Awake: A Troubled Marriage
Sam Lockwood-Beresford looked at her clock on her nightstand. It read 4:20 it was the first time in two months that she was not up feeding her newborn baby. She was thrilled. It's about time. Sam thought with tired relief.
Still she wanted to make certain that her baby was all right. As quietly as she could Sam got up. She stretched for a 分钟 then she softly padded over to the nursery. After much deliberation Sam decided two months into her pregnancy that in order to make 更多 breathing room for their growing family they would have to 移动 out of Sam's modest Brooklyn apartment. As much as it pained her to Sam agreed to Clay's idea to move.
They then moved out of Brooklyn and in a modest through still large town house in Park Avenue. 由 the time Sam was in the four 月 of her pregnancy she and Clay had fully settled into their new town house. Through it took some adjusting mostly on Sam's part. Through 由 the eighth 月 of her pregnancy she was completely at 首页 in the townhouse
The baby's nursery was right 下一个 door to their room. It was medium sized room and had pale washed 粉, 粉色 walls and ceiling. The carpet was a soft pale 巴宝莉, burberry burgundy. There were also soft blue and 粉, 粉色 stuffed 动物 arranged around the room.
Sam peeked over the 粉, 粉色 摇篮 in the middle of the room. A soft smile appeared on her face as Sam watched her daughter.
She and Clay had discussed baby names all through her pregnancy. They had settled on Colin Clayton Lockwood-Beresford if their baby were a boy. If there baby were a girl they had agreed on Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford. Her middle name derived form Lilith the name of Clay's mother.
On October tenth at exactly midnight Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford was born. She weighed 6 pounds and was 8 inches. Sam and Clay were overjoyed. Serenity was a beautiful combination of both her and Clay. She had Sam's soft 焦糖 colored hair and had Clay's dark brown eyes. They were able to take Serenity 首页 after only staying one 更多 night in the hospital. Which Sam was very grateful for.
Lilith was equally overjoyed for Sam and Clay. Lilith was not only there for Serenity's birth but had over the past two months visited her granddaughter regularly. Sam would on her days off take Serenity over to visit Lilith. Lilith would constantly coo over her granddaughter Every time she would see Serenity Lilith would say happily Oh there's my Angel, come to Grandma!
Sam was happy 由 Lilith's reactions to her being pregnant and being a mom. She was also happy over how Lilith was handling being a grandmother. Lilith would nearly every time Sam would visit with Serenity give her 建议 on how to care for her. Through Sam was grateful for her help Lilith was starting to get a bit overbearing.
Sam sighed and whispered quietly to her sleeping daughter “Grandma sure drives me crazy Ren.”
Suddenly Sam felt something around her waist. She gasped and turned. “Clay 你 nearly gave me a 心 attack!” Sam whispered furiously. Through her anger soon melted away 由 the warmth of his arms around her waist. Sam leaned into his arms. Clay nuzzled her hair and whispered apologetically “ Sorry Baby I didn't mean to scare you.” Sam turned around fully she wound her arms around his neck then she kissed him passionately for a few seconds.
They broke apart through her arms where still around his neck. Sam sighed and whispered “I forgive 你 Honey. “ Sam leaned into Clay again. He pulled her tighter to him. Clay whispered to Sam “So how is she doing?” Sam turned around and whispered “She's fine. I cannot believe she is finally slept through an entire night tonight. It's amazing”
Sam turned back around. She planted another passionate 吻乐队（Kiss） on Clay. Clay returned it with immense enthusiasm.
Sam gently pulled away and 说 with as much force as she could muster through her blazing passion for him
“Clay, Honey we can't. We have to take Serenity to a doctor's appointment tomorrow and it's early at six o' clock.” Clay kissed her neck softly. He then sighed and 说 a bit irradiated “Sam, please it's been so long. Can't we do.. something?” Sam sighed. It was true since they had Serenity neither of them were spending as much time together. Their intimate life was defiantly suffering as an result.
Sam still hadn't 迷失 all of her baby weight. Her extra weight wasn't her only issue when it came to sex. After working and taking care of Serenity whenever the subject came up Sam was usually to exhausted to do anything. Clay kept saying he didn't care about her weight. Through she still put the subject off and it was starting to take a strain on their marriage.
