Ok I was going to wait and do this on Friday, but I couldn't wait. I really like where this is going and it is fun to write :)
==================================================
"I hope 你 realize what all of this is doing to your mother. She has been crying for a while now, she knows now that your brother will make it but with every sound she fears that someone else is going to go out and try to find the bears." He said.
"I.....well. I don't know what to tell you, I tried telling 你 that I am sorry. I will talk to everyone tomorrow and tell them not to go out there if 你 think it would help." I 说
"NO, i'm sorry will not help. Just go back to the house, go sleep off the brandy. I'm not sure what we will do, but that can wait until tomorrow." He 说 as he walked out of the barn.
I sat there for a few 分钟 alone in the dark. My entire family was mad at me, my brother was hurt. I didn't know what to do, I just wanted to run away. I wanted to go away, 或者 go back and restart today and change the way things happened.
--------------------------------------------------
I knew that the best idea would be for me to go back into the house and sleep off both my anger and the alcohol that was running through my system, but the conversation that I just had with my father was still running through my mind.
It seemed that everything was my fault, if I hadn't decided that it would be fun to go looking for the 熊 then Aaron wouldn't be hurt. If I had listened then everyone else wouldn't be thinking about going to look for the stupid animal. It was MY fault that mother was upset, not to mention all my sisters who no doubt blamed me for what happened.
I got up and started walking around the barn, my mind was running a million miles per hour. I knew I should should go to bed, but right now I was mad. I just wanted to get away from everyone for a while and not go back to the house and face my father who no doubt was sitting at the house waiting for me to come back in so he could yell at me again.
I stormed out the 谷仓 door and began walking, I wasn't sure where I was going but as long as it was away from my house I was alright with it.
I walked along the woods, hearing little 动物 coming out for the night and wondering what it would be like to be something in the dark. Something that didn't have to deal with angry family members, 或者 answer to anyone anymore.
I stood there contemplating all of this for a moment and decided that enough was enough. I was going to go find the bear, if I killed it I would be in good graces with my family again. If I lost, well then I wouldn't have to deal with my father anymore. Not that I was hoping I would find it and it would finish me off, I wasn't suicidal after all.
I walked into the woods, wishing I would have been smart enough to grab a latnern 或者 something. The moon was full and it helped a bit, but every 树 cast a shadow that was making me jumpy.
I walked further into the woods following the path that was worn from all of us trecking through the woods in the last few days. I came across the rock that John was sitting on when he killed the cub.
I had to stop and laughed at myself. What in the name of all that was holy was I doing out here, I mean was this really my best idea? I shook my head and thought that maybe dad was right and maybe I should just go back to the house and go to sleep. I wasn't sure if it was the 白兰地 talking 或者 not but I made the decision that I needed to keep going.
I walked further into the woods until I began having problems seeing because the trees were so thick that it was obscuring the moonlight. I stopped and leaned against a 树 thinking about how Aaron must have felt.
I stood there for a few 分钟 when I heard a large sound off to my left. I took a deep breath and turned, half expecting Ben 或者 John to come out from behind the tree, I knew that they were watching out for me and wondered if they would follow me out here.
I turned to yell at them when I heard a quiet gutteral sound. I started to get scared as the sound got closer, was I really suicidal? What was I doing?
I didn't get to finish that thought because around a furr 树 a large brown head appeared. I sucked a breath in through my teeth as the animal came into full view.
I stood there staring at the large grizzley 熊 that was now walking closer to me. I stood as still as I could hoping that it would loose intrest and walk away so that I could go back to the house and stop being foolish.
It stopped about 10 feet away from me and turned it's head to look to the west, it was strange because I would almost say that the 熊 looked scared of something.
It looked back to me and growled deeply. I looked into it's eyes, feeling that this may be the last thing that I ever get to see. At that point the 熊 growled and charged at me.
I braced myself as well as I could, I scrambled back until a 树 smashed into my back. I took a breath as the 熊 charged into me, it's claws scratching into my head right along my hairline. I screamed in pain and attempted to push it's head away as it came close to bite me. I was not strong enough to push it away, but I managed to 移动 it's head so that when it bit me it didn't get my throat, but got my left shoulder instead.
I screamed again and the 熊 roared back in response, it took its claws and scratched from my right shoulder down to my left hip. At that point I fell to the ground and screamed in pain noticing that a large ammount of blood was beginning to pool beside me.
I knew I was dying, that much was a sure thing. I laid there bleeding when the 熊 attacked one 更多 time, it jumped on my back and dug it's claws into my back from my neck to my lower back. I writhed in pain knowing that I didn't have much time left.
Suddenly I was full of remorse, father was going to be angry that I didn't listen again. Mother was going to be 心 broken, she hadn't 迷失 any children and I was very sorry that I had to be the first. My brothers, what were they going to think? Aaron, John and Benjamin were all going to blame themselves for this, like their coming with would help anything at all. I didn't want to leave my family, not like this.
The 熊 backed off my body and charged me again. I screamed in fear, and it stoped about 10 feet away from me when it backed up and did it again.
I realized the 熊 was toying with me, I wished that it would end this already. I was in so much pain, everything hurt and the forest around me was beginning to blur probably from blood loss.
The 熊 backed up again, hopefully to end my life when I hear another animal coming into the area.
There was a moment of complete silence, which only lasted for a minute. The following sound was something I won't forgett, it was the sound of the 熊 fighting.
I figured a larger 熊 had come across our fight and was fighting the 熊 for my body. I sat there taking deep breaths, praying to God that he would end it quickly because I knew I wouldn't be able to hang on much longer.
