"What kind of explanation is that?"
Explaining House was already hard enough. Explaining his hallucinations to the person they were about, and who is probably the most important person to know ABOUT them, was even harder. If, THAT even makes sense.
"I really don't know how to explain it any other way."
"Well, think of another. It made sense up till, 你 started explaining what they meant."
"Isn't it...a given?"
"Yes."
"So what's there to explain?"
"How it's possible."
"Why not?"
"I can't even begin to...fathom, how it's possible."
"Again, why not?"
"Because--it's, House."
"Just because he's House, doesn't mean he's bereaved of feelings."
"Puh. I beg to differ."
"Can 你 honestly look me in the face and say that?"
"I think I just did."
"Yeah he's an 屁股 and, his practice of narcissism is...irrefutable, but. It's also been shown that--he can get hurt. He knows that feeling oh too well. And pain...They're like best friends. So, if he knows those feelings, what makes 你 think he doesn't love?"
"I'm not saying he's completely stone cold person, he's relatively close, but he's fallen in 爱情 once. He crashed. He's not one to....want to experience something painful, twice."
"Yes he is. He practically thrives on pain and misery."
"You think he wanted that leg in the first place?"
"No, but its what made him the way he is."
"He doesn't want to be in pain. He doesn't want to feel miserable."
"From what his leg made of him, that's the only thing he feels he has. At least, until he realized...how deep he had really fallen."
"He likes my body, my features, and whatever else is erupting in his mind when I'm around. What we do to each other, isn't love. We do it out of annoyance and power."
"Oh please. Do 你 honestly think that your games were always about who got power over the other? Games is flirting for House. And who 说 he wanted to 爱情 you? He didn't plan it. He didn't see it coming. The only time he was sure of it, was when he talked to me. When he thought 你 guys got together, he came to me and asked me what to do. He tried all these things that were, rookie types and mediocre. Things he's been past for quite some time. He was turning it into a case of his. So I stopped the differentials and the investigations and I asked him: "Do 你 want to be the man with all the answers, 或者 do 你 want to be the man with Cuddy?" And he stopped, and decided to pull something he'd never done. The incident in the lobby. Which would have work, 给 that the hallucinations actually happened but. 你 get my point. We can't really--choose the ones we fall in 爱情 with. It's cruel and unfair, but its the truth."
She sat down again, but on the chair 由 his desk, closer from where she had been moments before. Hearing all this was overwhelming and...unbelievable.
"What are 你 thinking?"
"What the hell I'm supposed to do now."
"Well, normally, the logical thing to do would be to...visit him? 或者 at least call him? To talk about this?"
"I--don't know."
"You feel the same, don't you?"
"I guess? I don't know. I don't even know what'd I'd say to him."
"You can't seriously tell me that after everything 你 two have been through, 你 don't even feel a little something towards him in spite of the many pain in the 屁股 things he's done. I mean, 你 guys didn't sleep together, but 你 did kiss."
"Vulnerable-comfort."
"You know he felt a sense of compassion too. If he spent a while just thinking about that kiss...how much 更多 could it have drove 你 insane?"
"Huh."
"Listen to me. Right now, for him, its a fragile point in your relationship. Your...connection has been...meddled with. And it hit him harder than it hit you. So, be a comfort to him. Do what 你 do best."
He got up from his 台, 办公桌 and started for the door. He was halfway through when he held the door and turned around.
"I hope 你 do feel the same. Otherwise there's something terribly wrong with you."
She gave a curious look. He just rolled his eyes and started laughing.
"No woman in her right mind would save a man's life a many a several times, while he harasses her and does the most unexplainable and unforgivable things. No woman Cuddy. No woman is that devoted to a pain in the 屁股 unless she felt something."
"There is such a thing called care Wilson. I've known him for a while, saving his life seems 更多 like a job 更多 than something volunteered."
"Or saving his life, seems 更多 like your moral obligation towards him?"
He smiled and walked out, leaving her to analyze the situation at hand.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////
"So, they all think the vicodin's finally got to 你 huh?"
"Exactly."
They were both sitting at a 表 alone, discussing past stories.
"Honestly? Don't think it was the vicodin."
"Why not, its plausible, logical. Probably the best answer we've got."