Sam took a deep breath. She then exhaled and 说 “Sweet 心 I promise we can have some fun when we get back form the doctor's. I'll take Ren to your mother's she has been dying to see her. It's been nearly two weeks since she's seen her grandma.”
Clay took a deep breath and 说 tiredly “Sam 你 说 that last week and it didn't happen. I'm starting to get real fed up with your excuses.”
Sam pulled away form him. She then softly padded out of Serenity's room. Clay followed her. Sam got into bed. Clay closed the door behind him. He lingered at the door for a few seconds. Sam still fuming reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out an hair brush. She ran it through out her hair a couple of times. Sam then quickly braided her hair. Clay exhaled slowly he then reluctantly climbed into 床, 床上 with her.
Sam sighed once again that night. She finally turned to her husband and 说
“Clay I really don't think 你 have been appreciating how hard I've been working. Since Serenity's arrived I am not only still holding down my job but I am taking care of our daughter. I usually don't get 首页 on a good 日 till at least nine in the evening. I barely have time to eat. Now over theses past few weeks the only thing 你 have been thinking about besides work is having sex. Well I”m sorry I'm not a Stepford wife and I can't give that to you. I have other important things on my mind. Like making sure our daughter is taking care of!”
Sam took a deep breath to calm herself. She knew she had hurt Clay's feelings. Through she had to admit what she had just 说 felt great. The tension had been building for months and weeks and it felt good for Clay to know how she was truly feeling despite the pain it brought to his eyes.
Clay just stared at her for a moment stunned 由 Sam's reaction.
He then sighed and 说 “Sam, Baby I”m so sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that I don't appreciate 你 because I do. I know how difficult our lives have been since Serenity has come along. We've been so busy and hardly get to spend time with each other. What I'm trying to say is.. I miss you.”
Hesitantly Clay started to put his arms around Sam. Sam sat rigid still contemplating weather 或者 not to lean into his arms. Sam took another deep breath and finally relented to Clay's touch.
She sighed and 说 into his arms “I'm sorry that I blew up at you. It's just that this whole parent job is so much harder that I thought it would be. I foolishly thought it would be easy. I miss 你 too. I know we haven't been spending much time together less than either of us would like. Through I want to change that and I'm going to need your help to do so.”
Clay kissed her on the 最佳, 返回页首 of her head and 说 “Sam, Baby 你 so have my support. I'm sorry too. I guess I have been a tad preoccupied with sex.” Sam made a face. Clay backtracked and 说 “All right obsessed with sex. It's just I miss being with you.”
Sam hugged him and 说 “'So have I.” Clay kissed her and 说 “Your right Baby this parent job is tough. Through I know we can do it.” Sam smiled and 说 “Yeah we can. We just have to learn to prioritize.”
Clay laid down and Sam did the same. He then wrapped his arms around her. Once they were comfortable Sam sighed into Clay “So do 你 still want to take me up on my offer for tomorrow?”
Clay squeezed her softly and 说 “Sure 你 bet.”
Sam sighed again. She then 说 “I 爱情 you, Clay.”
Clay kissed the 最佳, 返回页首 of Sam's head again he then 说 softly “I 爱情 you.”
Sam then kissed Clay. She then drifted off into a deep content sleep.
The 下一个 morning the young family went to Serenity's doctor's appointment. Happily Serenity was a healthy two 月 old. There were no red flags during her exam.
Once the Serenity's exam was done she and Clay dropped Serenity off at Lilith's. She agreed to keep Serenity for the night.
Sam and Clay then hurried back to their townhouse. They ordered in Chinese.
Once they were done with 晚餐 she and Clay bathed together. Sam still had left over lilacs and purple lavender scented candles form the time she told Clay she was pregnant. She quickly decorated their bedroom the exact same way as she had the last time. Sam also dressed the same.
She pulled on her black 《内衣少女》 with 花边 trimmings. She made Clay wait in the bathroom. Once Sam was finished pulling her hair into a french braid she called to him “All right Honey I'm done. 你 can come in now!”
Clay who himself was in clad only in a white t-shirt and boxers. He took in what she had done and 说 “Baby it's great.” Clay then shifted nervously form foot to foot. Sam too took a two deep breaths. It had after all been a long time.
