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Riku114 说 …
Honestly... I really need to work on figuring out how to pull the breaks on my life cause honestly... my personal physical and mental health are so low on my priority 列表 no matter how much I want to claim otherwise.

I wouldnt be working myself to constantly sleeping on buses, migraines, and complete exhaustion each morning and night for two 或者 three weeks straight if I took care of myself properly.

Cos yeah my work ethic is up there, Im on 最佳, 返回页首 of things, but man does it have a toll 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Cause seriously, I normally cant sleep around people 或者 in the 日 time but Ive been passing out in buses and cars. And yeah, I have an uncanny ability to fall asleep in moving vehicles but around bandos in the morning? Its really something. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
And Ive been on band trips three times (six times if 你 count hte round trip as two) and like... all but maybe one I was at least half asleep 一年多以前
rainy
Riku114 说 …
Ugh... Ive had a horrible migraine for the whole last quarter of the football game (it was a lighter one that I thought might just be a mild headache since the start of the game), the whole ride back, and now which probably makes about an 小时 and half of horrible migraine... 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Man every 日 is band during marching season I swear XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Should I add "Satan" to my 列表 of nicnkames? 或者 unofficially do so? 发布 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Honestly, I believe 你 should add it. I already got accustomed to it XD !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
#Satan 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I really do feel Im an ENTJ tho tbh. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
It feels the closest to mee 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
*me 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Honestly, with my band rambles, I can kind of see why people like me.

I have the egocentric-ism, intelligence, problem solving skills, and extroverted capabilities that make it so that I look like a confident, knowledgeable person who I guess can be admired and all

Yet I still have the flaws and realism of my depression, anxiety, and sadism

But even with that, its mostly controlled and ultimately all of that is set asside to be caring and protective a lot with my character. So... idk 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Im just kinda bored and trying to self analyze in the view of others 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
That's another reason. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^Tru 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Apparently one of my rookies had a dream where she was being bullied then I, out of the shadows and darkness, manifest and pour my wrath upon them causing them to fall dead to the ground.

Honestly, its not too far off from the truth. Shes probably one of the most, if not the most, precious rookie I have and Im insanely protective over them all so...

Did I mention she and the other rookies like to call me Satan? Its a long story Im willing to explain 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Cos like when I was in ninth grade, I was almost constantly an angsty, depressed shit among other things and I REALLY didnt like being annoyed 或者 bothered with at certain times so I developed this thing one of my trumpets called the "Soul Eating Glare". So from then on I became known for the bando that eats souls which I think, when combined with other traits of mine, got me jokingly calling myself Satan. And apparently I introduced myself to my first batch of rookies as "Satan" saying "Nice to meet you, Im Riku but 你 can call me Satan". So from then on, three of them just had me in their phone as Satan without me knowing until it came back around this 年 and literally 80% of them changed my contacts to some form of Satan and my newest batch of rookies all call me either Dad 或者 Satan 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Some of them even call me "Daddy Satan" 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
#SatanAgain !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
So my boyfriend has gotten to the point he can tell if I plucked pretty accurately even if the amount I plucked was minuscule in amount

Meaning
1) I have 更多 peer pressure to not pluck as I cant get away with it and he isnt harsh on me about it / rides my 屁股 about it / makes me uncomfortable - yay
2) I cant let myself pluck at times since I cant get away with it. Boo.
3) :feelsbadman: when I get caught 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
That being said, thats 总体, 整体 a good thing. Its just Trich makes it so eehhhh. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Since my current 图标 is no longer Kingsman for the sake of Halloween, I will revert my 个人资料 back to its neutral background. I may 或者 may not go back to it when the season has passed 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Why cant I be a zoologist vet medical communications 作者 economics business woman side youtuber?

My life is way too short to satiate my curiosity and craving for knowledge on topics that interest me. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Oh and dont forget 音乐 composer. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM WASTING PERFECTLY GOOD OPPORTUNITIES TO CHOOSE ONE OVER THE OTHER AND IM LIKE SHOOT MYSELF 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Oh and therapist was in the original 列表 of things so *a zoologist vet medical communications 作者 economics business woman therapist 音乐 composer side youtuber 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Come 加入 the 图标 Contest~!

link 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
How many times have I 说 "BRB" on a conversation and never returned to it cos I forgot?

