I love you <3
Last chapter:
“No buts Julian. This is it. This is the movie of your career, the movie that will make my firm the most 流行的 in Hollywood. So it’s either the girl, 或者 the end of your career,” Paul 说 firmly as he walked towards him, “You have one week to make your decision. These are your plane tickets. I hope to see 你 或者 your resignation letter in my office in LA 下一个 Monday.”
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The 下一个 evening, Brooke was getting ready for a 日期 with Julian. She was exceptionally excited about this 日期 because Julian asked her to dress up saying that he had a surprise for her, and Brooke Davis loved surprises.
“Can 你 take off that sickeningly bright smile of your face? It makes me want to puke,” Sam 说 rolling her eyes as she walked in her foster mother’s room and plopped messily of her neatly made bed.
“Sam I just made that,” Brooke groaned, turning to glare at the smirking teenager.
“See, now that’s the expression I like,” Sam 说 approvingly pointing at her scowling face.
“Very funny Sam,” Brooke 说 sarcastically, “You’re just jealous.”
“Jealous? Of what? 你 looking like an idiot? I don’t think so,” Sam 说 stubbornly.
“You amuse me Sam, 你 really do. One 分钟 you’re all supportive of Julian and me, and the 下一个 你 have a problem with me smiling because I am happy with Julian. 你 have to make up your mind,” Brooke 说 teasingly.
“Oh no, I don’t have any problem with 你 and Julian. I just have a problem with your chirpy face every morning. I don’t think I have ever seen anyone smile so much,” Sam shot back grinning.
“I know I look like a teenager with a crush, but I can’t help it. Julian makes me really happy, Sam. I haven’t felt like this in, well ever since I graduated high school,” Brooke 说 seriously.
“So when are 你 going to tell him those three life changing words,” Sam asked curiously.
“I’m pregnant is just two words. Well technically it’s three but—”
“I mean when are 你 going to tell him that you’re in 爱情 with him?” Sam asked rolling her eyes, “But I guess the other one would be a good 问题 too.”
“I don’t know,” Brooke 说 hesitantly, “I am just going to wait for the right time, I guess.”
“When’s the right time going to be? When 你 give birth to his kid?” Sam asked sarcastically.
“Sam—”
“What I am serious! You’re probably the world’s biggest procrastinator especially when it comes to feelings and stuff,” Sam 说 bored, “Look how long it took 你 to actually agree to 日期 Julian.”
“That was different okay,” Brooke 说 dismissively.
“Well duh. Last time it was about sex. This time it’s about 你 being pregnant with little Julian. Very different,” Sam 说 enjoying pushing Brooke’s buttons.
“Sam must 你 be so blunt?” Brooke asked shaking her head.
“Hey, I just want to find out if you’re actually going to come out clean to him 或者 if I am going to have to spoon feed him the information. And that might get ugly,” Sam 说 innocently.
“Samantha Walker, don’t 你 dare. You’re not going to tell him anything. Promise me that 你 won’t a breath a word to him about this pregnancy 或者 my feels,” Brooke 说 panicked.
“Only if 你 promise me that 你 will actually make an effort to tell him at least one of your big news tonight,” Sam proposed.
“Fine, fine, I’ll try, I promise,” Brooke relented, “But if it turns out to be a disaster then I’m blaming you.”
“Everything’s going to fine Brooke,” Sam assured, and Brooke couldn’t help but believe her.
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10 分钟 later while Brooke was putting on her earrings, the doorbell rang indicating Julian’s arrival.
“Sam could 你 get that,” Brooke shouted.
“Already there,” Sam shouted back as Brooke heard her unlocking the door.
“Hey Samson,” she heard Julian’s voice greet her foster daughter, and just his voice was enough to put a smile on her face. God, she was in too deep for this guy.
“Hey Julian, wassup?” Sam asked as she stepped back to let him in.
“The usual,” Julian answered, closing the door behind him, “Where’s Brooke?”
“She’s getting ready,” Sam answered, “She should be here in a couple of minutes.”
“Ok, cool,” Julian 说 nervously, raking his hands through his hair.
“Are 你 okay, Julian?” Sam asked concerned.
“Yeah, I am fine. Why?” Julian asked trying to put a smile on his face.
“Nothing, 你 just seem distracted,” Sam noted.
“Oh it’s nothing. Just a little nervous,” Julian lied, trying to laugh it off. Sam obviously didn’t buy it, because seriously Julian has never been nervous before a date, but thankfully she didn’t ask anymore questions.
