I watched Edward's pained expression.
"I just came 由 to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to 你 first."
Edward backed out of the door and onto the porch. I was so angry I could explode. She was going to hurt him more. I couldn't let that happen. The Pain-in-the-Butt followed him out and he shut the door. I just wanted to beat the crap out of her. How could she come back? And why wouldn't she keep the stuff. I guess she didn't want reminders.
I peeked inside. I wanted to know what it was. There was a CD in a jeweled case, a crystal 心 pendant, a stereo, and lots of notes,and a black, velvet box, that had a diamond ingagement ring in it. I guess he had proposed to her.
That totally destroyed the original anger I felt toward him about what happened in my dream. How could she not want him. 或者 maybe she had 说 yes, gotten his hopes up so high, then squashed them with her size 9 Nikes. I put everything back in the box.
I started chewing on some peanuts, waiting for their conversation to finish. I went over towards the door, to see if I could figure out what they were talking about.
"But, Edward,...I... I 爱情 you."
"But, I don't 爱情 you, not anymore."
I smiled, she was getting what she deserved.
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I quickly went back to the 长椅, 沙发 and waited for him to come back in.
I watched him, trying to figure out how he was doing.
"Are 你 okay,"I asked the obvious question.
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found somethin better. I also need to talk to you."
Oh no. Was he going to make me leave too? Did that something better mean it wasn't me?
"About the mind 阅读 thing,"he 说 quietly.
"Mind 阅读 thing,"like in my dream? Then something clicked in place,"Oh, 你 mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand it 你 don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if 你 can forgive me, I don't like having 你 mad at me. I want to tell 你 how much 你 really mean to me, but I don't want 你 to leave, I don't want 你 to hate me...."
I had to make him stop. I cut him off.
"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even 你 I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
I choked, there was something in my throat, keeping me from saying anymore.
"It's not your fault. I know 你 think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure 你 won't really have it until you're a vampire, if 你 become a vampire, but still, I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, 你 didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. 你 on the other hand, 你 didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
I looked at the floor feeling tears running down my cheeks. He wrapped his strong, cold, hard arms around me, and I pulled myself closer. I couldn't stop crying, I didn't want to stop. He pulled me onto the 长椅, 沙发 and I laid down with my head on his lap, crying until I fell asleep.
I dreamt about what happened earlier. I wanted him to know everything, I wanted him to know that I loved him and I wanted to know that he loved me. I wanted him to understand me. I dreamt that I became his vampire bride. We would get married and then he would turn me, however that would happen, on our honeymoon.
Then I heard voices. It sounded like Edward was talking to someone.
I slowly opened my eyes and stretched. Then I realized where I was and I sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So, do 你 still want me?"
I remembered the mind 阅读 thing. So I thought really loud. Of course I want you, I think I'm in 爱情 with you, and I never want 你 to leave me.
I smiled, and he smiled back.
"What do 你 want for dinner?"
Dinner? Wow, I slept most of the day.
"I think I want spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make 你 some."
I was about to object, when I heard,"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since 你 make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"I told her, truly happy for the first time in years.
I watched the front door open, wondering who it could be.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. 你 are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"Edward cut in,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to 你 Edward,"she retorted sticking her tongue out.
He rolled his eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
I thought about it. I would need some 更多 cute clothes, especially for Edward to see.
"Okay, I 爱情 to shop, maybe I can get 你 a present,"I 说 turning to Edward,"Since I 爱情 你 and my feelings are returned. Besides, it's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for 你 too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
I jumped up and headed for the dining room and sat where the 食物 was waiting.
"This is delicious,"I 说 after the first bite.
"I'm glad 你 like it,"Esme responded.
I ate my 意大利面 and then waited for Edward to come and get me.