_______________HEAVEN AND HELL_______________
I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like 狼 howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called 老友记 at school don’t care about 你 anymore!” “Don’t 你 want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are 你 waiting for?” I try not to listen 由 covering my ears 或者 hiding under my blanket to keep those voices out 或者 even crying just to let them know that enough was enough.
I hate feeling this way.. All the dark voices keep lurking around the back of my mind when I’m alone.. they tell me to do all the horrible things to myself like swallowing pills, giving myself cuts in my arms, going up to edge of a high cliff somewhere and just jump to see what it felt like to fly… 或者 worse–get a gun and pull the trigger at my head, blowing it wide like a popped balloon before it sailed down to the ground…
I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night..
I want to stop all the hurt, the pain, the loneliness that I feel when I’m 由 myself
I want people to stop feeling sorry for me..
I want everyone, even me, to feel happy and not think that this is the last 年 we’d all be together
I want to be happy inside and not feel sad about everything all the time..
I want.. everything that’s happening to me now to stop and wash out of my body
Sometimes I feel happy and blissful when I’m with all my 老友记 and family, and even my pets who always make me feel at 首页 and happy.
But when I want to say something so darn important to someone all these negative thoughts swarm my mind like a hive of bees stinging me painfully.
My life is like torn between Heaven and Hell..
One 日 I’m so happy.. 下一个 thing 你 know, everything grows dull and silent and suddenly, I’m swallowed up 由 darkness and pulled down deep, never able to reach the surface again..
Under this smile that I have on my face.. the happiness, the joy and the kindness.. there is a girl who just wants someone to
Understand her
Help her
Hug her
Let her know that that ‘someone’ would be there for her
Hold her hand and tell her know that everything with her – her problems, the pain – would disappear
Be there for her.. and never let her go 或者 leave her side
Do 你 know me all that well?
Do 你 know what my true feelings are?
Do 你 know the girl who sits 由 herself?
Do you? Do 你 really?
I didn’t think so…
Who am I to 问题 the impossible?
_______________PEACE & LOVE_______________
SILENT CHILD.
I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like 狼 howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called 老友记 at school don’t care about 你 anymore!” “Don’t 你 want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are 你 waiting for?” I try not to listen 由 covering my ears 或者 hiding under my blanket to keep those voices out 或者 even crying just to let them know that enough was enough.
I hate feeling this way.. All the dark voices keep lurking around the back of my mind when I’m alone.. they tell me to do all the horrible things to myself like swallowing pills, giving myself cuts in my arms, going up to edge of a high cliff somewhere and just jump to see what it felt like to fly… 或者 worse–get a gun and pull the trigger at my head, blowing it wide like a popped balloon before it sailed down to the ground…
I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night..
I want to stop all the hurt, the pain, the loneliness that I feel when I’m 由 myself
I want people to stop feeling sorry for me..
I want everyone, even me, to feel happy and not think that this is the last 年 we’d all be together
I want to be happy inside and not feel sad about everything all the time..
I want.. everything that’s happening to me now to stop and wash out of my body
Sometimes I feel happy and blissful when I’m with all my 老友记 and family, and even my pets who always make me feel at 首页 and happy.
But when I want to say something so darn important to someone all these negative thoughts swarm my mind like a hive of bees stinging me painfully.
My life is like torn between Heaven and Hell..
One 日 I’m so happy.. 下一个 thing 你 know, everything grows dull and silent and suddenly, I’m swallowed up 由 darkness and pulled down deep, never able to reach the surface again..
Under this smile that I have on my face.. the happiness, the joy and the kindness.. there is a girl who just wants someone to
Understand her
Help her
Hug her
Let her know that that ‘someone’ would be there for her
Hold her hand and tell her know that everything with her – her problems, the pain – would disappear
Be there for her.. and never let her go 或者 leave her side
Do 你 know me all that well?
Do 你 know what my true feelings are?
Do 你 know the girl who sits 由 herself?
Do you? Do 你 really?
I didn’t think so…
Who am I to 问题 the impossible?
_______________PEACE & LOVE_______________
SILENT CHILD.
Shadowing Eternity...
A special place for 你 and me,
An undying bond to guide us free.
Loneliness blocking the day,
Our 爱情 lighting the way..
Your gentle touch,
Your smiling face.
There is no corner,
No dark place..
Our passion flowing in the waves,
My 心 stands still.
Awaiting your pace..
Your 爱情 is my destiny,
your 心 is like the soul of God..
