On my way to school.I heared my bf Adam saying he was going to breakup with me.I ran 首页 crying.I felt like screaming.My 心 was broken.I cryed my 心 out.I felt like killin meself.I felt like there was no other boy like Adam in the world.I thought Adam was the only guy for me.The 下一个 日 of school i talked to Adam .He 说 sorry Addie we are not bf and gf anymore.I ran back 首页 to talk to my mom.She 说 are 你 nice to him.I 说 yes i am nice to him.She 说 你 may need another boyfriend.Addie 说 maybe i need a new boyfriend he is getting old.Addie showed up with her new friend Chad .When Adam seen Chad he was mad at Addie.Addie 说 she was so sorry.He 说 it was ok but they were not 老友记 anymore.Addie's 心 was still broken.But she was still mad at him she was going to kill him.

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know 你 see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
I may seem crazy
或者 painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If 你 would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

As his tears fall
As the light shines
As the blood drips
And how the bird's fly

How it hurts when 你 bleed
How it's sad when 你 die
When she scream's 你 sob
And how the baby cries

The pain is bad
Terrible for you
你 cut yourself
She stabbed the truth

She pray's for truth
你 try it yourself
你 pray for lies
It wouldn't be felt with delt

The moon is white
The sun is unknown
Your blood is red
Soon to be found

The longer it gets
The badder it is
The blacker the red
It will get the rest

你 get on your knees
It doesn't make sense
She should be the one
The defenision of death

To 爱情 is difficult
To hate it possible
To 你 it's everything
To her it's probable

As her tear's fall
As the light shines
As the blood drips
How she would cry

Now the never the better
Now the 爱情 it ends
As she never would do it
And 你 would have never of listened

They laugh and they joke when they push 你 around,
They think It's funny when 你 fall to the ground,
They're stupid... And strong,
But they run this prison called school,
The smart and the weak are just put in a box,
Only taken to suffer the mocking and beating of those around you,
To survive 你 must take it... Let no one see the pain,
This makes nothing better!
To hold your emotions?!
To push them down deep?
This is not a solution!
This is a bomb,
Soon to be set... For when 你 have nowhere to push something down 你 burst out in sorrow and let them all out,
你 drown those around you,
你 显示 them this pain... But they laugh and they joke and it only gets worse,
And all of these problems... All start in the very... First... Line...

When darkness enshrouds and there is nowhere to run... The Devil's laugh taunts me,
As it rings in my ear... It gets louder... Until it sounds like a roar,
I can hear no one speaking... My 老友记 are not there... All I can see are the Demons that have tormented me,
I want to fight back... I want to break free,
But those Demons surround me... They know I am maimed... They know i am wounded... They laugh at my pain... They know that I suffer... That I hurt way down deep,
They think It's amusing,
They think It's a joke,
When they toy with your emotions... They could never know,
How badly it hurts me... How much I have been through,
They just see the outside... They never look in... To see my ambitions... My dreams... <3

Thunder crashes,
mam cries,
dad shouts,
brother moans,
sister hides,
dog barks,
cat meows,
paremedics are coming and they'll always be coming cos i wont stop cutting my wrists.

Doctors patronize,
nurses tut,
people criticize,
kids stare,
police investigate,
teachers nag,
老友记 worry,
social workers came, they've came to take me away cos I didn't stop cutting my wrists.

I hoped 你 like this poem even though it doesn't rhyme.
It still needs loving just like 你 and I.

Playground, schoolbell rings again. Rainclouds come to play, again. Has no one told you, she's not breathing? Hello, im your mind, giving 你 someone to talk to, hello.
If i smile and dont believe, soon i know, i'll wake from this dream.
Don't try to fix me, im not broken!
Hello, im the lie living for you, so 你 can hide, dont cry.....
Suddenly i know, im not sleeping, hello, im still here!
.....all that's left.....of yesterday......

嘿 everyone. Just wanted 你 to know about this song, even if 你 dont know what its about, somehow it makes 你 feel sad...... Just look up the song and 你 will know what i mean.....

Nothing Remains
© Joni Jefferson
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter – now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight
Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere – holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood – sweat – on my clothes
Hatred – confusion – disgust
Night after night, week after week, 年 after year
No longer a child – only an object
Silence – no dreams – no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue – goodness – happiness gone
Childhood stolen – innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone – the child is dead
Nothing else remains


Source: The Child Is Gone – The Child Is Dead, Rape Poems link

Adam seen some of his friend fighting.Adam asked them what are 你 guys fighting about.They all 说 NOTHING GO AWAY ADAM.Adam 说 NO I'M TRIED OF 你 GUYS TREATING ME LIKE CRAP.They all 说 we are going to beat 你 up.Adam 说 DON'T 你 GUYS TOUCH ME I WILL KILL YOU.They all rolled there eyes.Adam 说 I HATE 你 GUYS SO MUCH.They all started kicking and punching Adam.Jim 说 IF 你 EVER MESS WITH US AGAIN WE WILL KILL YOU.Jack 说 WE SOULD KILL HIM.Adam 说 I'M CALLING MY OTHER 老友记 翠菊, 紫菀 and Zane and Axel.Jim 说 BUT THEY CAN'T BEAT US.Adam 说 MY OTHER 老友记 ARE HERE.Jim 说 YEAH BUT THEY ARE NOT STRONGER THEN US.Axel 说 I'M GOING TO KILL 你 GUYS.Axel and Zane and 翠菊, 紫菀 started KICKING AND PUNCHING THEM.They all die and the fight was over.