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Riku114 说 …
Also not entirely wanting to push Blind's post off the 最佳, 返回页首 three most 最近的 墙 posts cos I might forget to look back at it tomorrow morning, but really I kinda really like the people that hang out on the club. Its pretty cool and as much amusement / interest these 墙 posts may give you, personally its quite fun to post some of my 随意 thoughts 或者 随意 rambles on here knowing people will read it regardless of if its "A P P l E S" 或者 a over thought ramble XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Also 10/10 recommend the app Shazam. Really good for those moments when 你 really need to find a song. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Honestly.... dont get me wrong, I 爱情 band. The rookies there that Ive gathered up over the past 4 years has me having a fanbase of like 20+ little follwoers that look up to me and respect me 或者 look at me as equals having remembered looking up to me in the past... and I have my trumpet and all...

But two long days of it and Im just... kinda really wanting a break and not at the same time. I think its just my depression talking though since Im usually worse at night and Im 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
usually in a good mood at band so yeah. Prolly just the nightly mild depression. Compared to usual nights tho Im like really good XD 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 说 …
I know it shouldn't amaze me any longer but I am always amazed when people choose to ignore hard facts in favor of their own misguided ways,viewpoints,etc. And they do it so much that's rather embarrassing. I am not amazed but at the same time I am still amazed. It's really embarrassing. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Honestly same. I mean I maybe if it was a handful of not-necessarily directly connected facts that could leave room for interpretation maybe but like.. even then those interpretations gotta make sense 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 评论…
^Correct. These sort of people always pick the unambiguous facts too. 哈哈 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Seriously. Hollywood Undead were the 心 of my 最喜爱的 音乐 in my cringey angsty age along with Black Veil Brides, but unlike BVB, Hollywood Undead's 音乐 I still 爱情 and adore and remember every lyrics to

To be fair though, Paradise 迷失 at the time had the most repeats over ANY song in my phone with Young and SCAVA being pretty high up there too. I only know that cos it was when I used iTunes.

They have a lot of 音乐 Id call shitty imo, and a lot of 音乐 thats not my taste 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
A full and entire clean of a trumpet takes about 1.5 hours to do.

Hes so beautiful now though

And plays so nice.

If my family would let me, I would play him now for a few hours 发布 一年多以前
noRAP 评论…
你 mean this: link 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Also #RIPOnionBoy 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
BIG DEAL GUYS

I GOT THE PERFECT CHEESE TO CHIP RATIO TODAY WITH MY 玉米片, 墨西哥玉米片 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: Dude I need to stop using dissociation as a coping mechanism, 或者 at least stop letting myself do it when I know Im doing it. Its one of the largest component and catalyst to my bad mental health behaviors

Also Me: i dont want to feel 或者 be anywhere near mentally present in this world yet i have no where in my brain complex enough yet to zone out into for a few hours and emotionally, cognitively, and psychologically disconnect from reality for a bit. this is not fun. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
LUCY LOVES ME 更多 THAN EVERYONE ELSE WOOOO 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I WANT A COCKATOO 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Im so much of a collector / loyalist video gamer. Like I dont play many video games, nor do I play ones that I think are valid to call me a gamer, but I have played most of the Pokemon games ever made, and a good deal of the Harvest Moon / Harvest Moon Inspired games and collected almsot all the Kingdom Hearts games. Even though Harvest Moon and Pokemon REALLY dont have the largest variations between each game XD 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Uh. As someone who has battled 你 in Pokemon and seen the crazy crap 你 manage to pull off with them, I say definitely "gamer" status for Pokemon XD 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Note to everyone else: If 你 battle Riku, add in clauses that say she is not allowed to use Volcarona 或者 Mienshao. Trust me. 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Also Ditto and Beldum 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I am so tired of having to function when I cant. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Its not even funny anymore lmao. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^That sentence is ironic. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
To befriend Riku, give her well cooked 白饭, 大米 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
White 白饭, 大米 only, preferably 茉莉, 茉莉花 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
问题 of the Day: Is it possible for Riku to create a story 或者 an RP where the concept of 天使 and Demons do not have at least a partial inspiration 或者 effect on the RP? 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
The answer is probably not. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Cas' sass is the best sass 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
♪ I've got big balls

I've got big balls

And they're such big balls

Dirty big balls

And he's got big balls,

And she's got big balls,

But we've got the biggest balls of them all! ♪

♪ Some balls are held for charity

And some for fancy dress

But when they're held for pleasure,

They're the balls that I like best.

