I hide a lot from the outside world. Outside being anyone other than myself, my family. I don't go around advertising my past with drugs. I can't live like that, always looking back, letting my mistakes run my life. I have to look ahead, look to whatever future I'll have.

In 狐狸 River, I hid my feelings for Michael as best as I could. Aside from being insanely attracted to him, moreso than I should have allowed myself, I hid them from my co-workers, from him as well as I could [though I know I didn't do a good job of it], and I think I even tried really hard to hide it from myself. I was so...