I mean for some people in the past Ive done it intentionally cos I didnt feel like talking at the time

But like...

Is that the online equivalent to a dad saying hes going out to buy 牛奶 / some cigarettes and never coming back?

Is that what that is? 发布 一年多以前
Zeppie 评论…
If that's what it is then I'm a shitty father :v 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Yeah and then 你 find out that 你 father has created a whole family with some Spanish 婊子, 子 and he doesn't even remember 你 anymore. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^RIP 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
@Zeppie Same tho :v 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
I also hope Riku mentions some nouns over the 下一个 few days because I'm running out of stuff to recreate in Minecraft. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
XD 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
What if Riku woke up tomorrow and found that there was just a bunch of mindless ramblings of ME on her wall. Like...what if I'm just typing crap with my eyes closed and hoping it forms a coherent sentence that could be funny? 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
I think the reathon I didn't wathch Kingsthman The Thecret Thervice is because the 标题 thounded like thome kind of thocumenthary. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
XD 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
We need 更多 "Wacky races" style movies. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Brain matter makes your brain matter. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
HAPPY 爱情 YOUR HAIR DAY! (A Riku holiday if ever there was one) 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^True 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: Ugh I need a break Im so exhausted. I wish I didnt have band practice today so I could relax and save my energy...

Band: Practice today is canceled due to the fire. Percussion will still attend and stay inside.

Me: YAY! I GET A BREAK!

YAY LETS WORK ON SCHOLARSHIPS AND COLLEGE APPLICATIONS!

Me: GOOD IDEA! 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I seriously need to learn how to pull the breaks and R E l A X 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Honestly, Im not sure if my good and boosted mental stat after the 月 或者 two struggle to adjust from weekly good to monthly bad therapy sessions is because I stopped feeding the obsessive, overthinking OCD thoughts 或者 because I stopped prying at my dissociation and instead am letting myself pretend issues arent there.

Honestly its probably both. On one hand, Im not falsifying and creating issues off of obsessive concerns, but Im also ignoring genuine issues and not being being present 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Its really hard to say if I should request 更多 sessions 或者 not. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Ideally I would like to keep the infrequent sessions if I could have my old therapist back 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
That is something that needs to be discussed. Pretending that issues aren't there won't really help. Rather, they will be returning to the surface every time 你 let your guard down. I believe that 你 should speak your mind in every case. Especially if your own health is on the line !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^Yeah I know. Its just hard to differentiate if whats being lessened is the overthinking 或者 the actual issues being addressed. Ill probably discuss it was someone at some point tho 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
OH MY GOD!

THEY CALL THEM CARGO PANTS BECAUSE THEY CAN CARRY ALOT OF SHIT! 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
OH SHIT YOURE RIGHT 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
The Men of Yoshiwara: Kikuya isnt really the best otome game but its decent at the very least once 你 get used to the blatant flaws in it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Now that a raccoon walked into my house and I got to see one for the first time up close, raccoons just jumped up on my 列表 of 动物 I like.

They are so much cuter close up than in photos. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Tragedies are always wonderful 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Indeed they are. 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Being wonderful is always a tragedy !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^Howd 你 know what it woud be like 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I cut myself several time on the tongue and on the roof of my mouth with a REALLY sharp sucker. I mean it was hurting to suck on but like... XD It tasted so good. I just kinda assumed the damage wasnt that bad

Turns out now my tongue has like three spots where cold water kinda hurts to drink and the upper roof of my mouth has like three as well XD

Those things need warning labels on them. Its like I was eating a razor blade 或者 something XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Ive taken a liking to reviewing games on Steam for some reason 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Is it wrong that I kinda relate to Souh Tesla's mental health struggle? Cos that doods fucked up in the noggin

