I thought I let them go. They disappeared without a trace. For now. Suddenly, they´re there again. Haunting me, mocking with their hideous faces. Running seemed useless. There was no help no one could offer. No shelter. No strong arms to protect me. Nothing. Just me and my fantasy. I cry out in pain and sorrow but only at night. When no one can tell me to 熊 it. When no one can tell me to be strong. How can 你 be strong when everything´s falling apart? When all the years 你 worked so hard only to watch the painful yet proud satisfaction melt away. Crying for time. For a new chance. Hoping that one day, someone will be there to guide you, but then slumping back knowing that a failure would never be accepted. Then they appear again, chasing 你 till your pleasure turns to the worst, till 你 feel no 更多 warmth of happiness. Till 你 are just a living corpse. They are cruel and merciless. They won´t stop, even after they´ve drained your hope and joy from the useless bones. Broken dreams. Evil, deadly creatures.
I hate you
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want 你 here?
Do I want 你 gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are 你 real?
Are 你 fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
你 spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of 你 mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are 你 worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now 显示 me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
或者 do I leave you?
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want 你 here?
Do I want 你 gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are 你 real?
Are 你 fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
你 spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of 你 mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are 你 worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now 显示 me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
或者 do I leave you?
Anger
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.
Clouds of happiness have covered my sky,i was thinking its a gift of god,i wish i could fly.Rain of 爱情 showered all the night,i found each 日 so bright, i felt kind a sweet touch of flowers, i plucked each bud in the garden of wishes,i filled my bucket and sang the happy song ,i was walking,thinking about my 爱情 and life.on my way i met a single flower,i glanced at it,and i thought to pluck this one.but it looked so sad!i asked ,why are u so sad?he answered me i was just like you,i had wishes just like 你 have,i was in 爱情 with rain,clouds and garden of wishes.clouds have gone,rain of 爱情 never came again to my garden,and my wishes left me alone!,now i admit that i have nothing to love,i smiled and take him in my hands and 说 dont cry !every thing will be fine, why do not 你 爱情 your self,it will give 你 life,love your sky,spread your fragrance, make your own garden of wishes,clouds of happiness will soon come to 你 and bring your rain of love......................
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do 你 understand?
Do 你 get it?
Do 你 even care?
Do 你 understand bit 由 bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some 老友记 I got,
Some 老友记 care,
And 你 were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do 你 understand?
Do 你 get it?
Do 你 even care?
Do 你 understand bit 由 bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some 老友记 I got,
Some 老友记 care,
And 你 were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Death of 爱情 arrives...
The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end
But will 你 be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our 爱情 shall be tested
But I'll be there...
The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity
Will 你 be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end
But will 你 be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our 爱情 shall be tested
But I'll be there...
“Unheeded warnings pushed me to the ground,
They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.
Only left with the desire to rise,
Into those lovely empyreal skies.
My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,
Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.
To make things right is not always the goal,
I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.
I must win one heart,
Somehow, someway,
或者 after ten years I won’t live one 更多 day.
My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,
I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.
The skies are calling,
I’m wanting to fly.
My wings are broken, 《冰雪奇缘》 stiff and bare.
But I must find someone,
Somehow, somewhere,
To help with the search, to help with my goal,
I must capture,
An untainted new soul.”
(c) Waverly L. Harris
They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.
Only left with the desire to rise,
Into those lovely empyreal skies.
My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,
Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.
To make things right is not always the goal,
I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.
I must win one heart,
Somehow, someway,
或者 after ten years I won’t live one 更多 day.
My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,
I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.
The skies are calling,
I’m wanting to fly.
My wings are broken, 《冰雪奇缘》 stiff and bare.
But I must find someone,
Somehow, somewhere,
To help with the search, to help with my goal,
I must capture,
An untainted new soul.”
(c) Waverly L. Harris
how we met each other.
I knew from the first contact
that we are different from the others.
You, so unusual and sweet,
with magic in words,
你 left me dreams.
But dreams are afraid of
reality.