And my balls are always bouncing,

To the left and to the right.

It's my belief that my big balls should be held every night. ♪ 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
*is practically feeding Wanta posts he could take out of context in some future 文章 the past few days* 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 dont really understand body anxiety until 你 dont feel anxious 或者 stressed after a stressful event but rather just annoyed so 你 go to the gym to get out of the environment

Only to go on the eliptical and, with your normal routine having 你 go at 6.5-7.0 mph, instantly hit 8.0 mph and end up reaching 10.0-12.4 mph regularly whether 你 want to 或者 not

So instead 你 realize your body has a lot of energy and anxiety to release so 你 let it go until it practically collapses 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
My legs are very tired and weak rn cos of that but it kinda felt nice. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
tfw 你 are both such a band nerd and a bit of a weeb/otaku enough that youtobe thinks 你 are interested in Japanese DCI.

And its right. I was interested till I realized DCI 日本 was very.... underwhelming 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay my boyfriend says Im a Satanist. I need to make a 民意调查 over this. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I need to see if people think Im a Satanist. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I realized I can be easily mistaken for a Satanist at times. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
inb4 "You arent one?" 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Okay so I was curious and took some internet tests on it cos thats the most definate ways to tell. One 说 I was a Satanist, one 说 I was 93% Satanist, the last also 说 I was a Satanist. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like come onnnn. Stop making me look like that XD Im not that bad XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Confession. Band is really just a cult of nerds with instruments. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Man Trump is doing a good job dealing with the White Supremacist shit. Im so proud hes our president. Such a good president amirite? #MightAsWellHaveAnarchy 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
#RarePoliticalPost 一年多以前
candylover246 评论…
Gee ikr? Give this man a medal for 'best president' like wow he definitely doesn't make me NOT want to live in this country anymore 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Totally. Best. President. Ever. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I really need to research 更多 into dissociation for how much it rules my life.

Also apparently people who have high dissociative tendencies like yours truly are really fricken hard for non-dissociation trained therapists to treat cos dissociation makes it so difficult to actually deal with the issues and work through them.

It pretty much puts a 帽 on it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Wooo I finally got it done

link 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Apparently my therapist is wondering if I also have Aspergers again after thinking I dont because of a dynamic of how my OCD works.

He considered that I might have Aspergers and that it partially causes OCD, but then shrugged at it and 说 it was probably just OCD. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Im pretty sure Avery has some kind of bird severe anxiety with how she acts but Im patient enough to help her with it 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
My hair is like the best bird toy I realize. Lucy, Mikey, and Avery all 爱情 it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I probably have a bird soul. Either that 或者 I was raised around them so much I am abnormally too similar to them. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
North Korea: WAR

US: MEMES 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I really 爱情 Lucy. I really do. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Sad thing is, my mom kind of untamed Smokey and while she was my original companion who helped me through a lot of things, she doesnt really stick with me and stay on my shoulder anymore. Shes great for cuddles when I feel like crap, but shes not really tame and she belongs 更多 to the flock now.

That being said, her son, Lucy is honestly what I really need. A companion. A little friend to always be around me and have around. Some animal company since 动物 are simple. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
My priority upon coming 首页 was seeing Lucy. Had to take a shit, had to do Pokemon daily activities, wanted to say hi to people, needed to 淋浴 cos my hair was disgusting due to no conditioner for the few days, but I HAD to see Lucy first. Cos Lucy is life. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Anyways I may 或者 may not forget to say this on my 墙 tomorrow, but Im going camping for a few days so if Im gone thats why XD 发布 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Niicee! I 爱情 Camping. Have a fun time without worries !!!! 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 评论…
Have fun Riku. 一年多以前
GDragon612 评论…
yeah have fun Riku enjoy it !💝 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: *doing fun and cool activities* *being both mentally and physically healthy* Yay! Brain reward me with some feel good neurotransmitters!