Im here just trying to figure out what his "sickness" is since thats what hte game is named after and its a big part of it that I imagine there might be a mental illness tied into it and what I have guessing so far is that they are illuding to schizophernia, dissociative identity disorder, 或者 OCD, albiet they would be making inaccurate depictions of any of them. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Obviously at least a bit of a psycho/sociopath though. But yeah. Between those three, those are the ones Im guessing, 更多 closely to the first and third guess tho. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
But yeah this visual novel is interesting XD I enjoy it. BTW its called "Sickness" and is on sale on Steam if yall are interested 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Estimated time until Zach and/or Rachel spam 由 Riku: 3 days 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
We will seee 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Drat my estimations were off. Damn 你 Sickness XD 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
天使 of Death! A VIDEO GAME ALL ABOUT....what happens when a person is unaware of what the term suicide 由 proxy means..... 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^XD XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I need to make my trumpet a 潮流粉丝俱乐部 account at some point. Just have it play around my club at times 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
最佳, 返回页首 5 People (not in an order) Im Thankful for Having in My Life
-My boyfriend
-Wantadog
-Zeppie
-My Trumpet
-My older sister 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I felt like calling them all out 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Seriously tho, life would be so lame and Id be so different if not for these five people. They make life amazing and great. Thank 你 all for being 你 :3 一年多以前
Zeppie 评论…
I'm thankful for having 你 in my life too c: 你 wonderful person you. <3 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
<3 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
It really still baffles me WHEN I became liked 由 so many people.

It feels like one moment the only person who liked me was Wanta, then I blinked and I have a club people go to a lot, a lot of online friends, practically a cult of followers in band, several people who have asked me out, and one of the most popular-not-popular people in my school where I can walk in the hallways at school and expect like two "Hello"s

Like...

When did it go from Wanta to this 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Also shout out to Wanta for being the OG and still lasting all this long. XD Ive had 老友记 before him but yeah. Thats counted in a different category 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Wantas been my pal for who knows how long at this point... 5 years? Are we going onto 6 I think? I think we are going onto 6 years now. For a short while I stopped using the term bestie cos I had a bit of a bad experience with it and it felt a little rude but really. That guy deserves "Bestie" title. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Tbh, it might not mean as much since I have a notably bad memory, especially of my younger years, but I really only have a few memories before Wanta was my friend. Its kinda weird thinking of a world where it didnt happen. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Sorry XD Im giving too much of a ramble of appreciation to the friendship. Still tho, hes great. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I WANT 更多 FORMAL WEAR DAMN IT

I WANT A MULTI-LAYERED SUIT TAILORED TO MY SIZE DAMMMN ITTTT

I WANT A TAIL 涂层, 外套 AND SHIT GUYS

I MEAN COME ON

IF I DIDNT HAVE BAND ZERO PERIOD TOMORROW ID GO IN ALL FORMAL WEAR 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay I seriously 爱情 this 图标 cos it is serious and stuff and when I type stuff like *dabs* it just makes me laugh my 屁股 off XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
It just contrasts with how I act on here so much its hilarious XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
YALL NEED TO KNOW ME FOR KINGSMAN TOO. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I MAY 或者 MAY NOT COLLECT EACH DVD OF IT WHEN IT COMES OUT 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
*Starts to associate Riku with Kingsman* 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
HAAAAAAAH! link 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I think its 安全 to say Kingsman series is probably my 最喜爱的 movie series 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Might make my 个人资料 themed it XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay so the count goes (ones I found easily on the channel)

English: HIchigo, Gin, Kyoraku (slightly), Ukitake, Staark

Japanese: Ulquiorra, Kenpatchi, Byakuya, Grimmjow (slightly), Urahara, Toshiro

Couldnt Decide: Mayuri, Soi fon 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Hollow Ichigo, Staark, and Ukitake REALLY appealed to me 更多 in English. So while they didnt get as many over on their side, they got 更多 firm ones XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Group projects are literally communism as it doesnt matter how good 或者 bad 你 do, everyone gets the same grade 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Note to self: Wanta has 不可思议的 pixel art abilities 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Little does everyone know that Wantadog is actually a 松鼠 with 300 Walmart receipts stuffed into his cars sunglasses compartment 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Tite Kubo is being added into the 列表 of people/celebrities that I find likable and fairly admirable. 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Fun fact:Tite Kubo is a 粉丝 of the "Saint Seiya" manga. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Ooh? 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Also the"Soul Society"arc does have many similarities to Saint Seiya's "12 Zodiac Temples"arc. 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
I'm not saying that Bleach copied Saint Seiya but the inspiration in that arc was really obvious. 一年多以前
sunny
TheLefteris24 说 …
Riku needs a new Character to get obsessed with. I'll be glad to assist !!!! 发布 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Yay! My first 墙 post in this Club 哈哈 !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
SHHHH IF THE GAME GOES ON A NICE SALE ILL GET IT BUT I CANT GET ADDICTED 或者 LOOK INTO THE CHARACTER UNTIL I GET THE GAME ;-; 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
It is understandable. Thought of keeping the hype fresh though with a small 预览 XD !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
XD Of course XD 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Important news bulletin: There are no 猫 in America 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Ya know one of these days I should get a lot of us together to do "Dont Starve Together" together.

