When she felt what she felt when she saw Michael and Nika embracing outside the conjungal room, she knew something was wrong. She wasn't supposed to be feeling anything at all. No, she wouldn't dwell on that. And when she sighed inwardly when he explained that his marraige was just a deal, she had to get out as fast as possible before she hugged him in relief. When her 心 sagged at the sight of him in Ad-Seg, she started seriously doubting herself. Her soft desperate voice scared her 更多 than it was supposed to comfort him. She was frightened that this time she couldn't fix him and if she couldn't do that, she'd never be mended, she'd remain broken in the worst possible way. The 下一个 time she saw him, he looked amazingly good, she didn't mean to smile that way, she was just so happy to see her old Michael back. The ashtray was her undoing, then she went and held onto his wrist, pouring her 心 out. Gosh, that was so wrong. The 吻乐队(Kiss) was the last thing she expected. The rose was 更多 than enough. The 吻乐队(Kiss) was nearly perfect if it wasn't so against everything. Later when he would confess, she'd hold onto it to have something that felt real. The overdose would be her own doing, but just after accepting that he'd left her. Not that he'd used her. Not that she'd been part of the plan. No that he'd left her. Forever.