Vampire Diaries; Chapter 3

Duncan's Point Of View.

   I sighed. I longed to go to , to comfort her, to caress her, but I  could not, and so I remained outside, just below her window, watching and listening. I thought of her silky hair and dancing eyes. My mouth filled with the bittersweet taste of longing. The first flush of dawn chased me away, but before I left, I thrust a note beneath her window sash.  

I have watched from the shadows;
你 are brighter than sunlight. 

 It might have been 更多 poetic than literal, but he meant it truly; hers was a warmth that would not burn me to ash – though it did seem to have seared its way into my heart.
I knew I acted differently when I was with her. I acted 更多 tough. Like I didn't give a damn about what happened to her. But she was someone I couldn't figure out. Her expressions were mysteries but her smile was genuine. 
  I slipped into my  room and immediately switched on the small stereo and let the loud Metal fill my ears. 
  Her 吻乐队（Kiss） was still lingering on my lips. The small taste of Deer was still there though. 
 I laughed to myself and thought. 

  What the Hell is wrong with you? I thought to myself.
 I was getting way over my head. Courtney was Human.. And I was a bloodsucking monster. I threw my fist into the 墙 and felt no pain.