The Choice

"Beep,beep,beep," was all heard when I woke up. I can't stand alarm clocks, but since my mother and siblings refuse to wake me up in the morning because they're "allergic to sunlight" I have to use one. As I rolled over to turn my alarm off I heard a crinkling sound coming from underneath me, like the sound of paper being balled up. After my alarm was off and I was sitting up, I looked down, sure enough there was a note addressed to me that I had rolled onto. It was in my mother's handwriting, which only meant one thing, we were moving again.
I can't believe it, I thought we had finally found...

A/N: This poem/song was inspired 由 two things: 1) A few of my 最喜爱的 日本动漫 couples, namely Ed x Winry from Fullmetal Alchemist and Hoshino x Tanabe from Planetes. And 2) while my dad was in Iraq, he heard "My Immortal" for the first time and 说 he loved the idea behind it...but it was too sad/depressing because "the chorus was in past tense instead of present tense." So he asked me if maybe I could take the same concept and do my own thing with it. I guess this is it. XD Depending on how 你 look at it, this could be a close friendship, a romance 或者 something in-beteen.

I wasn't really...

The roar of the cafeteria was getting out of hand. Some teens screaming in horror. Others encouraging the fight. Some just speechless. i tried my hardest to push through the crowd to see what was going on. I heard the chanting of kids saying “FightFight!” Along with my best friend’s name somewhere in there in that chant. Matthew never learned. Matthew is my best friend and he can never seem to stop and think before doing something. He speaks his mind too quickly and always thinks that people should either put up 或者 shut up. I’m not surprised that he would think that, I mean boys will...

She sees him emerge from the shadows. Her 心 jumps in her throat. She approaches slowly, taking in the moment; the beat of the 音乐 under her feet, the lights flashing around her. She takes no notice to the people around her, as they mean nothing. He takes her in his arms. She sighs and breathes his scent deeply. She doesn't know how this moment could get 更多 perfect. Except... he leans in to 吻乐队（Kiss） her. As their lips touch, everything seems to slow down and melt. She begins to wonder, "How is this possible? This must be a dream." She scoffs at her own foolishness. He holds her closer and...

She's got eyes like the devil
She's a demon from hell
The way she came into
I could never tell
All the words she's spoken
I can easily recall
All the promises she's broken
They will make her fall
She will fall

Pretty lies in her eyes
Pretty lies in her head
All the things that she thought
All the things that she said
She won't try it again
She won't hurt me twice
I can still hear the sound
Of all her pretty lies

She's got hair like a banshee
She's got a 心 of stone
She's living free
But she's all alone
She's like a ghost
I don't know what's worst
She's got no reason to smile
'Cause she'll be cursed
She'll be...

Everytime I look into your eyes
I can't stop thinking of all your lies
And though I try so hard not to remember
I can't save myself from breaking up inside

I know 你 didn't mean it that way
I know 你 didn't wanna betray
But that's not gonna stop my eyes filling them with tears
I know you're sorry somehow
But it's just too late now
And all I want is leave this mess behind with all my fears

Everytime I see 你 at school
I wonder how I could be such a fool
And though I try so hard just to forget it
I can't ignore the fact that you've hurt me so

I know 你 didn't mean it that way
I know 你 didn't wanna betray...

I know I'm a mess
And 你 know it's because of you
I wish I could cause
You the pain 你 put me through
It's like I burn out
I should stop playin this game
I could shout it out
'Cause it will never be the same

'Cause behind all the tears in your eyes
I can still read all your lies
I can still feel the pain 你 caused into me
And behind all the sorries 你 say
I can still hear the betray
I can still feel the desire to make 你 bleed

I hope 你 are down
And if you're not I'll make it true
It takes so long to forget
And it's all because of you
It's like I burn out
I should stop playing this game
I could shout it...

