Will the pain ever go away?
Bella 粉丝 fiction
“Smile sweetie.” Dad tried to tell me to do. It didn’t work. The crap that I was going through couldn’t be stopped anyway possible. Charlie wasn’t helping, Jacob wasn’t helping, not even work was helping. I wanted to curl up and die. My life sucked and all I wished was that I could get the pain through my body in one 迅速, 斯威夫特 move. The pain didn’t want to cooperate. It wanted to scream at my soul to shut down. And it was working. Everything people told me from the beginning. It was to good to be true.
That night I didn’t touch my dinner. And I also didn’t finish my chemistry homework. 或者 any other assignment. I was failing in all my classes (of course Phys Ed included). I asked my dad if I could be excused and went up to my room with a small glass of water. I got my blanket off my chair and laid it out on the floor. I couldn’t sleep in the 床, 床上 my father provided me with, because it smelled of Edward. Or, HIM as I referred to it. I got my 枕头 and laid down. I didn’t put my 床, 床上 clothes on, just laying in my T-shirt and jeans on the blanket. I looked at my phone one last time and saw 1 new message:
嘿 Bells, r u OK? I want to come see u but my dad 说 I couldn’t yet. I have the flu. Text me back. I 爱情 u. -Jacob.
I tried to smile but my lips wouldn’t provide the action, so I smiled in my brain and read the text again and again. I decided I would text him back, I didn’t want to close the door on Jacob, as much as I did the rest of the world.
Hi Jake. No, my world is caving in. I’m sorry about ur flu. Can I come c u? I miss u very much. I 爱情 u 2. Please don’t think I’m shutting 你 out. -Bella
I waited for about 30 分钟 after that and decided I would check my e-mails instead to see if I’d gotten any new e-mails from Jake, mostly.
The computer I had was slow, but steady and it was all I had. I hadn’t minded it when HE was here. I’d only minded it when I was alone. I fidgeted because it was so slow and it made me scream inside.
Finally the piece of crap started up and let me get on my e-mail.
3 new e-mails, the computer told me. I expected all of them to be from Jake, but surprisingly one said, Acullen@mail.org. That couldn’t be right. Alice’s e-mail was AliceCullen@hotmail.com. Someone was either blackmailing me 或者 tricking me.
From: Acullen@mail.org
To: BellaSwan@mail.org
Subject:
Hello Bella,
It’s Jasper. If it 说 Jasper 你 would think it would be something else. Not sure what but I know you, I am very sorry for the outburst. Alice was too afraid to tend to your e-mails. Esme misses 你 so much. 你 kept Edward in place. I’ll be visiting 你 soon, Bella. I promise 你 will be fine until I get there. Don’t answer back, please. Thank you.
Love, Jasper Cullen *your friend* :]
This time I really did smile. Jasper was coming to see me, I wouldn’t be alone. The fight was coming to an end, because where one Cullen goes, the rest follow. Like chain mail.
3 days later:
I was at school and I had my homework done because I’d been really excited for Jasper’s return. The 日 went really fast because Jasper was coming and I was just really excited. I had been texting Jake back with enthusiasm. He’d 说 hopefully the flu would go away soon but I still wasn’t aloud to see him….
I got in my truck and went home. I was eating again too, so I got a snack and put a bowl of chili in the microwave. I looked in the living room to be sure that Jasper wasn’t hiding in there with Edward 或者 someone else…he wasn’t. I went up into my room to see my 床, 床上 as it was and my sheets on the floor. I looked around, and something caught my eye…At first I thought it was Jasper. But I looked again and saw it was EDWARD!!!!! I rubbed my eyes to make sure I wasn’t kidding myself (I did this often). I wasn’t and it was true.