For those that have it that is 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Sounds fun. I can go steal 更多 eggs from those terrifying ostrich things 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Dude sorry Ive been pretty inactive. Super busy week. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Also I seriously dont know how Im supposed to do college without Lucy... 由 no means do I trust him with my mom since shes made all of my most people-loving birds fairly wild....

But hes so precious and adores me. Makes me feel nice and loved. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Guys, I gave my boyfriend a 列表 of dere types and his judgement is I am a mix of Tsundere and Yandere. However with certain moods of mine I am also a hardcore Kuudere. But his two main ones for me were Tsundere and Yandere. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Pictures of birds make my day. Birds are just such derps that its amazing. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
The 10 年 old screamed at me that I hate my 狗 and are mean.

So out of spite, I bought the 狗 outfits and toys.

That'll teach her. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
People think its mainly the caffeine that causes soda addiction and all

Honestly, for me, its school that causes it. I usually follow 由 the rule "Dont drink soda too much if there are better options (juice for meals, water for desk). A few occasions are okay though 或者 if its needed to function / keep mood up."

However with school I often find myself so tired and exhausted that if I want to complete all my duties AND have a bit of a break to myself, I need some kind of boost 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
So I end up drinking a SHIT ton of soda cause I really kinda do over work myself. I can easily stray way from soda when my days are lax and not super draining but when its busy, I can drink like two 或者 three large sodas and a can in one 日 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Dont tell Riku I'm here, guys. Shhhhh 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Why does 爱情 in Bleach never turn out well? Yeah yeah, I get the ending - Ichihime and Renjiruki and all turn out 大炮, 加农炮 and happily ever after BUT THATS JUST BULLSHIT ENDING STUFF

Not to diss either ships 或者 anything, but I kinda believe they only turned out happily as they did cos it was the ending. Its a little out of tone with the anime. I mean the 日本漫画 makes it seem 更多 natural but every other form of 爱情 in ever other case in Bleach seems to end in tragedy 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like for example. Byakuya and Hisana. Isshin and Masaki. Ishida and every girl he had a crush on. 杜松子酒 and Rangiku. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like off the 最佳, 返回页首 of my head, Ichihime and Renjiruki are the only relationships/affections/feelings/crushes in Bleach that had a happy endy 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
Cuz movie characters never get to live. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I realize I really dont have a medium personality irl. It wasnt really apparent until I came back from summer this 年 but with my boyfriend Im all soft, nice, cute, super caring, peppy (in good moods at least), and huggy but when Im in a regular school environment 或者 at band I have an apathetic, sarcastic, low energy, leader-y, friendly but not over so, grown, and "I dont really care to help if Im not feeling for it" 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Some people who noticed small bits of it are always slightly shocked / weirded out for a 分钟 或者 two before shrugging it off. Cos like one time I was talking and 表演 how I normally do around people before I was like ":3 Ill do it for (insert boyfriends name)" in a very cute, peppy, 更多 child-like voice before abruptly returning back to my normal school voice and I had like a "o-O" look from the people i was talking to and a "Im going to puke" from one of them. Mentioned it to my boyfriend and hes like "Oh yeah its very VERY different but I dont mind." Cos quiet honestly hes used to my heavily differing facets I show. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like seriously - voice change and everything for that one moment I talked to myself outloud mid conversation. Like I have a 更多 deeper voice and usually a resting 婊子, 子 face when I speak and when Im around my boyfriend its usually a higher 更多 peppier voice and usually with a bit of a smile, regardless of if Im happy 或者 not 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Its just kind of weird tho. Mostly just kind of rambling her about something I noticed 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Its also interesting how I dont really seem to have such drastic splits in my personality online though. For the most part, the Riku 你 see is consistent and/or can really have the change in behaviorisms just be explained with mood Im in at the time yet me offline can act super different to different people and in different scenarios - 更多 so than I feel most naturally do. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
IRMA GIVE WANTAS ELECTRICITY AND INTERNET BACK. IM SO BORED 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Imma make a 最佳, 返回页首 10 Bleach Characters 列表 since I havent made a 最佳, 返回页首 10 文章 in a while and Bleach REALLY deserves one since Im its 婊子, 子 and there is no better time for it since Im re-reading Bleach

