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posted by bigmanguy
It usually takes me a couple of years to complete an album because I'm such a perfectionist; so Frank thinks I should start working on it as soon as possible. He agreed that I should have from October to January off because I've been working so much lately and I feel bad because I haven't been able to spend a whole lot of time with Christian.

Today's the first 日 of my vacation and it's going to take me a while to get back into the routine of taking care of Christian completely on my own every day. I woke up around 9 o'clock in the morning because I knew Christian would be awake any 分钟 now. I walked into the room just as he was opening his eyes and 说 "good morning buddy!" I think he was surprised that I was there because he asked "you're not going to work daddy?" I 说 "not for three months."

I picked him up and brought him downstairs. I put him down on the ground and noticed something taped to the refrigerator. I put the 牛奶 on the counter and grabbed the piece of paper off of the fridge to see what it was. I knelt down 下一个 to Christian and asked "what's this?" He 说 "those are my stickers to 显示 你 how many times I used the potty daddy. The red stars are the accidents and the yellow stars are the good ones." I asked "how come 你 haven't showed me this before buddy?" He 说 "I want to; but 你 are tired." I felt really guilty as I looked down at him and I 说 "I don't want 你 to ever feel like 你 can't 显示 me something just because I've had a long 日 at work buddy! I don't care how tired I am; 你 can spend time with me."

I looked at the piece of paper and noticed that there were significantly 更多 yellow stars with about 10 red stars scattered throughout the page. I 说 "it's definitely getting better. I wish some of those red stars weren't there; but it's getting better! We'll work on it while I'm on vacation. You're still having quite a bit of accidents huh buddy?" He 说 "yeah; I'm sorry daddy" and started crying.

I picked him up and 说 "it's okay Christian; why are 你 so upset? It's no big deal; 你 know I don't care about that stuff!" He 说 "but daddy; I don't want 你 to be mad! I want to make 你 happy! I didn't do good!" I don't have any idea why Christian is so critical of himself; but it makes me feel horrible!" I grabbed the piece of paper and asked "do 你 see this? This is so good Christian! Why would 你 think that I would be mad at you? I'm happy buddy; trust me! We just need to work on it a little bit 更多 until there's no red stars!" He 说 "you're supposed to be mad at me; aren't you?" I 说 "of course not" and hugged him as tight as I possibly could!

***

I'm a daddy on a mission this week and my mission is to hopefully complete this potty training thing with Christian. He is almost completely trained and I can't wait to put this thing behind us because I'm running out of carpet cleaner.

Christian came downstairs after waking up this morning and walked up to me as I stood at the counter drinking my coffee. I knelt down and gave him a hug as I 说 "good morning buddy; did 你 sleep well?" He shook his head yes and I asked "did 你 already use the bathroom?" He 说 "yup" and was about to sit at the 表 when I 说 "I'm making breakfast sandwiches instead of just cereal; so when they're finished cooking I will bring one in to 你 and the two of us can eat in the living room while we watch cartoons."

After the egg and cheese breakfast sandwiches were finished cooking, I came into the living room with them on a plate. I sat down 下一个 to Christian on the 长椅, 沙发 and passed Christian his sandwich. I definitely think Christian likes the idea of having me 首页 for three months because I think he was getting sick of eating cereal every morning.

Christian had ketchup on his face; so I leaned over to wash it with a napkin and that's when I realized the 长椅, 沙发 was soaking wet. I looked at Christian and he 说 "I think I need to go potty daddy." I rolled my eyes and 说 "I think 你 already did." I joked "why did 你 have to pee on my couch?" I think Christian thought I was mad because he burst out crying.

After cleaning him and the 长椅, 沙发 up, he was still crying and I asked "what's wrong Christian?" He 说 in between sobs "I made 你 mad!!!" I picked him up and 说 "I'm not mad at 你 at all Christian; daddy was joking!" He insisted "you're supposed to be mad at me daddy!" I hugged him and 说 "no I'm not supposed to be mad at you! Do I look mad?" He 说 "no; but why aren't 你 mad at me?" I 说 "because I would never get mad at 你 for anything! I might get disappointed in 你 sometimes; but I'll never be mad at you! I thought 你 went to the bathroom already though." He 说 "I was going to when I came down here; but then 你 说 that I could watch 动画片 and I kind of forgot." I 说 "well; I'm not too happy that 你 lied to me Christian. It would've been better if 你 just 说 你 had to go. It would've taken just a few 分钟 and then 你 could have come in here to watch cartoons. Doesn't that make a lot 更多 sense than going through all of this?" I think he started to get what I was saying because he gave me a hug and a kiss.

***

I excitedly shouted "high five Christian!" He looked at the chart taped to the fridge and gave me a high-five. I 说 "I think it's pretty 安全 to say that 你 are officially potty trained now buddy! 你 haven't had an accident in a week; not even at night and that shocks me. I'm so proud of 你 buddy!" He jumped into my arms and was way 更多 concerned about the bag of 糖果 on the counter than what I had to say.

