My suicide note that I threw away cuz of my awesome 老友记 and life I wanted to keep.
To the friends, I call my family,
由 the time 你 read this letter, I will be only a faded memory.
A corpse on the cold bathroom floor.
It is too late for me now, and I know it.
Even as I write this letter I can feel the life draining out of me.
But I feel it, so that's something, right?
I have been dead for a while now, though 你 may not have noticed.
I died the night I couldn't 爱情 you, my love.
I loved 你 with everything.
My heart, my body and soul.
I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
At least you're happy.
I went numb, and ceased to feel.
Ceased to be.
That was when I first cut.
I just needed to feel something.
After a while it wasn't enough.
I thought if I cut deeper and spilled 更多 of my blood I would at least make me feel alive.
It worked for a while, but in the end it just left me hollower than before.
I tried to keep it together, for my family, but 你 know something?
你 don't need me any more.
None of 你 do.
I just cause 你 更多 pain and suffering than I'm worth.
Because I lied.
I am not Raven.
Not anymore.
I am nothing without you.
你 don't need me.
None of 你 do.
How can I take care of a family when I can't take care of myself?
I can't.
Not anymore.
I used to be able to, before this all started.
I just can't remember how anymore.
I sit here and remember the fight we had.
你 told me to leave and the words 你 used cut me 更多 than any blade ever did.
Don't worry.
I am going now.
I feel so tired, my vision is becoming blurred, and I know I must go soon, but wait.
There is some wisdom I still need to depart on you.
The last order I shall give 你 is the one to do what 你 want.
I was only trying to protect 你 all.
I am sorry.
I won't do it again.
Promise.
I was a bad leader.
I know it.
So, do what 你 want, and maybe you'll see why I was the way I was.
Whitney, my baby.
Go off make the world better...
Go be yourself, and be happy.
Go make me proud.
Twan, my brother.
Go be the person 你 want to be.
Go blow up things.
Go give away your life.
Go and accidentally kill yourself 或者 someone 你 爱情 and see how it feels to be a murder.
Like I am.
Ducky, my little sister.
Go draw attention to yourself.
Go tell every stranger 你 meet that 你 are happy, and heck, hug them.
Go get laughed at, screamed at, go get called a freak.
Go be happy about being a freak, my freak.
People don't like things that are different.
I learned that the hard way, and tried to shield 你 from it, but maybe I was wrong to do so.
Fang, damn it I 爱情 you.
Go be the person who other people depend on for every little thing.
Mel, my freaking OC, and mother figure.
I want someone to hold me.
I want my sissy to hold me.
I want Fang to hold me.
I want my brother to hold me
I want my Mom to hold me.
Then you'll really be alone like 你 always wanted to be, and whose fault will it be? Not mine, that's for sure.
That's why I'm leaving.
I want out.
I can't take it anymore.
I need a break.
I need to be free.
I loved 你 guys all with all my heart.
I hope you're happy together.
All I can say is that I tried.
It was too hard.
Goodbye,
My baby,
My brother,
My little sister,
My crazy mother figure,
And my best friend, my imaginary right-hand-man, the only person I ever truly loved, Fang.
I wish I could see your faces one 更多 time, but it's too late for me.
The darkness is creeping in around me.
Don't cry for me, I was already dead.
I just need 你 to know that everything I did, I did for you.
All of you.
你 can't catch me this time...
You can't save me...
But 你 can let me go....
To the friends, I call my family,
由 the time 你 read this letter, I will be only a faded memory.
A corpse on the cold bathroom floor.
It is too late for me now, and I know it.
Even as I write this letter I can feel the life draining out of me.
But I feel it, so that's something, right?
I have been dead for a while now, though 你 may not have noticed.
I died the night I couldn't 爱情 you, my love.
I loved 你 with everything.
My heart, my body and soul.
I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you.
At least you're happy.
I went numb, and ceased to feel.
Ceased to be.
That was when I first cut.
I just needed to feel something.
After a while it wasn't enough.
I thought if I cut deeper and spilled 更多 of my blood I would at least make me feel alive.
It worked for a while, but in the end it just left me hollower than before.
I tried to keep it together, for my family, but 你 know something?
你 don't need me any more.
None of 你 do.
I just cause 你 更多 pain and suffering than I'm worth.
Because I lied.
I am not Raven.
Not anymore.
I am nothing without you.
你 don't need me.
None of 你 do.
How can I take care of a family when I can't take care of myself?
I can't.
Not anymore.