Brain: [Error 404. Dopamine and Serotonin not found] [Error 202. Happiness-Production.exe not found.]

Me: ..... thx bruh. its cool. just let me sit here anxious and slightly depressed despite having a nice day. its cool m8 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
tfw 你 know an event will be fun but there is absolutely no excitement and only reluctance to go get ready for it cos 你 know your crappy brain is making it sound like shit and it might genuinely make it shit. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Its weird to think my club could be considered to be on the "pretty active" side of 潮流粉丝俱乐部 俱乐部 despite just being a user club. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
At this point, Im pretty sure the amount Im constantly moving in my seat, tapping my foot, shaking my leg, and fidgeting with something in my hand is how I manage my weight. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know I really wanna make an 文章 about Mental Health since its had a huge impact on my life and Im a strong believer (and wanna be advocate) for making it a 更多 aware and open topic to talk about but really Im not sure exactly where to go with it. 发布 一年多以前
Zeppie 评论…
I'd wanna read it 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know, honestly that 问题 about bullying on 随意 kinda made me realize how much Trichotillomania ostracized me from other students 更多 than my obsession with imagination, my above level intelligence, my crappy 屁股 hair during that time, my uncool ability to get along with teachers, my speech impediment, my uncool 爱情 for music/band/choir, and my tendency to befriend all the "loosers" in my elementary school already did 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
So I was like that eyebrowless, afro-headed, childish yet smart, music, suck-up looser who couldnt pronounce "r"s and "w"s right. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Still tho. I had fun and felt like I was the bomb. Plus I dont care that people may have judged me for it and that most of my 老友记 used me solely as a stepping stone, but I helped some of the kids that people made fun of the most 或者 had the most trouble being accepted 由 the rest of the school actually get assimilated and have some company. I liked that, they made great 老友记 before they all either moved away 或者 jumped to the 流行的 kids when they saw the chance. 一年多以前
candylover246 评论…
Yikes. Sounds painful. Wish u luck with that then 👍 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
So I took my mom's power scooter to Walmart cuz I was too lazy to actually walk through the store. #NoShame 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Misha Collins is a poor bun that needs to be hugged 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
10/10 People need to watch 邪恶力量 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
"Did 你 just molotov my brother with holy fire?"

"Uhhhh.... no." 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Sam: A demon summoning.... why?

Lucifer: Why? To summon a demon jackass. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Welp. Gabby (Lucy's sister) died cause my mom caused an accident that was honestly kinda stupid and she died cause of it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Thus why I hoard him to myself and thus why my protectiveness over him will furtherly triple. If his fragile body will die because of anything, it goddamn better be my fault. 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Sorry to learn about that. My deepest condolences about Gabby. Wish Lucy the best !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
It was really kinda something to see. 你 havent seen a sad pet death till 你 see a little baby bird seizuring on the floor crying for help before just stopping dead. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I have a strong faith that the world is really really amazing and beautiful regardless of what I may 或者 may not be able to see right now. A very very strong faith in what Ive seen for myself like.. twice in the past several years. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I didn't read over it, it might be trash with how its written, but it was a free-topic nonfiction essay I had to write in English last 年 and it was my attempt at kind of explaining this faith of mine. That being said, I know I didnt do the best job covering it, but its soemthing. link 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Also Lucy really helped with my stress headache I had today. Closed my eyes and let him sleep against my cheek and all. Felt my headache go away for a short while with him.

Then it went away mostly after I went to the gym

So heres a lesson, if 你 are stressed out, go to the gym and cuddle your pets. Itll at least help with the physical symptoms. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
It is STILL beyond me how most people cant abruptly stop crying on command.