I passed him some M&Ms and we went into the living room to play with his toys. I usually keep the TV on and a 万圣节前夕 commercial came on. I wasn't surprised that they were using "Thriller" as the 音乐 on the advertisement because that song has become sort of a 万圣节前夕 tradition. Christian looked up at the TV and I asked "would 你 like to go trick-or-treating this 年 like the kids on TV?" He 说 "get 糖果 daddy!" I chuckled and 说 "yeah; people will give 你 candy!" He 说 "okay" and I was kind of regretting bringing up the idea of trick-or-treating because I just realized that I have no choice other than to disassociate myself from the Jehovah's Witness religion. Sometimes I wish the rules weren't so strict because I want Christian to experience holidays just like any other child. I hope mother won't be too mad at me!

***

Yesterday my paperwork was approved and I've been officially disassociated from the Jehovah's Witness religion. My mother's on the way over and I don't know how she's going to take the news. The worst part is that Christian is taking a nap; so I can't use his cuteness as a distraction from our conversation.

Once she arrived, the two of us sat down in the living room and she asked "what did 你 want to talk about Michael?" I asked "can I ask 你 a hypothetical question?" She 说 "yeah; I guess." I asked "what would 你 think if I told 你 that I disassociated myself from the Jehovah Witnesses?" She sat there silently for a few 分钟 and then she asked "this isn't a hypothetical question; is it Michael?" I let out a deep sigh and 说 "no; it's not mother." She looked up at me and whispered "why?" I 说 "I'm not trying to hurt 你 mother because I know how important me being a Jehovah's Witness is to you; but I want Christian to experience the things that I never got to growing up!" She 说 "Michael; you're my only good son! I 爱情 my children equally of course; but you're the only one that ever listens to me anymore! All the others got sucked into the world of greed and I think any hope of getting them back is long gone now! I understand why 你 did what 你 did and I accept it; but 你 should know that I'll never agree with it!"

She got off of the 长椅, 沙发 and walked into the kitchen. I followed after her as she opened the front door and I shouted "mother; wait! I'm not trying to hurt you!" She didn't seem mad at me which was a good thing I guess; but I think it definitely saddens her to have me abandon one of the things that the two of us shared over the years.

I ran upstairs to my room and sat on my 床, 床上 as I started to cry. I always try to make others happy instead of myself and I felt like I had to choose between Christian and my mother. I could either make my mother happy 由 practicing that religion 或者 make my son happy 由 letting him experience things like Halloween, Christmas, and Thanksgiving. Part of being a father is putting my son first before anyone else. I'm hoping all this will pay off in the end because right now I feel like the world's worst son.

Suddenly, I noticed Christian climbing onto my 床, 床上 and he asked "why 你 cry daddy?" I tried my best to dry my tears before he saw me crying; but it was already too late for that. I 说 "I'm just a little said; that's all." He 说 "you need a hug daddy" and wrapped his arms around me. I smiled and 说 "thank you; I think that's exactly what I needed buddy." He 说 "don't cry anymore!" I chuckled and 说 "okay; I won't!"

***

Christians surprised me when he 说 he didn't want to be Mickey 老鼠, 鼠标 for his first 万圣节前夕 and I'm starting to think that he just wants the 糖果 更多 than the whole experience of trick-or-treating. I think he finally settled on being a doctor after changing his mind over and over again. I hope he's okay with that because I just bought the costume and I have a feeling he's going to look so adorable. I got the costume just in time because 万圣节前夕 is today. I came up with the idea of buying myself a costume as a disguise; so I can go trick-or-treating without a giant mob of 粉丝 knowing that I'm even near them.

I was in the living room opening up the costumes when Christian came in and noticed them. He asked "is that my doctor costume?" I 说 "it sure is buddy!" He asked "what are 你 going to be daddy?" I 说 "I'm going to be Spiderman because that's the only thing with a mask that will cover my whole head." I helped him put his costume on and he looked so cute. The white 夹克 was way too big for him and his hands pretty much got 迷失 inside the sleeves. I think his 最喜爱的 part of the costume was the stethoscope and I think he thought it was real because he kept trying to check my 心 beat.

After I got my costume on, we went outside and Tim dropped us off in the middle of town. I told him to pick us up in about 45 分钟 because I figure any longer would be too long for Christian; since he just turned three a few weeks ago.

Christian was having a blast knocking on the doors. I was always trying to get him to ask for the candy; but he's way too shy for that. He didn't even really want to take the 糖果 because he was too afraid. He would only take it if I took it from the bowl first and he took him from me.

I looked down at my watch and realized that Tim would be looking for us in a few minutes; so I 说 "this is going to be the last house Christian because we have to go home." We walked up to the door with Christian holding my hand and the doorknob turned. The door swung open and a teenager wearing a 狼 mask with a flannel 衬衫 growled at Christian.

Christian immediately freaked out and started hysterically crying as he clung to my arm. I picked him up and looked at this teenage boy as I asked with an irritated tone "seriously? That was so immature of 你 to scare a three-year-old! I'm glad 你 think that's so funny dude because I don't at all!"