“Hey,” Brooke greeted cheerfully as she appeared at the 最佳, 返回页首 of the stairs.
“Hey,” Julian replied, turning his gaze towards the stairs, and the 秒 his eyes met Brooke’s, a real smile appeared on his face. This was the affect Brooke Davis had on him. One look, and he was grinning like an idiot. And the fact that her face lit up every time she saw him, it made him feel like the most accomplished man in this world. God, he was in too deep. But he knew that tonight was the last time her face would light up because of him. He knew that tonight was the last time she would laugh with him, 吻乐队（Kiss） him, last time she would talk to him. After tonight, he would be nothing short of a monster to her. Another addition to the 迷失 列表 of men that had already broken her heart. His 心 broke into a million pieces at that thought, but he knew there was no other choice. He had to end it with her, no matter how much it killed him to do it.
He was brought out of his reverie when he felt Brooke’s small hand caressing his face as she called his name trying to get his attention.
“Huh? What?” Julian asked stupidly.
“Where have 你 been? I’ve called your name 3 times. I know I look pretty, but I didn’t know I looked good enough to drive 你 speechless,” Brooke 说 teasingly, pulling her hand away from his face.
“I am sorry. I was just thinking,” Julian 说 apologetically as he leaned down and placed a soft 吻乐队（Kiss） on her lips.
“It’s okay,” Brooke 说 a little breathlessly as they pulled up for air.
“So 你 ready to go?” Julian asked placing his hand on the small of her back.
“Yeah, let’s go,” Brooke agreed, then turning around she called out, “Sam keep all the door locked, and—”
“Call 你 if there’s any sort of emergency and absolutely no parties. Yeah I know. 你 say that before every date, it has kinda sunk in 由 now,” Sam finished rolling her eyes as she poked her head out of her bedroom, smiling mischievously at her foster mother.
“Well 你 can’t blame me for being cautious can you?” Brooke asked pouting as Julian laughed.
“I guess not. But have a good time 你 guys,” Sam 说 smiling.
“We will,” Brooke 说 confidently as she and Julian made their way out of the door.
As Sam heard the door close shut behind the couple, she released a sigh. She knew there was something off with Julian tonight. She had never seen him act so oddly, and he was never nervous. Wondering what was wrong with him, Sam made her way to the couch, praying with all her might that Julian’s odd behavior was only temporary, because if it was anything other than that, well she didn’t even want to think about the possibility.
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“Wow Julian, I can’t believe 你 got us reservations to one of the most elite restaurant in 树 Hill,” Brooke 说 impressed as she walked into 树 爬坡道, 小山 牛扒, 牛排 House, “Don’t 你 need to make reservations 5 months in advance to get in here 或者 something?”
“Normal people do,” Julian acknowledged as he led her to the reception area.
“Table for 2 under the name Baker,” Julian 说 to the manager.
“Right this way, sir,” the manager 说 once he had consulted his reservation list.
“So are 你 saying that we’re not normal people,” Brooke whispered resuming their 前一个 conversation.
“No, we’re just special,” Julian 说 smirking as they approached their table.
“Please take a seat,” the manager 说 courteously, “A waiter will be with 你 shortly.”
“Julian you’re not giving me straight answers, and I don’t appreciate that,” Brooke 说 pouting once she had taken her seat.
“Fine, fine. I know one of the managers here. That’s why I was able to get a reservation at such a short period,” Julian admitted.
“Ahh so the truth finally comes out,” Brooke 说 grinning, “But I’ve got to say, this is amazing. And they even seated us in a private seating area.”
“Actually I asked them to 座位 us in a private area,” Julian 说 smiling mischievously.
“Julian, 你 didn’t need to do that,” Brooke gasped out, “Private seating is so expensive.”
“I wanted this night to be special, Brooke,” Julian 说 sincerely.
“Just being with 你 is special enough Julian. 你 didn’t need to do all this,” Brooke whispered her face glowing in the soft candle light.
“You look beautiful,” Julian 说 softly as he grasped her hand in the middle of the table.
“You look pretty dashing yourself Mr. Baker,” Brooke complimented, loving the feeling of his thumb stroking the soft skin of her hand.
Julian looked tempted to lean over to 吻乐队（Kiss） her, but they were interrupted 由 the arrival of their waiter.
“Good evening,” the waiter greeted pleasantly, “Do 你 guys know what 你 will be ordering this evening?”
“I’ll have prime rib with mashed potatoes and 卤, 肉汁 with a small helping of salad,” Julian ordered.