Our love, withstanding time,
Diminishing doubt, in our mind.
There is no place I rather be…
Than in your 心 and in your dreams...
-Beyal
A special place for 你 and me,
An undying bond to guide us free.
Loneliness blocking the day,
Our 爱情 lighting the way..
Your gentle touch,
Your smiling face.
There is no corner,
No dark place..
Our passion flowing in the waves,
My 心 stands still.
Awaiting your pace..
Your 爱情 is my destiny,
your 心 is like the soul of God..
Our love, withstanding time,
Diminishing doubt, in our mind.
There is no place I rather be…
Than in your 心 and in your dreams...
-Beyal
Sandi:
Ribbon broke my heart,
I knew he would.
So what is he going to do?
I'd know if I could...
Gizbin:
SHUT IMBECILES, I'VE HEARD ENOUGH.
Killerpose:
People call me the terror.
People call me the selfish.
People call me the nasty.
People call me the cruel.
People call me the idiot.
People call me the stupid.
People call me the crazy.
People call me the annoying.
People call me the long lasting.
People call me the fishy.
People call me the curious.
People call me the laugh.
People call me the cheesy.
People call me the stubborn.
People call-
Everyone: SHUT IT!!
Ribbon broke my heart,
I knew he would.
So what is he going to do?
I'd know if I could...
Gizbin:
SHUT IMBECILES, I'VE HEARD ENOUGH.
Killerpose:
People call me the terror.
People call me the selfish.
People call me the nasty.
People call me the cruel.
People call me the idiot.
People call me the stupid.
People call me the crazy.
People call me the annoying.
People call me the long lasting.
People call me the fishy.
People call me the curious.
People call me the laugh.
People call me the cheesy.
People call me the stubborn.
People call-
Everyone: SHUT IT!!
I am any little girl behind that glowing computer screen
An anonymous user name, unknown person
New friends, Chatting with no end
Lies that tear people apart
www.’s and .com’s
Logins and log outs
New passwords galore
New games
All online websites
But know is the time for
Turning off, Logging off
Simply leaving the game
One last click of a mouse
One last Tipeity-Tipe of the keypad
One last close
One last IM
One last internet song
One last good-bye 或者 G2G
So unplug into your own virtual world
~AND FIND YOU~
- 由 Ellen Love: Poem Girl
An anonymous user name, unknown person
New friends, Chatting with no end
Lies that tear people apart
www.’s and .com’s
Logins and log outs
New passwords galore
New games
All online websites
But know is the time for
Turning off, Logging off
Simply leaving the game
One last click of a mouse
One last Tipeity-Tipe of the keypad
One last close
One last IM
One last internet song
One last good-bye 或者 G2G
So unplug into your own virtual world
~AND FIND YOU~
- 由 Ellen Love: Poem Girl
Wrath
I am one of the deadly sins,
For I am the one that makes 你 feel angry,
And may lead 你 to do wrongful things.
I blind you,
And mask the truth from you;
I hide your actions,
And make them unaware to 你 until
你 realise what just happened.
I am a curse,
For I blind 你 from the truth,
And make 你 unwilling to accept that truth,
Because I am anger,
Which makes your rage come true,
Which brings about your wrath,
Which is my true name,
And with it comes a grudge.
I am a curse,
And 你 do not want me,
But honestly,
It is fun for me to see
你 hurting other people,
Even though 你 don't intentionally do it,
或者 even if 你 are blinded 由 the truth.
For I am Wrath,
And I take amusement from your anger,
And the pain 你 inflict on others,
And I am from the fiery pits of hell.
Beware of your human instincts,
For I am one of them,
And I may 显示 up in your fiery head.
I am one of the deadly sins,
For I am the one that makes 你 feel angry,
And may lead 你 to do wrongful things.
I blind you,
And mask the truth from you;
I hide your actions,
And make them unaware to 你 until
你 realise what just happened.
I am a curse,
For I blind 你 from the truth,
And make 你 unwilling to accept that truth,
Because I am anger,
Which makes your rage come true,
Which brings about your wrath,
Which is my true name,
And with it comes a grudge.
I am a curse,
And 你 do not want me,
But honestly,
It is fun for me to see
你 hurting other people,
Even though 你 don't intentionally do it,
或者 even if 你 are blinded 由 the truth.
For I am Wrath,
And I take amusement from your anger,
And the pain 你 inflict on others,
And I am from the fiery pits of hell.
Beware of your human instincts,
For I am one of them,
And I may 显示 up in your fiery head.