I carried Christian off of the property and back to the SUV where Tim was. I climbed into the car with him on my lap as he continued to cry. I 说 "it's okay buddy; I know that boy was mean! He 说 "daddy; we go home!" I 说 "yup; we're going 首页 right now!" He seemed all shaken up because of what had just happened; so I excitedly asked "do 你 want me to make 浓情巧克力 chip 薄煎饼, 煎饼 for dinner?" His eyes widened and I chuckled as I 说 "I thought 你 would like the sound of that!"

由 the time we got back to the ranch, it was almost 7 o'clock at night and we usually eat 晚餐 at 5; so I wasn't surprised to see that Christian was getting tired. He was practically falling asleep at the 表 while he was eating his pancakes. I sat down 下一个 to him and fed him bites from his plate as he struggled to keep his eyes open.

After he had eaten most of the 食物 I picked him up and whispered "are 你 ready to go night – night Christian?" I patted his back as I carried him upstairs and got him ready for bed. I brought him into his room and put him under the covers. I thought he was almost asleep at this point; but when I leaned in to give him a kiss, his eyes shot open and he asked "are 你 eating my 糖果 daddy? 你 smell like skittles!" I 说 with a guilty grin on my face "maybe!" He 说 "you are; I can see the red on your teeth and your tongue is purple!" I giggled and 说 "alright; 你 caught me! There's plenty 更多 left; so I snuck a couple pieces!" He lightly pecked my lips and 说 "don't eat all of my 糖果 daddy!" I chuckled as I shut off the light and turned the TV on. Christian 说 "I 爱情 你 更多 daddy!" I laughed as I 说 "hey; I'm supposed to say that! I 爱情 你 更多 Christian!"

***

It was weird being able to celebrate 万圣节前夕 because I've never been allowed celebrate it before and now I have to figure out how to celebrate Thanksgiving because that's right around the corner. My mother still won't talk to me ever since she found out that I left the Jehovah's Witness religion and I don't know if she's mad at me 或者 not. I wish I could convince her to leave the religion as well; because I want her to be able to be a part of all these new experiences with us.

I was sitting at the 厨房 表 waiting for Christian to wake up and there was a knock at the door. I got up to answer it and my manager Frank was standing there. I invited him inside and he 说 "I just wanted to stop in and see how you're doing; and I haven't seen 你 in about a month. How are 你 enjoying your vacation?" I 说 "I finally disassociated myself from the Jehovah's Witnesses and now I'm just trying to figure out how to celebrate Thanksgiving. I'm thinking I should invite as many people as possible over to the house for Thanksgiving." He 说 "I'll definitely come Michael! I usually celebrate Thanksgiving with my family; but if 你 want me to I can come!" I 说 "only if 你 want to Frank and if it's okay with your family. I really think 你 should celebrate with them instead Frank because they are your family; not me and Christian!" He 说 "I consider 你 part of my family Michael; 你 know that!" I 说 "yeah; but 你 don't feel the same way about Christian!" He 说 "I'll be the first to admit that I wasn't too keen on the idea of 你 becoming a father; but I'm slowly getting used to it as time passes." I 说 "Christian is going to wake up soon; so 你 should probably go. Feel free to stop 由 on Thanksgiving 日 for a couple of hours; but 你 really should spend it with your family Frank!" He patted my shoulder and 说 "will do for sure!" He shut the door behind him and I walked upstairs to check on Christian to see if he was awake yet.

I walked into his room and he was once again hanging off the side of the bed. I ran to catch him before he fell off the 床, 床上 and smacked his head on the floor. I picked him up and 说 "good morning Christian." He opened his eyes and rubbed them as he 说 "good morning daddy." I 说 "I'm going to make 你 some breakfast and while 你 eat, I'm going to make some phone calls to invite your aunts and uncles to come over on Thanksgiving."

I went downstairs and made Christian some oatmeal for breakfast. Afterwards, I went into the living room and started to call each one of my siblings. Surprisingly, all of them agreed to come over and I'm hoping it's not because my brothers want to ask me for money to pay for another one of their "get rich quick" schemes. I really hope I don't regret inviting them because it usually doesn't end very well for me!

***

My alarm clock started beeping and I opened my eyes just as the sun started to come up. I got ready for the 日 and went downstairs to make myself a cup of coffee. I went to the pantry and grabbed a bunch of different 食物 to start preparing for our Thanksgiving meal this afternoon. I am a pretty good cook; but I've never tried to make some of these foods before and I hope I don't screw it up. I was at a complete loss about how to cook a turkey and this was one of those times when I wish I could call my mother for advice.

I know that that's going to take the longest to cook, so I put that in first and hoped for the best. I decided that it's probably best if I cook the things that I'm most familiar with first; so I made the mashed potatoes and vegetables before starting the 更多 difficult things. I'm not really familiar with baking things; I just hope that these pies turn out okay.

After I had gotten the three pies into the oven, I heard Christian coming downstairs. He walked up to me and I 说 "hey buddy; I've got to pick out your clothes for the day!" I turned the TV on in the living room and went upstairs to get his clothes while he watched cartoons.