Actually the best time would be after I get to the Fake Karakura arc (cos I really didnt care much for hte Fullbring arc) in the 日本漫画 butttt ehhhh.

Ill write 更多 on each of these characters when I remember 更多 details on them when I get to it if I feel like it. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Its strange how 阅读 Bleach 日本漫画 feels so different from the 日本动漫 even though there has only really been one actual story difference and like maybe one medium detail added that Ichihime seems much 更多 prominent in the 日本漫画 than it was in the 日本动漫 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
FUCK. THAT FEELING WHEN 你 PLAY THROUGH THE GAME MAKING AS MANY 老友记 AS POSSIBLE AND 你 NEED TO DO A RUN WHERE 你 HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO 老友记 AND ONLY 9 FRIENDS.

I HAD 更多 THAN 9 老友记 FROM THE FIRST CHAPTER ;-;

I HAVE TO PLAY THROUGH ALL FOUR CHAPTERS AGAIN?! ;-; I will do it tho 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
YOSHI NANASHI WHY ARE 你 THE WAY 你 ARE

I got the good end but Yoshi Nanashi....

Relatable in an eerie way. I out to see the other endings and I may 或者 may not add him to the 列表 depending on if I get less of a kinda creepy connection. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
*goes from owning 0/74 Bleach 日本漫画 volumes to 21/74 volumes in one week* :3 发布 一年多以前
BlindBandit92 评论…
*thumbsup* 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Bleach is triggering me with how they are calling a cockatiel ad parakeet. 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 评论…
At least the Wiki correctly refers to it as a cockatiel XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Btw for those that didnt pick up on it, Ulquiorra radically jumped up my relatable characters 列表 to be up with Kano, Akashi, Aika, and Ryouko

Actually over time i think Ryouko has moved down XD

But its hard to rank them since they are all demonstrate seperate parts but like

1) Kano
2) Aika
3) Akashi
4) Ulquiorra
5) Ryouko

If I were to guess. If anyone is curious as to the elboratin / explanation for each I could give it a shot if 你 send me a message of interest on 潮流粉丝俱乐部 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Does 阅读 日本漫画 from an actual book help with sleeping like actually 阅读 a book apparently does? 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I think Im catching my school off guard with how on 最佳, 返回页首 of the college stuff I am.

Cause the person in charge of the college and career center at my school didnt have the 列表 of people to calculate what percent of the school I am until I got in cos she had to take five 分钟 out of our appointment to do that XD

And I just went to sign up for the scholarship program my school provides and i think its still glitchy XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Oh yeah, she was able to calculate that Im at least the 最佳, 返回页首 5% of a school of 293 students. So like... 最佳, 返回页首 15 students at least. Probably higher tho. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
.... I 发布 a 墙 post about how i had my first entire time 迷失 where I literally zoned out and 迷失 like five 分钟 of time where I apparenlty had a full conversation on minimum wage at the 晚餐 表 with my sister

But it didnt post so yall dont get 更多 details on that. It wasnt really exciting anyways 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Me: *probably the only senior in my class excitedly working on my applications and scholarships* 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
But really, quite honestly I like to / almost always need to be focused on something and this is pleasant for me. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Sometimes I gotta wonder if its really that odd to feel so pulled back from the world to the point I believe the world exists as real as people tell me it is only slightly 更多 than I believe that God is real.

