okay this takes place RIGHT after Courtney was eliminated

Courtney's P.O.V

'how could he vote me off?' i asked my self in thought. I dug around in my 钱包 and pulled out the wooden skull he gave me from season 1 and started to cry. I really dont know why i cryed but i missed him and to think he voted me off..... Its just to much to take in within one night. I stopped crying when the limo door opened.
"Hello Courtney, welcome to" Chris 说 till i cut him off.
"Yea yea where ever it is we go, i dont wanna know that name of this fuckin place. Whats my room number?"
"Ohhh someone is irritable this evening" Chris 说 in a mocking tone.
"DONT FUCKIN TEST ME JUST TELL ME THE DAMN ROOM NUMBER AND GIVE ME THE KEY TO IT!!!!" i screamed at him. I was so pissed. Chris looked a bit scared. He dug in his pocket, held out a key and 说 "Room 24." I angerily took the key and went to my room. As soon as i opened the door i threw my stuff on the floor. I laid on my stomach on the bed, head in the 枕头 and cryed. I loved Duncan and this is how he repays me? 由 voting me off? I sat up and 说 to myself "What did i do wrong? I should suffer!" I got up and went to the 厨房 tears still running down my face. On my way i passed 由 a confused cody and geoff. They tried asking whats wrong but i just walked faster. I took a 刀 and cut my wrists while saying/soft yelling
"I deserve this! I dont know what i did wrong but i shouldn't be here! I should be dead!" I put the 刀 to my wrist and was about to cut again when Gwen and Bridgette came in. They gasped as i cut. Blood on my hands and on the 刀 and on my wrist. They ran to me and took away the knife.
"Courtney what are 你 doing?!?!?" Bridgette almost yelled with concern in her voice.
"What does it look like? Im getting what i deserve." I 说 calmly looking at all the blood on my hands.
"What are 你 talking about?!?!" Gwen asked worriedly.
"He hates me." I said.
"Who?" asked Bridgette?
"Duncan... I 爱情 him and he doesnt 爱情 me back. I hate myself. I did something wrong and im punishing my self... I dont want to live without him, and since im to chicken to kill myself...im just going to suffer.."
"Courtney this is no way to treat yourself! 你 cant just do this!" Gwen said.
"You dont understand me!" I yelled. I took the 刀 and ran back to my room with Bridgette and Gwen following. I got to my room and locked the door. They were banging at the door. I sat in the corner and countined to cut my self. As soon as i didn't have room left on my right wrist i went to my left. After i was done I cryed my self to sleep.