“And I’ll just have grilled chicken with salad,” Brooke 说 politely.
“Any appetizers 或者 drinks?” the waiter questioned.
“Can we just have a serving of garlic 面包 sticks?” Julian asked as the waiter jotted down the order, “And I’ll take red wine with the dinner.”
“And 你 maam?” the waiter asked turning towards Brooke.
“I’ll just have 柠檬汽水, 柠檬水 thank you,” Brooke said, avoiding Julian’s questioning gaze.
“Will that be it?” the waiter asked.
“Yes, thank you,” Julian 说 nodding to the waiter.
“Was I hallucinating of did 你 just order lemonade?” Julian asked surprised once the waiter had left.
“What’s so shocking about me ordering lemonade?” Brooke asked defensively.
“Nothing, except for the fact that you’re the biggest wine drinker I know. And from all the first class wines available on the menu, 你 chose lemonade?” Julian asked quirking his eyebrows.
“Maybe I just didn’t feel like drinking wine today,” Brooke 说 dismissively, “That’s not a crime is it.”
“Fine, fine, no need to be so touchy,” Julian 说 raising his hand in defeat, “You drink whatever 你 want to, but if it’s about wanting to save my money, don’t worry about it. I have 更多 than enough.”
“Trust me Julian, this has nothing to do with saving 你 money. I promise,” Brooke 说 in a tone bordering on finality and Julian knew the topic was over.
As Brooke looked at Julian, she knew this was the perfect time to tell him about the pregnancy, but she didn’t want to ruin the perfect atmosphere. She still didn’t know how he would react to the news, and she didn’t want to take any chances. At least that’s what she kept telling herself.
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“That was absolutely amazing Julian,” Brooke 说 sighing contently on their way back.
“I am glad 你 liked it,” Julian 说 sincerely sending her a smile that sent her 心 fluttering.
“You know what would make this night absolutely perfect?” Brooke asked contemplatively.
“No, but I have a feeling that 你 are going to tell me,” Julian teased.
“A walk at the beach,” Brooke 说 dreamily.
“Brooke it’s about 50 degrees outside, you’re wearing a dress and not to mention your 5 inch heels, and 你 want to go walk on the beach?” Julian asked incredulously.
“I am just saying, doesn’t mean we have to do it,” Brooke 说 shrugging.
“Okay,” Julian 说 training his eyes back on the road.
However 5 分钟 later, he turned onto a road going the complete opposite direction to her house.
“Julian, I don’t know if you’ve forgotten, but my house is on the opposite side,” Brooke 说 uncertainly.
“I know,” Julian 说 shrugging nonchalantly.
“Then why are we going this way?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Because we’ve had a sudden change of plans,” Julian 说 vaguely.
“Change of plan? Where are we going now?” Brooke asked curiously.
“To the docks,” Julian 说 simply, and from the corner of his eyes, he watched as Brooke’s face went from being curious to one radiating excitement.
“To the docks? But what about the cold weather and my 5 inch heels?” Brooke asked mockingly as her eyes glittered in happiness.
“Guess I’ll just have to take a risk,” Julian 说 smiling, “Anything to get 你 your perfect date.”
“Aww aren’t 你 a sweetheart,” Brooke 说 affectionately as she leaned over and gave him a quick peck on the cheek.
“Please don’t use the word sweetheart when you’re describing me. It’s bad for my image,” Julian 说 smirking.
“Well then should I call 你 mathlete? Is that better for your image?” Brooke asked teasingly.
“Touché,” Julian 说 grinning, knowing that Brooke had won that argument.
“Plus, I am your girlfriend. I can call 你 whatever I want and 你 can’t complain about it,” Brooke 说 smugly.
“I guess, but only because you’re so cute,” Julian replied grinning as he parked the car in the empty parking lot 下一个 to the docks.
“Shall we my lady?” Julian asked putting up a British accent as he opened the passenger side’s door to help Brooke out.
“We shall kind sir,” Brooke 说 placing her hand in his outstretched one, her eyes twinkling with mirth.
“You sure you’re going to be fine in the heels?” Julian asked caringly.
“I’ll be fine. And anyways, I have 你 to lean on don’t I?” Brooke asked seriously, her eyes finding his as he found it hard to look away from her intense gaze.
“I’m here,” Julian promised, his insides filling up with guilt and pain as he realized that this was probably his last happy 小时 with Brooke.
“Good,” Brooke 说 as she leaned up and softly placed her lips against his as he instinctively pulled her closer to his body.