I came back downstairs and helped him get dressed into his little Thanksgiving 日 outfit. It was a pair of 黄褐色, 卡其色 pants, white socks, and a long sleeve white T-shirt, and a sweater vest with a checkered pattern of brown and orange. I combed his hair because I want him to look good when everybody came over.

I only allowed Christian to eat small snacks because I didn't want him to lose his appetite 由 the time everyone arrived. When they got here, I invited them inside and we all hurried to set the 表 because they were really hungry. I helped Christian get up into his booster 座位 and sat down in the chair 下一个 to him. I 说 "I guess I'll say grace as fast as possible because I know we all want to eat. A lot has changed in these past couple of months for me and I never thought I would be in this position; but I don't regret it one bit because I 爱情 my son so much. I'm so thankful that God brought Christian into my life because I can't even imagine what my life would be like without him; amen."

I started to fill Christian’s plate with 食物 and Latoya 说 "that was really sweet Michael! I have to say that you're an amazing father!" Jackie 说 "yeah Mike; she's right! You're a great dad!" I looked at Christian and asked "do 你 think they're right?" He 说 "you're the best daddy in the whole world!" I hugged him and 说 "you're the best son in the whole Christian!"

All of us went into the living room to eat 甜点 and we sat on the floor. Christian is addicted to Oreo 饼干 and that's his 最喜爱的 food; so I made an Oreo cookie flavored pie. The 分钟 he started to eat his piece of pie, I could tell that he was going to make a huge mess. I took the plate from him and 说 "here; let daddy feed 你 because I don't want 你 to make a mess buddy!" Janet 说 "you must be excited celebrate 圣诞节 with him Michael! 你 and him get to celebrate your first 圣诞节 together! Do 你 have any plans for 圣诞节 Michael?" I 说 "I don't really know what I'm going to do yet; but it's kind of irritating that it doesn't snow here in LA! Christian won't get to experience a white Christmas!" She suggested "why don't 你 take Christian to Canada and rent one of those fancy log cabins; that way there will be snow on the ground when he wakes up on 圣诞节 morning?" I 说 "actually; that doesn't sound like a bad idea!" Jermaine looked at Christian and asked "what do 你 want for 圣诞节 Christian?" He quietly whispered "clothes." All of us were completely baffled 由 his response and I asked "you really want clothes for Christmas? I can afford to buy 你 anything 你 ever want for a toy; but 你 want clothes?" He 说 "I like clothes daddy" and Randy 说 "I definitely wasn't expecting to hear him say that! What three-year-old wants clothes for Christmas? My kids just throw any clothes they get behind them and 移动 on to something else!" He joked "can I swap kids with 你 Mike?" I laughed and 说 "sorry; he's here to stay!" Christian 说 "kiss daddy" and I puckered my lips as he leaned in to 吻乐队(Kiss) me. Rebbie 说 "he's seriously the cutest thing ever Michael!" Christian sat in my lap and I asked "Christian; who is your best friend?" He pointed up at me and Marlon asked "you 爱情 your daddy; don't 你 Christian?" He whispered "yeah; I'm daddy's boy!" I 说 "and I 爱情 my buddy so much!"

***

I really like the idea of renting a 舱, 小木屋 in Canada for a few days and I am going to rent one after all. I was upstairs getting Christian ready to take a nap when I 说 "okay buddy; I'm going to go shopping for your 圣诞节 presents and Tim is going to watch 你 while I'm gone!" I turned the TV on and walked out of the room.

My other bodyguard James took me to a department store that was closed just so I could go shopping for the day. I bought so many clothes for Christian that it filled up three shopping carts. After I had gotten a bunch of clothes, I went to the toy section to buy him some fun things. At the back of the store, I saw a huge 300 piece train 表 with tracks and Christian has recently developed an interest in "Thomas the Tank Engine"; so I knew he would 爱情 this.

This wasn't just any train table, it's a $1500 train 表 with pretty much every character that is on the "Thomas the Tank Engine" TV 显示 and I think the cashier at the store was shocked that I was actually going to spend that much money on one item. I ended up spending $15,000 on all of Christian's 圣诞节 presents; but it'll be well worth it when I see his face on 圣诞节 morning when he sees all his presents!

***

My bodyguards James and Tim pulled up in front of a huge 舱, 小木屋 that I had rented in the Canadian countryside. Christian I got out of the car and I 说 "have a good holiday 你 guys; we'll see 你 when 你 come to pick us up in three days!" James 说 "we already had someone drop off all the gifts 你 bought and they are in one of the spare bedrooms waiting for 你 to 包, 换行 them Michael!" I 说 "okay guys; thanks for all the help! Say hello to your families for me!" They both 说 "we will Michael; have a good Christmas!" I quickly grabbed the cardboard box from the back 座位 with all the cookie baking ingredients inside it and waved goodbye to them as they pull out of the driveway.

I carried Christian inside with one hand as I carried the cardboard box with the other. I turned on the light with my elbow because both my hands are full and put the box on the nearby counter. It was way past Christian’s bedtime 由 the time we got to the cabin; so I carried him upstairs to get him ready for bed.