"With what 你 told me, I've seena pattern 'ere. In intervals of your life, somethin' tragic has happened. One example, your childhood. Father abused you. A good somewhat years later, 你 end up in a serious relationship. In which might I add, ended in plungin' downfall, which was all caused, 由 the damn infarction in your leg. Few years later, 你 piss off some guy, some way some how, and he shoots you. Twice. Years after that, 你 end up losin' what seemed like a great group a people. Then, a 年 later after they return, 你 go n' get yourself a new bunch. One out of that bunch b'came your best bud's girl, but then she died, which of course, left 你 feelin' guilty, for which I don't know why. Then, 你 lose the dude for like, a few weeks? That kills you. 你 get'em back, and as soon as 你 do, you and your girl make somethin' happen and it goes all dramatic. Then, 你 get kept hostage for a while which reminds 你 of the years before in which 你 did get shot. And then what seems to be the pusher 'ere. The whole, Kutner dude who offed himself, for which, 你 have no idea why, and it came as a surprise that, outta all the people, 你 did not see it coming. And that, scared the shit outta you. It hit 你 hard, and 你 got scared. And frankly, I think 你 even mourned a bit for the guy, cause he sounded like 你 actually liked'em. And that's when 你 broke. That's when 你 slowly started losing yourself, in ways 你 thought, impossible. But 你 did, even though none of the shit was your fault. And it got 你 landed, right in 'ere. And 你 know what I think the worst part is?"
"Not quite sure, I think 你 pretty much summed up my life right there."
"Your girl, she don't even know how 你 really feel. And 你 get to spend the 下一个 months just wonderin' if she does know, and if she feels the same. 你 could call. She could visit. But 你 can't do anythin'. You're stuck here. And havin' a relationship with someone while you're stuck in 'ere, is not the best idea. Trust me I've been there. Not a good place to stick yourself. Not b'cause 你 need time to heal....no...because seeing her, would be another pain. And pain is what go 你 here in the first place. 你 didn't have some emotional break down 或者 anything, 你 just suffered so much over a short amount of time and your mind overloaded. 你 迷失 your sanity in the process. That's what's driving 你 insane. That's why, you're here. That's why, for now at least, 你 cannot and should not see her. For now, 你 cannot be with her."
She took a bite into her stale bread, and forced it down her throat, accompanied with a 酸, 酸奶 aged glass of 橙子, 橙色 juice.
"This is how I know 你 do belong here Nathan."
"How?"
"I can tell, 你 are a one crazy, manipulative and ethical bitch."
"So I've been told."
---
Nighttime
Wilson was about to leave for the night. His 公文包 由 the door, his 夹克 wrapped around him and his room cleaned up. And before he went to shut down his computer, he checked his 电子邮箱 and as he was looking through letters of fellow oncologists and professors, he had found a straying 电子邮箱 standing out from all the rest. It was from none other than House.
===================================================
Wilson
Hope 你 haven't dealt with Cuddy yet, although I have a fairly strong feeling that 你 have. She called me several times and left various voice mails. Go figure, 你 let that loose lip of yours go wandering around in others BUSINESS. Yes, I emphasized that for a reason. It's for future reference. Anyway, I had something else planned to talk to 你 about, but I had to e-yell at 你 instead. And if you're wondering what it is, it's pretty urgent. So blame yourself for that. Now, I know 由 the time you're done 阅读 this thing, you're gonna wanna call me. But 你 can't. This particular conversation is not important to my counselors and such, despite the fact that from their position, they might see differently. So, do not call me regarding this, just via email. Can 你 follow those simple directions?
-House
===================================================
As he read through, he gave the occasional smirk, and he gave a good amount of eyes widening. A few clicks here and there, he replied to House, a fairly short email. After, he shut down his computer, and locked up for his journey home, thinking just what was on this guys mind.
Explaining House was already hard enough. Explaining his hallucinations to the person they were about, and who is probably the most important person to know ABOUT them, was even harder. If, THAT even makes sense.
"I really don't know how to explain it any other way."
"Well, think of another. It made sense up till, 你 started explaining what they meant."
"Isn't it...a given?"
"Yes."
"So what's there to explain?"
"How it's possible."
"Why not?"
"I can't even begin to...fathom, how it's possible."