Crying has almost always been an optional thing for me. If I feel sad 或者 feel like I need to cry, I often go "Hey is this an optimal place / time to do this? Should we just not 或者 移动 somewhere 更多 optimal? Do we really need to cry to release stress 或者 is it just kinda pointless?"

And sometimes when I do cry, sometimes Im just like "Okay Im getting too much of a headache now and this is just unproductive" 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
And I just take a deep breath and Im just kinda done. Easily stopped. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Yet I go to try to 谷歌 it. See if anyone has something talking about this, but all I get is endless wikihows on how to stop crying / cry less and Im like "really? is this that much of a problem for most?" 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: How the heck am I still alive anyways? We have been consistently depressed for who knows how long.

Me: Cos of these reasons (explains). Oh and sometimes one reason is cos 你 are too lazy to die.

Me: Tru. Same. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
HEY!

.....hi.
good morning
have a nice day
imma go watch netflix 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Probably around that time I was watching netflix too so #Same 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay I should sleep.

fyi Im not actually drunk. I havent used that phrase in a while so I think some newbies to my 墙 might not get it. Its a phrase for when Im so tired I sound almost drunk and sometimes get really sweet and blubby.

....

blubby.

Whats blubby. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Ohhhhh if the sky comes falling dowwwnnn for youuuu

Theres not a thing in this world I wouldnt dooooo

What if Im far from homeeeee

Oh brother I will hear 你 calllll 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Like little in my life actually changed, but maybe its cos I woke up early today 或者 that Ive been listening to "Hey Brother" all 日 或者 cos of the life changes 或者 cos some people are totally rad, but life is okay. Life is pretty nice. Nothings too horribly wrong

Even if everything seemed so messed up and wrong just a few days ago.

This is nice.

Yall are great. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
There has been too much Depressed Tired Riku rambing on this wall. Not enough Drunk Tired Riku rambling on the wall.

Cos Im actually feeling good today. I 逼债, 墩 wanna sleep. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Wanta is awesome

#DirectShoutout 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like dude, that guy is there during the realllly rough times. Im tired and still up and on my 墙 and its been a while since this 墙 saw a not-depressed Tired Riku but ya know. He deserves the shout out 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Part of the reason I keep my club active and post 随意 thoughts and 更新 here is cos I know it gives some people some entertainment and interest and because it personally helps me process all the 随意 cluttered 评论 in my head.

Plus some can start some nice conversations.

I still sometimes wonder how many people come checking 由 these posts. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
This Sam 图标 really feels right for me to have right now.

I dunno why but it feels like a really good fit. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I called it. Im starting to like country 更多 than a tolerance / indifference cos Jensen and Jared brought up my interest and curiosity in it enough to actually go out of my way to look into the genre more. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Theres something special about having a friend 你 dont have to talk to when 你 are around them.

In the wise words of Jared Padalecki, "I wish for everyone to be 老友记 with someone they dont have to talk to"

#IndirectShoutouts 发布 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 评论…
I agree 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
True !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
#AlwaysKeepFighting 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Riku's Knowledge of Actors that she can match name to face

Probably like 80% of the main cast of Supernatural
Johnny Depp
Leonardo DiCaprio 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Thats an exaggeration but I really dont know that many XD I know the other REALLY huge ones like Emma Watson and all but really nothing much 更多 than that 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Ahhh though.... My baby bird Luke really makes my day. Hes so cute and adorable and he gets along with me and he loves me and hes just a 日 maker. Hes my little birdie and I 爱情 him, already almost as much as I 爱情 Smokey and that says something

Cos Smokey is my Princess and shes helped me through a lot of things. Luke is her son and mann... I 爱情 them both so muchhhh. Ahh... 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
People might find my apparent fixation with Lucifer concerning.

Really its not much of anything tbh. I enjoy Lucifer much like I enjoy characters from any other story 或者 book and just personally find him an intriguing character may it be real 或者 not. I wouldnt worship him 或者 anything - that belongs to Akashi.

