Chapter 1
Regretting What I did
“Is anyone there” a voice came from behind the door. I guess I heard it twice but was ignoring it as I was really too much lazy to go out and open the door, so I let him shout till mom didn’t went to open the door. I really wanna get rid of this, I am too much lazy but this is how I am and I don’t regret sometimes. But...sometimes I feel desperate and lonely, since she is gone I am all alone. I wanna lie on the 床, 床上 all 日 long, going to park for a little freshness isn’t such a fun as it was before. She made everything great, being with her was good and I want her back in my life.
Hello! I am Tecna and I am so called “smart” girl who have done hellish thing in this world. And the girl I am talking about is Musa.
“Why are 你 so desperate Tecna? 你 weren’t like that before. 你 are too much skimpy and lazy these days. Is anything 你 are hiding from me? 或者 do 你 have had any problem with your school life? Tell me I am your mother” she 说 but I wasn’t listening to her, my eyes were on my laptop and I was dying for Musa to say one word, just one word actually it’s an expression ‘hi’. “I am speaking worthlessly Tecna? Why aren’t 你 responding to anything?” she 说 with anger. “Hmm...Mom.” I waited and thought that if I will tell her everything maybe she’ll get 更多 tensed and she’s got B.P problem I don’t wanna disturb her all the time. I am no longer a kid. I rubbed my two fingers hard over my left eyebrow and 说 “No...I am not hiding anything and why would I? Everything is awesome it’s just I am kinda tired these days 你 see?” and she stared me suspiciously, she knows me better than I do myself. “I know 你 are hiding something but I won’t pressurise 你 to tell anything that 你 don’t want to tell me but remember one thing when one shares problem it becomes less and I am not only your mom but your friend as well. I hope you’ll be getting what I am saying” and I nodded.
Seriously I wanna share my problem and I agree with each single word she 说 to me but not with her as I have told 你 before.
I almost was going to call Musa but then I realised calling her at this moment isn’t a good idea and after what I have done to her I must not call her instead I should go and talk to her. But not today as it’s too late night. Sometimes I become apathy and start to wrangle all around and as I am short tempered I don’t even think what I say which is the baddest things in me. I don’t mean everything I say while fight. Anyway I gotta go and take a nap because I am kinda tired after all the fight and so.
Regretting What I did
“Is anyone there” a voice came from behind the door. I guess I heard it twice but was ignoring it as I was really too much lazy to go out and open the door, so I let him shout till mom didn’t went to open the door. I really wanna get rid of this, I am too much lazy but this is how I am and I don’t regret sometimes. But...sometimes I feel desperate and lonely, since she is gone I am all alone. I wanna lie on the 床, 床上 all 日 long, going to park for a little freshness isn’t such a fun as it was before. She made everything great, being with her was good and I want her back in my life.
Hello! I am Tecna and I am so called “smart” girl who have done hellish thing in this world. And the girl I am talking about is Musa.
“Why are 你 so desperate Tecna? 你 weren’t like that before. 你 are too much skimpy and lazy these days. Is anything 你 are hiding from me? 或者 do 你 have had any problem with your school life? Tell me I am your mother” she 说 but I wasn’t listening to her, my eyes were on my laptop and I was dying for Musa to say one word, just one word actually it’s an expression ‘hi’. “I am speaking worthlessly Tecna? Why aren’t 你 responding to anything?” she 说 with anger. “Hmm...Mom.” I waited and thought that if I will tell her everything maybe she’ll get 更多 tensed and she’s got B.P problem I don’t wanna disturb her all the time. I am no longer a kid. I rubbed my two fingers hard over my left eyebrow and 说 “No...I am not hiding anything and why would I? Everything is awesome it’s just I am kinda tired these days 你 see?” and she stared me suspiciously, she knows me better than I do myself. “I know 你 are hiding something but I won’t pressurise 你 to tell anything that 你 don’t want to tell me but remember one thing when one shares problem it becomes less and I am not only your mom but your friend as well. I hope you’ll be getting what I am saying” and I nodded.
Seriously I wanna share my problem and I agree with each single word she 说 to me but not with her as I have told 你 before.
I almost was going to call Musa but then I realised calling her at this moment isn’t a good idea and after what I have done to her I must not call her instead I should go and talk to her. But not today as it’s too late night. Sometimes I become apathy and start to wrangle all around and as I am short tempered I don’t even think what I say which is the baddest things in me. I don’t mean everything I say while fight. Anyway I gotta go and take a nap because I am kinda tired after all the fight and so.
