随意 POLITICAL RIKU WALKING BY. But one of the reasons I consider myself pro-choice is less because "women should be able to choose" 或者 anything like that but 更多 so cause I dont think any two people should become partners and have a kid unless they are actually sure thats what they want together and are really in 爱情 with each other and can finance a child properly.
I personally believe that while it is bad and 'killing' a kid, that its better to not be born in certain cases
Me: *made sure I ate plenty today* *made sure I covered most 食物 groups in the area* *went for a run in the morning* *took my vitamin for once* *relaxed for an 小时 in the morning before really doing anything*
Friend: 你 seem to be really stable today, I dont really want to ruin that lel
Me: Oh shit I actually am insanely stable today compared to some other days :v My hard work and sheer effort to make my body let me have a good mood today paid off.
你 know... I never really thought of it like it for some reason and was sitting back and being like "You know what other OCD things do I do?" until I realized the the long term strange fixation of always having to make sure the car door 下一个 to me is locked so it doesnt fling open 或者 I dont randomly open the door and fall out is probably pretty fitting into that.
Its interesting how I find that my 老友记 in my age range are like "Hell no. My kids arent getting iPhones 或者 major technology to their own until they are at least 10" in a conversation about how there are so many 4 年 olds that can use an iPad/iPhone and all better than us but we realized it comes with the dilemma that theyd probably end up behind everyone else and we are just like " :/ "
你 know Supernatural's plot is pretty predictable. Dean dies, Sam does something get him back. Someone gets some kind of addiction. Sam dies. Dean bring him back. Someone gets some kind of addiction. Someone makes some mistake. Drama. Cycle.
Me: *gets really personal with some of the characters I relate the most with* *glomps them and holds them as my own*
TBH outside of the main three, some of the main reasons I relate with the others are cos of personal issues 或者 experiences that makes me have something of a connection XD I mean the others do relate on personality as well, but a lot are also tied to 更多 personal things XD
The main three are just heavily personality and personal based XD
God, as much as I 爱情 doing this method that works well of literally finding the things that trigger the most amount of anxiety and practically charging at it and forcing me to be stuck in it whether I like it 或者 not cos it works to lower the amount of anxiety formed 由 it, its fucking HELL.
*sigh* But its not like its 可逆 any 更多 and thats the reason I set it up so I cant back out and if I back out I am help accountable and loose some things so gotta carry through.
Me: *listening to "Cant take my eyes off of you" Blue Knights* *goes to grab Calculus folder* *accidentally goes too far and headphones unplug*
PC: *blasts it out loud*
Mom: >.> Riku...
Mom: 你 are a junkie. "Im listening to band music" "I want to volunteer for the musical music!" "Oh 迪士尼 thing, lets do that" "Oh Im in Impulse" "Oh 3 weeks of band lets do that" "Oh marching strict? How fun!"
Tfw 你 literally force yourself between two highly uncomfortable, stressful, and usually anxiety filled situations so 你 have to get used to going against really bad and habits that keep 你 from reaching your potential.
Like I do this a lot and it always works but its extremely uncomfortable most of the time?
News: PEOPLE NEEDED TO BE RESCUED FROM THE DAMAGE MADE 由 THE RAIN. SOME ARE STUCK IN THEIR HOMES. BE CAREFUL. THE RAIN IS DOING THIS AND THAT. THE RAIN AND WIND IS REGULARLY BREAKING TREES AND KNOCKING POWER LINES. THIS IS THE FIRST AND WEAKEST OF THREE STORMS COMING. WE HIGHLY RECOMMEND STAYING INSIDE.
Impulse / DCI: *looks at weather* *is on the 日 of the 秒 strongest storm* .... huh. So yah guys, dress for rain. We still are having auditions and practices.
When 你 are upset and cant be happy, look for anything to spark a small bit of happiness 或者 wait till it naturally comes. And when that small little happiness comes, get happy that 你 found it, and when 你 get happy that 你 found it, be happier that 你 got happy that 你 found it.
Tbh thats how I usually pick myself up from bad moods and even sometimes depressive states. Do what 你 can until some spark comes up, then when it does LIGHT IT UP BABY.
I am sorry for all that has happened, as Zeppie 说 when replying to the wall, 你 are still welcomed on Fanpop, its a nice place to call 首页 and to stay so if 你 ever do plan to come back and recreate your account, feel free to call in and say "Hey I'm Kimchi..." no matter how awkward it is.
If its to late to say it, theres very much still open for 你 and I have not 迷失 hope that we can still be friends. I just have to say that it would be hard.
Have 你 ever wanted to go online and create a whole separate persona and identity of a person and pretend to be them instead of yourself at times simply cause being yourself can be kinda tiring at times and cos its so easy to do online?
God my lifes been finally taking an upward turn for the first time in a while. And Im not taking about those occasional upturns that feel like they will go back down in a few weeks, Im taking like the base level of goodness is drastically going up and its amazing.
Theres something really strange, satisfying, and captivating about editing Santa hats onto your 最喜爱的 characters XD
Also, as much as that Fushimi 图标 fit my mood a fair amount of the time lately, its really old, outdated, and probably not the best for cheering me up when Im online so lets have some cheery 圣诞节 ready Kano. XD
Trich has been bothering me so much lately, my nail biting is getting insanely excessive a bit to the point I doubt I can just say Im doing it to prevent plucking cos some of them are bit so low that they hurt, and I think Im starting to develop Dermatillomania...
Im doing a wonderful job managing Trich as I watch it evolve and spread to be the two other largest BFRBs.
Why is it that when someone asks "Hows it going" that "Good" is the automatic response? Cos I just responded that to someone then was going to go on the 墙 and say "Who wants to sing the song of the million things that are stressing Riku out?"
I just find it funny that I was about to do that XD
Ah... but despite everything in the material and physical realm of things being much worse than theyve been in the past, the mental and psychological state of me has actually been pretty good.
God Im so satisfied with joining DCI Impulse. Its expectations are so much higher than my school's marching band and there arent 20 trumpets (cos it sucks since we really barely get to play out and loud and all) and its just hlsdlsdkfjls.
Im happy :3
Also, one cannot imagine the difference of heavenly feel that it is to play a $1000+ trumpet over a $100 trumpet.
Me: *been down a lot lately* *has had a good afternoon to night yesterday* *has had a wonderful 日 so far* *50 分钟 before I normally sleep* Ah. Today is such a nice day. Im sure Ill be able to sleep well toni-
Event: HAHAHAHHAHAHA IMMA RUIN THE NIGH-
Me: *skillfully dodges it* Ha screw 你 its not going to be that easy to ruin my nigh-
Event 2: I AM HERE WITH BACK UP-
Me: *almost gets hit* Fuck off and let me have a good 日 sh.
Ive been having so many good 邪恶力量 dreams and its freaking amazing XD Last night we had some variation on the Neo-Nazi Necromancer episode plus a continue-on and tonight we had them... attending... my... school?
I apologize to everyone for that stupid 评论 and consequences I caused. It was not intended. I was stupid and I let my feelings overlap into my logic. It was stupid and I am an idiot.. I don't need to add losing 老友记 on 最佳, 返回页首 of stupid things I've done this year. I will not be talking about anything riku doesn't want on her club. It's times like this I truly wish I was robotic because every time I allow my feelings too much ground they always get the better of me.
Also, after I actually allow Blind to reply (actually Id prefer if it was on 收件箱 messaging so its not on my club) I might just ban talk of the election on my club cause this is so fucking annoying and I dont need it on my club.