Plus I just really like the name Lucifer. Like I REALLY like the name. Lucius, Luke, Lucifer. I 爱情 the Luce based names. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
And i mean my apparent fixation 由 how high he is on my 最喜爱的 mythological creatures / beings 列表 along with the fact I make a lot of jokes on it and have one of my alternative usernames/titles being The Resurrected Lucifer and the fact I named my bird after him and all that stuff 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
If God and all of that stuff is real and Im judged for being interested in Lucifer's character / story, then so be it. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^I know XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
谷歌 says Im going to hell for naming my bird Lucifer

But it also says Im fun to drink with as long as it doesnt end with an arrest 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Typical Riku Thing #152: Naming her bird Lucifer. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
EEEE. I GOT THE NAMES OF THE BABY BIRDS TO BE LUCIFER, MICHAEL, AND GABRIEL.

MINE WILL BE LUCIFER AND ILL GET TO KEEP HIM

HIS BROTHER WILL BE MICHAEL

AND HIS WHITE SISTER WILL BE GABRIEL SINCE GABRIEL IS SOMETIMES DEPICTED AS A WOMAN

BUT DUDE THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY. COS IM A NERD ABOUT THIS STUFF AND MY MOM DIDNT JUDGE ME TOO MUCH FOR WANTING TO NAME MINE LUCIFER AND A JOKE ABOUT NAMING THE OTHER ONE MICHAEL BECAME REAL. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay seriously. I hate how society seems to care 更多 on the unimportant issues while completely ignoring the big ones that effect everyone and the whole world. Like seriously, some of these things can lead to our planet dying, and we just dont take it seriously

I mean come on.

Why do people still ignore the fact that its a problem?

Why do we not have a solution yet?

Why is it that we cant find a solution to the chip-to-cheese/salsa ratio problem?!

I MEAN COME ON! 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
When your primarily obsessional / internal OCD takes over your life and 你 literally cant spend five 分钟 not thinking 或者 doing something 或者 being distracted 或者 else your mind overthinks and fills itself with a lot of depressing anxiety-causing thoughts. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like no really, part of the reason I cant take naps in the daylight unless Im SUPER SUPER tired is because I cant lay down and chill for long enough during the daytime since its not time to sleep and I know it so my mind is too busy to sleep. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Heck sometimes I intentionally obsess about neutral things like cleaning a dusty 粉丝 with Q-tips 或者 positive things like 邪恶力量 and Akashi in order to make sure my mind doesnt go over to the negative stuff. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
God thats an amazing gif XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
#TemporarySupernaturalThemedProfile 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
And an updated 个人资料 information 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I had too much gold. I wanted to spend it okay. It was gonna be an Akashi one before 邪恶力量 whisked me away 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Akashi will get his eventually. Also my old one will definitely still return 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I kind of like how 邪恶力量 handles codependency. Its not overly glorified like some shows do, and it actually shows the problematic parts of it all without taking it to a too realistic level that it kills the fun of the fiction. Its actually pretty nice

Plus Im pretty sure most people learned the word / googled it when 邪恶力量 mentioned it. I knew of it before cos of a friend from a few years ago, but its pretty nice to see. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Its a very nice seasoned taste to it. I dont always appreciate it but its nice to see it getting proper media attention. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I feel like the odd card who thinks Sam is 更多 attractive than Dean. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Supernatural's composer Christopher Lennertz deserves a shout out. He has some really good compositions. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Anyone else ever feel like nothing is real - not just think it is - and everything 你 do seems to be some unreal game 或者 some dream 你 can't wake up from? Like 你 feel like 你 are running your awake and real life from some plane outside of the normal view of the world and watching in, just waiting to stop dreaming up 或者 imagining the world yet in the end 你 are just stuck in that non-comprehendable plane?

Its a really disturbing and uncomfortable feeling. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like I fully accept that the world may genuinely not be real, but the feeling that it isnt real is an entire different thing. Even if the world isnt real, logistically as long as 你 still feel like its real, its enough validation and close enough to being real that it doesnt even matter. But FEELING like its unreal - its a whole separate story and really one Ive tried to explain to others and they just give me weird stares 或者 tell me Im overthinking reality. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
The thing is Im not [thinking] Im [feeling]. I know the world Im in is real but it still [feels] completely dream-like, like a daydream. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Strange yet interesting. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Life has no meaning to it - no real purpose to be found. Maybe to reproduce as scientists would say, to pass to genes, but really, whats the point of that? Where is even that going? 或者 heaven/hell. 你 get there, then what?