I found a room that was perfect for Christian to sleep in because it had a TV and a big 床, 床上 that I think would be hard for him to roll out of in the middle of the night. I covered him up with the blankets and kissed his forehead after I turned the TV on. I don't even think he will be awake long enough to even watch one episode of cartoons.

I walked down the hall and found the room where all the presents were. That's when I realized how many presents I had actually bought because this entire room was covered with stuff. I walked into the room and sat down on the small 太空 of the 床, 床上 that wasn't covered with anything. In one corner of the room, I noticed over 30 rolls I'm wrapping paper and a bucket full of rolls of tape. I whispered to myself "this is going to take forever to 包, 换行 all of this stuff! Why did I wanted do this all of this on my own?" I must've spent most of the night wrapping gifts and when they had all been wrapped I counted about 250 presents. I know what you're thinking; I'm crazy!"

***

I was downstairs cooking 培根 and eggs for breakfast when Christian walked down the stairs of the cabin. He walked up to me and I picked him up as I 说 "good morning buddy! Are 你 ready to have fun today?" He asked "what are we going to do today daddy?" I 说 "well, before we do anything we're going to eat breakfast. Then we're going to go outside to play in the snow and go sledding. We're going to decorate the 圣诞节 树 and bake 饼干 to leave out for Santa Claus. Then we're going to go get ready for 床, 床上 because tonight's 圣诞节 Eve and 你 have to be asleep for Santa Claus to come."

After we were done eating breakfast, I 说 "okay; let's get 你 ready to go play in the snow!" I went to the closet and grabbed everything we needed. I began to get him dressed in his snowsuit, jacket, gloves, hat, and boots. I looked up at the clock on the 墙 and realized that it had taken me 45 分钟 to get him ready to go outside. I asked "are 你 ready to go outside now?" He asked "daddy?" I responded "yeah?" He 说 "I have to go potty." I covered my face of my hands and asked "are 你 serious? Do 你 really have to go?" He nodded his head yes and I couldn't help but laugh at how much time I had just wasted getting him ready to play in the snow; just to have him tell me that he needed to go to the bathroom before we even made it out the door.

Afterwards, we finally made it outside and it didn't look to me like Christian had ever seen snow before. He wouldn't let go of my hand and I 说 "it's okay buddy; it's just snow! It isn't going to hurt you!" He started freaking out and 说 "my boot is stuck in the snow daddy!!! I can't move; help!!!" I 说 "okay; how about we try something with a little less walking involved?" I climbed onto the sled and put him on my lap. We slid down a huge 爬坡道, 小山 and thank God I was on the sled with Christian because I had to swerve out of the way so we wouldn't hit a tree. Christian thought 雪橇, 滑雪橇 was the best thing in the world after that and I must've carried him up that 爬坡道, 小山 over 30 times; so we could slide back down!

I brought Christian back inside and fed him some lunch before I put him down for a nap. While he was sleeping, I started to set things up so we could make cookies. An 小时 later, he woke up from his nap and came downstairs. I picked him up and 说 "okay; are 你 ready to make some 饼干 for Santa?" The 饼干 were already in the 烤箱 because I knew Christian was far too young to actually help me make the cookies; so it's better just to have him decorate the cookies.

When they came out of the oven, I let them cool down for a few minutes; so they were still warm but not warm enough to burn Christian. I passed Christian a cookie and he put SO MUCH frosting on those 饼干 that it was overflowing off the sides. I had to stop him because if I didn't there wouldn't have been enough frosting for the other cookies. After the 饼干 were decorated, I asked "do 你 want to lick the spoon that I used to make the cookie dough with?" He smiled and I passed in the spoon as he walked off into the living room.

I followed after him with boxes of decorations and sat down on the floor. The smell of the pine needles from the 圣诞节 树 filled the entire living room as I started to put ornaments and lights on the tree. I made sure to not buy any glass decorations because I wanted Christian to be able to help me decorate the tree. Once that it was decorated, I passed Christian the 星, 星级 and put him on my shoulders. I 说 "go ahead; put the 星, 星级 on the 最佳, 返回页首 of the 树 pal!" Even though he was on my shoulders, he was just barely able to reach high enough to put the 星, 星级 up there!

I took Christian off of my shoulders and noticed that it was starting to get dark; so I 说 "let me switch on the lights on the tree." I think that's when Christian really got excited and I 说 "okay; let's go eat some macaroni and cheese!"

After he was done eating, we went through his typical bedtime routine and he climbed into 床, 床上 afterwards. I lie down 下一个 to him and read him "the night before Christmas." I kissed his forehead and 说 "sleep well buddy! Don't go downstairs until I tell 你 it's okay! 你 have to go right to sleep after the 显示 is over because if 你 don't Santa Claus won't come." He 说 "okay daddy; I will! I 爱情 you" I shut off the light and 说 "I 爱情 你 more" as I shut the door.

I waited about an 小时 and a half and went to check on Christian to make sure that he was sleeping before I started to bring things downstairs. It took me about 50 trips up and down the stairs to bring everything into the living room. The final trip was for the train 表 that I still needed to put together. I tried my best not to make noise as I pushed the gigantic box down the stairs.