Like... really? Not only does the existence of the world itself not have a logical evidence, but it just really doesnt feel its an actual encompassing thing - like Im actually there.

For me the world just feels like a really vivid dream 或者 elaborate VR. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I take the word of people that its real but... Quite honestly I almost always feel like this and almost always felt like it to my memory. People call it "dissociation" with how far taken back and separated my sense of reality and how rarely Im actually present, but it really blows my mind that there are people out there that dont continuously 问题 the validity and reality of the world 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like Im not in a bad mental state 或者 anything. Its just something I struggle to comprehend. I can comprehend the blind faith in God 更多 than I can comprehend how some people can feel the world is real so naturally. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
But yeah the acceptance that the world itself just may not exist / may not be real, that really everything could just be pointless and make shift, and all that is something Ive long since accepted and lived with, coming up with a lot of somewhat optimistic philosophies and 查看 like "Even if the world ISNT real, its the opportunity to experience that matters, so even if the experience isnt truly real, if there is no way to break out of the illusion, its best to take the false illusion and enjoy it as much as 你 can. Its an opportunity to see the world, experience, and live. False 或者 not, real 或者 not, nothing 或者 not, its not necessarily a chance youd get again" 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
ahhh. I have school tomorrow and I REALLY should sleep cause every 小时 less of sleep I get the stronger my anxiety and shit will probably be....

but like Ive been intentionally avoiding the thought of school using various tactics because it kept giving me anxiety for no reason and if I were to go to sleep, especially since Im not tired, Id actually have to deal with the thought of waking up for school tomorrow...

.-. I know school will be fine and all but it doesnt kill the feeling .-. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I hate anxietyyy 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Im half tempted to like... Draw Genocider Syo in my "Good Drawings Done Off Reference" just so my first three entries in it are all people that either have it well established 或者 technically have MPD XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I mean Hollow Ichigo is technical since it isnt as much a seperate personality as much as it kinda is a genuine other self but at the same time it kinda is? XD 一年多以前
TheLefteris24 评论…
Also, Junko Enoshima is another DR Character that would fit well in this aspect. I 爱情 these types too !!!! 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
@SilentForce Yeah 你 really should XD @TheLefteris24 I did draw her before realizing that I couldnt shade / detail well without color so I only did an outline for the most part XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Apparently from what Im hearing, Bleach has a lot of the staff wanting to animate the last bit of it, but they are missing permission from Shueisha and BORUTO 偷了 THEIR DIRECTOR :V :V :V

Nah tho. Ive waiting a while for it, just hearing its still in consideration and talked about makes me super happy that I could wait several years for it. Let Boruto have its fun 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Your constant talk about"Bleach"is reminding me that I really need to finish watching it XD.3 或者 4 years 以前 I watched the first 2 seasons and I liked them very much but I stalled the 日本动漫 and ever since then I haven't gotten around finishing it. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
你 should finish it XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
*is eating Fritos with nacho cheese using chopsticks so she can still use her PC w/out getting it dirty with chip oil* 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Ive used Chopsticks to eat some of the oddest things. Like Popcorn, Ribs, Fried Chicken, etc. I should eat a hamburger with them just to see how people react 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
It amazes me the level of ship wars that go on in fandoms XD I just checked 由 the Bleach club out of lels and saw a "Which is the worst bleach pairing ever" and of course IchiRuki and IchiHime were just below RYUKKEN X URYU

Like seriously XD They say that IchiRuki and IchiHime are WORSE than a HEAVILY creepy Father X Son relationship.

Quite honestly though, I dont really think any ship listed on there could be possibly worse than how creepy that is 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like even if 你 dislike the ship, that ship is just so horrible. 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Kinda hurts me to see a few people have such a dislike for Ulquihime 或者 Rangiku X Gin, but I kinda understand it since some people could say it is / would have been abusive in nature 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I mean the age difference is so large that Ryuuken could be Uryu's fathe- ... oh wait 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
How is / was Bleach such a big 日本动漫 yet there is so little really good fanart I can find of the characters I really like? 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Is it normal to feel overworked before even going into school? Cause Im in summer and Im exhausted and thinking about school is just kinda....

Like its not even that I dont want to go to school.