2am and I can’t sleep
There’s no use in counting sheep
Dreams bring no consolation for me now
So I look up and pray to God
Please, don’t ever make it stop
‘Cause it’s the only thing that keeps me going now

I can’t stop my hands from shaking
I can’t stop my 心 from breaking
I keep thinking I’ve hit rock bottom
But I keep on falling

Don’t catch me when I’m falling down
Don’t pick me up when I’m lying on the ground
I’ll be alright, I don’t need 你 to tug me in at night
Sugarcoating my condition, but it’s how I get through life

Past midnight and I’m wide awake
This feeling...

I try to keep it together
Don’t want anyone to know
I manage not to cry
But I’m in full 婊子, 子 mode
I’m surrounded 由 people
But I feel all alone
I wish I could forget you
But you’re carved in my soul

And they don’t understand
No, they will never understand

I can hear Death calling my name
And I keep on waiting for 你 in vein
But if you’ll never come back
Color all my days black
And I’ll welcome Death when he comes my way
Color all my nights grey

I try to 移动 along
But I carry the pain around
I wish 你 would’ve just left
That 你 were somewhere 安全 and sound
But Death had to knock on your door...

My mouth is shut tight
But in my head I have a million conversations
I seem cold as ice
But on the inside I’m heating up

You ask me what’s wrong
I say nothing at all
I’m just going out of my mind

I want to cry out
Scream at the 最佳, 返回页首 of my lungs
I want to let it out
Release myself from my curse
But I keep quiet
Hold it inside me
Clutching to my agony
I wish 你 could hear me

My eyes are open wide
But they don’t see what’s right in front of me
I’m stuck in the past
While dreaming of a future that won’t come to pass

You ask me what’s going on
Can’t 你 just let it go
I’m just dying inside

I want...

I’m so fucked up right now
I’ll never be the same without you
It’s like my feet are moving forward
But my heart’s left behind me
Will 你 set it free

And my dying wish
Is for 你 to make it in time
Yeah, my dying wish
Is for 你 to watch me die

I need 你 to
Help me through this
I’m stuck in a maze
And I can’t find a way to escape
I will burn it down
I’ll burn it to the ground
I’ll let the flames consume me
They will set me free

I’m so screwed right now
My emotional being depends on you
It’s like my head’s still in the game
But my heart’s paralyzing me
Will 你 set it free

And my dying wish...

I’m gonna bury myself
In the deepest depths of Hell
And I won’t be coming out
Until you’re back around
‘Cause I tried real hard
I did the best that I could
But as a matter of fact
There’s just seems to be no living without you

So, I’ll get myself a new bad habit
Just something to get me through
I’ll make myself a puppet
I’ll be pulling its strings, pretending it’s you
Does that sound crazy enough for you

I’m burning
Please, bring me your salvation
I’m shivering
Please, give me your protection
I’m dying
I’m withering
I need 你 to come and save me
Please, lay down your redemption
On me...

I’ve got nothing to live for
All my hopes are buried since the 日 you’re gone
I put them in a big box
Hidden in the attic, behind closed doors
And I feel my 心 beating
It’s beating repeatedly
Reminding me I’m made of flesh and blood
But I don’t know what it’s beating for

I will remember you
And I will get over you
One 日 I will see the sun again
But till that 日 comes
I’m just gonna cry and weep
And cry and weep all over again

I’ve got nothing to fight for
I’ll put my armor down until 你 come back to me
I’ve built up a fortress
Inside me to hide away from reality
And I’m at the...

Put a gun to my head
And 火, 消防 all its bullets
May your tears wash away the stains
Then take me 由 the hand
And walk me down the path
Leading me away from this pain

And I am 迷失 without you
And I don’t know what to do
I can’t see right from wrong
Since you’re gone

‘Cause I died the 日 你 died
And I failed, though I’ve tried
To live just one 日 without thinking of you
And 你 crossing my mind
Breaks my 心 every time
It makes me want to 加入 the dead ones, too

Wrap a thread around my neck
And pull till I’m death
You can bury my corpse in the yard
They won’t blame 你 for taking me
To where I...