Sam slid off the bed. She went to Clay and wrapped her arms around his waist. She kissed him softly. She then 说 “Don't worry Honey it's like riding a bike 你 never forget. Don't worry we'll take it slow.”
Sam started to take his 衬衫 off. Through before she could Clay was already there. Once he had pulled his 衬衫 off he kissed Sam vigorously. With out breaking rhythm Clay entangled his arms around her neck. Sam then slid the 最佳, 返回页首 and shortly after the bottom of her 《内衣少女》 off. Clay in turn slid his boxers off. They did all of this without breaking the intense rhythm of their kissing.
Clay pulled away and 说 breathlessly “Form what 你 can see. I don't want to go slow I want to go really fast.”
Sam smiled and 说 “Well lead on Honey.” Clay then took a sliding step 前锋, 期待 and pushed Sam backwards onto their bed. They then made 爱情 and Sam never remembered a 更多 passionate 或者 vigorous session.
Then then lay entangled in each other panting breathless form their many rounds. Sam propped herself up on her elbow and looked at Clay with an intense loving gaze.
She kissed him then 说 “Clay 你 were so right. We needed this. Do 你 think your mother could baby-sit every Monday night?”
Clay chuckled. He then kissed her and replied “I don't think so Baby. But I'm sure she can baby-sit every other weekend.” Sam smiled and 说 “Works for me. Do 你 want to go again?”
Clay threaded his arms around her waist. He then softly through quickly flipped her on 最佳, 返回页首 of him.
Sam laughed and 说 “I guess that's a yes?” Clay nodded. Sam started to 吻乐队（Kiss） him.
Before they got any farther Sam put an hand to Clay's lips and 说 “Clay, Honey I promise 你 there will be 更多 nights like this one. We just have to learn to balance the passion with being parents.” Clay nodded again and replied “We can do it Baby I know we can. I 爱情 你 so much. Thank 你 for this night.”
Sam smiled and 说 “I 爱情 you. Your welcome and thank 你 too.”
At that moment Sam knew she and Clay could work out any troubles that came along in their marriage. They would work them out together.
The couple then continued their passionate 爱情 making.
Sam Lockwood-Beresford looked at her clock on her nightstand. It read 4:20 it was the first time in two months that she was not up feeding her newborn baby. She was thrilled. It's about time. Sam thought with tired relief.
Still she wanted to make certain that her baby was all right. As quietly as she could Sam got up. She stretched for a 分钟 then she softly padded over to the nursery. After much deliberation Sam decided two months into her pregnancy that in order to make 更多 breathing room for their growing family they would have to 移动 out of Sam's modest Brooklyn apartment. As much as it pained her to Sam agreed to Clay's idea to move.
They then moved out of Brooklyn and in a modest through still large town house in Park Avenue. 由 the time Sam was in the four 月 of her pregnancy she and Clay had fully settled into their new town house. Through it took some adjusting mostly on Sam's part. Through 由 the eighth 月 of her pregnancy she was completely at 首页 in the townhouse
The baby's nursery was right 下一个 door to their room. It was medium sized room and had pale washed 粉, 粉色 walls and ceiling. The carpet was a soft pale 巴宝莉, burberry burgundy. There were also soft blue and 粉, 粉色 stuffed 动物 arranged around the room.
Sam peeked over the 粉, 粉色 摇篮 in the middle of the room. A soft smile appeared on her face as Sam watched her daughter.
She and Clay had discussed baby names all through her pregnancy. They had settled on Colin Clayton Lockwood-Beresford if their baby were a boy. If there baby were a girl they had agreed on Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford. Her middle name derived form Lilith the name of Clay's mother.
On October tenth at exactly midnight Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford was born. She weighed 6 pounds and was 8 inches. Sam and Clay were overjoyed. Serenity was a beautiful combination of both her and Clay. She had Sam's soft 焦糖 colored hair and had Clay's dark brown eyes. They were able to take Serenity 首页 after only staying one 更多 night in the hospital. Which Sam was very grateful for.
Lilith was equally overjoyed for Sam and Clay. Lilith was not only there for Serenity's birth but had over the past two months visited her granddaughter regularly. Sam would on her days off take Serenity over to visit Lilith. Lilith would constantly coo over her granddaughter Every time she would see Serenity Lilith would say happily Oh there's my Angel, come to Grandma!