Its just doing 更多 than what I already am and doing it well sounds just.... kinda a scary demand.

Ill probably be fine, even if my first Saturday of school is welcomed with an ACT test. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I am Bleach's Bitch. Just for all of 你 to know. It controls me 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know its a problem when my mom can recognize the 日本动漫 Bleach within just a few 秒 of seeing the screen. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
This is a 个人资料 设计 I made one time when I was having trouble sleeping XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
So I got a new PC and the keyboard is just a little odd so itll take some getting used to. Sorry if I make a lot of typos XD 发布 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
Riku needs ALL of us to mention Bleach in as many conversations with her as we can. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Just a fun reminder that pretty much all my 最喜爱的 characters are dead

Not really just like 75-80% of them but yeah 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
Same 由 me. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know its the first time since like... 4th Grade that I ever felt liked enough and liked enough people in person to really actually want to have a birthday party. Every time between then and now has been forced pretty much. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Like seriously.... I used to find birthday parties annoying, pointless, stupid, a waste of time mostly cause I saw like... all my irl friendships as pointless and an entire waste of time since none of them actually are REAL 老友记 and none of them are actually going to be long term 老友记 and all so I didnt really want to even bother with that... but like.... I dunno. Maybe Im a little 更多 open to the idea of it and trying and all. Cause some people have really made it clear in the past week 或者 two that they really do adore me and really would miss me when I leave to college and all. There are just some people I wanna spend 更多 time with before I go to college and risk loosing contact and all. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
My PC did a stupid while I was seeing if I could 移动 my collections into another place and I 迷失 all my Amenisa: Memories 图片 I collected as well as a good portion of my "Band" folder, most notably including all of BTS' images

So yeah. My PC has barely any 防弹少年团 图片 now. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
A few years 以前 50 图片 would be an average batch size. Now a batch of 90 图片 is considered a small batch 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
A friendly reminder that Ulquiorra needs 爱情 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Okay so heres the thing. Im open about being an Ulquihime fan, but Im not going to say Ichihime doesnt have its validity. It effeminately does and its a fair ship to become cannon. Orihime clearly liked Ichigo, Ichigo seemed to have shown signs of liking Orihime. But the thing is I still see a lot of potential that could have happened in an AU of Ulquihime with how things were going and to a degree I also think it could have been valid 给 slightly different circumstances. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
But no really Bleach has a tendency of having relationships / 爱情 that doesnt work out and I fully believe that Ulquihime is a pretty unrequited type AND IT PISSES ME OFF ULQUIORRA DIES SO CLOSE TO ACTUALLY KINDA HAVING A NORMAL SENSE OF HAPPINE- //shot/ eherm. 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Reasons Why My Rookies Are Adorable:

Us: *texting*

Them: Will 你 be at the potluck tomorrow?

Me: Yep

Them: Yayayayyyaaaysyayayayaayya 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Dood. Did an abrupt impromptu Vice President speech for a band meet and greet in front of the entire Band Boosters (parents) and I think (and apparently other people were telling my mom that I did) I did really good XD

At least 20x better than I thought Id do

I guess Im not really bad at public speaking after all XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
UGH I STRONGLY SHIP ULQUIHIME THE 更多 I LOOK AT IT. THEM AND SARUMI MY GOD.

SARUMI ENDED KINDA OKAY

BUT ULQUIHIME. I GOTTA 冲床 THE GUY THAT KILLED ULQUIORRA OFF RIGHT WHEN- DSJFLKSDJF

WHYD I READ ULQUIORRAS UNMASKED CHAPTER?

POOR GUY 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Dood. I today realized that my duty as Vice President of Band translates usually to "The Presidents Dog / Back Up" but here actually translates to "The person who is the messenger and communicator in order to try to make it so the highest up officers and the lower down officers dont spend the 年 hating each other"

Cos pretty much I realized thats a duty that isnt and hasnt been filled at all and weve had consistent useless Vice Presidents soo... 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Bleach the anime, no matter how much I recognize the flaws and all, no matter how much I know its not the best 日本动漫 in the world, has the strongest control over me that makes it almost feel as if I do see it as the best 日本动漫 in the world and constantly just tugs me around to constantly drool over it.

