Forever Changed
© Danielle
I heard the footsteps coming and I knew this would be another long night
And something inside me screamed this time it really isn’t right
The words he was saying were ruthless and cruel
And each time he hit me I sat there and obeyed each and every rule
I sat there blank faced and scared knowing that I couldn’t cry
For I knew what would happen if he saw the tears in my eyes
Each and every 摇摆, 秋千 felt worse and worse
And then all I wanted was to be dead in a hearse
He got real close and whispered “Bitch I wish 你 weren’t alive”
And all I was thinking was you’re right, I wish I wouldn’t survive
He threw against the 墙 then proceeded to pin me to the ground
He hit me again, covered my mouth, not letting me make a sound
I started to struggle and tried to release myself of his forceful grip
Then the 下一个 thing I heard was a loud, horrifying rip
His hands were cold and I cringed at first touch
I don’t understand how a father could hate his daughter so much
I froze and I couldn’t believe that this was really going on
I just kept looking at the clock wanting him to be gone
I tried so badly not to think of the sharp pain
And this wasn’t part of his usual game
I closed my eyes wishing the time would just pass by
And that 下一个 time I opened them I would be up in the sky
He pushed harder and harder and excruciating pain was all I felt
The 下一个 thing I heard was the unbuckling of his belt
Something happened inside of me that I can not explain
I got this surge of energy and 说 “f 你 and your reign”
Somehow, someway I got out just in time
But what he had already done will never get out of my mind
From then on my life has been forever changed
It was like all I knew had been rearranged
I hate him with everything I have in me and so much more
And one 日 I want to end this war
© Danielle
I heard the footsteps coming and I knew this would be another long night
And something inside me screamed this time it really isn’t right
The words he was saying were ruthless and cruel
And each time he hit me I sat there and obeyed each and every rule
I sat there blank faced and scared knowing that I couldn’t cry
For I knew what would happen if he saw the tears in my eyes
Each and every 摇摆, 秋千 felt worse and worse
And then all I wanted was to be dead in a hearse
He got real close and whispered “Bitch I wish 你 weren’t alive”
And all I was thinking was you’re right, I wish I wouldn’t survive
He threw against the 墙 then proceeded to pin me to the ground
He hit me again, covered my mouth, not letting me make a sound
I started to struggle and tried to release myself of his forceful grip
Then the 下一个 thing I heard was a loud, horrifying rip
His hands were cold and I cringed at first touch
I don’t understand how a father could hate his daughter so much
I froze and I couldn’t believe that this was really going on
I just kept looking at the clock wanting him to be gone
I tried so badly not to think of the sharp pain
And this wasn’t part of his usual game
I closed my eyes wishing the time would just pass by
And that 下一个 time I opened them I would be up in the sky
He pushed harder and harder and excruciating pain was all I felt
The 下一个 thing I heard was the unbuckling of his belt
Something happened inside of me that I can not explain
I got this surge of energy and 说 “f 你 and your reign”
Somehow, someway I got out just in time
But what he had already done will never get out of my mind
From then on my life has been forever changed
It was like all I knew had been rearranged
I hate him with everything I have in me and so much more
And one 日 I want to end this war
I draw a pretty picture A picture on my wrist The picture keeps getting bigger Every time my feelings are dismissed 你 think the words don’t hurt me That the actions don’t cause me pain 你 think that if I smile I must be happy again I’m not going to blame it on 你 Because I know that its my choice But it only ever happens when 你 raise your voice I hear the screams and shouts And I reach out for the blade I do it without thinking Then I look at the mess I’ve made It looks ugly and it stings But it takes away the pain And the hurt Of all the other things I know you’ll tell me its wrong If 你 ever find out That’s why I keep my arms covered I don’t want 你 to scream and shout I keep my arms covered so no one else can see The scratches ive made on my arms There something that’s private to me.