"Again, why not?"
"Because--it's, House."
"Just because he's House, doesn't mean he's bereaved of feelings."
"Puh. I beg to differ."
"Can 你 honestly look me in the face and say that?"
"I think I just did."
"Yeah he's an 屁股 and, his practice of narcissism is...irrefutable, but. It's also been shown that--he can get hurt. He knows that feeling oh too well. And pain...They're like best friends. So, if he knows those feelings, what makes 你 think he doesn't love?"
"I'm not saying he's completely stone cold person, he's relatively close, but he's fallen in 爱情 once. He crashed. He's not one to....want to experience something painful, twice."
"Yes he is. He practically thrives on pain and misery."
"You think he wanted that leg in the first place?"
"No, but its what made him the way he is."
"He doesn't want to be in pain. He doesn't want to feel miserable."
"From what his leg made of him, that's the only thing he feels he has. At least, until he realized...how deep he had really fallen."
"He likes my body, my features, and whatever else is erupting in his mind when I'm around. What we do to each other, isn't love. We do it out of annoyance and power."
"Oh please. Do 你 honestly think that your games were always about who got power over the other? Games is flirting for House. And who 说 he wanted to 爱情 you? He didn't plan it. He didn't see it coming. The only time he was sure of it, was when he talked to me. When he thought 你 guys got together, he came to me and asked me what to do. He tried all these things that were, rookie types and mediocre. Things he's been past for quite some time. He was turning it into a case of his. So I stopped the differentials and the investigations and I asked him: "Do 你 want to be the man with all the answers, 或者 do 你 want to be the man with Cuddy?" And he stopped, and decided to pull something he'd never done. The incident in the lobby. Which would have work, 给 that the hallucinations actually happened but. 你 get my point. We can't really--choose the ones we fall in 爱情 with. It's cruel and unfair, but its the truth."
She sat down again, but on the chair 由 his desk, closer from where she had been moments before. Hearing all this was overwhelming and...unbelievable.
"What are 你 thinking?"
"What the hell I'm supposed to do now."
"Well, normally, the logical thing to do would be to...visit him? 或者 at least call him? To talk about this?"
"I--don't know."
"You feel the same, don't you?"
"I guess? I don't know. I don't even know what'd I'd say to him."
"You can't seriously tell me that after everything 你 two have been through, 你 don't even feel a little something towards him in spite of the many pain in the 屁股 things he's done. I mean, 你 guys didn't sleep together, but 你 did kiss."
"Vulnerable-comfort."
"You know he felt a sense of compassion too. If he spent a while just thinking about that kiss...how much 更多 could it have drove 你 insane?"
"Huh."
"Listen to me. Right now, for him, its a fragile point in your relationship. Your...connection has been...meddled with. And it hit him harder than it hit you. So, be a comfort to him. Do what 你 do best."
He got up from his 台, 办公桌 and started for the door. He was halfway through when he held the door and turned around.
"I hope 你 do feel the same. Otherwise there's something terribly wrong with you."
She gave a curious look. He just rolled his eyes and started laughing.
"No woman in her right mind would save a man's life a many a several times, while he harasses her and does the most unexplainable and unforgivable things. No woman Cuddy. No woman is that devoted to a pain in the 屁股 unless she felt something."
"There is such a thing called care Wilson. I've known him for a while, saving his life seems 更多 like a job 更多 than something volunteered."
"Or saving his life, seems 更多 like your moral obligation towards him?"
He smiled and walked out, leaving her to analyze the situation at hand.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////
"So, they all think the vicodin's finally got to 你 huh?"
"Exactly."
They were both sitting at a 表 alone, discussing past stories.
"Honestly? Don't think it was the vicodin."
"Why not, its plausible, logical. Probably the best answer we've got."