“Hello my love.” he said. I screamed and dropped what was in my hand. I ran up to him and hugged him tightly. “YOUR BACK!” I yelled. He hugged me back and then we kissed. “Are 你 staying?” I asked. “Yes.” He smiled. “Really?” “Really.” “Where’s Jasper?” I asked. “Jasper didn’t send that e-mail. I did.” “You did?” “I did.” I smiled and hugged him again. This was the perfect present. I would never forget that. “I 爱情 you.” I said. “Me too.” Edward 说 and picked me up, bridal style.
Bella 粉丝 fiction
“Smile sweetie.” Dad tried to tell me to do. It didn’t work. The crap that I was going through couldn’t be stopped anyway possible. Charlie wasn’t helping, Jacob wasn’t helping, not even work was helping. I wanted to curl up and die. My life sucked and all I wished was that I could get the pain through my body in one 迅速, 斯威夫特 move. The pain didn’t want to cooperate. It wanted to scream at my soul to shut down. And it was working. Everything people told me from the beginning. It was to good to be true.
That night I didn’t touch my dinner. And I also didn’t finish my chemistry homework. 或者 any other assignment. I was failing in all my classes (of course Phys Ed included). I asked my dad if I could be excused and went up to my room with a small glass of water. I got my blanket off my chair and laid it out on the floor. I couldn’t sleep in the 床, 床上 my father provided me with, because it smelled of Edward. Or, HIM as I referred to it. I got my 枕头 and laid down. I didn’t put my 床, 床上 clothes on, just laying in my T-shirt and jeans on the blanket. I looked at my phone one last time and saw 1 new message:
嘿 Bells, r u OK? I want to come see u but my dad 说 I couldn’t yet. I have the flu. Text me back. I 爱情 u. -Jacob.
I tried to smile but my lips wouldn’t provide the action, so I smiled in my brain and read the text again and again. I decided I would text him back, I didn’t want to close the door on Jacob, as much as I did the rest of the world.
Hi Jake. No, my world is caving in. I’m sorry about ur flu. Can I come c u? I miss u very much. I 爱情 u 2. Please don’t think I’m shutting 你 out. -Bella
I waited for about 30 分钟 after that and decided I would check my e-mails instead to see if I’d gotten any new e-mails from Jake, mostly.
The computer I had was slow, but steady and it was all I had. I hadn’t minded it when HE was here. I’d only minded it when I was alone. I fidgeted because it was so slow and it made me scream inside.
Finally the piece of crap started up and let me get on my e-mail.
3 new e-mails, the computer told me. I expected all of them to be from Jake, but surprisingly one said, Acullen@mail.org. That couldn’t be right. Alice’s e-mail was AliceCullen@hotmail.com. Someone was either blackmailing me 或者 tricking me.
From: Acullen@mail.org
To: BellaSwan@mail.org
Subject:
Hello Bella,
It’s Jasper. If it 说 Jasper 你 would think it would be something else. Not sure what but I know you, I am very sorry for the outburst. Alice was too afraid to tend to your e-mails. Esme misses 你 so much. 你 kept Edward in place. I’ll be visiting 你 soon, Bella. I promise 你 will be fine until I get there. Don’t answer back, please. Thank you.
Love, Jasper Cullen *your friend* :]
This time I really did smile. Jasper was coming to see me, I wouldn’t be alone. The fight was coming to an end, because where one Cullen goes, the rest follow. Like chain mail.
3 days later:
I was at school and I had my homework done because I’d been really excited for Jasper’s return. The 日 went really fast because Jasper was coming and I was just really excited. I had been texting Jake back with enthusiasm. He’d 说 hopefully the flu would go away soon but I still wasn’t aloud to see him….
I got in my truck and went home. I was eating again too, so I got a snack and put a bowl of chili in the microwave. I looked in the living room to be sure that Jasper wasn’t hiding in there with Edward 或者 someone else…he wasn’t. I went up into my room to see my 床, 床上 as it was and my sheets on the floor. I looked around, and something caught my eye…At first I thought it was Jasper. But I looked again and saw it was EDWARD!!!!! I rubbed my eyes to make sure I wasn’t kidding myself (I did this often). I wasn’t and it was true.
