Slowly giving up on life....

Life can seem to be very difficult at times, like the whole world is against 你 and nothing can change your mind about that. But it's not the end of the world, things will get better for you. It may take days, months 或者 even years but 你 have to struggle on till 你 defeat this 'black mood' you're in.
Unfortunately there's not much 建议 i can give apart from think positively and try to find one good thing about 你 and about your day/subject etc to make 你 feel better.
As for getting 老友记 in college, 你 should try talking to the person 你 sit 下一个 to in your classes, say hi to the friend who ditched 你 in the coridoors, 或者 加入 a lunch/after college club. Does your college offer science/english/chess/music/drama classes? 加入 one of them. Even if 你 don't have any talent in anything, it's still a great way to make friends, take an interest in something that will probably be a hobby for the rest of your life.
As for a job, no job will make 你 truly happy. There will be bad and good days at work, as there will be at home/school. All 你 need to do, is keep one job long enough to gain 你 some money, and look for other jobs inbetween (especially if 你 work only part-time). That way, 你 can experiment with careers and find what's best for you.

know the feeling,almost all my cvlose freinds end up dying so i dont try to make freinds as well as i used to, i spend my time studying and trying to work. i dont speak much ,yet when i do i always have a smile, and help others. i have my faith and even that feels heartbreaking at times. we all just want to fit somwheres along the life path. we are kind, helpful, witty, and smart. i go to many job inteviews, and am never the one. i am happy to be healthy and to be able to walk, anywhere i chose. ive started working for me, yet all i do is do jobs for people who have no money, i dont mind, as i am helping others.i have had my own tears, yet i kick out of it as i am stronger than that, and others have had nothing and have made someting of themselves, and they became great through focus and study, they had freinds who 偷了 from them and even had grea arguments, yet they rose above it all, and they ended up having the last laugh. be happy with u, 4 a start, u got chance for college, i blew my chance and stuffed it, now i got hardly much chance of getting good job. we are a stubborn bunch, yet we will succeed. 潮流粉丝俱乐部 has helped, and i have found a partner in the life i have. it aint perfect, but we work on it. a job does help, it gets u out, n it was special u meeting someone, bit she saw something glittering and didnt realise the treasure she had before her. she hopefully will go and look for what she had. life does get better, for 1 we arent stuck on our backs crippled in pain, we are in a way, but we will always get back on our feet , dont we, be happy with u. and life isnt shit , for that stinks, and always needs a few sheets to wipe the mess. hope 你 find after school job. and find some work mates, take care, study, 你 will be som1 1 day, with all wanting to know u;-]

well i say u need to find ur groove be open to make 老友记 start putting a positive thoughts out dont give up find a hobby to keep stress down and try ur best to not just try and work hard but have fun