I dumped the contents of the box onto the floor as gently as I could; but it still made a racket. I was so worried that that woke Christian up; so I ran upstairs to double check on him again. Once I realized that he was asleep for the rest of the night, I went back downstairs and lay down on my stomach. I opened up the instructions and started to flip through the pages as I 说 to myself "Spanish, French, Japanese, German; where the hell is the English version of these instructions?" I found them at the very end of the manual; but that just confused me. It took me from 9 o'clock at night to 3 o'clock in the morning to put together that train table! The box 说 "some assembly required" when actually it should have read "all assembly required!” I had to set up the tracks, built the 表 itself, and put the trees in the area they were assigned to going 由 the number written on the train table. I'm just glad that I built this thing because I was worried that I wasn't going to be able to figure out how to do it; I'm not a very handy person at all and I'm surprised that I figured out how to put this train 表 together all on my own!

***

I heard "daddy, daddy, wake up daddy" as I felt Christian jumping on my chest. I opened up my eyes slightly and groaned in pain as I 说 "okay; okay I'm up!" I rubbed my eyes and looked over at the alarm clock as I noticed it was only just barely 7 AM. I got out of 床, 床上 and chased after Christian as he ran to the 最佳, 返回页首 of the stairs. I 说 "wait for daddy Christian! Don't go downstairs yet because I want to take pictures.

I grabbed my camera as I followed behind Christian and 说 "okay; let's see if Santa Claus came last night" his mouth dropped wide open as he walked in so living room and I snapped pictures with the camera. I knelt down 下一个 to Christian and chuckled as I whispered "what is that Christian?" He 说 "choo-choo train!" He walked over to the train 表 and I knelt down 下一个 to him again as I pointed to one of the trains. I quietly asked "who is that Christian?" He looked at it and 说 "Thomas!" I gasped and 说 "wow; Santa Claus must know that 你 like Thomas the Tank Engine!"

I grabbed the empty plate of 饼干 and 说 "wow; he ate all your 饼干 buddy!" He didn't even look up from the train 表 and that's when I realized it probably would've been a better idea to cover that up with a blanket and have him open it at the very end because I think I 迷失 him.

I sat down on the floor and 说 "come here Christian; look at all these presents 你 have to open?" He whispered "no; I play with my choo-choo train daddy!" I 说 "you can play with your choo-choo train later buddy; look at all these presents that daddy spent hours wrapping!" I started to tear open one of the presents and that caught his attention because he took the present out of my hands. Once he realized that there were toys and clothes underneath the wrapping paper, he was unstoppable. He ripped through everything like a tornado and before I knew it, the entire living room floor of the 舱, 小木屋 was covered with stuff.

Once everything had been opened, Christian started to come up to me and was asking me for help taking things out of the packaging. I 说 "I'll open this for 你 but I want a hug first." He gave me a hug and lightly pecked my lips and I 说 "thank you; did 你 have a good first 圣诞节 with me?" He 说 "yeah daddy; but how did Santa Claus get that big train 表 down the chimney?" I 说 "I don't know; Santa is just magical like that I guess!!!”
posted by koolkat-1104
Michael my heart,

last night I dream of you,
你 were embracing me from my back.
I heard your heartbeat and it beats so fast,
like our promise that our 爱情 will never end.

We had so much fun together,
that I wished to go on forever.
Talks and laugh ,kissing and cuddling,
like no other people existing.

Holding each others hands while we walked,
all your attention was just for us.
I can't think of anything when 你 talked,
but I 爱情 你 更多 and more, 你 see.

We stopped walking and 你 looked at me sweetly,
then 你 leaned over and kissed me.
My 心 popped out and I saw butterflies,
你 说 你 爱情 me truly. oh sorry and then, I awake up and my dream was to end.
It was still a memory to reminisce, your 吻乐队(Kiss) was so tender and sweet.

爱情 and miss 你 !! ♥
posted by koolkat-1104
Smile, though your 心 is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If 你 smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If 你 just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time 你 must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If 你 just...

Smile, though your 心 is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If 你 smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If 你 just smile...

That's the time 你 must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If 你 just smile
posted by koolkat-1104
Live and sin
Ten years 以前 on this day, my 心 was yearning
I promised I would never ever be returning
Where my baby broke my 心 and left me yearning

As we walked into the room, there were faces
Saring, glaring, tearing through me
Someone 说 welcome to your doom
Then they smiled with eyes that looked as if they knew me
This is scaring me

We walked up the stairs still concealing gloom
There were two girls sitting in My room
She walked up to my face
And 说 this is the place
You 说 meet 你 right here at noon

Heartbreak hotel
Heartbreak hotel
Heartbreak hotel
Heartbreak hotel

Hope is dead
She thought...
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What I wanted 更多 than anything was to be ordinary.
The Sabbath was when I could be.
By: Michael Jackson.


In one of our conversations together, my friend Rabbi Shmuley told me that he had asked some of his colleagues–-writers, thinkers, and artists-–to pen their reflections on the Sabbath. He then suggested that I write down my own thoughts on the subject, a project I found intriguing and timely due to the 最近的 death of Rose Fine, a Jewish woman who was my beloved childhood tutor and who traveled with me and my brothers when we were all in the Jackson Five.

