Before anyone reads this, just know that I wrote this yesterday when I was really upset with myself because of some mistake I made that keeps coming back up in my daily life that is best left unexplained. I don't feel like this right now and I really hope that I'm really over it, but I have to get my feelings out anyway. Don't hate me for it.
And this poem is written in two different points of views, 由 the way... The first 8 are 由 the person feeling this way- me, in other words- and the last 8 were written in the point of view of depression/suicide.
Anway, now that that's out of the way, enjoy this pointless, depressing, dumb poem...
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Bury me alive and confiscate my soul
For darkness is the brightest thing that I will ever know
Caged inside these horrors that I will always make
Between my hands is my life, the thing that I must take
The strings I’ve forged to keep me 安全 are being torn apart
A terror caused 由 nothing but the beating of my heart
My life is done and not because of anybody else
The only one I have to blame is my disgusting self
Behind that ugly mask 你 wear to cover your dumb lie
Hides the truth and a pain that will never die
With no excuse to feel this way your mind’s begun to fray
你 don’t amount to anything and don’t deserve to stay
I am right, I always am, for I can never loose
I will take my prize as 你 tie yourself a lovely noose
And when 你 cannot breath and 你 are finally done
I'll crack a smile and laugh a while, knowing that I've won.
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*Before anyone 评论 或者 says anything about how my life probably doesn't suck in comparison to a lot of people and I shouldn't get all 情绪硬核 and depressed when my life doesn't suck and I shouldn't waste my time complaining, I just have to say, save it. I already know. But right now, I have to get this out before it causes a serious problem and ends up killing me. So if anyone is going to say that 或者 even think it, and I know someone is bound to think it, don't comment. Okay? Okay.*
And this poem is written in two different points of views, 由 the way... The first 8 are 由 the person feeling this way- me, in other words- and the last 8 were written in the point of view of depression/suicide.
Anway, now that that's out of the way, enjoy this pointless, depressing, dumb poem...
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Bury me alive and confiscate my soul
For darkness is the brightest thing that I will ever know
Caged inside these horrors that I will always make
Between my hands is my life, the thing that I must take
The strings I’ve forged to keep me 安全 are being torn apart
A terror caused 由 nothing but the beating of my heart
My life is done and not because of anybody else
The only one I have to blame is my disgusting self
Behind that ugly mask 你 wear to cover your dumb lie
Hides the truth and a pain that will never die
With no excuse to feel this way your mind’s begun to fray
你 don’t amount to anything and don’t deserve to stay
I am right, I always am, for I can never loose
I will take my prize as 你 tie yourself a lovely noose
And when 你 cannot breath and 你 are finally done
I'll crack a smile and laugh a while, knowing that I've won.
___
*Before anyone 评论 或者 says anything about how my life probably doesn't suck in comparison to a lot of people and I shouldn't get all 情绪硬核 and depressed when my life doesn't suck and I shouldn't waste my time complaining, I just have to say, save it. I already know. But right now, I have to get this out before it causes a serious problem and ends up killing me. So if anyone is going to say that 或者 even think it, and I know someone is bound to think it, don't comment. Okay? Okay.*
I'm sure you've read the 文章 由 jedigal1990 that ajl 说 he made the 随意 spot but he joined in September (2009). I think 你 should just give him 支持 to tell him to just tell the truth and say he didn't make the 随意 spot. jedigal1990 and BellaCullen96 sent messages to her to tell the truth. She never responded. Even I sent her a message and a couple of 支持 to please tell the truth and she never responded back. www.fanpop.com/fans/ajl type that in the address bar. Please do not yell at her. Please be polite.