“Hello my love.” he said. I screamed and dropped what was in my hand. I ran up to him and hugged him tightly. “YOUR BACK!” I yelled. He hugged me back and then we kissed. “Are 你 staying?” I asked. “Yes.” He smiled. “Really?” “Really.” “Where’s Jasper?” I asked. “Jasper didn’t send that e-mail. I did.” “You did?” “I did.” I smiled and hugged him again. This was the perfect present. I would never forget that. “I 爱情 you.” I said. “Me too.” Edward 说 and picked me up, bridal style.
If we never found this love
If we never took that road
If we hadn't had the heart
We wouldn't have this home
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
In this world the 心 beats slow
In my arms let's share the cold
In my eyes you’re all I've known
Darling let's go home
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
If we never took that road
If we hadn't had the heart
We wouldn't have this home
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
In this world the 心 beats slow
In my arms let's share the cold
In my eyes you’re all I've known
Darling let's go home
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
Love, 爱情 will take you
Love, 爱情 will take 你 there
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
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La, da, da
Life on earth is changing
Life on earth is ending
And time on earth is ending
And time on earth is changing
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
Life on earth is ending
Life on earth is changing
And time on earth is changing
And time on earth is ending
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
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La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
Life on earth is changing
Life on earth is ending
And time on earth is ending
And time on earth is changing
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
Life on earth is ending
Life on earth is changing
And time on earth is changing
And time on earth is ending
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
La, la, da, da, da
La, da, da
Last born of the clan
First one to be free
Lived inside a house
Beneath the hanging tree
Loved them deadly nights
That chilled him to the bone
Words were cried at night
In unforgiving tones
Blood of his men was gone beneath snow
He picked up his 刀 and his bow
Killer of Jonathan Low
Violence from without
And anger from within
Crawling through the fields
Informing 下一个 of kin
They all turned their backs
But they all knew his name
And if he could return
They'd probably do the same
Blood of his 老友记 was gone beneath snow
For all that I know, he died
Killer of Jonathan Low
The blood of his 老友记 was gone beneath snow
For all that I know, he died
Killer of Jonathan Low
First one to be free
Lived inside a house
Beneath the hanging tree
Loved them deadly nights
That chilled him to the bone
Words were cried at night
In unforgiving tones
Blood of his men was gone beneath snow
He picked up his 刀 and his bow
Killer of Jonathan Low
Violence from without
And anger from within
Crawling through the fields
Informing 下一个 of kin
They all turned their backs
But they all knew his name
And if he could return
They'd probably do the same
Blood of his 老友记 was gone beneath snow
For all that I know, he died
Killer of Jonathan Low
The blood of his 老友记 was gone beneath snow
For all that I know, he died
Killer of Jonathan Low
The moon is always full for us
The road is always clear
That's not what 你 want to hear
One is born so one can die
你 must wait a real long time
That's 更多 than 你 can bear
And the days will come and go
And the band will march alone
Till the 日 你 cast a shadow
And it's nothing like your own
Rolling in on a burning tire
You're gonna set my house on fire
Just to 显示 me that 你 were there
花 raised up like a snake
你 will raise to leave me bait
And always, always take
And the days will come and go
And the band will march alone
Till the 日 你 cast a shadow
And it's nothing like your own
The moon is always full for us
The road is always clear
That’s not what 你 want to hear
That’s not what 你 want to hear
The road is always clear
That's not what 你 want to hear
One is born so one can die
你 must wait a real long time
That's 更多 than 你 can bear
And the days will come and go
And the band will march alone
Till the 日 你 cast a shadow
And it's nothing like your own
Rolling in on a burning tire
You're gonna set my house on fire
Just to 显示 me that 你 were there
花 raised up like a snake
你 will raise to leave me bait
And always, always take
And the days will come and go
And the band will march alone
Till the 日 你 cast a shadow
And it's nothing like your own
The moon is always full for us
The road is always clear
That’s not what 你 want to hear
That’s not what 你 want to hear
I think I know what’s on your mind
A couple words, a great divide
Waiting in the wings, a small respite
Crowding up the foreground from behind
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
Take anything 你 want, it’s fine