“You’re amazing, 你 know that right?” Julian asked softly once they had come up for air.
“So I’ve heard. But it means the most when 你 say it,” Brooke 说 gently stroking his face, and Julian almost 迷失 it right there. He knew he was leading her on, he knew that he was about to hurt her. He knew that he should have ended this when he first walked into her door. But he hadn’t listened to the rational side of his brain. And as a result, after tonight, it would be much harder for the both of them to let go.
“Hey what happened? 你 dozed off again,” Brooke 说 concerned as Julian came back to reality.
“I was just thinking how beautiful 你 look today. And how 你 deserve so much better than me,” Julian 说 honestly as they started walking along the shore.
“You’re good enough Julian. You’re 更多 than good enough for me. And it’s about time 你 realize that,” Brooke 说 seriously as she laid her head on his shoulder, his arm supporting both of their weights.
“You know in the book, when Lucas described 你 as the girl who would change the world someday, I didn’t know what to make out of it. But now I understand what he meant 由 that. 你 have changed my world Brooke Davis,” Julian admitted softly looking down at his girlfriend’s smiling face on his shoulder.
“You changed my life too Julian Baker. Before you, I had 给 up hope of being happy again, and then 你 happened and my life took a whole new turn. 你 gave me something to look 前锋, 期待 to Julian. 你 gave me my life back and that makes 你 the most important person in my life right now. Well first Sam and then you, but 你 know what I mean,” Brooke 说 smiling as Julian laughed.
“I think I am okay with taking 秒 place to Sam. Had it been anyone other than her, I wouldn’t have been so accommodating, but Sam’s okay,” Julian 说 giving Brooke his infamous grin as he pulled her closer to him.
“Those words and that grin combined together just make me lo—like 你 even more,” Brooke 说 catching herself just in time.
Julian nearly felt his 心 stop at her words. Even though the transition had been fast, he had caught her stumble, and as he looked at the woman 下一个 to him, he couldn’t help but think, was she about to say that she loved him?
“Are 你 cold?” Julian asked as she felt Brooke shudder against his chest.
“A little,” Brooke 说 sheepishly.
“Here take this,” Julian 说 immediately taking off his 夹克 as carefully draping it around her shoulder.
“What about you? Aren’t 你 going to be cold?” Brooke asked half heartedly, loving the warmth Julian’s 夹克 was providing her cold body.
“Nah, I’ll be fine. I’ve got 你 to warm me up don’t I?” Julian asked grinning as he once again draped his arms around Brooke’s waist pulling her as close to his body as possible.
But before he could take another step forward, Brooke suddenly turned him towards her, and Julian 表演 on instinct, leaned down and quickly placed his lips tenderly on hers. It didn’t take her long to respond, and very soon they were both fully making out in the middle of the 海滩 completely 迷失 into each other and their feelings.
“Wow that was amazing,” Brooke gasped out as Julian finally released her.
“Does that surprise you?” Julian asked his breathing slightly uneven.
“No, not really,” Brooke admitted as she brought his face down to meet hers for yet another breathtaking kiss.
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After ½ an 小时 of an intense make out session, Brooke and Julian finally decided to return home.
As Brooke unlocked the front door, she couldn’t keep a grin from appearing on her face as she remembered the past 30 minutes.
“You want to come in?” Brooke asked as she stepped in her foyer.
“Yeah sure,” Julian 说 hesitantly. He knew that this was it. He was going to come clean to her right now. This was probably the last time he would see her smiling like that towards him. That thought was enough to break his 心 into two.
“Brooke,” Julian called out as he grasped her wrist and turned her towards him.
“Yeah,” Brooke asked pressed tightly against his chest.
“I-I want—oh fuck this—” Julian growled out as he crashed his mouth against her surprised one. He knew he was 表演 like a coward, trying to prolong the moment for as long as he could. But he had to 吻乐队（Kiss） her one last time, 吻乐队（Kiss） her with so much intensity and power that it would forever be embedded in his memory, because he knew that he would never feel for another woman what he felt for Brooke.
“I 爱情 you,” Brooke breathed out once he had pulled away. Her eyes were closed and her lips swollen, and for a 秒 Julian thought he was hallucinating.
“What?” Julian gasped out.
“I 爱情 you,” Brooke 说 louder as she opened her eyes to stare into his stunned ones, “I 爱情 you.”
