those poems repeseent the way i feel... and my emotions will never heal.. so theres nothing to do... and those clouds will continue to grow... as me mind 心 slowly start to go... no this cant be !! this cant be me!! DX do i hate my life!! beacuse its full of painfull strife! no no stop it i wont end it with a knife! im against such things as it is not natural but my minds feelings toward such matters are now null DX no.. i dont want this.. not.. me.. ple..... *Cries * why is it that once in my mind i wished that everyone dies... is it people i am starting to despise!? nooO! this c ant happen i wont let it i wont let it end and i pray that my hearts feelings do mend DX