I'm female. I have had girl crushes before, but I usually have boy crushes. I have had daydreams about being with girls I like, and I sometimes fantasize my first 吻乐队(Kiss) being with a girl. Most 测验 I take say I'm bisexual. Me and my friend, who is a girl, almost kissed back in first grade but I decided that I couldn't do it. My 老友记 and family are very homophobic and I am also a Christian. I will never tell my family about these feelings because they would disown me if I did. Same with my friends. I also feel like I'm not a good Christian 或者 that I will go to Hell because I think I might be bisexual. I also think that I might be forming a crush on a girl now. What do I do guys?!
a rose,
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is 更多 that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought 由 people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are 你 like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still 更多 than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is 更多 that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought 由 people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are 你 like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still 更多 than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*