Like why?

Like how? 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 ever wonder if "good always prevails" because "the winners write history"? So the winners always say are seen as good and because they won, good always seems to prevail? 发布 一年多以前
SilentForce 评论…
"Power is Justice.Those who are in power decide what is right and what is wrong"-Cancer Deathmask(Saint Seiya) 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
^ 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I wanna make a Fushimi background for my 个人资料 to save, but I promised Akashi one and itd be kinda wrong if I were to make a Fushimi one first. On that same coin though, my past TWO/ALL backgrounds have been red.... So Akashi's would probably make another red one and blue might be a good change of color scheme... 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Fact of the 日 with Riku: Saruhiko Fushimi is attractive and his voice is almost 更多 so, there is no denying it nor arguing it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uv1oGZCQKI

秒 Fact of the 日 with Riku: Fushimi isn't properly understood 由 90% of the fandom due to the lack of people 阅读 迷失 Small World

Third Fact of the 日 with Riku: Riku REALLY needs to find where she left off on that mange and find 说 translation on tumblr since its there but not on her 日本漫画 sites 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
你 know 你 dont use coins when 你 go to count only your quarters (cos your band is having a coin-based donation game and 你 have way too many coins in your wallet for your wallet to be efficient anymore) and 你 have $17 of quarters and $10 of dollar coins. I also put all my dimes and nickles in for donation too. Only $7.50 of quarters and none of my dollar coins since I kinda collect them XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
But really.... it just kinda amazes me how much Ive come to notice the millions of rookies I adopted each 年 actually really like me. Like I tend to adopt like 5-8 rookies each year, which, over the span of the 4 years Ive completed and this 年 I started, results in about 20-40 rookies Ive adopted ever.

And like... the ones this 年 are REALLY fond of me. Like I have rookies from other sections being like "I wanna be an honorary trumpet cause 你 guys are really fun and talkative. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
My section is all quiet" and within a week having some of them be like ";-; dont leave us 下一个 年 ;-;" and the ones from years prior too. Its like.... am I REALLY that much liked / enjoyed? 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
And then I kinda realized I have a similar, even though smaller thing like that, on 潮流粉丝俱乐部 and Im like :v :v How do so many people like me? 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Im going to shoot myself. I have an SAT tomorrow right after a week of super exhausting band when I already got a really nice score and shit. I already know my 下一个 score will be notably lower than the first one I did and bleh. Imma be forced to wake up early and take a several 小时 test just cause. 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
I probably just wont humor that 秒 SAT. I dont care if my parents dont think my score is good enough 或者 whatever. I have the highest score of most of the over achievers in my school without having tried and the only reason I was thinking of taking another SAT was if I could have time to study before hand and I didnt 一年多以前
ace2000 评论…
wow today I took my SAT for the 秒 time too 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Howd 你 do on your first one? 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Psychiatrist: So have 你 been abnormally tired since our last visit?

Me: Oh h e l l yeah.

Psychiatrist: And not because youve been staying up late and have been having to wake up early for band.

Me: Well I mean, yeah, but it was like that before hand :v 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
To be honest Ive been sleeping at somewhat regular times, 或者 at least trying to XD 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
Band camp makes me so thoroughly exhausted that Im barely making it through the 日 with enough energy to just sit at my computer cos Im only exhausted and not sleepy 或者 anything.

Like Im currently running on fumes and Block B which I went to solely because I know their 音乐 gives the fumes Im running on a little 更多 power.

Im probably just going to get through the last one of this week tomorrow on the idea that its the last one man (and the longest day) 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
My plan worked XD Make Junior 年 (last year) super hellish and make Senior 年 (this upcoming year) as easy as possible.

I have literally 4 non-band classes XD 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 评论…
Aka about 2 hours of non-band school a 日 XD 一年多以前
wantadog 说 …
A P P l E S 发布 一年多以前
Riku114 说 …
I 爱情 the minor key tbh. Major tends to sound happy and all, but I like the eerie, dark, and sad tone of a minor key.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmrhzGyW1Fo

Listen to that guy 或者 any other song on his channel thats dedicated to changing things into the minor key.

The minor key just kinda... soothes my soul. 发布 一年多以前