"With what 你 told me, I've seena pattern 'ere. In intervals of your life, somethin' tragic has happened. One example, your childhood. Father abused you. A good somewhat years later, 你 end up in a serious relationship. In which might I add, ended in plungin' downfall, which was all caused, 由 the damn infarction in your leg. Few years later, 你 piss off some guy, some way some how, and he shoots you. Twice. Years after that, 你 end up losin' what seemed like a great group a people. Then, a 年 later after they return, 你 go n' get yourself a new bunch. One out of that bunch b'came your best bud's girl, but then she died, which of course, left 你 feelin' guilty, for which I don't know why. Then, 你 lose the dude for like, a few weeks? That kills you. 你 get'em back, and as soon as 你 do, you and your girl make somethin' happen and it goes all dramatic. Then, 你 get kept hostage for a while which reminds 你 of the years before in which 你 did get shot. And then what seems to be the pusher 'ere. The whole, Kutner dude who offed himself, for which, 你 have no idea why, and it came as a surprise that, outta all the people, 你 did not see it coming. And that, scared the shit outta you. It hit 你 hard, and 你 got scared. And frankly, I think 你 even mourned a bit for the guy, cause he sounded like 你 actually liked'em. And that's when 你 broke. That's when 你 slowly started losing yourself, in ways 你 thought, impossible. But 你 did, even though none of the shit was your fault. And it got 你 landed, right in 'ere. And 你 know what I think the worst part is?"
"Not quite sure, I think 你 pretty much summed up my life right there."
"Your girl, she don't even know how 你 really feel. And 你 get to spend the 下一个 months just wonderin' if she does know, and if she feels the same. 你 could call. She could visit. But 你 can't do anythin'. You're stuck here. And havin' a relationship with someone while you're stuck in 'ere, is not the best idea. Trust me I've been there. Not a good place to stick yourself. Not b'cause 你 need time to heal....no...because seeing her, would be another pain. And pain is what go 你 here in the first place. 你 didn't have some emotional break down 或者 anything, 你 just suffered so much over a short amount of time and your mind overloaded. 你 迷失 your sanity in the process. That's what's driving 你 insane. That's why, you're here. That's why, for now at least, 你 cannot and should not see her. For now, 你 cannot be with her."
She took a bite into her stale bread, and forced it down her throat, accompanied with a 酸, 酸奶 aged glass of 橙子, 橙色 juice.
"This is how I know 你 do belong here Nathan."
"How?"
"I can tell, 你 are a one crazy, manipulative and ethical bitch."
"So I've been told."
---
Nighttime
Wilson was about to leave for the night. His 公文包 由 the door, his 夹克 wrapped around him and his room cleaned up. And before he went to shut down his computer, he checked his 电子邮箱 and as he was looking through letters of fellow oncologists and professors, he had found a straying 电子邮箱 standing out from all the rest. It was from none other than House.
===================================================
Wilson
Hope 你 haven't dealt with Cuddy yet, although I have a fairly strong feeling that 你 have. She called me several times and left various voice mails. Go figure, 你 let that loose lip of yours go wandering around in others BUSINESS. Yes, I emphasized that for a reason. It's for future reference. Anyway, I had something else planned to talk to 你 about, but I had to e-yell at 你 instead. And if you're wondering what it is, it's pretty urgent. So blame yourself for that. Now, I know 由 the time you're done 阅读 this thing, you're gonna wanna call me. But 你 can't. This particular conversation is not important to my counselors and such, despite the fact that from their position, they might see differently. So, do not call me regarding this, just via email. Can 你 follow those simple directions?
-House
===================================================
As he read through, he gave the occasional smirk, and he gave a good amount of eyes widening. A few clicks here and there, he replied to House, a fairly short email. After, he shut down his computer, and locked up for his journey home, thinking just what was on this guys mind.
she missed him.....she couldn't live without him...she missed his eyes, his smile, and him holding onto her and never letting go.....but he was gone...forever.
she whispered to herself: "i wish 你 were here....to touch my hand and beg for me back...i look in the mirror and see your face....i have terrible nightmares about you....i want to live, i want to breathe, your taking over me. i'll always believe in you...i'll give up everything just to find you. have 你 forgotten all i know, and all we've had? if i changed.....i knew you'd 爱情 me then....hopefully 你 wont take over me before i go insane.."
she whispered to herself: "i wish 你 were here....to touch my hand and beg for me back...i look in the mirror and see your face....i have terrible nightmares about you....i want to live, i want to breathe, your taking over me. i'll always believe in you...i'll give up everything just to find you. have 你 forgotten all i know, and all we've had? if i changed.....i knew you'd 爱情 me then....hopefully 你 wont take over me before i go insane.."