==================================================
"I hope 你 realize what all of this is doing to your mother. She has been crying for a while now, she knows now that your brother will make it but with every sound she fears that someone else is going to go out and try to find the bears." He said.
"I.....well. I don't know what to tell you, I tried telling 你 that I am sorry. I will talk to everyone tomorrow and tell them not to go out there if 你 think it would help." I 说
"NO, i'm sorry will not help. Just go back to the house, go sleep off the brandy. I'm not sure what we will do, but that can wait until tomorrow." He 说 as he walked out of the barn.
I sat there for a few 分钟 alone in the dark. My entire family was mad at me, my brother was hurt. I didn't know what to do, I just wanted to run away. I wanted to go away, 或者 go back and restart today and change the way things happened.
--------------------------------------------------
I knew that the best idea would be for me to go back into the house and sleep off both my anger and the alcohol that was running through my system, but the conversation that I just had with my father was still running through my mind.
It seemed that everything was my fault, if I hadn't decided that it would be fun to go looking for the 熊 then Aaron wouldn't be hurt. If I had listened then everyone else wouldn't be thinking about going to look for the stupid animal. It was MY fault that mother was upset, not to mention all my sisters who no doubt blamed me for what happened.
I got up and started walking around the barn, my mind was running a million miles per hour. I knew I should should go to bed, but right now I was mad. I just wanted to get away from everyone for a while and not go back to the house and face my father who no doubt was sitting at the house waiting for me to come back in so he could yell at me again.
I stormed out the 谷仓 door and began walking, I wasn't sure where I was going but as long as it was away from my house I was alright with it.
I walked along the woods, hearing little 动物 coming out for the night and wondering what it would be like to be something in the dark. Something that didn't have to deal with angry family members, 或者 answer to anyone anymore.
I stood there contemplating all of this for a moment and decided that enough was enough. I was going to go find the bear, if I killed it I would be in good graces with my family again. If I lost, well then I wouldn't have to deal with my father anymore. Not that I was hoping I would find it and it would finish me off, I wasn't suicidal after all.
I walked into the woods, wishing I would have been smart enough to grab a latnern 或者 something. The moon was full and it helped a bit, but every 树 cast a shadow that was making me jumpy.
I walked further into the woods following the path that was worn from all of us trecking through the woods in the last few days. I came across the rock that John was sitting on when he killed the cub.
I had to stop and laughed at myself. What in the name of all that was holy was I doing out here, I mean was this really my best idea? I shook my head and thought that maybe dad was right and maybe I should just go back to the house and go to sleep. I wasn't sure if it was the 白兰地 talking 或者 not but I made the decision that I needed to keep going.
I walked further into the woods until I began having problems seeing because the trees were so thick that it was obscuring the moonlight. I stopped and leaned against a 树 thinking about how Aaron must have felt.
I stood there for a few 分钟 when I heard a large sound off to my left. I took a deep breath and turned, half expecting Ben 或者 John to come out from behind the tree, I knew that they were watching out for me and wondered if they would follow me out here.
I turned to yell at them when I heard a quiet gutteral sound. I started to get scared as the sound got closer, was I really suicidal? What was I doing?
I didn't get to finish that thought because around a furr 树 a large brown head appeared. I sucked a breath in through my teeth as the animal came into full view.
I stood there staring at the large grizzley 熊 that was now walking closer to me. I stood as still as I could hoping that it would loose intrest and walk away so that I could go back to the house and stop being foolish.
It stopped about 10 feet away from me and turned it's head to look to the west, it was strange because I would almost say that the 熊 looked scared of something.
It looked back to me and growled deeply. I looked into it's eyes, feeling that this may be the last thing that I ever get to see. At that point the 熊 growled and charged at me.
I braced myself as well as I could, I scrambled back until a 树 smashed into my back. I took a breath as the 熊 charged into me, it's claws scratching into my head right along my hairline. I screamed in pain and attempted to push it's head away as it came close to bite me. I was not strong enough to push it away, but I managed to 移动 it's head so that when it bit me it didn't get my throat, but got my left shoulder instead.
I screamed again and the 熊 roared back in response, it took its claws and scratched from my right shoulder down to my left hip. At that point I fell to the ground and screamed in pain noticing that a large ammount of blood was beginning to pool beside me.
I knew I was dying, that much was a sure thing. I laid there bleeding when the 熊 attacked one 更多 time, it jumped on my back and dug it's claws into my back from my neck to my lower back. I writhed in pain knowing that I didn't have much time left.
Suddenly I was full of remorse, father was going to be angry that I didn't listen again. Mother was going to be 心 broken, she hadn't 迷失 any children and I was very sorry that I had to be the first. My brothers, what were they going to think? Aaron, John and Benjamin were all going to blame themselves for this, like their coming with would help anything at all. I didn't want to leave my family, not like this.
The 熊 backed off my body and charged me again. I screamed in fear, and it stoped about 10 feet away from me when it backed up and did it again.
I realized the 熊 was toying with me, I wished that it would end this already. I was in so much pain, everything hurt and the forest around me was beginning to blur probably from blood loss.
The 熊 backed up again, hopefully to end my life when I hear another animal coming into the area.
There was a moment of complete silence, which only lasted for a minute. The following sound was something I won't forgett, it was the sound of the 熊 fighting.
I figured a larger 熊 had come across our fight and was fighting the 熊 for my body. I sat there taking deep breaths, praying to God that he would end it quickly because I knew I wouldn't be able to hang on much longer.