I used to be able to, before this all started.
I just can't remember how anymore.
I sit here and remember the fight we had.
你 told me to leave and the words 你 used cut me 更多 than any blade ever did.
Don't worry.
I am going now.
I feel so tired, my vision is becoming blurred, and I know I must go soon, but wait.
There is some wisdom I still need to depart on you.
The last order I shall give 你 is the one to do what 你 want.
I was only trying to protect 你 all.
I am sorry.
I won't do it again.
Promise.
I was a bad leader.
I know it.
So, do what 你 want, and maybe you'll see why I was the way I was.
Whitney, my baby.
Go off make the world better...
Go be yourself, and be happy.
Go make me proud.
Twan, my brother.
Go be the person 你 want to be.
Go blow up things.
Go give away your life.
Go and accidentally kill yourself 或者 someone 你 爱情 and see how it feels to be a murder.
Like I am.
Ducky, my little sister.
Go draw attention to yourself.
Go tell every stranger 你 meet that 你 are happy, and heck, hug them.
Go get laughed at, screamed at, go get called a freak.
Go be happy about being a freak, my freak.
People don't like things that are different.
I learned that the hard way, and tried to shield 你 from it, but maybe I was wrong to do so.
Fang, damn it I 爱情 you.
Go be the person who other people depend on for every little thing.
Mel, my freaking OC, and mother figure.
I want someone to hold me.
I want my sissy to hold me.
I want Fang to hold me.
I want my brother to hold me
I want my Mom to hold me.
Then you'll really be alone like 你 always wanted to be, and whose fault will it be? Not mine, that's for sure.
That's why I'm leaving.
I want out.
I can't take it anymore.
I need a break.
I need to be free.
I loved 你 guys all with all my heart.
I hope you're happy together.
All I can say is that I tried.
It was too hard.
Goodbye,
My baby,
My brother,
My little sister,
My crazy mother figure,
And my best friend, my imaginary right-hand-man, the only person I ever truly loved, Fang.
I wish I could see your faces one 更多 time, but it's too late for me.
The darkness is creeping in around me.
Don't cry for me, I was already dead.
I just need 你 to know that everything I did, I did for you.
All of you.
你 can't catch me this time...
You can't save me...
But 你 can let me go....
1. Ruin there 最喜爱的 dress with lipstick
2.Slap them in the face with something alive
3. Make a bath for them with salt.
4. When they are at a fancy dinner, make fart noises
5. Run around them saying "Your butt is smelly!"
6. Say infront of everyone that your enemy watches Dora.
7. Fill a water ballon with 汤 and prank him.
8. 吻乐队(Kiss) her boyfriend right In front of her
9. Push her into a 20 ft pool. (Espicially if she can't swim)
10. Steal her wallet and spend all her money and use her credit card. (Or through it in the trash.)
All made up 由 me. ^ ^
2.Slap them in the face with something alive
3. Make a bath for them with salt.
4. When they are at a fancy dinner, make fart noises
5. Run around them saying "Your butt is smelly!"
6. Say infront of everyone that your enemy watches Dora.
7. Fill a water ballon with 汤 and prank him.
8. 吻乐队(Kiss) her boyfriend right In front of her
9. Push her into a 20 ft pool. (Espicially if she can't swim)
10. Steal her wallet and spend all her money and use her credit card. (Or through it in the trash.)
All made up 由 me. ^ ^
No AC/DC, people. I'm sorry.
1. "Highway Star", 由 Deep Purple
2. "Fear Of The Dark", 由 Iron Maiden
3. "Money For Nothing", 由 Dire Straits
4. "Sharp Dressed Man", 由 ZZ Top
5. "Come On Feel The Noise", 由 Quiet Riot
6. "Love In An Elevator", 由 Aerosmith
7. "Still Of The Night", 由 Whitesnake
8. "Nobody's Wife", 由 Anouk
9. "Stairway To Heaven", 由 Led Zeppelin
10. "Smokin'", 由 Boston
11. "Cherry Bomb", 由 The Runaways
12. "Mother, 由 Danzig
13. "Voodoo", 由 Black Sabbath
14. "Hot Blooded", 由 Foreigner
15. "Barracuda", 由 Heart
16. "Turn Up The Radio", 由 Autograph
17. "I 爱情 你 Period", 由 Dan Baird
18. "Rock & Roll 69", 由 Betty Blowtorch
19. "I Can't Drive 55", 由 Sammy Hagar
20. "Carry On Wayward Son", 由 Kansas