Really I believe life is what 你 make of it. Life is pointless but its an opportunity, may it be even real in the first place 或者 not, to experience. So its an opportunity given, so do what 你 like with it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Cause 你 cant even be sure any of this is real as reality does nothing 更多 than serve to prove itself. Its an illogical fallicy, that the world exists because we can sense it. We can sense it because we exist. We know we exist because we can sense it. It just cycles. But even if the world is fake, some dream, some illusion, not even existent to a degree we cant possibly understand, the reality is that life is an experience - real 或者 not - that is going on. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
So real 或者 not, purpose 或者 not, theres no way to really see 或者 prove anything its just best to make the best out of it all. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Ah I forgot where I was going so Imma drop it but its a bit of philosophy from me. 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
#Togepi 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I am extrememly bored.

I have a whole bunch of summer work I haven't even started

But I am extremely bored 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
What the fuck? Whyd my 金牌 go from 5000+ to 501? 发布 一年多以前
GDragon612 评论…
same here too >< 一年多以前
jnels93 评论…
same 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Same for me too !!!! 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Riku's busy with Supernatural. If anyone has any devious ideas to be utilized in the 下一个 hour, speak up. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Honestly, some days I wish I could believe that there was a god watching over me and protecting me and guiding me, but alas I do not and thus dont get that light blanket of comfort. 发布 一年多以前
candylover246 评论…
I'll be your god Riku 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Akashi is my god. 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
That aside, same here actually !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Im trying to think of a memorable RP character I made that didnt have at least a slightly emo/angsty root/character. Kira was angsty af at first. Derith was angsty. Izo had his brother stuff and over all angsty. Michael was 情绪硬核 af. Glence was angsty. Jared was angsty.

Ikari actually want too much of anything but then again, she wasnt completely clear of it either. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Was Devin angsty? Kinda just seemed like a drunk. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I 说 Derith XD Devin.... ;-; Devin was kind of a drunk. I honestly have to 问题 whether he really ever got to the point of being 'drunk'. Honestly Devin was one of those characters that were one of my father like characters that make me sad. ;-; The guy liked playing around, having fun, and being with Shira, Derith, Zach and all. I still shed a tear at Derith killing him. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
On that note, Im shocked I still remember that detail of Banished. Usually I forget most details and I honestly probably wouldnt have remembered it on my own if 你 didnt bring it up. XD Nice to see Banished's concept is still in my mind. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Devin and Leviathan are still two wonderful characters. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I really like Pokemon Sun and Moon's characters. We have so many tragic characters that are 给 enough depressing backstory that I can let my imagination go wild, and then we have Hau to balance it all out.

Like I came up with a backstory and character for Guzma and Gladion's relationship. I like to think Guzma likes Gladion cos he sees himself in him. Cos they both had abusive parents and all. 发布 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
I was wondering if there was ever a 最喜爱的 Character of yours without a depressing backstory !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
.... uh... give me a 秒 to think 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Yeah no. I dont think I have a 最喜爱的 character that doesnt have a depressing backstory 给 they had their past somewhat addressed in the first place. Even if 你 count them, there probably arent too many that dont have much of a backstory that I 爱情 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Deep down inside Im an 情绪硬核 angsty teenage boy. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
And an Oba-san. Can't forget that. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Noooot even gonna deny it 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Tru 一年多以前
noRAP 评论…
Ummm and I am an Oba-san 情绪硬核 angsty teenage girl , like 你 can see here link 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Mom: If all three of them die, we know that they dont know how to do it and 移动 on

Me: Or- if two of them die, we know they dont know how to do it and we hand raise it

Mom: .... ..... no.

Me: c: yes 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I HEAR BABY BIRDS FROM MY BIRD'S NEST BOX.