Afraid of the storm
and restlessness.
The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.
Everyone wants to dream,
fearing that reality may
destroy that moment of peace,
bringing pain and empty memories,
words that have gone with breeze.
Although 你 make your peace
with reality,
你 still dream the same dream,
while the pain smolder in you.
Everything changes,
everything fades away with time,
but 你 still dream the same dream.
The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.
In the end, 你 realize
that everything is just a dream,
everything has its end.
And while the pain smolder in you
and everything fades slowly,
你 still dream the same dream,
你 still dream.
As we grow up we leave behind the simple things... what would the world be if we just stayed in our lala land of childhood?
When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when 你 need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did 内衣 turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I 爱情 你 mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making 心 and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?
When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when 你 need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did 内衣 turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I 爱情 你 mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making 心 and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?
i can't think,
my mind is poisoned,
my mind is trapped...
So many thoughts,
the fear is coming,
it's waiting.
How strong are 你 to
fight,
how weak are 你 to
deny?
Don't find me,
i'd rather stay here,
so far away from
your ruthlessness.
Tears of despair
are calling your name,
and 你 want to drag
me there...
The way 你 possess me
is so cruel,
why don't 你 leave me alone?
I'm not like the others,
they might be stronger
或者 weaker,
it depends how 你
see it.
The darkness is all over,
poisoning my mind,
the fear is itching,
it's everywhere,
won't go away!
It stains my soul,
i'm shaking,
despair won't let me.
So many thoughts,
but nothing's resolved
yet,
it's just fear
holding me,
hauling me deeper
into its ruthlessness.
I don't want this,
so be gone,
你 live inside me,
but 你 don't know.
Tears of despair
are calling your name,
they want to drive 你 away,
so i could feel safe,
so i could be far away,
so far of your ruthlessness.
移动 through your day
This quiet 太空 that 你 fill
Here 由 a dark moon
Filled up from the rain in my eyes
My fingers are cold on your skin
Dream me away
Before the night becomes day
You'll see it all come true
This water is deep
你 go to sleep
And silently
Dream me away
I have a picture
It rests in my hand
I opened my window tonight
I have a feeling
It will be okay
My senses will guide me through
I'll dream us away
Before the night becomes day
I'll see it all come true
This water is deep
We’ll go to sleep
And silently dream us away
And silently dream
And silently
us
away
away...
The moon above, full and bright, casts an eerie glow among the mist.
A gentle midnight breeze whistles through the winter trees
Waving ridgedly to the winter rhythm
The ground is hard from the freeze, the dirt cruches under your feet
In the distance a 狼 howls, its haunting voice pierces your soul
The ghosts of the forest creep from the trees
Their cold embrace freezes 你 to your core
Desperate to escape 你 look into the shadows of the forest
A light in the distance softly shines, beckoning 你 to 加入 it.
你 run, ignoring the distorted screaming faces from the trees, desperate to reach the comforting light.
你 finally come to it, the light is bright, warm and welcoming
As 你 get closer it engulfs you, sucking 你 into its protective glow
Soon 你 emerge into a different world but it is the same from where 你 came
A mirror world...
Darkness to Light...
Once again, another one of my short yet dark poems...
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on 写作 a 更多 spiritual poem
Control
My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free
I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul
I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage
The rage of my misery will never see the 日 of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away
But how can I if I am a prisoner?
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on 写作 a 更多 spiritual poem
Control
My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free
I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul
I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage
The rage of my misery will never see the 日 of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away
But how can I if I am a prisoner?
I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this poem because it is quite personal but I figured why not...
Brother
Are 你 my brother 或者 are 你 a vicious stranger?
How could 你 stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
你 wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face 你 portray nothing but lies and hate...
日 after 日 你 throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and 你 will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While 你 will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you
Brother
Are 你 my brother 或者 are 你 a vicious stranger?
How could 你 stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
你 wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face 你 portray nothing but lies and hate...
日 after 日 你 throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and 你 will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While 你 will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you