Sam was happy 由 Lilith's reactions to her being pregnant and being a mom. She was also happy over how Lilith was handling being a grandmother. Lilith would nearly every time Sam would visit with Serenity give her 建议 on how to care for her. Through Sam was grateful for her help Lilith was starting to get a bit overbearing.
Sam sighed and whispered quietly to her sleeping daughter “Grandma sure drives me crazy Ren.”
Suddenly Sam felt something around her waist. She gasped and turned. “Clay 你 nearly gave me a 心 attack!” Sam whispered furiously. Through her anger soon melted away 由 the warmth of his arms around her waist. Sam leaned into his arms. Clay nuzzled her hair and whispered apologetically “ Sorry Baby I didn't mean to scare you.” Sam turned around fully she wound her arms around his neck then she kissed him passionately for a few seconds.
They broke apart through her arms where still around his neck. Sam sighed and whispered “I forgive 你 Honey. “ Sam leaned into Clay again. He pulled her tighter to him. Clay whispered to Sam “So how is she doing?” Sam turned around and whispered “She's fine. I cannot believe she is finally slept through an entire night tonight. It's amazing”
Sam turned back around. She planted another passionate 吻乐队（Kiss） on Clay. Clay returned it with immense enthusiasm.
Sam gently pulled away and 说 with as much force as she could muster through her blazing passion for him
“Clay, Honey we can't. We have to take Serenity to a doctor's appointment tomorrow and it's early at six o' clock.” Clay kissed her neck softly. He then sighed and 说 a bit irradiated “Sam, please it's been so long. Can't we do.. something?” Sam sighed. It was true since they had Serenity neither of them were spending as much time together. Their intimate life was defiantly suffering as an result.
Sam still hadn't 迷失 all of her baby weight. Her extra weight wasn't her only issue when it came to sex. After working and taking care of Serenity whenever the subject came up Sam was usually to exhausted to do anything. Clay kept saying he didn't care about her weight. Through she still put the subject off and it was starting to take a strain on their marriage.
Sam took a deep breath. She then exhaled and 说 “Sweet 心 I promise we can have some fun when we get back form the doctor's. I'll take Ren to your mother's she has been dying to see her. It's been nearly two weeks since she's seen her grandma.”
Clay took a deep breath and 说 tiredly “Sam 你 说 that last week and it didn't happen. I'm starting to get real fed up with your excuses.”
Sam pulled away form him. She then softly padded out of Serenity's room. Clay followed her. Sam got into bed. Clay closed the door behind him. He lingered at the door for a few seconds. Sam still fuming reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out an hair brush. She ran it through out her hair a couple of times. Sam then quickly braided her hair. Clay exhaled slowly he then reluctantly climbed into 床, 床上 with her.
Sam sighed once again that night. She finally turned to her husband and 说
“Clay I really don't think 你 have been appreciating how hard I've been working. Since Serenity's arrived I am not only still holding down my job but I am taking care of our daughter. I usually don't get 首页 on a good 日 till at least nine in the evening. I barely have time to eat. Now over theses past few weeks the only thing 你 have been thinking about besides work is having sex. Well I”m sorry I'm not a Stepford wife and I can't give that to you. I have other important things on my mind. Like making sure our daughter is taking care of!”
Sam took a deep breath to calm herself. She knew she had hurt Clay's feelings. Through she had to admit what she had just 说 felt great. The tension had been building for months and weeks and it felt good for Clay to know how she was truly feeling despite the pain it brought to his eyes.
Clay just stared at her for a moment stunned 由 Sam's reaction.
He then sighed and 说 “Sam, Baby I”m so sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that I don't appreciate 你 because I do. I know how difficult our lives have been since Serenity has come along. We've been so busy and hardly get to spend time with each other. What I'm trying to say is.. I miss you.”
Hesitantly Clay started to put his arms around Sam. Sam sat rigid still contemplating weather 或者 not to lean into his arms. Sam took another deep breath and finally relented to Clay's touch.
She sighed and 说 into his arms “I'm sorry that I blew up at you. It's just that this whole parent job is so much harder that I thought it would be. I foolishly thought it would be easy. I miss 你 too. I know we haven't been spending much time together less than either of us would like. Through I want to change that and I'm going to need your help to do so.”