“No, Brooke, 你 can’t,” Julian 说 panicked. This wasn’t happening. This couldn’t be happening. She couldn’t tell him that she loved him a 分钟 before he was about to break up with her.
“Why can’t I, Julian?” Brooke asked confused, “I know that this might come as a shock to you, and I don’t expect 你 to say it back, but I do 爱情 you.”
“Don’t say that Brooke. Don’t say that,” Julian 说 harshly.
“Why are 你 表演 like this Julian? What’s so horrible about me loving you?” Brooke asked hurt.
“It’s horrible because you’re going to be biting back your words in about one minute,” Julian 说 frantically.
“What?” Brooke asked even 更多 confused now, “Why would I be biting back my words. It had taken me long enough to get the courage to tell 你 this, I don’t think I’ll be biting it back.”
“You will. Once 你 hear what I’ve got to say, 你 will be,” Julian 说 sadly, his eyes filled with so much pain and misery that Brooke felt her 心 clench in her chest. Something was very wrong.
“Julian what are 你 talking about? The only situation I would be taking my words back would be if you—Oh my god, you’re breaking up with me!” Brooke gasped out as realization dawned on her face.
“Brooke I—”
“You’re breaking up with me? You’re breaking up with me?” Brooke asked stunned. How had they gone from ending their perfect 日期 to him breaking up with her?
“I am leaving,” Julian admitted softly.
“What do 你 mean you’re leaving?” Brooke asked trying to make some sense of the situation.
“I am going back to LA,” Julian clarified.
“What? 你 can’t do that. What about Luke’s movie?” Brooke asked angrily.
“The movie’s been cancelled Brooke. The director quit, and there’s no way we’d make the deadline with a new one. So the movie’s off. And I’ve got an amazing offer to produce the film adaptation of Gossip Girl in Hollywood--”
“And 你 chose Gossip Girl,” Brooke finished for him, “When are 你 leaving?”
“6 days,” Julian 说 quietly.
“So tonight, it was all a hoax? 你 were leading me on the whole time?” Brooke asked incredulously.
“Brooke I would never—”
“But 你 did, Julian. 你 knew 你 were going to be leaving the whole time, and yet 你 didn’t say a word to me. I can’t believe 你 of all people would do that to me. And to think that I actually thought that 你 were the one for me,” Brooke 说 disgustedly as tears started falling from her eyes.
“Brooke, I am so sorry,” Julian 说 softly.
“And to think that I told 你 I loved you? How stupid am I? After everything that had happened to me, I can’t believe I actually believed that maybe for once everything would be okay. Well I guess your job’s done. 你 made Brooke Davis fall in 爱情 and ended up breaking her 心 worse than any other man had done before. 你 should be proud of yourself, because seriously this is a new low for me,” Brooke choked out as tears blurred her vision.
“I didn’t mean to hurt 你 Brooke,” Julian 说 sadly knowing that he had done the one thing he had promised never to do. He had made Brooke Davis a broken woman again.
“You know what the sad part is Julian? The fact that my perfect 日期 was nothing but a bunch of lies. I—”
“Tonight was not a lie Brooke. I meant everything I 说 to you. Tonight was not a lie,” Julian 说 desperately.
“But it seems like it. I can’t believe anything you’ve ever told me. I can’t believe I gave my 心 to someone who didn’t even like me enough to be honest with me,” Brooke 说 bitterly.
“I know I should have told 你 in the beginning Brooke—”
“Then why didn’t you? Huh? Why didn’t 你 end it before taking me on that 日期 that just made me fall deeper for you? Why Julian? Was this your idea of some sick joke?” Brooke asked hysterically.
“I never wanted to hurt 你 Brooke. Trust me that was the last thing I wanted,” Julian whispered, not knowing how to answer the rest of her 问题 when he still wasn’t sure why he hadn’t told her the truth in the very beginning.
“Just leave Julian,” Brooke 说 tearfully.
“Brooke—”
“Just leave dammit. Get out of my house and my life. I don’t want to see your face again,” Brooke shouted her mind numb 由 the shock and pain of everything that had happened in the past 10 minutes.
And Julian knew that this was it. Their relationship was now officially over. Lowering his head in defeat, he just nodded quietly and turning on his heels, he walked out of the door and out of Brooke’s life.
When Brooke heard the door shut behind him, she let go off the 长椅, 沙发 as her knees buckled beneath her and she fell to the floor tears falling like waterfalls from her eyes. Julian was gone, and as her hands found her flat abdomen, she realized bitterly that he wasn’t just gone for her life. He was gone from their life.