Last Friday night I joined Rabbi...
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I care for Michael Jackson cause he made me believe that 你 can do anything if 你 set your mind to it he has made me happy rather its his smile 或者 音乐 the song "Cry" i would always listen to when i felt down 或者 sad but i would look up and keep my head to the sky. I know Michael tried to change the world and he couldnt do it 由 himself. He needes help im wanting to help the world so bad and hope that people will never forget the King Of Pop. I have learned so many things if 你 compare my life with his. Well thats another story but i 爱情 michael hes my idol some one i look up to hes always made me smile and if haters cant see that. Let them hate we dont care right? if 你 will comet why 你 爱情 and care for Michael Jackson our King of Pop
posted by paloma97ppb
She's lookin for a job and a finer place to stay,
She's lookin for the hope in the empty promising,
She's workin two jobs, keepin alive,
She works in a restaurant night and day
She waits her life away
She wipes the tears away

She cries inside every time she feels this way,
And she’s dying inside every time her baby cries, no

Keepin your head up to the sky,
Keepin your mind just stay alive,
Keepin your wings so we can fly,
(Keep your head up tonight)

Keepin your head up to the sky,
And we can just rise up tell me now,
Gimme your wings so we can fly,

Giving up the life of the birds in the trees
And we’re...
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MICAEL JOSEPH JACKSON!!!!!!!!!!! THE GREATES POP LEGEND IN THE WORLD!!! (KING OF POP) many ppl just became 粉丝 of him once he died (POSERS) BUT LUCKALY FOR ME I'VE BEEN A 粉丝 SINCE I WAS 9 MONTHS OLD MY DAD USED TO BE A 粉丝 OF HIM AND HAD EVERY CD , 14 OF THEM ARE AUTOGRAPHED SO HE WOULD TURN THE 音乐 ON AND LET ME LISTEN! ONCE I BACAME 2 YEARS OLD I WOULD STAND 2 FEET AWAY FROM THE T.V. AND DANCE THE THRILLER SONG! I'VE MET LATOYA JACKSON AND I CAN DANCE EXACTLY LIKE HIM! I WENT TO DANCE CAMP WHEN I WAS 6 YEARS OLD AND WE HAD A COMPETITION SO I DANCED LIKE MICHAEL JACKSON! I WON!!!!!! I...
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posted by awsomegtax
i was listening to a song today tabloid junkie.
(one of my 最喜爱的 mj songs :D)
i notes that his lyrics were strong and i knew he met it. BECAUSE HE HAD A RIGHT TO.
too many tabloids judge too many people 或者 have to make up crap. michael did nothing and 你 all know that. He is so kind that neverland was free for every one! and i think that was so kind of him to make it that way. any way at my school i have to many tabloids who judge me about stuff and i cant take it!!. I know how he feels deep down inside and as well alot of the people are so damn dis respectable and i wish that our world wasn't...
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Michael Jackson's producer/director for the "This Is It" tour will be a 星, 星级 witness for the prosecution in Dr. Conrad Murray's preliminary hearing which begins today ... sources tell TMZ.


Our sources tell us ... Kenny Ortega will testify that on June 19, 2009 -- a week before MJ died -- Michael complained he was cold, had the shakes and was unable to perform ... so the rehearsal was canceled.

The 下一个 日 -- June 20 -- an emergency meeting was held at Michael's home. Kenny Ortega, several big wigs from AEG, Michael, and Dr. Conrad Murray were present. We're told the meeting was "intense, loud...
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posted by awsomegtax
idk why im typing this but hear it goes.
i have been thinking rly hard lately and saw so many magnificent poems and 文章 and stuff.
i feel guilty inside and want to make a big differences in the world if only i could.
i want to help the homeless and the kids that don't get much for x-mas i feel like i should do something and i want to help so bad but how.
it makes me cry every time i think of people like that and sometimes a vice in my head pops up and says "that should be me."
a tear 或者 two streams down my face.
i remember how michael didn't lose hope to help a little boy get a liver. without...
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The owners of the Neverland Ranch -- the former 首页 of Michael Jackson -- want to turn the property into a teenage 音乐 haven.


TMZ has learned Colony Capital wants to develop a business plan to turn Neverland into a small 音乐 institute -- similar to The Juilliard School in NYC. The plan is to teach teens all aspects of music, including 写作 and performing.

Colony wants to turn the property into a campus, in which scores of teenagers -- rich and poor -- can learn the trade that made Michael Jackson a legend.

There are two big stumbling blocks. The first is making sure Santa Barbara County will sign off on such a project.

The 秒 -- and bigger issue -- is whether Colony Capital can use Michael Jackson's name to promote such an institute. TMZ has good news for Colony .... sources directly connected with the Michael Jackson Estate tell us, "It's an interesting idea and we'd be open to it."
So when one of the sequined gloves the King of Pop wore during his "Bad" Tour went up for bid at an auction of celebrity memorabilia in Beverly Hills, Calif., there was a frenzy surrounding the hot item.