Keep up the slow life for the night
Don’t take it back, I’ll just deny
This constant noise all the time
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
From the wind in front of me
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
From the wind in front of me
Even though you’re the only one I see
A couple words, a great divide
Waiting in the wings, a small respite
Crowding up the foreground from behind
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
Take anything 你 want, it’s fine
Keep up the slow life for the night
Don’t take it back, I’ll just deny
This constant noise all the time
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
From the wind in front of me
Even though you’re the only one I see
It’s the last catastrophe
Place your bets on chance and apathy
From the wind in front of me
Even though you’re the only one I see
When these pillars get put down
It will be 你 who wears the crown
And I’ll owe everything to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
How much pain has cracked your soul
And how much 爱情 would make 你 whole
You’re my guiding lightning strike
I can’t find the words to say
They’re overdue
I’ve traveled half the world to say
I belong to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
And she attacks me like a Leo
When my 心 is 分裂, 拆分 like Rio
And I assure 你 my debts are real
I can’t find the words to say
When I’m confused
I traveled half the world to say
你 are my muse
Oooohh
Oooohh
Oooohh
I can’t find the words to say
They’re overdue
I’ve traveled half the world to say
I belong to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
It will be 你 who wears the crown
And I’ll owe everything to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
How much pain has cracked your soul
And how much 爱情 would make 你 whole
You’re my guiding lightning strike
I can’t find the words to say
They’re overdue
I’ve traveled half the world to say
I belong to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
And she attacks me like a Leo
When my 心 is 分裂, 拆分 like Rio
And I assure 你 my debts are real
I can’t find the words to say
When I’m confused
I traveled half the world to say
你 are my muse
Oooohh
Oooohh
Oooohh
I can’t find the words to say
They’re overdue
I’ve traveled half the world to say
I belong to you
Oooohh
Oooohh
So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of her young heart
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with 你 man
Don’t 你 see it’s wrong, can’t 你 get it right
Out of mind and out of sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state
Running in a whole new scene
你 know I haven’t slept in weeks
You’re the only thing I see
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
No matter what 你 do
Yeah I’ll be true to you
Such a waste of her young heart
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with 你 man
Don’t 你 see it’s wrong, can’t 你 get it right
Out of mind and out of sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state
Running in a whole new scene
你 know I haven’t slept in weeks
You’re the only thing I see
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart
迷失 in the dark
I’m spun out so far
你 stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
No matter what 你 do
Yeah I’ll be true to you
Should never think
What’s in your heart
What’s in our home
And so I won’t
And you’ll learn to hate me
Still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me 由 my name
And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
Before nothing can be done
Try to decide when
She’ll lie in the end
Ain’t got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell 你 to hold off
Choose to hold on
It’s one thing that I’ve known
Once I put my 涂层, 外套 on
Coming out in this all wrong, ooh
She’s standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I’m in love
I’m in love
Girl save your soul, ooh
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
And before nothing can be done
‘Cause without me
你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
Hold on
Without me 你 got it all
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on
What’s in your heart
What’s in our home
And so I won’t
And you’ll learn to hate me
Still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me 由 my name
And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
Before nothing can be done
Try to decide when
She’ll lie in the end
Ain’t got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell 你 to hold off
Choose to hold on
It’s one thing that I’ve known
Once I put my 涂层, 外套 on
Coming out in this all wrong, ooh
She’s standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I’m in love
I’m in love
Girl save your soul, ooh
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
And before nothing can be done
‘Cause without me
你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
Hold on
Without me 你 got it all
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on
Without me 你 got it all
So hold on