he signed.
"Oh wow, I bet your parents are proud of you," I signed.
"I guess so," he signed as he shrugged his shoulders.
"Well, they should be," I signed as he smiled.
"How did 你 learn to do the dance moves 你 were just doing," he asked signing, "I know that they did not teach 你 that when 你 were a toddler!"
"I watched my step-sister and step-brother-in-law dance at a recital. I liked it a lot so I tried to memorize the step," I signed.
"Ahh okay," he signed, "this may sound weird but do 你 want to try and dance together?"
"I think that'd be fun. Now, I can't hear so 你 are going to have to lead me," I stated.
"Alright, I will don't worry," he 说 as he hopped on stage.
It was so awkward dancing with a complete stranger. But soon it was just something we both enjoyed. I started having a lot of fun. We did the waltz and the swing. Eventually we tried just dancing something together but it did not work out at all. We ended up standing there laughing. We were on totally two different beats.
"This is why I told my step-sister that deaf cannot dance," I signed.
"Deaf people can dance too," he signed.
"Yeah but not me," I signed.
"With enough practice 你 can," he signed.
"Sure," I signed smirking.
"Why has dancing become so important to 你 lately," he asked.
"I, have to go bed," I signed and tried to walk away.
"Come on, it's too early for that," he said.
"I have to go," I signed.
I jumped off the stage and ran for then door. I bumped into Jasper on my way out.
"Woah, is everything okay," he asked signing.
"Yeah, I just don't like making new friends," I signed.
I looked behind me and the door to the stage room opened.
"Jasper, I want go somewhere else," I signed.
"Okay let's go." He signed, "that's one of my friends. He is nice guy. 你 should not be afraid of him."
"Thanks," I signed as we walked away.
"What's wrong? Did he do something to you," Jasper asked worried.
"He started asking 问题 and I freaked out. I tried to walk away and he grabbed my wrist. He didn't hurt me but I starting to have flashbacks," I signed.
"It's okay Lila," he signed and wrapped me in a hug., "I won't let anything happen to you. I promise!"
I didn't know what to say Jasper so I just smiled and hugged him again.
"I am going to head to bed," jasper signed, "see 你 in the morning!"
"Okay, goodnight," I signed.
The 下一个 morning I woke up to Jasper waking me up.
"You are going to be late for breakfast," he signed.
"Ugh, I didn't hear my alarm," I sign as I sat up.
"Lila, 你 are deaf that might be why," he signed a bit sarcastically.
"Wow, I totally forgot about that," I 说 sarcastically, "the flash never woke me up!"
"That explains it. When did your roommate 移动 out," Jasper asked as he pointed across the room.
"I don't know? I did not realize she was gone," I stated.
"Wow, no wondered she moved out," Jasper signed laughing.
"I have to get ready," I signed.
"Okay, I'll meet ya down stairs," he signed and left.
I hurried myself up this morning. I hated being rushed to get ready. I liked to be lazy and just walk around and take my time. But I finished and went down stairs to breakfast.
"Hey, I am up and not ready for school," I signed.
"Same here, I wanted the weekend to last longer," Jasper signed.
"Yeah," I 说 as I got in line for food.
"So 你 were talking to Scotty last night," Jasper 说 signing.
"Oh, I didn't know that was his name," I signed.
"Yeah, so what did y'all talk about," he asked curiously.
"He was asking me how I went deaf and stuff. I just can't tell anyone. The words won't come out of my mouth," I signed, "well, technically I can't sign the word."
"Would 你 rather me explain it to him? If 你 even want him to know," jasper asked.
"I don't know. I should really tell people myself," I stated, "I will eventually get comfortable with tell people!"
"That's right," he signed, "it takes time."
Jasper and I sat at the same 表 and talked that morning.
"Where are your 老友记 at," I asked.
"Playing basketball, they got up early to eat and then go play,' he signed.
"And 你 didn't want to go," I asked.
"I did but I wanted to make sure 你 were okay. And that 你 would wake up on time," Jasper joked.
"Right; if 你 want 你 can go 加入 them and I will come in there in a little bit," I signed.
Okay thanks," he 说 signing.
He got up and practically sprinted to the 篮球 courts.
I finished eating and made my way there. I noticed the door opened and in walked Jacob Black. I stopped where I was at. I stood there still hoping he would not notice me.
"Hey Lila, are 你 okay," Scotty asked me.
"Umm, sorta," I 说 as I walked away, "how did 你 find me?!"
"Dad told me where 你 were," Jake said.
"You cannot be hear! What about that restraining order," I asked almost yelling.
"Lila, 你 do not have to yell! People will hear you," he said.
"Jacob everyone here is deaf," I stated, "do 你 understand what that means?!"
"Don't get smart with me," he demanded, "what are 你 looking at?!"
I turned around to see Scotty still standing there.
"Help me and I will explain later," I signed.
"Lila, I am talking to you," Jacob 说 Scotty came and stood 下一个 me.
"What do 你 want," I asked nicely as possible.
"Ella is getting married soon and she wants us to be on good turns for the wedding," he 说 as he continued talking and I got lost.
"Scotty can 你 interpret the last part," I asked aloud.
"He 说 that 你 two will be walking down the isle together," he signed.
"No, no, no way," I said, "I am not touching 你 at all. I don't even want to be near you?!"
"Whether 你 like it 或者 not, we are going to be in this wedding together. I want Ella to be happy and if that means I am dragging 你 down the isle so be it," Jake 说 as Scotty interpreted.
"Jacob 你 better leave here before I call security," Jasper's voice rang through room.
"Remember what I said, whatever makes her happy," Jake 说 through his teeth.
Jake stood there and glared at me as Jasper came to my side.
"I will personally talk to Ella. Just leave me alone," I said.
"Jake this is your final warning," Jasper threatened.
"Can it deaf boy! The restraining order is up," Jake 说 as I almost fell to the ground.
Jake turned around and walked out the door. I never ran so fast to my bedroom before. I got there and locked the door behind me. I went to the window and watched Jake leave.
I started crying. The fear of standing in front of him washed over me and I broke down. I slid to the floor and wrapped my arms around my legs. I was sobbing.
I felt someone touch me and I screamed in defense.
"Shh, it's just Jasper," he said.
I felt his arm 包, 换行 all the way around me and I just sat there crying.