The furious bidding took place at Julien's Auctions, where the lone 手套 worn 由 Jackson in the late 1980s sold for $330,000 at the "Icons & Idols" auction Saturday night.

More of Jackson's duds from his stage wardrobe went up for auction, including a 夹克 signed 由 the icon, which brought in $96,000 and a fedora he wore on stage, which went for $72,000.

There were also some unusual items...
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posted by the_best_Lover
- Know what I also love? Mannequins. I guess I want to bring them to life. I like to imagine talking to them. 你 know what I think it is?
Yeah, I think I'll say it.

I think I'm accompanying myself with 老友记 I never had. I probably have two friends. And I just got them. Being an entertainer, 你 just can't tell who is your friend. And they see 你 so differently. A 星, 星级 instead of a next-door neighbor. That's what it is. I surround myself with people I want to be my friends. And I can do that with mannequins. I'll talk to them.

I sit there and say, 'Please don't call me up, I am too shy.'...
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posted by MJangellover
He got kicked in the back
He say that he needed that
He hot willed in the face
Keep daring to motivate
He say one 日 你 will see
His place in world history
He dares to be recognized
The fires deep in his eyes

How many victims must there be
Slaughtered in vain across the land
And how many struggles must there be
Before we choose to live the prophet's plan
Everybody sing...

Every 日 create your history
Every path 你 take you're leaving your legacy
Every soldier dies in his glory
Every legend tells of conquest and liberty

Don't let no one get 你 down
Keep movin' on higher ground
Keep flying until
You are the...
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你 came and changed my life
你 Let Me survive
I never felt like this before
It's very perfect 更多 Than I Thought
I came to This world hopeless,helpless
你 Made Me Speechless
I was alone with no friend
你 came my friend
Until The end
and never looked for How Much 你 had to spend
when My fears came
你 came and took The shame
你 lifted me up In the sky
and Made me fly so high
like a butterfly
cause you're 天使 In My sky
你 opened my heart
Through blocked walls
你 Made Me See the light
through Darkness night
你 were My dreams
through My fighting In nightmare
I can't explain Much
how I Feel About You
Just Let my feelings come to you
Cause I 爱情 you
yes It's true!!!!!!!!!!
posted by kittenlove123
I just couldn't help but do a little review on the song I'll be there. Everytime I hear this song, I just want to tell someone how beautiful it is. Unfortunatly I don't have many people close to me that like Michael.

I'm sure I've talked about I'll be there before in answers. But here 你 go.

I want to start with michaels voice. In the song, young Michaels voice is so magical, amazing, beautiful..,
I like to describe it as melted gold, honey, the sound of an angel... I just can't describe it in any other way

The voices of Michaels brothers in the background also add to the magic. For example,...
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11/11/2010 11:00 PM PST 由 TMZ Staff


The first new Michael Jackson single will be a duet with 阿肯 -- a song entitled "Hold My Hand" that was originally leaked in 2008.



Epic Records/Sony 音乐 just announced the lead single off the upcoming album "Michael" -- and "Hold My Hand" will be released this coming Monday, November 15 on michaeljackson.com.

阿肯 and MJ recorded the track back in 2007 ... a raw, incomplete version was eventually leaked to the public.

The new album will feature a total of 10 tracks -- including the controversial "Breaking News" -- when it's released December 14.
posted by the_best_Lover
Anthony: We have a 问题 from SJ Chams who wonders, "Do 你 think you'll do another duet with Janet?"
Michael: I would 爱情 to! It depends on the song, the time. When she's in one corner of the Earth, I'm in another place. It's very rare that our ships pass in the night. So it's not easy to do 'cause we're both very busy. But that would be very nice. I 爱情 working with her. She's a true real professional and a wonderful sister.
Anthony: Excellent. Ah, we have Sheik 33 who wonders, "Who was your idol when 你 were a child?"
Michael: I always went nuts for.... I mean, I could be asleep......
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posted by mjrocks13
Who is Michael Jackson,

Michael Jackson, was and still is a great man. Hes my idol I 爱情 him like a freind. I remeber when I first saw him. It was when I was * yeahrs old . THRILLER, was on the tv. I remember staring at the tv in horror. That video had scared the hell out of me . As i got older I remember going back and wathcing thriller again. thats when i realized that that "scary" man moved like an angel. He was amazing. I fell in 爱情 after that. every 日 i watch his videos. marveling at the beauty.How can one man snatch my 心 up like that?

I remember the 日 he ...died. I dont think...
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Michael Jackson could live again on the big screen -- TMZ has learned a former Jackson associate is trying to 商店 around a full-length movie featuring unseen rehearsal footage from MJ's 1981 音乐会 series.



The man behind the deal is Ron Newt -- who claims he was so close with Michael, that the singer gave him special behind-the-scenes footage from Jackson's 1981 Triumph Tour.

Now, after seeing the success of "This Is It " -- Newt tells TMZ he's put together a 64-minute feature film from his footage ... which includes several candid moments involving MJ and his brothers. Michael can also be seen dancing, 唱歌 and directing the stage production.

Newt tells us he's already getting offers from several interested parties -- with proposals reaching into seven figures.