Nothing feels good anymore. I feel like every little bit of happiness is a 苦 piece of 糖果 that’s supposed to be sweet but instead makes my stomach churn . I feel messed up and out of place as if without the thing my mother ripped from my 心 I can no longer survive. Have 你 ever felt as if someone was your rock and without them you’ll sink? Well, imagine that rock being torn right out from under you. All 你 can do is sink. All 你 can do is drown. When emotions became to much to handle I became an artist. I painting was my favorite. I liked to watch the paint drip and then dry. Nobody’s perfect. I’ve been trying to reach my mothers expectations and every time I seem inches away from them they seem to 移动 farther. I don’t know what to do. I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I’m already drowning so it’s not like I can scream for help. If I do... I might choke.