Clay kissed her on the 最佳, 返回页首 of her head and 说 “Sam, Baby 你 so have my support. I'm sorry too. I guess I have been a tad preoccupied with sex.” Sam made a face. Clay backtracked and 说 “All right obsessed with sex. It's just I miss being with you.”
Sam hugged him and 说 “'So have I.” Clay kissed her and 说 “Your right Baby this parent job is tough. Through I know we can do it.” Sam smiled and 说 “Yeah we can. We just have to learn to prioritize.”
Clay laid down and Sam did the same. He then wrapped his arms around her. Once they were comfortable Sam sighed into Clay “So do 你 still want to take me up on my offer for tomorrow?”
Clay squeezed her softly and 说 “Sure 你 bet.”
Sam sighed again. She then 说 “I 爱情 you, Clay.”
Clay kissed the 最佳, 返回页首 of Sam's head again he then 说 softly “I 爱情 you.”
Sam then kissed Clay. She then drifted off into a deep content sleep.
The 下一个 morning the young family went to Serenity's doctor's appointment. Happily Serenity was a healthy two 月 old. There were no red flags during her exam.
Once the Serenity's exam was done she and Clay dropped Serenity off at Lilith's. She agreed to keep Serenity for the night.
Sam and Clay then hurried back to their townhouse. They ordered in Chinese.
Once they were done with 晚餐 she and Clay bathed together. Sam still had left over lilacs and purple lavender scented candles form the time she told Clay she was pregnant. She quickly decorated their bedroom the exact same way as she had the last time. Sam also dressed the same.
She pulled on her black 《内衣少女》 with 花边 trimmings. She made Clay wait in the bathroom. Once Sam was finished pulling her hair into a french braid she called to him “All right Honey I'm done. 你 can come in now!”
Clay who himself was in clad only in a white t-shirt and boxers. He took in what she had done and 说 “Baby it's great.” Clay then shifted nervously form foot to foot. Sam too took a two deep breaths. It had after all been a long time.
Sam slid off the bed. She went to Clay and wrapped her arms around his waist. She kissed him softly. She then 说 “Don't worry Honey it's like riding a bike 你 never forget. Don't worry we'll take it slow.”
Sam started to take his 衬衫 off. Through before she could Clay was already there. Once he had pulled his 衬衫 off he kissed Sam vigorously. With out breaking rhythm Clay entangled his arms around her neck. Sam then slid the 最佳, 返回页首 and shortly after the bottom of her 《内衣少女》 off. Clay in turn slid his boxers off. They did all of this without breaking the intense rhythm of their kissing.
Clay pulled away and 说 breathlessly “Form what 你 can see. I don't want to go slow I want to go really fast.”
Sam smiled and 说 “Well lead on Honey.” Clay then took a sliding step 前锋, 期待 and pushed Sam backwards onto their bed. They then made 爱情 and Sam never remembered a 更多 passionate 或者 vigorous session.
Then then lay entangled in each other panting breathless form their many rounds. Sam propped herself up on her elbow and looked at Clay with an intense loving gaze.
She kissed him then 说 “Clay 你 were so right. We needed this. Do 你 think your mother could baby-sit every Monday night?”
Clay chuckled. He then kissed her and replied “I don't think so Baby. But I'm sure she can baby-sit every other weekend.” Sam smiled and 说 “Works for me. Do 你 want to go again?”
Clay threaded his arms around her waist. He then softly through quickly flipped her on 最佳, 返回页首 of him.
Sam laughed and 说 “I guess that's a yes?” Clay nodded. Sam started to 吻乐队（Kiss） him.
Before they got any farther Sam put an hand to Clay's lips and 说 “Clay, Honey I promise 你 there will be 更多 nights like this one. We just have to learn to balance the passion with being parents.” Clay nodded again and replied “We can do it Baby I know we can. I 爱情 你 so much. Thank 你 for this night.”
Sam smiled and 说 “I 爱情 you. Your welcome and thank 你 too.”
At that moment Sam knew she and Clay could work out any troubles that came along in their marriage. They would work them out together.
The couple then continued their passionate 爱情 making.
Sam and Clay enjoy much needed alone time