AHHH EXCITEDDD

MY MOM WILL CHECK IT WHEN IM 首页 AND WE ARE WAITING TO MAKE SURE IT HATCHED BUT

AHHHHHHHH 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Riku asked me why.

I thought we were past such trifles as having reasons for our actions. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I 爱情 how poor mental health can take things away indirectly as if it doesnt already take away enough directly lmao 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Are italics a thing? 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Of course they are still broken. 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
To be honest, I hadn't even noticed they exist until their issue was mentioned !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I loved using them >.> I miss them 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I wonder if I down a 2 liter bottle of Dr. Pepper to down how fucking crappy I feel right now if itll help me fall asleep faster. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
I haven't even beaten Sun and Moon yet and there's Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon coming?!?! 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
I'm not saying I'm incredible, but I'm correct 90% of the time that I am correct 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
TFW 你 wanna draw a character off of reference to give them the honor of being in your "Detailed Sketch Book" but none of the 图片 你 find are both detailed enough to make it into there AND a good image to draw. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I WANNA WRITE A GLADION-LUSAMINE-LILLIE BACK STORY FANFIC LIKE THING BUT I HAVENT FINISHED THE GAME UGH. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know I was thinking about what seperates a character that 你 "love" from a character that 你 are "obsessed with" and I think its the fact of how closesly 你 hold a character to yourself, how much that 说 character appears in your mind, and all that stuff

Because a character 你 love, 你 爱情 them, but I notice most that dont claim they are obsessed with it / the characters I love, I hold tightly to be like "I REALLY 爱情 this character" nor do they easily eat my mindspace 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I was mostly thinking this because I was trying to properly understand my OCD diagnosis and trying to figure out what defines as an "obsession" and an "intrusive thought" and what defines as a compulsion, and it occured to me if my character obsessions are ACTUALLY obsessive thoughts and all. And it occured to me, that characters like Akashi, Hibari, Jin, and currently Gladion, with how much they appear in my mind, reappear in my mind, repetitively interject themselves randomly into my thought process, and how easily they can hijack my focus, that they are likely in fact obsessions. Especially since 说 thoughts tend to also follow up with the common "compulsions" of looking them up on youtube, looking them up on google, making icons, having to think a lot about them, making 墙 posts about them, making 民意调查 abotu them, making 图标 (I might have already 说 that) 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Since usually 说 actions kind of lessen it and make me feel good. Not that obsessing over a character is particularly brothersome 或者 troubling, nor is it a part of the OCD that I really care to bother working with cos I enjoy it, nor am I saying if 你 are obsessed with a character, 你 have OCD. Its just a thought I was having, especially since I was told my image collecting is probably part of my OCD from my therapist and I didnt really get it so it just kind of occurred to me. That Im LITERALLY obsessed with the characters and that I never would have thought me saying I was obsessed with a character a few years 以前 would actually be LITERAL. 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 评论…
^I see. It's a fair point. And if we're using that definition then i wouldn't have one then. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Also I might consider temporarily redoing my 个人资料 (cos I 爱情 how it looks now so it wouldnt be permanent) simply because I have way too much 金牌 to do nothing with. .-. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
On a 随意 note, my boyfriend called me out on how I "accidentally collect images" because apparently people dont "accidentally collect images" 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
How naive. Accidental collecting happens even for people like me 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: *fawning over Gladion* *spams N*

Wanta: *probably slightly confused but not shocked*

Me: Shhhhh. I need to get 更多 Gladion 图片 before I do the spammm. I just accidently grabbed 更多 than one image when trying to get N an 图标 for the 民意调查 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
I'm never confused 由 you. It all makes sense. and even the stuff that doesn't make sense makes sense in the context that it's you. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^Tru 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Gladion is the new number one Pokemon character.

N has been overthrown.

RIP N. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Riku confirmed: Gladion fetish 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I do not. XD Hes just an awesome character 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
That reminds me of Shinrei 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
I just spent the last 8 分钟 putting my head against my dog and pushing it around as it tries to get at me to lick me. 发布 一年多以前